bare.

been thinking lately,
'bout those things i've done to you.
i think i'm going crazy and i'm sorry,
'bout the way i've been mistreating you.

just so you know,
that everytime i think of it,
i pinch myself 'cause i don't believe it's true,
that someone like you loves me too.

to think of all those nights i cry myself to sleep,
you really should know how much you mean to me

so baby,
this time i want you to know,
that i mean it when i say this.
that i want you to believe me now,
that i'll love you like tomorrow's the last day.

Beyond Expectations.

Hey, have you ever gotten the feeling of giving someone away?
Haha, I just did.

I know it's wrong to feel this way,
But I just do,
I don't know why.

The one thing that made you happy,
Made me feel like I was giving you away.
It hurts so badly,
But hey, it's the right way.

I just hope, you've appreciate what I've done for you,
And don't forget who I am to you.
Don't turn on me,
Cause' if you do, the pain'll be unbearable.

Stay mine,
Please do.
Be mine,
I want you.

I love you, from beyond reach.
Ben.

Random Update.

Update : I'm still in love with Amelia?
Yeah I am. Got a problem with that?
Contact me at [email protected]

Moon's no match

When I’m with you, I can kiss away the pain,

When you’re with me, All my misery’s put to an end.

Without you, There’s never gonna be any gain,

Without you, Nothing’s gonna be amend.

I’ll smile for an eternity ‘cause of you,

And just for you,

I would reach out to space to get a piece of Saturn for you,

And like the planet itself, sixty-one moon orbits ‘round you.

But there’d be one, like the moon they call Titan,

That’ll always be accolading you.

For you are non other,

Than the one that he loves best.

Like the stars, they need the night to live in,

As for me, you’re the only reason for me to breathe.

Now that you’re gone,

I can see pieces of me fading away.

This isn’t for one, but for many whom I care.

For my love, would be inevitable to see.

By Ben.

Rachel helped out. Haha...

I love you.

I want you back so dearly,
Though my heart tells me that I should persevere,
I can never find the courage to tell you that I love you,
For I fear you might leave me.

My mind is confused,
I don’t know what I want.
Except one thing,
That’s for you,
The best of everything for you.

To me,
You’re the next best thing,
To nothing.

I love you.
By,
Ben.

Over.

It’s over, our journey, ends tonight,
At least for her, our story ends tonight.
As for me, our flame of love burns eternally,
Never ending, never fading.
My sorrow fuels the fire,
Tomorrow duels the dire.

I wake up every morning to think of her,
She’s the reason why my heart beats.
With her presence and no more,It keeps me at bliss,
To be by her side,
Loving her without love in return,
Is what love in faith of mine shall be.

She may never know that I still love her,
For I whispered in her ears saying I gave up.
In the honest world,
Even a child would know for sure that I am lying,
An unborn baby would know that I still love her,
Love her till the deepest part of my heart.

From time to time she would hear my voices in disguise,
Telling her I love her.
For I fear if it is not kept secret,
She would avoid me.

God have mercy on me,
Open her eyes and show her the love I would fill her heart with.
Honesty, Loyalty and Unconditionally.

Over,

By Ben.

From Heaven to Hell. ( Our Love. )

From Heavenly fields to the burning region of Hell,

The past with you was blissful,
Like the feeling you get when you’re at ease,
Through good times and bad times I’d bare with you,
All I ask for is to be with you.

To bare with you till the end of time,
Now all that seems so far from reach,

I thought our love was strong,
So strong that no one can ever shatter it,
To no avail of what I’ve done for you,
Cause’ now it is proven that our love’s not as strong as I believed.

That person,
A friend not a foe,
A lass not a chap,
A best friend not a friend.

To me our love is shattered,
It’s become a million pieces,
Amid the million pieces,
There’s a piece that’s as big as a million.

If only there’s a way for me to tell you how much I love you,
How much I need you back,
How much I never want to share you,
How much I’m sorry if I leave you,
When I leave you when time comes,
When time comes that I cannot acknowledge the truth,
That you’ve divided your love for me.

Ben,
From Heaven to Hell.

Dreading for your love.

Since we’ve met,
You were always on my mind.
There isn’t once when you were not in thought.
Every night,I would think of you,
Sometimes crying thinking why didn’t I treat you better.

If I treated you better,
You’d still be mine.
I’ll still be in your embrace,
You’d still be in my arms.

Would you accept me,
If I said I would do anything.
‘Cause I would do anything for your love in return,
Anything from singing to you every night to calling you everyday.

Sometimes I wonder if you still love me,
Sometimes I wonder if I still love you.

All those time I loved you, I loved you with every inch of my heart,
Made me a whole the first time you told me you love me,

Everyday I would think of a way to make you happier,
Lies and deceit isn’t what I would do to you,
I would never hurt you so far as I would ever just be your friend,

An angel you are to me.

If I could do anything to make you love me more,
What would it be,
I’m willing to be your anything.

If you still love me,
Please oh please,
Tell me you do.

Just that and no more would make my day.

Dreading for your love,

By Ben.

"Cycle sexualist" on probation.

A man caught trying to have sex with his bicycle has been sentenced to three years on probation.

Robert Stewart, 51, admitted a sexually aggravated breach of the peace by conducting himself in a disorderly manner and simulating sex.

Sheriff Colin Miller also placed Stewart on the Sex Offenders Register for three years.

Mr Stewart was caught in the act with his bicycle by cleaners in his bedroom at the Aberley House Hostel in Ayr.

Gail Davidson, prosecuting, told Ayr Sheriff Court: "They knocked on the door several times and there was no reply.

"They used a master key to unlock the door and they then observed the accused wearing only a white t-shirt, naked from the waist down.
"The accused was holding the bike and moving his hips back and forth as if to simulate sex."

Both cleaners, who were "extremely shocked", told the hostel manager who called police.

Sheriff Colin Miller told Stewart: "In almost four decades in the law I thought I had come across every perversion known to mankind, but this is a new one on me. I have never heard of a 'cycle-sexualist'."

Stewart had denied the offence, claiming it was caused by a misunderstanding after he had too much to drink.

The bachelor had been living in the hostel since October 2006 after moving from his council house in Girvan.

He now lives in Ayr.