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i'm genuinely happy is a complete lie.

no one knows how much sadness i've been going through now.

I live in a house with 4 walls, and together with 3 other family members. and yet, I never feel like i ever had one. i seems to be merely treating my house like a hotel, and most of the time i am hanging around outside (and thats why out of door advertising is in demand!). i have no personal space.

the excruciating pain that i am currently experiencing could not be described, explained or empathised - unless you are totally in the same situation as me.

say i am not filial or what, I really wish to leave this place one day.

I just got Isetan's job offer but i rejected eventually.

i feel it was a pity really. given the fact that my future bosses are really friendly, good staff benefits and pay is good. but on the bad side, long retail hours, lotsa sai kang and job scope wise.. wasnt very ideal.

I must say the final interview was tough. imagine 3 big shots in the company interviewed you for good 50 minutes? and the most scary one was the biggest shot who scrutinised your body language and asked you really tough questions. and at that point in time, I was trying to impress them and making sure i speak to the point. I was damn nervous and trembled during the interrogation process.

I believe the competition was tough; I was competing with local university students with honours who have good grades for Os and As. versus me, I was just an ordinary degree holder with shitty A level grades and average O levels and being the youngest. Am i even on par with them? (I met the final candidates when I was in the holding room with them, 5 of us in total. heard that 1 didnt get in. but since I have declined, they probably will give it to that girl)

The next day, they immediately called (but that time i was having another interview) me and congratulated me. I was really shocked cos i thought i didnt expect to ace the interview. I was delighted at first, but when they asked me to sign the approval form, I hesitated.

I asked myself:

Do you mind working late hours? No, but i fear having NO LIFE
Is the pay good? Well absolutely.
Do you like their culture? In fact, yes. they seem friendly but judging the schedule given, I think I will defnitely lead a hectic work life. but in a japanese company again?
Do you like their job scope? No. oh well, okay la. however, it wasnt marketing related. more like management/operations & sales.

and ultimately the question is:
Money or passion is your priority?

for this question, i hesitated and kept me in a dilemma even until this morning when  i am supposed to send the rejection email.

money or passion?

I consulted many people- my ACP colleagues, my mother, my elder cousin, my boyfriend and younger cousin. the one that impacted my decision most is my elder cousin who has been in the marketing field for more than 10 years.

'bu hao zuo de la' said my cousin. She asked if i am hurry to look for a job, if i value money over what i want to do. ultimately, do i accept the given job scope? initially i was thinking of maybe work a while as a management trainee/department sales manager before asking for transfer to their sales promotions department which is ultimately my passion. my cousin said currently what I am doing makes it hard to relate back to marketing, unless i want to merchandising and operations- which is not my intention. true. i always wanted to work in the fashion line. but marketing fashion. not procurement or any other else.

firmly sticking to the dream of searching my ideal marketing job, i decided to decline the offer and wait for better opportunities.

who knows?

some things are no longer worth recording and remembering. What is most important are the things that placed in front of you- the future that lies ahead of you.

Tell you a little secret; I used to record whatever secrets and unspeakable problems I had and I would record it in my little diary. as time passed, I would take it out and read again, just purely out of curiosity, really, and not to recall the past. this habit has started since I was primary 4, when I had little puppy love and crushes on my classmates (oops). since then i continued this secrets recording, but did it inconsistently.

recently i took it out once more and read it again, since i have nothing to do. those memories (happy/sad/frightening/angry) triggered screens of pictures running through my head. At that moment, I wished to revive those joyful memories and wanting to delete those nasty thoughts away.

Keep a diary has a its pros and cons. since its so personal to me, my diary means a lot to me. most of the content are all written about what is important to me- studies, work, friends, achievements and my loved ones. the advantage is that it helps you recall those delightful moments and relieve your stress and frustration. but at the same time, those bad encounters still linger in your mind. you wished to forget it and yet you couldnt. furthermore, you mentioned those backstabbers and awful people, and all those plastic actions they did to you. dont you think the latter should be forgotten?

surprisingly, I kept those diaries throughout the years(p.s i still have my pri4 diary).

however when i get busy, i stopped writing. but anyways, as i get older, i have lesser stuffs to input into my diary. I believe as one get matures, one will be able to handle and see situations in a different light. however, those awful situations would hardly be erased from my mind. instead, those setbacks taught me a lesson and reminded me not to make those mistakes anymore.

the diary shows me how much i have changed, what i have learnt, who has/have rotated my life in 360 degrees, why i behaved this way today and when were my turning points.

maybe i will continue to write to my diary, but not flip back those pages. no doubt good memories may be forgotten, but neither do i wish to remember those bad memories.


may my life be better from today onwards.

I've just returned from Bangkok and yep, I bought lotsa clothes!

But coming bac to Singapore means getting back to reality- the first thing that came to my mind was; finding a job. its no longer about mugging hard for tests, studying diligently for exams or getting headaches and frustrations over projects. Its about getting a good first job, with an acceptable salary and then plan for your future. how scary is that. entering the workforce in a few months' time?

However, right now i just gonna plan some short term goals before thinking hard for my future goals. While on the go looking for the right job, I perhaps will upgrade myself by learning new things or picking up interests. Maybe i will get a part time job to sustain myself until i get a full time job. then pick up a new sport and continue to exercise regularly. Catch up with my old pals and maintain contact with my current uni mates. reviving my current blog and improve it with new perspectives. upload my bkk trip photos. spend more time with my loved ones to compensate the time when i was taking my papers. pack my table and room. bake and learn to cook! choir? volunteer work? travel more?

what is most dramatic is still the transition from being a student to unemployed to a full time employee. i know i can no longer take everything for granted or have holidays like a typical student. Suddenly, a great sense of responsibility just pile on my shoulders. the new world seems so mysterious, and unpredictable. It creates a cloud of fear and confusion, which slows down your pace as you are constantly hesitating on the choices you made for each path. with no sense of direction and good roadmap drawn out, it is really hard to determine your first step.

woohoooo!

I'm on the news :D


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Job search: Are good looks important?

well, ABSOLUTELY.

especially for a marketing job, it is VERY VERY important.

let review this topic slowly.


well, typically, first impression counts. Send in a CV with an ugly photo, or a 'wrong' photo. Guess what, you are automatically disqualified for the first round. So what if you have masters or PhD in marketing? if you present yourself wrongly, then chances are you will not be considered.

i've talked to my cousin who has more than 10 years of experience in the marketing field; she told me that when her boss was looking for a potential employee, looks matter, especially at the front line of the event. imagine the client which is a luxury brand, say Cartier, needs marketing personnel to be around during the course of event. You need to match the team's dress code, etiquette and even the way they communicate to the guests. thats the concept of branding- you need to match the rights things to portray the image.

same goes for bazaar magazine. my supervisor will ask us to wear black dress, because its the easiest to match for any events, and BLACK will never go wrong. Heels must be worn(but seriously i hate wearing heels) especially for the receptionists. Make-up must be put on, because you are at the forefront.

During an interview, first impression counts. A pleasant looking person is good enough to score, complementing with the right dress code that is suitable for the industry. then the way you speak to the interviewer, body language and the amount of conviction you portray becomes the next critical factor. well in fact, if you are pretty good looking, companies will most likely place you to do PR, because you have the look! see, handsome and pretty individuals have the edge!

then those below-average looking leh? back office loh. well, not say they will consistently be in the office. they might have lesser chance to interact during the event, unless they are the boss themselves. of course that would be a different story right?

based on the above analogy, i feel that grooming and dressing play an important role to score. or rather PACKAGING is THE number 1 concern.

clothes determine who you are, your personality as well as your attitude.

grooming shows how tidy you are, and how concerned you are with yourself.

A substantial amount is necessary to make such investment and display a positive glow to your prospective employer.

okay i will sleep after i have blogged this post.

I had a choir practice this morning for christmas carols. I was late so i took a cab. okay, here goes my money :(.

while singing those carols with my juniors, i felt no sense of warmth.

no no i mean the warmth of singing together in a group, not 'gaining' warmth after caroling.

I cant feel a sense of belonging to the group, after been in there for almost a year. Maybe i have shifted my priorities along the way?

my alumni group is dominated by the juniors, and teachers go to the juniors instead of the seniors, because the juniors know the current teacher in charge and the conductor. i am absolutely fine with the juniors getting the responsibilities, and i am glad that they are assuming the role. it makes me more free anyways.

but i feel that the 'feeling' wasnt not there. all along there are some who have been making the decisions without much consent from others, let alone the seniors.

today i voiced out my thoughts, and everyone looked shocked. okay maybe i am too frank and straightforward with what i said. kangde said i sounded too business like, whatever la. its always the choir people that said that i speak like a business major.

there isnt any structure or system, which makes us so diversified, that we do not know where are the boundaries.



whatever it is, the system that the junior is applying WILL NOT WORK.