Being a Stepmom

I don't really use this blog anymore. Facebook is just easier! But, Kelly's Korner is doing a link-up for stepmoms today, and I thought it might be good for me to share a little of my story in hopes of getting much needed support. I can't think of any friends that I have that are even divorced, much less a stepmom. I grew up in an extremely conservative church and marrying someone with children has caused somewhat of a rift, even though biblically he had every right to leave his marriage.

I have no idea what I'm doing right now. In all honesty, I have never felt further from the Lord. I will not pretend that I'm living the dream right now, people. I had absolutely NO idea that this would be so hard when I married in 2006. Then the kids were 9 and 5 and it seemed so easy. They were crazy about me and I about them. Some resentment, some jealousy: it all seemed so manageable. Now they are 15 and 11, and we have added two of our own. My husband is the primary residential parent, and the kids are at our home for some time every day. My husband is a fireman which has left me with a lot of responsibility. Even on those days their mom doesn't pick them up until around 6.

I know teenage years are hard. I was difficult as a teenager. I have never felt more alienated from my step-daughter. My stepson has developed all sorts of problems: a learning disability, ADD, ODD, mood disorder/anxiety. I can't even go into all the issues because it is 100% overwhelming.

I post because I am overwhelmed and I honestly don't know how much longer I can do this. Please comment if you feel you can help me! I really appreciate it!

Easter Pics

Emily's 2nd bday

We had a party at our house. Lots of friends and family came, and Emily had a great time. The biggest hit was that we rented a snow cone and cotton candy machine with the waterslide, and it was so much fun for the kids. Plus, it kept them outside instead of tracking grass and water in and out of the house, which is never fun to clean up! Enjoy the pics!

Bday pics coming - check this out!

I promise (mom) that I am going to try to update the site with the bday pics, but the pictures I had made of the kids turned out so beautiful! I am crying just looking at them - it is so funny how pictures turn out so great but the session (for me, anyway) is always so stressful!!! Julie truly did an awesome job! She is a former neighbor whose business has truly been blessed - and God has blessed her with a gift! I cannot believe that she caught such precious moments in the midst of mosquitos biting, kids crying, all of us sweating, gary and me arguing, emily falling... believe me, i always say "i'm not doing this again." At least not for a year, anyway. Anyway, check them out at www.117photography.com. Click "view website", then click slideshows. The password is bhunt (all lowercase)! Let me know your faves...