About me
Welcome to my journey to motherhood! I’m 30 years old, with Stage IV endometriosis and adenomyosis, and newly diagnosed with celiac disease (Jun ’10). I had three surgeries in 2 years (’07-’09), the last one at the CEC in Atlanta. I lost my right ovary and tube in my second surgery, and 20% of my left ovary in the third surgery. I’m currently TTC with my wonderful hubby. We’ve been married for over 7 years, and have been actively trying for over 5 of those years. Unfortunately, endo has gotten in the way. Between months and months of debilitating pain (sex? no thanks!), the surgeries and recovery times, and my extremely stressful job (that I finally quite in Feb ’10), pregnancy hasn’t happened for us. Some days I deal really well, other days I camp on the couch and cry, and read blogs…lots of them. After just that kind of day, I decided to start my own blog. Why not? It’s gotta be good to get these emotions out, right? Other than my husband and my older sister who also struggled with fertility issues, no one else really understands what we’re going through. It can be pretty lonely. But I’m going to be a mom. It’s what I want more than anything in the world.
***UPDATE (November 2010)***
We have decided to start our journey to adoption!
***UPDATE (December 2010)***
We are completely shocked by an adoption opportunity that falls into our lap. Our son/daughter is due April 15th!!!
***UPDATE (April 2011)***
Our son is born April 23rd! We bring him home 6 days later, and the surrender is signed a couple days later. We are now a family of three!
A child to call me mama 
I am looking for an email address, and actually don’t have the patience to hunt for it anymore! 😉 hahahaha Hence the gift of my IF! 🙂
Nourishing Traditions is what really helped me when I had endo. Watch out after endo, I eat whatever I want, because finally, I can. Isn’t that horrible. Pizza, OMG, I love pizza and I can finally eat it with out crapping my pants and looking 3 months pregnant! 😉 hahaha So we eat it often. Yes, it’s that bad. :)I eat better in the summer then I do in the winter! Give me farmer’s market veggies and I can eat for days! 😉
Now that my hormones are finally, hopefully, worked out, I feel great. I had Stage IV and a double bowel resection. Let’s say the bowel resection wasn’t fun and it is still not right down there in that area. But I feel great. I neve knew life 1. wasn’t supposed to be that painful, 2. I can eat like a normal person 3. Am hormonally stable. I don’t think I have been this hormonally stable since easily 16 years old! 🙂
I grew up in AA County! Ha! That is so funny! I now live in the South, ugg…Hard adjustment from being from up there! 😉
When I have time I am going to read through your blog! 😉 I love CEC! I hope you are done having surgeries? Was your endo coming back or was it not properly taken out the first time? I would be very interested to hear what Dr. S. said about that.
Do you sometimes have pinches or twitches? I don’t think my endo is back, but sometimes I have some questioning “pain” if that’s what you want to call it….It’s hard to pay attention to it, since it isn’t bothersome as before… Just wondering…
I’am 6 months post surgery. 🙂
just came across your blog. the name of your blog is so sad – it just hit me like a brick. i suppose it’s only something that another infertile woman can relate to. i really really hope that both you and i will have babies that call us mama some day.
I have stage IV endometriosis as well. You put such a clear voice on what it’s like to struggle through infertility. Thank you for sharing your journey.
Hi! I just stumbled across your blog, I’m newly wed (Oct 2, 2010) and my husband and I are beginning the journey to conceive as well. I’m going to bookmark your blog! 🙂
I just stumbled across your blog today. I am new at blogging and I too have suffered from endo and now with forced infertility and have turned to blogging out my battle. I just wanted to say a quick G’day and to say that I have enjoyed reading your blog (and will continue to do so) and that I will say a little prayer for you. All the way from Down Under.
I wanted to see if you would mind answering a few questions i have on adoption… my husband and I are preparing to start our journey 🙂 thank you.
Absolutely! You can email me if you prefer – russkysfm at yahoo dot com.
Just found your blog from Lara’s blog. Im not sure if you were on IV but I was for several years before dh and I decided to adopt. We started our process in Nov 2009 and our little man was born May 2010 (so pretty quick like yours). It has been an amazing journey and I love to find others who are on this path too! 🙂 Being a mommy is the one thing I have always wanted to be and adoption made that possible for me too! It’s by far worth every heartache and pain that I went through while ttc. Can’t wait to follow along and feel free to check out my blog. If you wanted to read more of our journey email me! I have our adoption on a private blog and my public one is all about our little man and sometimes about our open adoption. CONGRATS on your sweet little one who is about to make your dreams come true!
I don’t know how, but I am now stuck on my couch reading your blogs. My husband and I are too having fertility problems, he opened up the idea of adoption and I started my first blog recently. Reading how soon you received a child after starting the process gives me that much more hope that I could be a mother soon. Thanks for this and I look forward to reading more! :
Thanks for reading and commenting Vee! Good luck to you with your adoption plans – I hope your dreams of motherhood are fulfilled soon!
Thank you so much for sharing some of your experience with adoptive breastfeeding. I think your blog is an incredible account of your experience from so many wonderful angles. I have nominated you for the One Lovely Blog Award: http://theyellowblanket.wordpress.com/2012/09/05/one-lovely-blog-award/