Getting through today

Not sure how I’m going to do it. It’s only 9am, and results could come anytime before 5pm I guess. So that’s 8 more hours. I thought I wouldn’t answer the phone and let it go to voicemail, but I’m not sure I could sit here knowing that the results were available. I just hope I have the strength to hear them. I’m trying to stay positive by reading stories of good outcomes with super high NT results, but it’s so hard. I have also been reading stories of poor prognoses to prepare myself. But I’m not sure if anything can really prepare me. I just hope to hell that the call comes today and not Monday. I have slept like shit the last 10 days and I don’t know how I’ll get through the weekend without some answers