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Coming to an end in 2017.

It's almost 2 years now and my personal blog is still here. Speaking of work, I am now officially UNEMPLOYED for nearly 3 months (2.5 months) and it is definitely as STRESSFUL as being in a job. Well, it's not that not working hasn't got its perks but when there is no INCOME, you feel insecure and dreadful because you cannot spend money on the things that you WANT but only do so for those you NEED such as food (economy rice or just bread for 2 meals and depend on the husband to sponsor you dinners), travel ( stay at home more so I can reduce topping up my Ezlink card) and that's it! And there's this monthly insurance payment and tax payment going on, it's just crazy stressful.  Looking for a job that I feel I can grow in, and to enjoy is just so time consuming. It's difficult.  Plus, a total career change would be even harder to go into without prior experience and nobody wants to hire you either you don't qualify or you over-qualify for the position...
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Rants

It's been a heck of a journey into our new home,,, Have been staying at AMK since April this year and the Home Improvement Programme (HIP) is commencing soon next week for 10 working days! Too much stress lately..the home, work, work tainings, work, wedding, and passports and travel plans.. Have yet to plan on my travel to Europe next May. What more..also yet to finalise the details on my ceremonial wedding in KL and Ipoh.. I just wished I could turn toddler again..just cry and laugh and worry free.. I know I'm not alone but this is what is expected of you when you're turning 30 More stresses to come..still direction-less in career. How do you find a path where you do not have to dread thinking about work?  Sigh.  HIP- no toilet for 10 days Sigh. And the HAZE? what? smells dreadful everyday Hoping for the best to come out of everything..wish the wave of total madness will soon end.. xoxo carly
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Still the same?

Tomorrow is my 29th birthday. And I am married on the 22 Dec 14 to my forever loving husband. :) Excited with our new home and definitely something to look forward to! Yet, part of me feels something is still missing. I'm always yearning to travel. Doing the same thing week after week just sucked the life out of me.  I can't deny I am grateful for all the things I have. No doubt about that.  But I am still searching... Well, my current travels so far have been awesome. These are the places I have covered up till 29 years of my life. 1) Krabi, Bangkok, Khon Kaen ( Thailand) 2) Ipoh ( my third hometown), Malacca, Langkawi ( Kedah), Penang, JB, Cameron Highlands, Kuantan (Pahang), most parts of Malaysia except Sabah, Sarawak, Terengganu, Kelantan and Perlis 3) Bali, Jakarta, Batam ( Indonesia) 4) Shenzhen ( China) 5) Hong Kong 6) Hanoi and Halong Bay ( Vietnam) 7) Seoul and Jeju ( South Korea) Well, they are all Asian countries. Next up my list ( to go) would...
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Uneasy as always. Feeling lost like a huge void in me Sometimes, after so many years, I still wonder what the heck am I doing here in Singapore. Life is monotonous..nowhere noone to confide in..no friends no companion (female) that I can truly talk to Maybe it is destined that way.. I'm still hating myself as always Life sucks Wish I have my piano now  Head wana burst No direction in life..when I see everyone else living their dreams or even driving towards a goal be it more wealth or more health or whatever it is...I feel like I'm lost in time..not moving, static, hopeless Mad Mad me
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Updates 2014

Feeling uneasy   Feeling old Trapped in a work cycle Only thing to look forward to is travel - Next destination: South Korea. Super anxious being assigned a presentation task - will probably affect me for a couple of weeks Stressed!
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I'm back!

I'm back! Have been exploring ways to fill in the mundane life in Singapore. Well, at least I found some ways. Ever since my wf given me a Kindle it has been great able to read anytime, anywhere... And after staying at Bishan for more than a year, I finally managed to pull myself to swim! Looking forward to swim once weekly. Jogging is hassle free but the knees are ailing. Swimming helps in more ways. Less pain, more refreshed, no sweat, and the best part is you're exercising the whole body without much effort! Met up with Vanessa, Yheng Mun, Carrie and Sharene lately..been quite a while..but it was good catch up. I need to meet up with more old time friends..see how they're doing and all..I miss the old days..Hopefully I can make it to Ban Fang's wedding as I have not seen her since like Form 5?! I do cooking at home, simple dishes too..but if only I have an oven..I hope to learn to bake instead. Anyways, apart from work ( which I currently wana take my...
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Abandoned and alive

Realised I have been away for a long time There is this urge to express once again Feeling inwardly awkward still, I could not figure out what is truly going on. Worse of all, it started off right at the start of the new year (2013). THE vivid dreams came back.. Frightening ones, Yes Adventurous and risky ones, Yes Weird and dramatic ones, Yes Normal that I could not remember most of them but when I could, it stays. Some repetition or modification, some say improvisation into the one dream which re-plays itself the other nights or comes back after a week or two. This particular one I remember is probably an effect after watching 'Life of Pi' The ocean became terribly scary yet beautiful at the same time. I had fishes ( including predator fishes from the ocean) coming from a tiny tunnel connected to my house, into my living room. My entire two-storey house is fixated right in the middle of the ocean.  When I eventually pump out the water ( using an ordinary pu...
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