Saturday, 29 December 2012
4:49 pm: From as long as I could remember
For as long as I'd remember, I often blogged when I had something interesting to share or when I just feel like saying something. Those were the days where I felt so carefree, I just spoke off my mind. In contrast to the present, where a second thought is given to every statement before it was said. I really salute the people who can still, blog their thoughts freely online, without the fear of what people might think of them, of how people's impression of them might change after reading what he/she has posted. The thought of wanting to share about my life and letting people know what I've been up once again has brought me back here, once again. Well, I can't say for sure how long/often I would still upload a post, but honestly speaking its really something I enjoyed doing back in secondary school.Well, ever since entering Ngee Ann, a whole new world of possibilities emerged. I met all kinds of people from all walks of life, dealt with a whole new array of situations that I'd never think I would have encountered back at Barker. Well, I must say this changed me quite a bit. From the way I view things to relationships, friendships, character, views of life etc. Sometimes I really wonder how different would it be if I could just bring all of that, and relive life in secondary school.
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Tuesday, 12 June 2012
12:10 am: Past the passage of time
// Wee back to blogging for at least, today?Indeed life is full of milestones. It really seems like I've passed one hurdle in life everytime I blog here. It gives you a rough gauge of how often I come here right.
Time literally flies. The last time I was here was like... I don't even know. It's June, 2012. Now. Still remember how different my life was back then in secondary school. Ever since stepping into Ngee Ann, I've grown so much, seen so much, experienced so much. It was really a whole new world out there. Basically to summarize, I had a great year one in Ngee Ann; meeting new friends, going for camps, had fun, saw the ugly side of people out there I don't see in Barker (people in Barker are direct w no hidden agenda, mostly), learnt how to keep expectations from people low, fell in love etc. Lived life like a typical poly kid.
Unknowingly, a quarter of Year 2 in Ngee Ann has passed just like that; a gush of rushing wind. Can't wait to graduate sometimes. Well, so far, my GPA ain't good enough for uni admission yet.. From 2.7 to 3.06 in 2 semesters. Really gotta slog hard for this year.
Now comes a 2 week break from all the regular routine of waking up early, facing datelines and stuff. Really a lot to think about and reflect upon. \\
P.s. Still love this place despite not posting here after so long. I feel more safe to speak my thoughts here than on twitter, honestly! Hope to be back soon :)
Monday, 2 January 2012
11:23 pm: And it goes on, isn't it?
Not ready for school tomorrow. It's like some nightmare, with tutorials pilling up and exams drawing near, sometimes I feel so depleted, well even DURING holidays. Depleted emotionally and physically and spiritually and in every single possible way you could probably think of. I mean like thinking back let's say for the past 3 years, so much has changed and I'm sort of not used to these changes and I'm really uncomfortable with them. Period. Well, actually yeah I have pretty much of stuffs I haven't sorted out and yes it's bugging me for some unknown reason. It's like you pretty much know the solution to it but you don't know how to get started kinda thing. Well sometimes I really just wanna walk up to you and let it all out and get a resolution and we're done kinda thing. Not so simple I guess cause it only happens in the movies. Ah.And to be honest I haven't done anything much of school work during the 2 weeks break. Gave God the first week and the second was spent working at Gongcha. Well, what a life I have. Knowing that I could get a better paying job anytime, I somehow choose to stay on and work there. Didn't really work for the money although I kinda need'em! Just wanna have fun and yeah. Well simply, the first reason I didn't quit it's cause I wanted to help my supervisor there. Could tell she's putting and giving her best in managing the outlet and she's like short of staff and there's so many things going on down there. I just wanna give a hand and really put myself into their shoes, feeling how these foreigners are feeling working in Singapore. I mean like you're paid peanuts and shit happens everyday, from customer complaints to internal politics etc. I just simply can't phantom how did they survive this? I mean like I'll just freak out and quit or something. If I were them. Thankfully I'm just a part-timer. Haha. Secondly, she's more of like a friend I guess, haha I remember I used to laugh and joke with my colleagues and have a good time, well there are changes, people move to other outlets and things change and we move on? I guess.
The 2 weeks break didn't really feel like a 2 weeks break. Well many things happened. I didn't feel like I was the same person before the 2 weeks, as if something's gotten into me. It really felt like it's been a 2 year break that made me look and take things from a different perspective. Just so blowing, I thought.
Friday, 30 December 2011
12:40 pm: formspring.me
Ask me anything! :D http://www.formspring.me/cephassssTuesday, 27 December 2011
12:23 am: y=mx+c
It's the christmas season and here are the holidays and here I am, blogging once again, not remembering when was the last time I left off down here. Don't actually know how many people still check back here, but yeah I reminisce blogging here, remember how I used to blabber off about anything and everything here haha.Been asking myself this question on why do blogs even exist. For me, and from my perspective of course, it's for people to talk and share about their lives online -to people they know. The ironic question is, what if it's been shared with the people whom they don't wanna share it with and yet they want the people that matters the most to have a share of their best moments/memories in life? Then why even blog if all you wanna do is to keep your personal life private? That stumbled me, and yeah I didn't wanna blog because of that, silly of me right. Feels like I've ran a big round and I'm back to square one -here. Wow.
I saw the tentative exam dates on my school's online portal today. Good news is I only have 2 papers to study for and the bad is I have 60 days. Kinda screwed up last semester and my confidence is at 5% now so really need to find inspiration and zest to push hard again. Just felt like I've never given my best before. So there's exams.
Went for church youth camp last week. Really enjoyed it though. Games which were somewhat lame at times, USS } THE HIGHLIGHT :D Well the week was indeed a bonding session with my church friends, many whom I happen to see for 3-4 hours every sunday and bye kinda people if you know what I'm hitting at. Hate neglecting areas of my life where people matters. yeah.
I somehow feel that I'm on a superduper timemachine rollercoaster. Everything seems to be passing so fast at a blink of an eye, the thought of it freaks me out. Half of my 2 weeks break is gone, and exams are coming, which means 2012 is knocking at my door, which means the semester is ending, which means "changes are constant and the only constant is change." Really uncomfortable with that. It's like I have no freaking time to stop, and breathe, and enjoy the moment. Really feeling unsettled cause of this weird feeling inside of me now. Oh pardon me for being crazy and ass weird, haha.
Really wanna meet up with people I haven't seen for ages and hang out with 'em. Time doesn't permit. sigh. Alright I'm tired, my brain is churning out random nonsense as I type. Off to bed.
