So my subject combinations have finally been confirmed. I'm taking Psychology, Media Studies, Dance and Maths. We got our timetable today and lessons started today!
In the morning, when all the Sixth Form were gathered for registration, I felt so out of place. I just didn't like the idea of going to lessons without knowing anybody. Ok, no. I mean, without having any friends. I've only got my Thai friend who's like my friend friend (if you know what I mean). And we're only in Maths together. Other subjects, we've got to split up ): The other girls are friendly and nice but it's just really awkward to jump into their group when I'm so new.
The size of the class is really small, which is great. There's 4 of us in Psychology, 5 of us in Media Studies, 3 of us in Dance, and 10 of us in Maths. Maths is a really popular subject so I guess it has the biggest number of students taking it. So far, I think Media Studies my favourite and Dance is my least favourite. Ha. Ha. Ha.
Why? Because... I don't know. I just feel that I'm not good at all. There's essays, choreography, solo performance, duo/ trio performance. And I seriously do not have the guts to do a solo on a whole dance.
Most people think that me coming to UK to study will be so much more relaxing for me, and all that blahs. You've got it wrong. Yes, probably the education system is less stressful compared to Singapore's. But you have no idea how much courage it takes to walk into a new school where everyone practically knows everyone already. Where you have to start again, from the beginning. Where you have to find who you are in this new environment just when you've managed to start realizing who you are back home. Your parents aren't there anymore and you've got to be really independent. And being in a position like where I am in now, you'll definitely need to take a lot more initiatives. You can't be shy, you can't hide in your shell, you can't just keep being silent.
Yes, my new life is very "cool" and I do know that I'm so so SO lucky to have this opportunity to study in UK. I swear I am going to treasure this chance so much and work really hard. But I just want people to know that it isn't an easy job even though everything sounds really "cool" and "fun". There are two sides to everything. And I absolutely know what are my pros and my cons. So I have decided that whenever I feel pessimistic, I'm not going to let myself feel that way, and I'm going to push the feelings away and not feel sympathetic for myself. There's not enough time for that. I only have 2 years here and I want to spend the time that I could be feeling down to make friends, do work, or whatever else. Life's too short to be feeling negative. Besides, time passes by so quickly. Before I know it, it'll be my first exeat weekend, half-term break, another exeat weekend, and then Christmas holidays. I will be forward looking and be grateful for everything that's happening.
Hard work. Gratitude. Optimism. Yes.
Thursday, 6 September 2012
Wednesday, 5 September 2012
Induction
Induction was okay I guess. It was rather awkward in the morning because us newbies were standing around the oldies and we did not speak much or do anything. Everyone else was catching up while we were just standing/ sitting there staring around. Lol. But then later on, our head of Sixth Form made all the Year 12 girls stand in the circle and find an adjective to describe ourselves that started with the same letter of our first names. And I can successfully remember everyone's names now! Hohoho. #majorachievement
Lunch was better because we were sitting around friendly oldies. Ahaha. Okay, that's what I shall call the non-new Year 12s; the Oldies. Ater lunch there was a very short tour around the main building before we went to change and played team-building games. My group won a few chocolates so it was good! Then the minibus drove a few of us down to town and I bought a jumper that had PEACE on it. whootwhoot.
Came back, showered and got ready for PIZZA AND FILM NIGHT. They ordered sooooo many pizzas but I only had 2 slices. Haha. And we watched Street Dance 2! I was entranced. Ok well, whatever movie that I watch which involves dancing, my eyes will just be glued to the screen (:
So anyway, the movie just ended and I'm back in my room, blogging.
Tomorrow's the first day of proper school. Like with lessons and blahs. I don't want ): I want to slack forever.
I feel less awkward now, I'm sure tomorrow will be a whole new experience and I might feel awkward again. Zzz. I hate feeling awkward/ shy/ lonely. Right. I shall try another attempt to be more outgoing. Yep.
Goodnight.
Lunch was better because we were sitting around friendly oldies. Ahaha. Okay, that's what I shall call the non-new Year 12s; the Oldies. Ater lunch there was a very short tour around the main building before we went to change and played team-building games. My group won a few chocolates so it was good! Then the minibus drove a few of us down to town and I bought a jumper that had PEACE on it. whootwhoot.
Came back, showered and got ready for PIZZA AND FILM NIGHT. They ordered sooooo many pizzas but I only had 2 slices. Haha. And we watched Street Dance 2! I was entranced. Ok well, whatever movie that I watch which involves dancing, my eyes will just be glued to the screen (:
So anyway, the movie just ended and I'm back in my room, blogging.
Tomorrow's the first day of proper school. Like with lessons and blahs. I don't want ): I want to slack forever.
I feel less awkward now, I'm sure tomorrow will be a whole new experience and I might feel awkward again. Zzz. I hate feeling awkward/ shy/ lonely. Right. I shall try another attempt to be more outgoing. Yep.
Goodnight.
Tuesday, 4 September 2012
A New Start
Hello.
So here I am.
Sitting on my new chair.
At a new desk.
In a new room.
At a new school.
In a new country.
How's it going? Well, it's going fine currently.
Arrived at the school today mid-afternoon and unpacked with my mom. There are only 5 new Year 12s that are boarding this year (which is so little!). Among the 5 of us, we've got different nationalities. Together, we're from Singapore, Thailand, China and France. Now that is so cool. I'm gonna have a french friend!
There are only 21 girls in my Year and only 20 boarders in total for Sixth Form. And a total of 195 students! That's like 5 classes in NH! Ages 11-18, only 195 of us! That's why you'll get to know everyone in the school. Which is good, I guess!
There is so much to take in. So many rules, so many names, so many faces. I'm bound to get lost for the first week or so because there are so many doors and corridors! At least the people I've met so far are pretty friendly. Hopefully the rest are too! Only the new boarders have arrived today. The rest of the boarders will arrive tomorrow and I'm kind of dreading that because they'll all be like "OMG HI! I haven't seen you for so long! How have you been! How was your Summer? What did you do? Where did you go? You've became tanner!" etc. Meanwhile I'll just be standing there like o_o Ahaha. Nevermind, us 5 newbies will huddle together!
I've decorated my room! I've used all the photos that Gin/ Jiamin and everyone who helped in printing/ making them. They're all hung and stuck on my wall now! (: Definitely makes it feel more like home. But I do miss dancers so so SO much. I miss their hugs and their hand squeezes. I really wish they were here with me and I'm sure we would all be having the best time if they were. Sigh. But then on the bright side, it'll be more special seeing them when I get back! I shall stay positive. (:
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Tomorrow's Induction Day so we'll get to socialize a lot and hopefully I'll make many more new friends! (: It's almost 11pm now. So I guess I should go to bed. Ahhhh. New bed ): But at least I've brought my own pillow along so it'll feel a little more like home.
Home.
HOME.
I miss Singapore ):
ok bye.
So here I am.
Sitting on my new chair.
At a new desk.
In a new room.
At a new school.
In a new country.
How's it going? Well, it's going fine currently.
Arrived at the school today mid-afternoon and unpacked with my mom. There are only 5 new Year 12s that are boarding this year (which is so little!). Among the 5 of us, we've got different nationalities. Together, we're from Singapore, Thailand, China and France. Now that is so cool. I'm gonna have a french friend!
There are only 21 girls in my Year and only 20 boarders in total for Sixth Form. And a total of 195 students! That's like 5 classes in NH! Ages 11-18, only 195 of us! That's why you'll get to know everyone in the school. Which is good, I guess!
There is so much to take in. So many rules, so many names, so many faces. I'm bound to get lost for the first week or so because there are so many doors and corridors! At least the people I've met so far are pretty friendly. Hopefully the rest are too! Only the new boarders have arrived today. The rest of the boarders will arrive tomorrow and I'm kind of dreading that because they'll all be like "OMG HI! I haven't seen you for so long! How have you been! How was your Summer? What did you do? Where did you go? You've became tanner!" etc. Meanwhile I'll just be standing there like o_o Ahaha. Nevermind, us 5 newbies will huddle together!
I've decorated my room! I've used all the photos that Gin/ Jiamin and everyone who helped in printing/ making them. They're all hung and stuck on my wall now! (: Definitely makes it feel more like home. But I do miss dancers so so SO much. I miss their hugs and their hand squeezes. I really wish they were here with me and I'm sure we would all be having the best time if they were. Sigh. But then on the bright side, it'll be more special seeing them when I get back! I shall stay positive. (:
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Tomorrow's Induction Day so we'll get to socialize a lot and hopefully I'll make many more new friends! (: It's almost 11pm now. So I guess I should go to bed. Ahhhh. New bed ): But at least I've brought my own pillow along so it'll feel a little more like home.
Home.
HOME.
I miss Singapore ):
ok bye.
Monday, 3 September 2012
Doubts
So I'm starting school tomorrow. And I'm feeling so many emotions all at once, I don't even know what exactly am I feeling. I have so many doubts and worries.
I don't know if the courses I choose will be suitable for me, if I will be able to do well in school. I want to do well. So well. I don't want all the money that my parents have worked for to all go down the drain. Plus, I wanna work hard for myself. I wanna graduate with excellent A Level results.
I want to make friends too. I hope all the girls are nice and friendly. I shall be nice and friendly too! (: But, ahhhh. New environment, new people, new atmosphere. This is really getting to me now.
I need to have courage and be outgoing. Yes I will. But I am wishing that some one will come up to me and say hello first :/ Ahhhh.
I must stop rambling now. Gotta go pack my things and then worry myself to sleep. 明天见. Goodbye.
I don't know if the courses I choose will be suitable for me, if I will be able to do well in school. I want to do well. So well. I don't want all the money that my parents have worked for to all go down the drain. Plus, I wanna work hard for myself. I wanna graduate with excellent A Level results.
I want to make friends too. I hope all the girls are nice and friendly. I shall be nice and friendly too! (: But, ahhhh. New environment, new people, new atmosphere. This is really getting to me now.
I need to have courage and be outgoing. Yes I will. But I am wishing that some one will come up to me and say hello first :/ Ahhhh.
I must stop rambling now. Gotta go pack my things and then worry myself to sleep. 明天见. Goodbye.
Saturday, 1 September 2012
So It's Real
Tuesday morning was my flight to UK. Nat, Gin, JM, Qi, Joanna, Bryan & BM came to the airport to send me off (': Took a few pictures before FaceTiming the rest of batch girls. Then all too soon, it was time to say our real goodbyes. Qi started crying really badly first and slowly the rest of the girls did too. Except me. I have no idea why, but I felt numb. I hugged everyone and then went into the departure hall. Waved and waved and waved before I disappeared behind a wall and so did their faces. )':
Whatsapped them the whole time before my plane took off. I've never seen most of them cry till their eyes were so puffy before ):
When my plane took off, I was in a daze because I still didn't believe that I was leaving for UK. And now that I'm here, it's starting to sink in a little bit more.
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School starts in 3 days and as I'm counting down, I'm feeling more and more nervous. I hope all the girls are nice and friendly. I hope I'll be able to make new friends. I hope I can fit in. :/ It'll be a new start, a new life. I want to enjoy myself as much as possible.
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Anyway, here are some pictures from the day my friends sent me off at the airport. Thank you my dears for waking up so early and coming to the airport just for me. I appreciate it deeply and I love y'all loads and loads.
Whatsapped them the whole time before my plane took off. I've never seen most of them cry till their eyes were so puffy before ):
When my plane took off, I was in a daze because I still didn't believe that I was leaving for UK. And now that I'm here, it's starting to sink in a little bit more.
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School starts in 3 days and as I'm counting down, I'm feeling more and more nervous. I hope all the girls are nice and friendly. I hope I'll be able to make new friends. I hope I can fit in. :/ It'll be a new start, a new life. I want to enjoy myself as much as possible.
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Anyway, here are some pictures from the day my friends sent me off at the airport. Thank you my dears for waking up so early and coming to the airport just for me. I appreciate it deeply and I love y'all loads and loads.
I look so dumb. Hahaha.
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