Happy 4 Year Anniversary Baby!

 I married my best friend on June 14, 2008... what an amazing day that I wish we could relive. Can't believe its been 4 years. Time has gone by super fast and I couldn't imagine my life any differently, still so in love. Awe. A lot has happened- we both graduated from our undergrad, moved to wisconsin, survived the first 3 years of med school, I had my first full-time job supporting us out here, and we are expecting a baby boy any day now. What an adventure. I love you babes!! Seriously one lucky girl! 

 Scotty is on call tonight, boo. He got me these beautiful flowers from The Flower Lady and my fav snack of choice to tide me over until we can celebrate tomorrow night :) 

xoxo

39 weeks

one more week... thats 7 days! cray cray

walked and walked and walked and.... walked

Can I just tell you how much I love not working... Its so nice to just be on my own sched, esp now that I am this preggo and its hard enough just to get out of bed let alone wake up every morning and get ready, walk over to work, and be tied to a chair for 8 hours. So happy to be on maternity leave :) 

This month Scotty is rotating through Outpatient Pediatrics... which is one of the easiest rotations! He is learning all about babies and getting good practice before he becomes a daddy. We are loving his schedule. He went in this morning and found out that his peds doc that he is working with was out of the day so Scotty had the day off. He called me and was so excited to be able to make a day out of it and enjoy this beautiful weather. We went downtown and walked along Lake Michigan. I love walking but lately I've been getting these side cramps plus my feet/ankles kill and it makes it difficult to long distances.. super uncomfortable. I started having contractions the other night but I haven't had any since. I think this boy is getting a little too comfy in there! 

kiss this belly goodbye

dear little boy: We are so excited for you to be out of my belly and into our arms. Your nursery is all set up and our hospital bag is packed... whenever your ready, we're ready! 


I started to have contractions last night and even though it was painful I was smiling in excitement. The anticipation is killing me. Call me crazy but I'm really looking forward to the dreaded labor part of pregnancy. I was anxious about it at the beginning but now that I've been preg for 9 months I'm starting to get a positive mindset and I want to be able to enjoy the whole process of labor... I went to my second to last OB appt today and I'm progressing really well. Head is still down, almost 2 centimeters dilated and 45% effaced.  10 more days til my due date :) 

hawaiian shaved ice with the hubs

I'm officially taking my maternity leave now that I am 38 weeks! To celebrate and enjoy this gorgeous weather we went and got hawaiian shaved ice at One Kine Grindz... this awesome hawaiian restaurant/grocery store. Way better then custard. I know you Utahans aren't at all jealous because you have a shaved ice shack on every grocery store corner but this is a rarity in wisco. So refreshing!! The last place I want to be at the end of this pregnancy is outside in the heat and humidity but it was so worth it. This will be our new Thursday summer tradition

summer 2011 vs summer 2012

pregnancy has been an amazing experience to say the least... its so crazy to think that I don't do anything but watch my body take care of growing an actual baby inside my belly. Its seriously is the miracle of life (jr high days video shout out). I've been fortunate enough to have a really healthy easy pregnancy :) But I now I'm starting to feel like I've been pregnant forever. I forgot what its like to sleep on my belly, go running, or even get up from sitting down without difficulty. I'm so ready to have this boy out of my belly and in my arms and get my body back. Good news from my last post... his head is now down and in good position!! 

flip baby flip

For the past couple weeks this boy was in perfect position.. head down and ready to go. I felt very uncomfortable with all the lower pressure but assured that I knew how my baby was growing in my belly. Yesterday I went to my now monthly OB appts and found out that he flipped back and is now breech. I could tell something was up over the weekend. I just have felt super exhausted, my belly looked different, and I was getting beat up with his legs kicking down and his head pressing up against my ribs. When my OB was feeling my belly she said "Oh yeah this is that baby I can never tell where he is cause he is always moving around!" She didn't seem surprised that he was in a different position but she was worried that since he is getting bigger it might be harder for him to flip back down. So we are going to give him until next week and if he hasn't settled down that she is going to try and turn him (sounds so painful).. if she can't physically turn him then I'll go in at 39 weeks and she will try again- if he does flip then she will induce labor and if he doesn't then I'll go right in for a c-section.

I was super emotionally yesterday. I really don't want a c-section (correction: I dont have to have an emergency c-section). I want everything to happen naturally. I don't want to force him down, I want him to move on his own. I want it to be like what I've visualized in my head for the past 9 months. I'm coming to the reality that this ideal plan might not happen the way I've imagined. If he stays breech- or even if they flip him next week and he flips back- I will have to have a c-section. The anxiety of these last weeks is really weighing on me now.

I spent the afternoon walking the mall to try and clear my head and get some exercise. The distraction helped. After pray and talking with my family I've taken some deep breaths and I'm staying positive. I googled some ways to help turn a breech baby... this is what I'll be working on for the next week!
-visualize baby moving down
-pelvic tilt (hurts and makes me nauseous since I have no room for him pressing up on my chest)
-cold compress on top of uterus (maybe while taking a warm bath or during pelvic tilt)
-heat, music, or light at pelvic bone
-talking to baby
-Webster Technique (I made an appt to discuss this with a recommended chiropractor for early next week)
-Reiki (mainly to help me relax and visualize better. I have an appt with my good friend Ali for next Weds)
-swimming (I wish my friends pools were open! I thinking of getting a week pass at the gym and try and go every night)
- Cat/Cow yoga position (3-4 times/day)

I wish I could just stop working now and just focus on getting this baby to flip. Sitting all day does not help and just makes my anxiety worse. As of now my last day of work is June 8... that may change to June 1 depending on how this baby is doing by then.

{work baby shower}

I've been working at the Skin Cancer Center for 2 years now... its been the longest full-time job I've ever had and time has gone by so fast. cray cray. I remember when I first started and heard "she is the cute mormon girl who wont be with us long cause her husband is in med school" well ladies I lasted 1 year longer then you expected and its going be sad to say goodbye soon! Even though it hasn't been my dream job and coming to the reality that I wouldn't be a child life specialist/using my degree right now has been very difficult.. I have been very blessed here. I feel proud to have been able to support my family and live off what I made for the past 3 years while my husband was living his dream of becoming a doctor.  Even though it wasn't ideal for me- it was an easy sacrifice for many reasons 1. I could walk to work since we only have one car 2. I only work for one doctor so my hours were very flexible and I was able to go on a lot of vaca's throughout the last couple years which helped save my sanity 3. the pay was great for the work I was doing and we had great benefits 4. I was able to blog/read/eat/whatev and was never stressed out at the end of the day which made for a happy wife 5. I became close friends with some of my coworkers which helped immensely during the hard months when I lost a husband to med school 6. I was able to wear scrubs/yoga pants... =no extra money spent on work clothes and comfy during pregnancy! 7. I had an amazing view with lots of windows, very peaceful/clean environment to work in 8. it was a derm surg clinic and we only saw like 20 patients a day=super easy and chill.  For those, and many more reasons, I will be sad to say goodbye- my last day will be June 8. Even though I have slight anxiety about transitioning into being a stay at home mom and not being on my normal selfish sched I am so excited for this next chapter in my life. Since the doc is out for the next couple weeks and we don't have clinic, they threw me a surprise baby shower :) I saw these ladies more then I saw my husband in the last couple years and I am so blessed to have their love and support.

happy mothers day

{to my amazing maja}

{34 weeks}