the previous entry was written one week ago. i didn't finish writing what i had set out to write, and yet another week has gone by! so today i was supposed to present part of my composition for music tech! but my teacher fell sick and our lesson got cancelled. (thank goodness for me again) i did manage to lengthen my composition by a few more seconds after spending another couple of hours in the lab. it's really tedious to try to come up with a nice melody with the right chords, and a good beat to go along. and even with part of the melody down, i take a really long time to choose the best instruments. the softwares they teach us to use are so cool they can do so much to change the colour of the tones and so i spend even more time trying to alter everything. maybe this explains why i take so many hours yet accomplish so little. but it's really fun! and being in the music tech lab with other schoolmates who look like professional music-makers (those stereotyped with messy hair, rugged appearance and who slam the keyboard with so much emotion) make me feel somewhat like one too, though i think i only fit the messy look criteria hahaha.
i suddenly wish i were in year 2009 now. i'll be feeling so hyped up and excited about my dajie's wedding and i'll be eagerly counting down to her big day. i'll be listening to "next plane home" and literally be on the next plane home! it seems too early to start counting down now, but since time flies anyway, i know it's not too faraway!
Paulo Coelho: When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. i don't think i have fully grasped the meaning of this quotation, but it reminds me of The Secret book which twinnie showed me in kino. im also reminded of this random day when i was on my way to one of my tutees' house, and was quite deep in thought. suddenly a thought flashed past my mind. i was thinking of my dad, (i can't remember what i was thinking about, but i know i really missed him badly) and then, right at that very instant, a dark red car came into view. it was of the exact same colour and model as my dad's car. i know coincidences do occur, and there are so many of that model out there, but the way everything happened was so beautifully fluid; on that very random day, it just left me stunned. anyone else will have thought nothing of it, but it felt so magical, it was something like having your prayers answered. so maybe, if i wish hard enough, all the mysterious forces of the universe will help grant this wish of mine. jia you!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
incomplete
it may be a shadow in the crowds or a painting hanging on the wall. it may be an oddly familiar melody, a feeling, a conversation, or even lines in a poem. essentially, it may be anything and everything; something that reminds you of the past, something that brings a figment of your brain's archives to life. it is the oxygen that relights the glowing splint. and when it happens, memories flood the mind like a dam has been broken, and nostalgia hits as the splint bursts into flames.
i only have 2 days of school this week! labs on monday and tuesday, and that's my timetable for the week! everyone please do not kill me. i have no idea why my timetable's so slack too, i guess we're meant to self-study, but i'm going to treat this as a 5-day weekend holiday! i have music technology lessons on wednesday and friday though. the teacher just told us today that he wants to listen to our compositions next week. i'm so dead. last week i thought the other teacher (because we have two teachers for the course) wanted to listen to our songs, so i came up with 20 seconds of drum beat after spending 4 hours in the music tech lab. in the end he didn't ask us to present (thank goodness!), but now i'm back to square one again.
i only have 2 days of school this week! labs on monday and tuesday, and that's my timetable for the week! everyone please do not kill me. i have no idea why my timetable's so slack too, i guess we're meant to self-study, but i'm going to treat this as a 5-day weekend holiday! i have music technology lessons on wednesday and friday though. the teacher just told us today that he wants to listen to our compositions next week. i'm so dead. last week i thought the other teacher (because we have two teachers for the course) wanted to listen to our songs, so i came up with 20 seconds of drum beat after spending 4 hours in the music tech lab. in the end he didn't ask us to present (thank goodness!), but now i'm back to square one again.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
sweet november
hello my friends!
im finally blogging! though it's not going to be much of an update. im here because november's my favourite month and i don't want it to end without me leaving an entry to remember what a good month it has been. :)
i wanted to share my favourite excerpt from the history of love by nicole krauss. i remember reading it on one of my train rides in eastern europe last easter. it's so beautifully written that i've read and re-read it so many times, and i really like the wistful tone of this prose. somehow it makes me feel like sighing every time i read it.
The Birth of Feeling
Feelings are not as old as time. Just as there was a first instant when someone rubbed two sticks together to make a spark, there was a first time joy was felt, and a first time for sadness. For a while, new feelings were being invented all the time. Desire was born early, as was regret. When stubbornness was felt for the first time, it started a chain reaction, creating the feeling of resentment on the one hand, and alienation and loneliness on the other. It might have been a certain counterclockwise movement of the hips that marked the birth of ecstasy; a bolt of lightning that caused the first feeling of awe. Or maybe it was the body of a girl named Alma. Contrary to logic, the feeling of surprise wasn't born immediately. It only came after people had enough time to get used to things as they were. And when enough time had passed, and someone felt the first feeling of surprise, someone, somewhere else, felt the first pang of nostalgia.
It's also true that sometimes people felt things and, because there was no word for them, they went unmentioned. The oldest emotion in the world may be that of being moved; but to describe it - just to name it - must have been like trying to catch something invisible.
(Then again, the oldest feeling in the world might simply have been confusion.)
Having begun to feel, people's desire to feel grew. They wanted to feel more, feel deeper, despite how much it sometimes hurt. People became addicted to feeling. They struggled to uncover new emotions. It's possible that this is how art was born. New kinds of joy were forged, along with new kinds of sadness: The eternal disappointment of life as it is; the relief of unexpected reprieve; the fear of dying.
Even now, all possible feelings do not yet exist. There are still those that lie beyond our capacity and our imagination. From time to time, when a piece of music no one has ever written, or a painting no one has ever painted, or something else impossible to predict, fathom, or yet describe takes place, a new feeling enters the world. And then, for the millionth time in the history of feeling, the heart surges, and absorbs the impact.
im finally blogging! though it's not going to be much of an update. im here because november's my favourite month and i don't want it to end without me leaving an entry to remember what a good month it has been. :)i wanted to share my favourite excerpt from the history of love by nicole krauss. i remember reading it on one of my train rides in eastern europe last easter. it's so beautifully written that i've read and re-read it so many times, and i really like the wistful tone of this prose. somehow it makes me feel like sighing every time i read it.
The Birth of Feeling
Feelings are not as old as time. Just as there was a first instant when someone rubbed two sticks together to make a spark, there was a first time joy was felt, and a first time for sadness. For a while, new feelings were being invented all the time. Desire was born early, as was regret. When stubbornness was felt for the first time, it started a chain reaction, creating the feeling of resentment on the one hand, and alienation and loneliness on the other. It might have been a certain counterclockwise movement of the hips that marked the birth of ecstasy; a bolt of lightning that caused the first feeling of awe. Or maybe it was the body of a girl named Alma. Contrary to logic, the feeling of surprise wasn't born immediately. It only came after people had enough time to get used to things as they were. And when enough time had passed, and someone felt the first feeling of surprise, someone, somewhere else, felt the first pang of nostalgia.
It's also true that sometimes people felt things and, because there was no word for them, they went unmentioned. The oldest emotion in the world may be that of being moved; but to describe it - just to name it - must have been like trying to catch something invisible.
(Then again, the oldest feeling in the world might simply have been confusion.)
Having begun to feel, people's desire to feel grew. They wanted to feel more, feel deeper, despite how much it sometimes hurt. People became addicted to feeling. They struggled to uncover new emotions. It's possible that this is how art was born. New kinds of joy were forged, along with new kinds of sadness: The eternal disappointment of life as it is; the relief of unexpected reprieve; the fear of dying.
Even now, all possible feelings do not yet exist. There are still those that lie beyond our capacity and our imagination. From time to time, when a piece of music no one has ever written, or a painting no one has ever painted, or something else impossible to predict, fathom, or yet describe takes place, a new feeling enters the world. And then, for the millionth time in the history of feeling, the heart surges, and absorbs the impact.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
很好
you run and run and run
as the soles of your shoes get more and more worn out
those bits and pieces of rubber killed by friction
as beads of perspiration trickle down
that tired face
but you continue to run
you run and run and run
even after you realise
you've been running on a treadmill
and displacement=0
seeing is not believing
believe.. and you will see?
i really really believed, and i really really trusted.
maybe this explains the disappointment.
my sunny yellow cactus pot with the cracks in between
and my bright pink monkey phone which died
broken beauty reminiscent of the Colosseum
yet the cartoon cactus still smiles its adorable smile
the monkeys are forever happy
all roads still lead to Rome
as the soles of your shoes get more and more worn out
those bits and pieces of rubber killed by friction
as beads of perspiration trickle down
that tired face
but you continue to run
you run and run and run
even after you realise
you've been running on a treadmill
and displacement=0
seeing is not believing
believe.. and you will see?
i really really believed, and i really really trusted.
maybe this explains the disappointment.
my sunny yellow cactus pot with the cracks in between
and my bright pink monkey phone which died
broken beauty reminiscent of the Colosseum
yet the cartoon cactus still smiles its adorable smile
the monkeys are forever happy
all roads still lead to Rome
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
bits and pieces of the past week
last monday was when we had our last lecture of the year. it was on the human genome project if my memory didn't fail me. i didn't understand what was going on at all. i only remember that i realized that that lecture was going to be woon's last lecture with me and i was very sad.
the lab session we had last tuesday was the last one for this school year. it was quite a long and tiring one. we had to count yeast cells using the haemocytometer thing which we learnt about in jc. i think we were supposed to count something like 20 big squares (each big square is actually very big and divided into another 4 small squares) and each small square has something like 5 cells on the average? so they actually want us to count 400 cells! i know, it's boring and seemingly pointless. anyway, we had to do this counting at least 4 times, and of course we didn't even count like we were supposed to, provided we didn't misread the instructions. we just counted a few small squares and multiplied accordingly. it felt good after we finished rushing our lab reports on the spot and handed them in at the end of the day. it was that feeling of satisfaction whenever a piece of work is finally completed and ready for submission after all that investment of time and effort. but it was also a weird feeling to have to pack my lab coat into my bag instead of stuffing it back into my locker after that session since it was the last practical of the year. it was that moment when reality sank in, that year 1 had just flown past despite how vivid my memory of my first lab session here was, that there was to be no more coursework to be done, and that the exams are nearing!
we celebrated jun's birthday on wednesday after we had our proteins & enzymes quiz in school. it was a belated surprise birthday celebration because our planned celebration on his actual birthday failed due to unforeseen circumstances, but we had a fun time talking about random things, surfing youtube videos, and even doing the kallang wave! it was possibly the last time the six of us can gather together like that and talk and laugh about the strangest things in the world.
thursday was mark's last day of exams! being in high spirits, he treated us to dinner - bayswater duck! mark rocks. that marked our last wilsonut gathering this year!
the past week was a week of many lasts. i saw many of my hallmates move out, and many others are going to move out soon too. i finally started throwing some clothes into my suitcase, but my table's still in a mess. i spent quite some time today looking for a particular piece of lecture notes! actually i think i spend more time searching for things and sleeping than studying. i woke up quite late today! shan't say what time, but it wasn't that late! i don't know why i sleep so much too. it's not like im perpetually dreaming of icecream, marshmallows, rainbows and all the loveliest things in the world. i don't even dream much. maybe it's because my brain gets too tired easily. sleeping makes me happy! i have a friend who thinks that icecream can make one happy no matter what; even under the most tragic circumstances, icecream brings smiles to faces. i don't know whether that's true, but if it doesn't work, i think sleeping should do the trick, because every single time you wake up, you wake up to a brand new day. and tomorrow will always be better than today! this reminds me of a quote i saw just now. some inspirational quote about life: Smile... tomorrow will be worse. perhaps cynics are actually the most optimistic people around!
the sleepy disease is taking over again! shall stop writing nonsense.
the lab session we had last tuesday was the last one for this school year. it was quite a long and tiring one. we had to count yeast cells using the haemocytometer thing which we learnt about in jc. i think we were supposed to count something like 20 big squares (each big square is actually very big and divided into another 4 small squares) and each small square has something like 5 cells on the average? so they actually want us to count 400 cells! i know, it's boring and seemingly pointless. anyway, we had to do this counting at least 4 times, and of course we didn't even count like we were supposed to, provided we didn't misread the instructions. we just counted a few small squares and multiplied accordingly. it felt good after we finished rushing our lab reports on the spot and handed them in at the end of the day. it was that feeling of satisfaction whenever a piece of work is finally completed and ready for submission after all that investment of time and effort. but it was also a weird feeling to have to pack my lab coat into my bag instead of stuffing it back into my locker after that session since it was the last practical of the year. it was that moment when reality sank in, that year 1 had just flown past despite how vivid my memory of my first lab session here was, that there was to be no more coursework to be done, and that the exams are nearing!
we celebrated jun's birthday on wednesday after we had our proteins & enzymes quiz in school. it was a belated surprise birthday celebration because our planned celebration on his actual birthday failed due to unforeseen circumstances, but we had a fun time talking about random things, surfing youtube videos, and even doing the kallang wave! it was possibly the last time the six of us can gather together like that and talk and laugh about the strangest things in the world.
thursday was mark's last day of exams! being in high spirits, he treated us to dinner - bayswater duck! mark rocks. that marked our last wilsonut gathering this year!
the past week was a week of many lasts. i saw many of my hallmates move out, and many others are going to move out soon too. i finally started throwing some clothes into my suitcase, but my table's still in a mess. i spent quite some time today looking for a particular piece of lecture notes! actually i think i spend more time searching for things and sleeping than studying. i woke up quite late today! shan't say what time, but it wasn't that late! i don't know why i sleep so much too. it's not like im perpetually dreaming of icecream, marshmallows, rainbows and all the loveliest things in the world. i don't even dream much. maybe it's because my brain gets too tired easily. sleeping makes me happy! i have a friend who thinks that icecream can make one happy no matter what; even under the most tragic circumstances, icecream brings smiles to faces. i don't know whether that's true, but if it doesn't work, i think sleeping should do the trick, because every single time you wake up, you wake up to a brand new day. and tomorrow will always be better than today! this reminds me of a quote i saw just now. some inspirational quote about life: Smile... tomorrow will be worse. perhaps cynics are actually the most optimistic people around!
the sleepy disease is taking over again! shall stop writing nonsense.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
mm hmm i want to linger here
i just booked my flight from london to nice where i'll be meeting zx and ying2! i'll be flying off almost immediately after my exams. well, maybe not that immediate, since technically it's one day after my exams. but it's a 7am flight! i don't think i'll have time to sleep after my last paper, because i've got to pack up and dump my things somewhere. i won't have time to properly bid goodbye to nutford too. it seems like just yesterday when i moved into this hall, and now it's already time to start packing.
Monday, May 26, 2008
freezing
im supposed to be studying really hard right now, but nothing seems to be going into my peabrain, so here i am. it's drizzling a little outside, and it's freezing cold inside my room. my roommate and i are totally scrunched up in our seats and occasionally we manage to mumble a few words of complaint about the weather to each other. i think even my cactus is frozen in its pot by now. i just skyped with my family 2 hours ago since i couldn't skype yesterday. my internet was cut off on thursday night because i exceeded my bandwidth limit downloading "devil beside you" and "mars". i was happily clicking on so many episodes and watching the download bars fill, until i realized that i wasn't connected to the internet anymore! i know it's my fault for wanting to rewatch all those dramas, but sometimes it's really boring just studying and memorizing only to realize that you forget all that you've stuffed into your brain. the cycle just repeats and i need some entertainment. so in the end i only had my notes and my bed to accompany me throughout the weekend.
today's yet another bank holiday! my roommate just said, do you know what? i think the laundry room is warm. hahahahaha. she's going to escape to the laundry room now. less than 1 month to the exams, and approximately 1.5 months till i can go back home! just thinking about how warm it is in singapore makes me feel a little less cold now.
yesterday jess showed me the youtube video of the liaoning girl who cursed the sichuan earthquake victims. this liaoning girl even gloated at the disaster because she was angry that she couldn't play computer games during that 3 days when china closed down all entertainment websites. it was appalling, and absolutely unbelievable. i was very incredulous at her blatant disregard towards the severity of the situation, and how she made a passing comment on the old lady who was stuck in debris for over 100 hours as to why she's not dead yet. that is just one out of the many rude and insensitive comments she made in the span of 4mins and 40seconds. the things she said were so out-of-the-world that i thought someone might have controlled her and forced her to say them. there are also many hate videos posted by other people in response to her irresponsible behaviour, and i think i learnt quite a few strings of chinese vulgarities from watching those. thankfully we didn't find any videos of people who actually support her behaviour.
china's plagued with problems. and there's also the cyclone in burma. getting news of natural disasters reminds us of the fragility of life, yet how many reminders does it take before it gets to our heads and we don't need any more reminding? hope the death tolls stop increasing.
and the rain is getting heavier. i still think the best thing about life is that there's always something to look forward to. when it's raining, wait for the sun. and there's always the long-awaited holidays after the exams! it'll be like spring that follows winter!
today's yet another bank holiday! my roommate just said, do you know what? i think the laundry room is warm. hahahahaha. she's going to escape to the laundry room now. less than 1 month to the exams, and approximately 1.5 months till i can go back home! just thinking about how warm it is in singapore makes me feel a little less cold now.
yesterday jess showed me the youtube video of the liaoning girl who cursed the sichuan earthquake victims. this liaoning girl even gloated at the disaster because she was angry that she couldn't play computer games during that 3 days when china closed down all entertainment websites. it was appalling, and absolutely unbelievable. i was very incredulous at her blatant disregard towards the severity of the situation, and how she made a passing comment on the old lady who was stuck in debris for over 100 hours as to why she's not dead yet. that is just one out of the many rude and insensitive comments she made in the span of 4mins and 40seconds. the things she said were so out-of-the-world that i thought someone might have controlled her and forced her to say them. there are also many hate videos posted by other people in response to her irresponsible behaviour, and i think i learnt quite a few strings of chinese vulgarities from watching those. thankfully we didn't find any videos of people who actually support her behaviour.
china's plagued with problems. and there's also the cyclone in burma. getting news of natural disasters reminds us of the fragility of life, yet how many reminders does it take before it gets to our heads and we don't need any more reminding? hope the death tolls stop increasing.
and the rain is getting heavier. i still think the best thing about life is that there's always something to look forward to. when it's raining, wait for the sun. and there's always the long-awaited holidays after the exams! it'll be like spring that follows winter!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
procrastination
we watched this animation during the commercials before iron man at the cinema the other day. it's so funny and it totally captures the essence of procrastination! and so here i am, making myself happy while i get my stuff done.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
last friends episode 6
i thought #5 was good enough, but this is even better! i love the last part when they were playing on the swings, and the very timely introduction of the theme song at the end. the setting was right, and i especially liked the part when takeru kept swinging up and down oddly and smiling at ruka, trying to cheer her up, without any of them speaking. it was a very comfortable scene, with dialogue taking a backseat, and with an apt choice of music as accompaniment. when ruka smiled and the music suddenly stopped, it was quite a liberating moment. the way ruka wanted to tell him her secret was so sincere it almost felt devastating. and takeru did shock me a little, albeit pleasantly; not that it was entirely unexpected, just that given the circumstances, and given his character, i didn't really see it coming. maybe it's meant to be yet another twist in the story anyway. the way he expressed his feelings was very sweet though, and it was a very cathartic instant. despite all odds, i hope it doesn't end up heartbreaking.
the thing is, up till this episode, i always thought i understood ruka's character quite well. but i can't seem to guess how she'll react to takeru! really looking forward to the next episode, and i feel very tempted to ignore all the other characters in the story and just focus on this duo. having said that, i think it's nice that there's some development in eri's character as we get to see her sensitive thoughtful side in this episode! i can't remember much about the other characters (because i watched this at 1am yesterday and the last part was simply much more impressionable compared to the other parts), other than the fact that sousuke is still psychotic and we still don't know why, and michiru is still victimized and very lonely. and i like how everything fits in very aptly with the words assigned to each character. michiru - love, ruka - liberation, takeru - agony, eri - solitude, sousuke - contradiction. it's quite scary to watch how these emotions clash to give rise to such a twisted story.
the thing is, up till this episode, i always thought i understood ruka's character quite well. but i can't seem to guess how she'll react to takeru! really looking forward to the next episode, and i feel very tempted to ignore all the other characters in the story and just focus on this duo. having said that, i think it's nice that there's some development in eri's character as we get to see her sensitive thoughtful side in this episode! i can't remember much about the other characters (because i watched this at 1am yesterday and the last part was simply much more impressionable compared to the other parts), other than the fact that sousuke is still psychotic and we still don't know why, and michiru is still victimized and very lonely. and i like how everything fits in very aptly with the words assigned to each character. michiru - love, ruka - liberation, takeru - agony, eri - solitude, sousuke - contradiction. it's quite scary to watch how these emotions clash to give rise to such a twisted story.
Friday, May 16, 2008
:)
absent-minded me left my swipe cards in my lab locker today and had to walk all the way back from sheffield building to rcs building to get them.
but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise!
but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
serial killer?
here's an excerpt from my email to cihan! too lazy to recount everything all over again, so here's my firsthand account of the story!
OHMAN ok i just discovered something vvvv scary. and v freaky!!!!! you noe i always meet my friends before i go off to sch right? mark yahting leefeng and khaiming. mark yahting and leefeng stay at wilson house, which is this hall that's 5 mins away from mine. basically, my friend leefeng just found out from her hall bulletin that A SERIAL KILLER (WHO IS HER HALLMATE) WAS KILLED IN HER HALL! AND FOUND DEAD IN THE LODGE IN NOVEMBER 07! SUPER SCARY!!!! that guy killed 4 other pple, 3 of whom stayed in wilson house, meaning they are imperial students! and one of them is a lecturer who's a warden at the hall! till now no one knows who killed the serial killer i think. GOODNESS. we're all super freaked out by this. and the creepiest thing is that the 3 of them haf been staying there for so long yet they never heard anything about this all the while!! the guy was found dead in their hall... ohman. and the way the serial killer murdered the 4, it was all by stabbing and knifing.. the news reported that this guy's psychotic.. and probably has split personality!!!!
and then after my friend told me that i was telling her how glad i am that she's still safe right.. but she was still v freaked out. so i tried to be funny hahahaha by telling her that im v glad that di yi hao (ok we call him di yi hao cos he's my number one! HAHAHAHA. that's our nickname for this guy who's our coursemate and who lives in wilson house too, and he's VERY SHUAI! hahahaha some angmoh guy who's very very smart and hardworking and nice and has a very nice smile hahahah okok) is still alive!! then she was like walauuuuu, you care more for him than for me. who noes he may be the one who killed the serial killer!.. ok so that's how our conversation ended like a few hours ago. AND NOW, she just bumped into di yi hao on the streets.. and she asked him whether he knew anything about this at all! AND GUESS WHAT, DI YI HAO ACTUALLY WITNESSED WHAT HAPPENED TO THE SERIAL KILLER ON THE NIGHT HE WAS KILLED! OHMY GOODNESSSS!!
OKAY. AND YOU NOE WAD MS LEE? hahahahahahahahahah the previous two paragraphs that i just typed out. HAPPENS TO BE A PRANK -.- i JUST found out from my friend, who found out from di yi hao that... he witnessed that the "serial killer" was just drunk on that night, and was playing with the computer in the lodge, and was typing rubbish to post on the bulletin. -.- okay.. you can ignore me now. hahahahahahhaha.
(hirowei87 is leefeng)
[7:17:44 PM] hirowei87 says: coz jus nw i met him on d street
[7:17:52 PM] angchieh says: yah then?!!?
[7:17:53 PM] hirowei87 says: den he said hello
[7:17:56 PM] hirowei87 says: ok
[7:17:58 PM] angchieh says: (nod)
[7:18:00 PM] hirowei87 says: den he told me
[7:18:08 PM] hirowei87 says: he witnessed d whole thng
[7:18:11 PM] hirowei87 says: dat nite
[7:18:13 PM] angchieh says: why he suddenly tell you about this??
[7:18:15 PM] angchieh says: did you ask him abt it/
[7:18:19 PM] hirowei87 says: ya
[7:18:25 PM] hirowei87 says: den he recalled
[7:18:29 PM] angchieh says: HE WITNESSED IT?!!!!
[7:18:30 PM] hirowei87 says: super scary
[7:18:33 PM] angchieh says: OHMYYYYYYYYYYYYY
[7:18:34 PM] hirowei87 says: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
[7:18:41 PM] hirowei87 says: dis wat he said
[7:18:44 PM] angchieh says: OHMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
[7:18:46 PM] hirowei87 says: dat nite
[7:18:59 PM] hirowei87 says: dat Josh
[7:19:03 PM] hirowei87 says: remembr?
[7:19:10 PM] hirowei87 says: josh reees
[7:20:02 PM] angchieh says: YAH
[7:20:04 PM] hirowei87 says: he was drunk
[7:20:13 PM] hirowei87 says: in d lodge
[7:22:59 PM] angchieh says: then???
[7:23:52 PM] hirowei87 says: den he started doin silly things
[7:25:35 PM] angchieh says: like wad??
[7:25:43 PM] hirowei87 says: like
[7:25:52 PM] hirowei87 says: goin up 2 de comp
[7:25:59 PM] hirowei87 says: n started writin artcle
[7:26:09 PM] hirowei87 says: dey tried 2 stop him
[7:26:19 PM] hirowei87 says: but couldnt
[7:29:21 PM] angchieh says: HUH??
[7:29:22 PM] angchieh says: as in wad?
[7:29:56 PM] hirowei87 says: he wrote a very silly article
[7:30:04 PM] hirowei87 says: 4 d bulletin
[7:30:15 PM] angchieh says: CHEYYYY
[7:30:20 PM] angchieh says: SO THAT MEANS IT'S FAKE LA?!?!!
[7:30:29 PM] hirowei87 says: YAAAAAAAAAAAA
[7:30:33 PM] angchieh says: WU LIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
[7:30:37 PM] angchieh says: HAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHHAA
[7:30:39 PM] angchieh says: DAMN FUNNY
HAHAHAHAAH sorry cihan i think this is super funnyyyyyyy. that's our conversation. hahahaha i was about to tell you to be always be careful and not go around alone, and be safe!! heheheheh okay, guess it's still applicable. STAY SAFE OK!! hahahahaha.
haiyohs im laughing like mad now. hahaha you lucky girl you get my first-hand and most genuine account of this story! now i read back at those 2 paragraphs and i feel so dumb hahahahha.
and sorry yayi! i made you freak out and worry too!
OHMAN ok i just discovered something vvvv scary. and v freaky!!!!! you noe i always meet my friends before i go off to sch right? mark yahting leefeng and khaiming. mark yahting and leefeng stay at wilson house, which is this hall that's 5 mins away from mine. basically, my friend leefeng just found out from her hall bulletin that A SERIAL KILLER (WHO IS HER HALLMATE) WAS KILLED IN HER HALL! AND FOUND DEAD IN THE LODGE IN NOVEMBER 07! SUPER SCARY!!!! that guy killed 4 other pple, 3 of whom stayed in wilson house, meaning they are imperial students! and one of them is a lecturer who's a warden at the hall! till now no one knows who killed the serial killer i think. GOODNESS. we're all super freaked out by this. and the creepiest thing is that the 3 of them haf been staying there for so long yet they never heard anything about this all the while!! the guy was found dead in their hall... ohman. and the way the serial killer murdered the 4, it was all by stabbing and knifing.. the news reported that this guy's psychotic.. and probably has split personality!!!!
and then after my friend told me that i was telling her how glad i am that she's still safe right.. but she was still v freaked out. so i tried to be funny hahahaha by telling her that im v glad that di yi hao (ok we call him di yi hao cos he's my number one! HAHAHAHA. that's our nickname for this guy who's our coursemate and who lives in wilson house too, and he's VERY SHUAI! hahahaha some angmoh guy who's very very smart and hardworking and nice and has a very nice smile hahahah okok) is still alive!! then she was like walauuuuu, you care more for him than for me. who noes he may be the one who killed the serial killer!.. ok so that's how our conversation ended like a few hours ago. AND NOW, she just bumped into di yi hao on the streets.. and she asked him whether he knew anything about this at all! AND GUESS WHAT, DI YI HAO ACTUALLY WITNESSED WHAT HAPPENED TO THE SERIAL KILLER ON THE NIGHT HE WAS KILLED! OHMY GOODNESSSS!!
OKAY. AND YOU NOE WAD MS LEE? hahahahahahahahahah the previous two paragraphs that i just typed out. HAPPENS TO BE A PRANK -.- i JUST found out from my friend, who found out from di yi hao that... he witnessed that the "serial killer" was just drunk on that night, and was playing with the computer in the lodge, and was typing rubbish to post on the bulletin. -.- okay.. you can ignore me now. hahahahahahhaha.
(hirowei87 is leefeng)
[7:17:44 PM] hirowei87 says: coz jus nw i met him on d street
[7:17:52 PM] angchieh says: yah then?!!?
[7:17:53 PM] hirowei87 says: den he said hello
[7:17:56 PM] hirowei87 says: ok
[7:17:58 PM] angchieh says: (nod)
[7:18:00 PM] hirowei87 says: den he told me
[7:18:08 PM] hirowei87 says: he witnessed d whole thng
[7:18:11 PM] hirowei87 says: dat nite
[7:18:13 PM] angchieh says: why he suddenly tell you about this??
[7:18:15 PM] angchieh says: did you ask him abt it/
[7:18:19 PM] hirowei87 says: ya
[7:18:25 PM] hirowei87 says: den he recalled
[7:18:29 PM] angchieh says: HE WITNESSED IT?!!!!
[7:18:30 PM] hirowei87 says: super scary
[7:18:33 PM] angchieh says: OHMYYYYYYYYYYYYY
[7:18:34 PM] hirowei87 says: YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
[7:18:41 PM] hirowei87 says: dis wat he said
[7:18:44 PM] angchieh says: OHMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
[7:18:46 PM] hirowei87 says: dat nite
[7:18:59 PM] hirowei87 says: dat Josh
[7:19:03 PM] hirowei87 says: remembr?
[7:19:10 PM] hirowei87 says: josh reees
[7:20:02 PM] angchieh says: YAH
[7:20:04 PM] hirowei87 says: he was drunk
[7:20:13 PM] hirowei87 says: in d lodge
[7:22:59 PM] angchieh says: then???
[7:23:52 PM] hirowei87 says: den he started doin silly things
[7:25:35 PM] angchieh says: like wad??
[7:25:43 PM] hirowei87 says: like
[7:25:52 PM] hirowei87 says: goin up 2 de comp
[7:25:59 PM] hirowei87 says: n started writin artcle
[7:26:09 PM] hirowei87 says: dey tried 2 stop him
[7:26:19 PM] hirowei87 says: but couldnt
[7:29:21 PM] angchieh says: HUH??
[7:29:22 PM] angchieh says: as in wad?
[7:29:56 PM] hirowei87 says: he wrote a very silly article
[7:30:04 PM] hirowei87 says: 4 d bulletin
[7:30:15 PM] angchieh says: CHEYYYY
[7:30:20 PM] angchieh says: SO THAT MEANS IT'S FAKE LA?!?!!
[7:30:29 PM] hirowei87 says: YAAAAAAAAAAAA
[7:30:33 PM] angchieh says: WU LIAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
[7:30:37 PM] angchieh says: HAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHHAA
[7:30:39 PM] angchieh says: DAMN FUNNY
HAHAHAHAAH sorry cihan i think this is super funnyyyyyyy. that's our conversation. hahahaha i was about to tell you to be always be careful and not go around alone, and be safe!! heheheheh okay, guess it's still applicable. STAY SAFE OK!! hahahahaha.
haiyohs im laughing like mad now. hahaha you lucky girl you get my first-hand and most genuine account of this story! now i read back at those 2 paragraphs and i feel so dumb hahahahha.
and sorry yayi! i made you freak out and worry too!
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
many first times in london
that famished, no-glucose, zombified feeling
bayswater pizza hut
3-hour pizza buffet
singapore v malaysia food fight
green-faced mark
14 slices of pizza!
feeling full. very very full.
cinema at whiteley's
iron man
tony stark with eyes that can speak
and that's our nice wilsonut holiday!
bayswater pizza hut
3-hour pizza buffet
singapore v malaysia food fight
green-faced mark
14 slices of pizza!
feeling full. very very full.
cinema at whiteley's
iron man
tony stark with eyes that can speak
and that's our nice wilsonut holiday!
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
faces
i was looking for a particular photo just now when i stumbled upon this special photo folder of mine! here are some of the faces i really really miss seeing.
21°C!
my past weekend was an extended one! because yesterday was bank holiday! i don't know what the holiday is for though. maybe for the banks to rest? or for them to do their accounts or something. not too sure, just that there's another one coming up soon! so nice right, totally compensates for the sad fact that the people here don't rest on labour day!
today i only had a 1 hour lecture during which i was totally lost. together with a few other coursemates, leefeng and i entered the lecture theatre in a rush after climbing up 5 storeys. it was quite embarrassing because we were late and the lecturer actually stopped talking and waited for us to settle down. after all the panting, i just let my mind drift off while the very nice lecturer just clicked on and went on slide after slide. and im serious, this lecturer's really nice! he puts in alot of effort to make sure we understand. it was just that i wasn't in the right state of mind to absorb anything he said. towards the end of the lecture leefeng and i started to notice that there's this very mysterious asian guy in our course whom we seldom see around, yet manages to, albeit very subtly, capture our attention. he's always in lectures, but never seen talking, and he doesn't doze off in class, doesn't take down notes, and always looks very engrossed and attentive during lessons. the funniest thing is, we found out that he's actually in the same lab group as us! but neither of us has ever seen him around during practicals! so invisible yet noticeable.
i like to watch people during lectures and wonder what exactly goes on in their minds when they furiously copy down whatever the lecturer says. how many are actually really listening? or are they just like me? there're those who are scribbling or doodling on their notes, and these usually look very intelligent, like they already can pre-empt what the lecturer will say next. once i saw this coursemate holding a sweet in his hand for a few minutes, just waiting for the lecturer to look away before he could grasp the opportune moment to pop the sweet in. it was quite funny watching him wait to eat his sweet. at other times, i watched how people struggle to keep awake during lectures, and how miserable they looked while trying to keep their eyes open. at times like this, i'll start thinking whether there's anyone else in the room who is doing the same thing as i am, watching the same person, thinking the same thoughts. maybe yes, maybe no, but it's just one of the many questions i'll never have the answers to.
after lecture today, 5 of us biochemists went to hyde park to bask in the sun! the weather's finally less unpredictable now. after all that snow and sudden showers, the sky has begun to clear up more, and there's more sunlight! we can start walking around in just tshirts and bermudas now! after our mini impromptu picnic, we lay down on the area near the river and enjoyed the cool breeze while taking in our dose of vitamin D from the sun! it reminded me of my trips to holland and zagreb, because those were the most recent times when i derived alot of joy from being in the sun! and so we just lay there, underneath the blue skies, surrounded by greenery, and with many other fellow "corpses" (that's what we call the european people who were also lying down on the grass; most were found to be semi-naked guys!) all over the park. it's a very nice lazy feeling, it's almost like the skies will always remain that same shade of blue, the winds will keep on blowing, and the sun will just.. keep on shining?
today i only had a 1 hour lecture during which i was totally lost. together with a few other coursemates, leefeng and i entered the lecture theatre in a rush after climbing up 5 storeys. it was quite embarrassing because we were late and the lecturer actually stopped talking and waited for us to settle down. after all the panting, i just let my mind drift off while the very nice lecturer just clicked on and went on slide after slide. and im serious, this lecturer's really nice! he puts in alot of effort to make sure we understand. it was just that i wasn't in the right state of mind to absorb anything he said. towards the end of the lecture leefeng and i started to notice that there's this very mysterious asian guy in our course whom we seldom see around, yet manages to, albeit very subtly, capture our attention. he's always in lectures, but never seen talking, and he doesn't doze off in class, doesn't take down notes, and always looks very engrossed and attentive during lessons. the funniest thing is, we found out that he's actually in the same lab group as us! but neither of us has ever seen him around during practicals! so invisible yet noticeable.
i like to watch people during lectures and wonder what exactly goes on in their minds when they furiously copy down whatever the lecturer says. how many are actually really listening? or are they just like me? there're those who are scribbling or doodling on their notes, and these usually look very intelligent, like they already can pre-empt what the lecturer will say next. once i saw this coursemate holding a sweet in his hand for a few minutes, just waiting for the lecturer to look away before he could grasp the opportune moment to pop the sweet in. it was quite funny watching him wait to eat his sweet. at other times, i watched how people struggle to keep awake during lectures, and how miserable they looked while trying to keep their eyes open. at times like this, i'll start thinking whether there's anyone else in the room who is doing the same thing as i am, watching the same person, thinking the same thoughts. maybe yes, maybe no, but it's just one of the many questions i'll never have the answers to.
after lecture today, 5 of us biochemists went to hyde park to bask in the sun! the weather's finally less unpredictable now. after all that snow and sudden showers, the sky has begun to clear up more, and there's more sunlight! we can start walking around in just tshirts and bermudas now! after our mini impromptu picnic, we lay down on the area near the river and enjoyed the cool breeze while taking in our dose of vitamin D from the sun! it reminded me of my trips to holland and zagreb, because those were the most recent times when i derived alot of joy from being in the sun! and so we just lay there, underneath the blue skies, surrounded by greenery, and with many other fellow "corpses" (that's what we call the european people who were also lying down on the grass; most were found to be semi-naked guys!) all over the park. it's a very nice lazy feeling, it's almost like the skies will always remain that same shade of blue, the winds will keep on blowing, and the sun will just.. keep on shining?
Saturday, May 03, 2008
last friends episode 4
“如果你保护美知留的话，就由我来保护你。”
“要说孤单一人的话，大家其实都一样”
how can anyone be so sweet and gentle! every little thing takeru says and does makes me feel like melting. i like how he usually doesn't say much and has that thoughtful, concerned and intent look in his eyes when he listens to other people talk. when ryuka was crying i could actually feel him feeling the pain! when he does say anything at all, it's always something deep. he's the kind of friend to whom you'll want to pour your heart, because he really listens with all his heart. i wish things were simpler so that he can be with ryuka, and they can live happily ever after.
“要说孤单一人的话，大家其实都一样”
how can anyone be so sweet and gentle! every little thing takeru says and does makes me feel like melting. i like how he usually doesn't say much and has that thoughtful, concerned and intent look in his eyes when he listens to other people talk. when ryuka was crying i could actually feel him feeling the pain! when he does say anything at all, it's always something deep. he's the kind of friend to whom you'll want to pour your heart, because he really listens with all his heart. i wish things were simpler so that he can be with ryuka, and they can live happily ever after.
Monday, April 28, 2008
1 club!
today i met qunxiang and we played bridge at young chelsea bridge club! it felt really nice meeting a friend whom i haven't seen for so long. he came to europe with a few other friends on holiday! meeting people (random singaporean strangers on holiday, friends and also my siblings) who travelled all the way from singapore to london evokes a special feeling in me. it reminds me that perhaps the geographical distance between singapore and london isn't that great a deal after all. it's the sudden remembrance that i'm just a plane ride away from home! and that particular plane happens to take off in a mere 2+ months' time! so exciting!
i almost forgot the purpose of this entry. it's that i miss bridge alot! i didn't even realize that i miss playing it that much until i saw the bidding boxes and the boards. all the memories of past bridge games came flooding my mind. im not kidding. the more i play, the more i realize how much i used to play it in the past, and how little bridge i got to play over here. today i declared some NT contracts, and i still feel apprehensive about NT contracts, especially 3NT! i won't forget how yiwen always tries to land me in 3NT contracts because i just have something against them and refuse to (or rather, i cannot) declare them properly. qunxiang's very nice because he used our ssc convention! all my bridge life i've only known ssc and i really don't know how to play the conventional ones. what a paradox. i miss counting points, memorizing cards, bidding, dummying, declaring, and even making mistakes! today i made so many stupid mistakes, but it was all so fun! i wish i had a regular partner over here to play bridge with me. i miss yiwen!
anyway, the bridge club that we went to is a really nice place. when we reached there, because i was late, the game had already started! but the people were so nice they let us join the game anyway! i think we messed up some of their pair numbers or something. they have this cool electronic system that allows us to enter our results immediately after every board. so basically we don't have to wait for anyone to key in our results manually; the rankings ladder will refresh itself after every round! at the end of all the rounds we don't even have to wait before we get our rankings. so high-tech! we also didn't need to pay for the game because we're students, and they provided the hand diagrams for everyone after the game. i like the rooftop view from the room too. i just have to lift up my head and i can see the silhouette of the trees against the sky. this evening was really very reminiscent of my bridging times in scba. if only my bridge friends can all teleport themselves over here to play with me..
i shall resolve to learn acol soon so that i can partner random strangers and play. yay this bridge club will be one of my favourite haunts in time to come!
i almost forgot the purpose of this entry. it's that i miss bridge alot! i didn't even realize that i miss playing it that much until i saw the bidding boxes and the boards. all the memories of past bridge games came flooding my mind. im not kidding. the more i play, the more i realize how much i used to play it in the past, and how little bridge i got to play over here. today i declared some NT contracts, and i still feel apprehensive about NT contracts, especially 3NT! i won't forget how yiwen always tries to land me in 3NT contracts because i just have something against them and refuse to (or rather, i cannot) declare them properly. qunxiang's very nice because he used our ssc convention! all my bridge life i've only known ssc and i really don't know how to play the conventional ones. what a paradox. i miss counting points, memorizing cards, bidding, dummying, declaring, and even making mistakes! today i made so many stupid mistakes, but it was all so fun! i wish i had a regular partner over here to play bridge with me. i miss yiwen!
anyway, the bridge club that we went to is a really nice place. when we reached there, because i was late, the game had already started! but the people were so nice they let us join the game anyway! i think we messed up some of their pair numbers or something. they have this cool electronic system that allows us to enter our results immediately after every board. so basically we don't have to wait for anyone to key in our results manually; the rankings ladder will refresh itself after every round! at the end of all the rounds we don't even have to wait before we get our rankings. so high-tech! we also didn't need to pay for the game because we're students, and they provided the hand diagrams for everyone after the game. i like the rooftop view from the room too. i just have to lift up my head and i can see the silhouette of the trees against the sky. this evening was really very reminiscent of my bridging times in scba. if only my bridge friends can all teleport themselves over here to play with me..
i shall resolve to learn acol soon so that i can partner random strangers and play. yay this bridge club will be one of my favourite haunts in time to come!
Sunday, April 27, 2008
bye bye holidays
today's the last day of my holidays! 5 weeks of easter holidays flew past just like that. i wanted to blog about my trips but i never did get down to it. maybe another time! right now im just waiting for my laundry to dry, and in another 20 minutes or so i can quickly go shower, get into bed, and have a good night's sleep before getting swept into the whirlwind of a brand new term. i feel so accomplished after completing my lab reports! they're finally done after so long. i can't recall how many times i redrew the graphs, or how many times i almost had to re-do the whole thing.
this holiday is probably one of the best i've ever had. i've met my erjie, been to many places, seen alot, experienced alot and laughed alot. i love the cobblestone streets in eastern europe, the many different skies i saw, and the good foods we savoured. i think of paris now and i remember how we lay down on the grass at night to watch the eiffel tower against the starry sky. and of course disneyland comes to mind and what can i say but that it is no doubt the happiest place on earth. i miss the sun, the sand and the sea in noordwjik. amsterdam just reminds me of red lights, weed-y air that clogs up the throat, magic mushrooms, leaning buildings, and a bunch of sneaky mickeys. it's quite overwhelming now that i think of it. so much has happened within 5 weeks, yet everything just zoomed by.
oh! time to collect my laundry!
this holiday is probably one of the best i've ever had. i've met my erjie, been to many places, seen alot, experienced alot and laughed alot. i love the cobblestone streets in eastern europe, the many different skies i saw, and the good foods we savoured. i think of paris now and i remember how we lay down on the grass at night to watch the eiffel tower against the starry sky. and of course disneyland comes to mind and what can i say but that it is no doubt the happiest place on earth. i miss the sun, the sand and the sea in noordwjik. amsterdam just reminds me of red lights, weed-y air that clogs up the throat, magic mushrooms, leaning buildings, and a bunch of sneaky mickeys. it's quite overwhelming now that i think of it. so much has happened within 5 weeks, yet everything just zoomed by.
oh! time to collect my laundry!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
telepathy
Jamie: [in English] It's my favorite time of day, driving you.
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] It's the saddest part of my day, leaving you.
it's amazing how one letter can look like it's a reply to the other, when it's not.
Aurelia: [in Portuguese] It's the saddest part of my day, leaving you.
it's amazing how one letter can look like it's a reply to the other, when it's not.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
movie quotes quiz
=P
Look up 15 of your favorite films on IMDB and take a quote from each. List them below. When someone guesses the quote correctly, cross it off the list. NO CHEATING.
Leave a comment with your answer.
the 15 quotes
1) a beautiful mind: My quest has taken me through the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional and back...
2) the pursuit of happyness: You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period.
3) 50 first dates: Hi, I'm Tom!
4) He's always chasing the pot of gold, but when he gets there, at the end of the day, it's just corn flakes.
5) love me if you dare: Tell me you love me. Tell me, because if I tell you first, I'm afraid you'll think it's a game. Save me... I beg of you.
6) a walk to remember: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too.
7) She's more real to me than anything I've ever known.
8) cars: They quit on me. When I finally got put together, I went back expecting a big welcome. You know what they said? "You're history." Moved on to the next rookie standing in line. There was a lot left in me. I never got a chance to show 'em. I keep that to remind me never to go back. I just never expected that that world would... would find me here.
9) We live, we die, and the wheels on the bus go round and round.
10) mulan: My, what beautiful blossoms we have this year. But look, this one's late. But I'll bet that when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all.
11) They say when you meet the love of your life, time stops, and that's true. What they don't tell you is that when it starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up.
12) There was a girl under the kitchen sink.
13) I'm such a big coward, all I do is hide. All of this magic is to keep everybody away. I can't stand how scared I am.
14) They look at us like we're monsters.
15) That was the last time I ever saw him. He married, of course. And inherited his millions. But the crash of '29 hit his interest hard, and he put a pistol in his mouth that year. Or so I read.
16) Do you know why you're afraid when you're alone? I do. I do.
oops too many nice movies around!
Look up 15 of your favorite films on IMDB and take a quote from each. List them below. When someone guesses the quote correctly, cross it off the list. NO CHEATING.
Leave a comment with your answer.
the 15 quotes
1) a beautiful mind: My quest has taken me through the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional and back...
2) the pursuit of happyness: You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period.
3) 50 first dates: Hi, I'm Tom!
4) He's always chasing the pot of gold, but when he gets there, at the end of the day, it's just corn flakes.
5) love me if you dare: Tell me you love me. Tell me, because if I tell you first, I'm afraid you'll think it's a game. Save me... I beg of you.
6) a walk to remember: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too.
7) She's more real to me than anything I've ever known.
8) cars: They quit on me. When I finally got put together, I went back expecting a big welcome. You know what they said? "You're history." Moved on to the next rookie standing in line. There was a lot left in me. I never got a chance to show 'em. I keep that to remind me never to go back. I just never expected that that world would... would find me here.
9) We live, we die, and the wheels on the bus go round and round.
10) mulan: My, what beautiful blossoms we have this year. But look, this one's late. But I'll bet that when it blooms, it will be the most beautiful of all.
11) They say when you meet the love of your life, time stops, and that's true. What they don't tell you is that when it starts again, it moves extra fast to catch up.
12) There was a girl under the kitchen sink.
13) I'm such a big coward, all I do is hide. All of this magic is to keep everybody away. I can't stand how scared I am.
14) They look at us like we're monsters.
15) That was the last time I ever saw him. He married, of course. And inherited his millions. But the crash of '29 hit his interest hard, and he put a pistol in his mouth that year. Or so I read.
16) Do you know why you're afraid when you're alone? I do. I do.
oops too many nice movies around!
Sunday, April 06, 2008
雪
it's snowing! again! in london! in spring!
this morning i got woken up to find out that it's snowing! it's such a nice cosy feeling to be sitting in front of your desk, facing your windows, and watching small little fluffy snowflakes fall. and slowly, gently, they gather on the roads, the grasses, the trees, the lampposts, and on your heart. everything is white now.
im using my atama no kamera to take photos of this beautiful sight.
track 18 of the proposal daisakusen soundtrack is so sad, and track 7 of the secret soundtrack is so sweet. but they both portray a snowy setting, like what is before my eyes now.
this morning i got woken up to find out that it's snowing! it's such a nice cosy feeling to be sitting in front of your desk, facing your windows, and watching small little fluffy snowflakes fall. and slowly, gently, they gather on the roads, the grasses, the trees, the lampposts, and on your heart. everything is white now.
im using my atama no kamera to take photos of this beautiful sight.
track 18 of the proposal daisakusen soundtrack is so sad, and track 7 of the secret soundtrack is so sweet. but they both portray a snowy setting, like what is before my eyes now.
Saturday, April 05, 2008
travel log part 0: the prelude
i feel far too lazy and sleepy to work on my lab report! so much so that i actually feel less lazy about blogging. i was away in eastern europe for 12 days! from 22nd march to 2nd april, i was travelling around prague, vienna, budapest, bratislava, zagreb and ljubljana. for a complete account of the trip, you can refer to twinnie's blog because i have this feeling that my blogging interest will not sustain! nonetheless, i guess i should also put in some effort to do some sort of travel log cum reflections about this trip, so here is part 0 - the prelude.
before we set off on our exciting eastern europe easter excursion (don't you just love alliteration?), a series of unfortunate events unfolded before our very eyes. somehow, things just go very wrong whenever the two of us - twinnie and i - are together. so as usual, we are already very accustomed to being jinxed by each other and we have learnt to accept things the way they are, i think. i bet twinnie will think it's just me jinxing her though. but never mind! i think the trials and tribulations that we have conquered are very blog-worthy, so here's a list that we came up with on our bus ride from victoria to luton airport, just before we embarked on our journey to those foreign lands.
i suppose i should give a little background to the situation before introducing the ultimate list. before our trip, twinnie was staying with me for a couple of days. we had quite a few things to sort out before the trip, which included planning itineraries for prague, vienna and budapest since my sister and bernie kor were in charge of the other places. twinnie also had to change money and i had a few errands of my own to settle. you can never imagine what obstacles there were in our way to stop us from achieving our simple aims..
a series of unfortunate events
commenced on 21st march, the day before we left london
1) internet 爆!
my internet bandwidth exceeded! i don't know how it happened, but i've never encountered such problems since i've been here! it must have been the loading and re-loading of nodame special. (by the way, nodame special is nice! but i just watched proposal daisakusen special yesterday and it is even nicer! so sweet!) okay, putting the cause of this problem aside, this single event was the catalyst that sparked off the following spate of horrible incidents. without internet access, how were we supposed to plan our itineraries? and how were we supposed to be able to print out all the flight confirmation slips, etc etc?
2) money changer + post office
twinnie went to the money changer only to find out that she didn't have the correct amount of pounds to exchange to euros. the daily withdrawal limit is 250pounds, but we needed at least 400? where to get the money?
i was supposed to get to the post office to post cihan's birthday parcel in time, but on that fateful day, by the time i was free to go to the post office, it was already closed.
3) cans "opener"
hahahaha i think this must be our greatest achievement ever! we actually used butter knives, you know those kind you use to spread butter on bread, to open cans of sausages and tuna! don't ask me why it was done. i can teach you how to do it though! can openers are not indispensable!
4) laundry
i think it took me 100000 years to wash those clothes and get them dry before i could pack them into my luggage.
5) low cartridge
after having to bother my roommate jess and borrowing her lan cable to use for a while, we had internet access to do a little bit of the itineraries and start printing the confirmation slips! that's a little bit of progress. but then my printer became tired out and was too lazy to churn out the ink..
6) internet 再爆!
there were still many loose ends left untied on the night of 21st, and we had to get everything done before 10am the next day! so we decided to wake up a little earlier on our day of departure, so that we can use jess' internet to finish up with everything. then we found out that. her. bandwidth. was. exceeded. too. oh. my.
7) printer died
my printer decided to give up.
8) hairband broke
twinnie's hairband broke. this might be considered too trivial to be placed on this list, but by this point in time, with the amplification of our emotions (it's the ku xiao bu de feeling), this was already considered a major disaster.
9) bus 36 ignored us
we missed our first bus from my hall to victoria, and we almost didn't manage to catch our bus to luton airport. the key word is "almost" though!
10) hz almost got knocked down. phew!
by now, what can i say. im just very glad that she's alive. in retrospect, being seated here in front of my laptop and being able to laugh at this series of unfortunate events, im very very happy and proud that all of us are still safe and sound after this entire trip. yatta!
the end.
before we set off on our exciting eastern europe easter excursion (don't you just love alliteration?), a series of unfortunate events unfolded before our very eyes. somehow, things just go very wrong whenever the two of us - twinnie and i - are together. so as usual, we are already very accustomed to being jinxed by each other and we have learnt to accept things the way they are, i think. i bet twinnie will think it's just me jinxing her though. but never mind! i think the trials and tribulations that we have conquered are very blog-worthy, so here's a list that we came up with on our bus ride from victoria to luton airport, just before we embarked on our journey to those foreign lands.
i suppose i should give a little background to the situation before introducing the ultimate list. before our trip, twinnie was staying with me for a couple of days. we had quite a few things to sort out before the trip, which included planning itineraries for prague, vienna and budapest since my sister and bernie kor were in charge of the other places. twinnie also had to change money and i had a few errands of my own to settle. you can never imagine what obstacles there were in our way to stop us from achieving our simple aims..
a series of unfortunate events
commenced on 21st march, the day before we left london
1) internet 爆!
my internet bandwidth exceeded! i don't know how it happened, but i've never encountered such problems since i've been here! it must have been the loading and re-loading of nodame special. (by the way, nodame special is nice! but i just watched proposal daisakusen special yesterday and it is even nicer! so sweet!) okay, putting the cause of this problem aside, this single event was the catalyst that sparked off the following spate of horrible incidents. without internet access, how were we supposed to plan our itineraries? and how were we supposed to be able to print out all the flight confirmation slips, etc etc?
2) money changer + post office
twinnie went to the money changer only to find out that she didn't have the correct amount of pounds to exchange to euros. the daily withdrawal limit is 250pounds, but we needed at least 400? where to get the money?
i was supposed to get to the post office to post cihan's birthday parcel in time, but on that fateful day, by the time i was free to go to the post office, it was already closed.
3) cans "opener"
hahahaha i think this must be our greatest achievement ever! we actually used butter knives, you know those kind you use to spread butter on bread, to open cans of sausages and tuna! don't ask me why it was done. i can teach you how to do it though! can openers are not indispensable!
4) laundry
i think it took me 100000 years to wash those clothes and get them dry before i could pack them into my luggage.
5) low cartridge
after having to bother my roommate jess and borrowing her lan cable to use for a while, we had internet access to do a little bit of the itineraries and start printing the confirmation slips! that's a little bit of progress. but then my printer became tired out and was too lazy to churn out the ink..
6) internet 再爆!
there were still many loose ends left untied on the night of 21st, and we had to get everything done before 10am the next day! so we decided to wake up a little earlier on our day of departure, so that we can use jess' internet to finish up with everything. then we found out that. her. bandwidth. was. exceeded. too. oh. my.
7) printer died
my printer decided to give up.
8) hairband broke
twinnie's hairband broke. this might be considered too trivial to be placed on this list, but by this point in time, with the amplification of our emotions (it's the ku xiao bu de feeling), this was already considered a major disaster.
9) bus 36 ignored us
we missed our first bus from my hall to victoria, and we almost didn't manage to catch our bus to luton airport. the key word is "almost" though!
10) hz almost got knocked down. phew!
by now, what can i say. im just very glad that she's alive. in retrospect, being seated here in front of my laptop and being able to laugh at this series of unfortunate events, im very very happy and proud that all of us are still safe and sound after this entire trip. yatta!
the end.
Thursday, March 06, 2008
page 966
today my lectures ended earlier than expected! while the lecturer was going on about general enzymology, i realized how little i knew about enzyme kinetics and the likes of it. there were pretty cute names that came to my attention too, like the "bi-bi" reaction (which cracked us up the first time the lecturer enunciated those words) and the "ping-pong" mechanism. i wish i can say more about what i learnt today, but sadly i didn't notice anything other than these names and the many evil-looking graphs that bombarded our notes. now im back in hall and trying, rather fruitlessly, to read up on microtubules and cancer so that i can finish my essay as soon as possible. i've got to be back in school in 4 hours' time for rehearsal, and i feel so lazy and sleepy right now. this entry's one of my attempts to keep myself awake. just a while ago i stuffed myself with yoghurt so that i can have something to savour as i do my work. unfortunately all the blood in my brain has been channelled to my stomach now! is there any scientific basis for this by the way? i think there is. because im actually starting to feel even sleepier than before.
i took a couple of photos on my way back from school today because it was such a nice feeling to take in the beautiful sights of hyde park all over again, in another light. the balding trees are disappearing as leaves and flowers start to make their presence seen and felt all over. i like how the emo-nemo setting that prevailed during winter is slowly being replaced by spring's veil of lively colours.
pretty flowers in bloom
i was reading page 966 of my textbook yesterday. it has already been 1 hour since i started reading today, and im still stuck reading the same page. i choose to believe the problem lies with the book, not with me. the words are really microscopic! what to do, i think i have to get used to this. after all, the whole chapter is about stuff that can't even be seen by the naked eye.
i took a couple of photos on my way back from school today because it was such a nice feeling to take in the beautiful sights of hyde park all over again, in another light. the balding trees are disappearing as leaves and flowers start to make their presence seen and felt all over. i like how the emo-nemo setting that prevailed during winter is slowly being replaced by spring's veil of lively colours.
pretty flowers in bloomi was reading page 966 of my textbook yesterday. it has already been 1 hour since i started reading today, and im still stuck reading the same page. i choose to believe the problem lies with the book, not with me. the words are really microscopic! what to do, i think i have to get used to this. after all, the whole chapter is about stuff that can't even be seen by the naked eye.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
feeling random
i really don't have affinity with electrical appliances, electronic stuff and things like that. first it's my dead handphone, which in turn led to other complications. now that there's a stuck pin in one of the two sockets near my desk, i can't charge my laptop and use my table lamp simultaneously! with this, work efficiency drops as i have to bring my textbook to somewhere in the room with sufficient light, read a few paragraphs, find the main points, then walk back to my desk and work on my essay. but regretfully, this scenario is only what i envision in my mind, because i haven't even got down to reading my textbook! given a choice between using my laptop and reading my textbook, i'll definitely choose (and i did) the former. yet another reason why i should see technology as my enemy. it's so ironic that i'm blogging while complaining about technology. maybe, just for this one instance, twinnie is right about irony being evil.
now back to my bad luck with all these gadgets. recently my defiant mouse (which originally loves double-clicking all the time) has decided to become even more rebellious! now it goes on strike and refuses to move my cursor whenever it feels like it, and i'm really not used to using the touchpad! clicking the buttons makes so much noise, and i want to use my mouse to draw grafitti and play my computer games!
仿佛你在哪里，光就在哪里.
xiang qin's words keep ringing in my head for some reason.
sometimes i think we do and say certain things that may not be entirely reflective of our inner thoughts and emotions because we hope for things to turn out well for everyone. it may be seen as hypocrisy, to express emotions that aren't really coherent with what you feel. yet what if there really isn't any other way to deal with the situation? if putting up a show does make another feel better, is it still wrong to pretend? what do we live for if not to make life less difficult for each other? in the first place maybe "hypocrisy" shouldn't have that negative connotation. im writing this probably in a bid to convince someone of another of my warped theories. i'm quite lost on what i'm trying to convey now, and of course i still value genuineness and the importance of being true to oneself, but we shouldn't blame ourselves at times when situations and circumstances prove otherwise. to quote my roommate jess, life happens. at least at the end, the other person is happy, and that is a source of comfort, if not happiness, for the one who had to feign her attitude. right?
because human beings are endowed with brains, it is impossible for hypocrisy to be annihilated. because we think for others, we end up lying through our faces, our words, our actions. can this be forgiven? but then again, this whole chunk sounds like some noble excuse for putting on a facade. oh no.
now back to my bad luck with all these gadgets. recently my defiant mouse (which originally loves double-clicking all the time) has decided to become even more rebellious! now it goes on strike and refuses to move my cursor whenever it feels like it, and i'm really not used to using the touchpad! clicking the buttons makes so much noise, and i want to use my mouse to draw grafitti and play my computer games!
仿佛你在哪里，光就在哪里.
xiang qin's words keep ringing in my head for some reason.
sometimes i think we do and say certain things that may not be entirely reflective of our inner thoughts and emotions because we hope for things to turn out well for everyone. it may be seen as hypocrisy, to express emotions that aren't really coherent with what you feel. yet what if there really isn't any other way to deal with the situation? if putting up a show does make another feel better, is it still wrong to pretend? what do we live for if not to make life less difficult for each other? in the first place maybe "hypocrisy" shouldn't have that negative connotation. im writing this probably in a bid to convince someone of another of my warped theories. i'm quite lost on what i'm trying to convey now, and of course i still value genuineness and the importance of being true to oneself, but we shouldn't blame ourselves at times when situations and circumstances prove otherwise. to quote my roommate jess, life happens. at least at the end, the other person is happy, and that is a source of comfort, if not happiness, for the one who had to feign her attitude. right?
because human beings are endowed with brains, it is impossible for hypocrisy to be annihilated. because we think for others, we end up lying through our faces, our words, our actions. can this be forgiven? but then again, this whole chunk sounds like some noble excuse for putting on a facade. oh no.
Monday, March 03, 2008
happy sunday
i love sundays! today i:
- had brunch in hall for the first time in what seemed like a million years
- skyped with my family! well to be exact, we webcammed over msn, and i showed mama many many photos!
sunday is still family day!
- finally confirmed travelling dates and booked air tickets for easter trip with erjie and bernie kor! twinnie is joining us too! we're going to prague, austria, budapest and two other places with funny spellings that i can't pronounce and can't remember
erjie and bernie kor. honestly i didn't know what they were posing for, but i did a printscreen anyway!
- managed to revive my spare phone, at the expense of spoiling the 3-pin plug of the charger. i have no idea how it happened, but now one of the pins is permanently stuck in the socket!
- had a happy and hearty meal with huixuan and twinnie at misato (also made the discovery that only imperial students get free drinks over there!) and i still find it incredible how the two can stand my hopeless sense of direction
- came home to find a bottle of homemade barley sitting on my desk, and am happily chewing on the barley seeds now
it's 12.41am now and i don't want my sunday to end. the past 2 weeks or so had passed by so quickly it was almost as insanely fast as thorpe park's stealth. exaggeration aside, the feeling of not being in control applies to both. it's like dumping yourself in the first carriage of a rollercoaster, then leaving everything to the mechanics of the machinery. life has been so hectic with hwachong night preparations, rehearsals for imperial singsoc major event and schoolwork. time's passing by so quickly the nights seem to get longer though winter's been gone for quite a long time now. every night i sleep so late and so little; somehow whenever i get really tired i'll recall how i endured guides camp debriefs and find some energy to keep my eyes open. at the back of my mind, i know that it'll be the easter holidays in no time, and im really looking forward to seeing erjie and having an awesome holiday!
as much as i want to update about what exactly has been going on in my life, my eyes are closing. i have to sleep now because the week ahead will be really busy as well! in the meantime, to everyone who's stressed, troubled, or wishing for a long coma, hang in there. we're all in this together!
- had brunch in hall for the first time in what seemed like a million years
- skyped with my family! well to be exact, we webcammed over msn, and i showed mama many many photos!
sunday is still family day!- finally confirmed travelling dates and booked air tickets for easter trip with erjie and bernie kor! twinnie is joining us too! we're going to prague, austria, budapest and two other places with funny spellings that i can't pronounce and can't remember
erjie and bernie kor. honestly i didn't know what they were posing for, but i did a printscreen anyway!- managed to revive my spare phone, at the expense of spoiling the 3-pin plug of the charger. i have no idea how it happened, but now one of the pins is permanently stuck in the socket!
- had a happy and hearty meal with huixuan and twinnie at misato (also made the discovery that only imperial students get free drinks over there!) and i still find it incredible how the two can stand my hopeless sense of direction
- came home to find a bottle of homemade barley sitting on my desk, and am happily chewing on the barley seeds now
it's 12.41am now and i don't want my sunday to end. the past 2 weeks or so had passed by so quickly it was almost as insanely fast as thorpe park's stealth. exaggeration aside, the feeling of not being in control applies to both. it's like dumping yourself in the first carriage of a rollercoaster, then leaving everything to the mechanics of the machinery. life has been so hectic with hwachong night preparations, rehearsals for imperial singsoc major event and schoolwork. time's passing by so quickly the nights seem to get longer though winter's been gone for quite a long time now. every night i sleep so late and so little; somehow whenever i get really tired i'll recall how i endured guides camp debriefs and find some energy to keep my eyes open. at the back of my mind, i know that it'll be the easter holidays in no time, and im really looking forward to seeing erjie and having an awesome holiday!
as much as i want to update about what exactly has been going on in my life, my eyes are closing. i have to sleep now because the week ahead will be really busy as well! in the meantime, to everyone who's stressed, troubled, or wishing for a long coma, hang in there. we're all in this together!
Thursday, February 14, 2008
phosphofructokinase hexokinase pyruvate carboxylase..
note to self: jiayou jiayou jiayou!and happy valentine's day :)
Thursday, February 07, 2008
新年快乐
it's funny. i had been checking my mailbox religiously for the past few days in anticipation of dear crabby's letter to me. after a few days of checking, i began to lose hope and thought that the letter was probably lost for good. yet somehow, i never stopped checking. today was weird. i woke up a while ago and suddenly had this urge to check my mail again, despite the fact that i already checked it this afternoon. by right there still shouldn't be any mails for me since postmen don't work at night, do they? but by left, i did find something addressed to me this time, and no, it's not because mr. postman works at night, but because my card was placed in the wrong box! this really reminds me of the day when i suddenly rushed to the tv room and found, much to my pleasant surprise, a birthday card sitting there waiting for me!
thank you crabby, i finally received the new year card, and it really made me laugh and smile so much!
"i'm sorry that there's nothing much i can do for you"
"but at least you're with me, right?"
"i feel lost"
"it's ok. i don't even know if i was ever found"
im so grateful today, to all the people around me. to my roommate jess, thank you for the towel, the porridge, and the soup. i was really feverishly happy!
and so, it's been a warm, sweet and happy chu yi :)
thank you crabby, i finally received the new year card, and it really made me laugh and smile so much!
"i'm sorry that there's nothing much i can do for you"
"but at least you're with me, right?"
"i feel lost"
"it's ok. i don't even know if i was ever found"
im so grateful today, to all the people around me. to my roommate jess, thank you for the towel, the porridge, and the soup. i was really feverishly happy!
and so, it's been a warm, sweet and happy chu yi :)
Sunday, February 03, 2008
Thursday, January 31, 2008
one month into the new year
i just wanted to blog so that i can remember how amazing today's lunchtime concert was. gary ryan, the guitarist who performed, was so fantastically brilliant! all of us especially enjoyed the encore piece, which he composed after he brought his daughter out to the sea for the first time. he said it was a very nostalgic piece for him, and to me, his music certainly drew out the sweet beauty of his memories. i can't exactly describe what it feels like, to take in the euphonic melodies that resounded throughout the entire lecture theatre, and to experience that magic in the air, but somehow listening to that piece made me feel like crying. there was this sadness underlying the harmonious tunes; perhaps memories are always associated with that same tinge of melancholy.
it was ephemeral, yet impeccable. a pity i'll probably never ever hear this same piece of music again in my entire life, but i guess the knowledge that i was listening to something for the first and possibly last time made it even more captivating.
so today's a great day! apart from how sleepy i was during the morning lectures, the lunchtime concert saved me from being sleepy for the rest of the day! im very proud of myself because i managed to memorize the structures of my 20 amino acids today! today also marks the start of a 2-week study break for me. don't be envious, i'm supposed to be mugging for my exam! there's an awful lot to study, i don't know where to begin, and for now i just hope i'll still remember my 20 amino acids when i wake up tomorrow morning.
it was ephemeral, yet impeccable. a pity i'll probably never ever hear this same piece of music again in my entire life, but i guess the knowledge that i was listening to something for the first and possibly last time made it even more captivating.
so today's a great day! apart from how sleepy i was during the morning lectures, the lunchtime concert saved me from being sleepy for the rest of the day! im very proud of myself because i managed to memorize the structures of my 20 amino acids today! today also marks the start of a 2-week study break for me. don't be envious, i'm supposed to be mugging for my exam! there's an awful lot to study, i don't know where to begin, and for now i just hope i'll still remember my 20 amino acids when i wake up tomorrow morning.
Monday, January 28, 2008
wassup yo!
im so happy now i can't stop grinning like an idiot! today i received a huge parcel from my beloved friends cihan and ze! im so incredibly touched! i wish i can scream and laugh and hug them like crazy at this instant, but for the time being, i guess shall just be content with hugging my silly little friend and basking in this ineffable bliss.
this is my very own furry friend! it's name is "wassup yo" and it's now hiding behind me and peeping at my laptop screen! i think i sound a little insane, but i really miss having stuffed toys around! i know some people who dislike receiving stuffed toys as presents, because they think these things serve no purpose other than to collect dust, really. i think at some point in time, probably when i didn't know where to store the toys, i also shared the same sentiments that they were truly impractical. but right now, i can't really comprehend how i could have ever thought these things were useless! the fun of playing with an adorable stuffed toy and hugging it makes me feel so happy; it's more than i can ask for!
when i saw the description on the parcel which indicated that the box contained 1 card, 1 stuffed toy and 2 pieces of clothings, i thought the two crazy girls bought clothes for me! but it turned out that they bought clothes for wassup yo! so cool, i can go back to the old primary school barbie days and change clothes for my toy!
HAHAHA. it's so very cute and funny! i love it so much i'll hug it to sleep every night. then i'll have nice sweet dreams that will teleport me back home every night.
this is my very own furry friend! it's name is "wassup yo" and it's now hiding behind me and peeping at my laptop screen! i think i sound a little insane, but i really miss having stuffed toys around! i know some people who dislike receiving stuffed toys as presents, because they think these things serve no purpose other than to collect dust, really. i think at some point in time, probably when i didn't know where to store the toys, i also shared the same sentiments that they were truly impractical. but right now, i can't really comprehend how i could have ever thought these things were useless! the fun of playing with an adorable stuffed toy and hugging it makes me feel so happy; it's more than i can ask for!when i saw the description on the parcel which indicated that the box contained 1 card, 1 stuffed toy and 2 pieces of clothings, i thought the two crazy girls bought clothes for me! but it turned out that they bought clothes for wassup yo! so cool, i can go back to the old primary school barbie days and change clothes for my toy!
HAHAHA. it's so very cute and funny! i love it so much i'll hug it to sleep every night. then i'll have nice sweet dreams that will teleport me back home every night.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
risk
just for the record, im still awake at this hour!
vision blurred, eyelids heavy, and severely brain dead..
i think the sun is rising soon.
vision blurred, eyelids heavy, and severely brain dead..
i think the sun is rising soon.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
A B C D or E?
Each question has five possible answers, A-E. One or more of these answers may be correct. If there are x correct answers and y incorrect answers then the score for each correct answer is +(100/x)% and the score for each incorrect answer is -(100/y)%. Negative scores are possible for each question. If there is an overall negative mark for the test, it will be rounded up to 0%. This means that if you select every correct answer you score 100% and if you select all the answers you score zero. You get partial credit for a partially correct answer.
i've never liked doing mcqs, because i always make the wrong guesses. but now it's worse than before! it can be A and B, B and C, CD, DE, ABC, BCD, CDE, ABCD, BCDE.. there are so many combinations that i don't even dare to work out the probability of scoring 100% for each question. maybe it's easier to just flip my coin 5 times to get my answers! argh, this reminds me of that day when woon and i were busy wasting our time trying to find out whether our lab report was due later, instead of rushing the report itself. i know i should be working on my mcqs instead of fiddling with wild guesses and probabilities. but i have utterly warped priorities, and i still can't overcome the inertia of slacking and get down to proper work. i feel like sleeping again!
i've never liked doing mcqs, because i always make the wrong guesses. but now it's worse than before! it can be A and B, B and C, CD, DE, ABC, BCD, CDE, ABCD, BCDE.. there are so many combinations that i don't even dare to work out the probability of scoring 100% for each question. maybe it's easier to just flip my coin 5 times to get my answers! argh, this reminds me of that day when woon and i were busy wasting our time trying to find out whether our lab report was due later, instead of rushing the report itself. i know i should be working on my mcqs instead of fiddling with wild guesses and probabilities. but i have utterly warped priorities, and i still can't overcome the inertia of slacking and get down to proper work. i feel like sleeping again!
Friday, January 04, 2008
let it snow
Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering
-Paulo Coelho
i feel bad for not knowing what to say or do to make things better, for passing my bad luck to the people around me, and for not taking good care of some of the most irreplaceable things in my life.
it's been so cold lately. why hasn't it started snowing yet? let it snow, let it snow.
-Paulo Coelho
i feel bad for not knowing what to say or do to make things better, for passing my bad luck to the people around me, and for not taking good care of some of the most irreplaceable things in my life.
it's been so cold lately. why hasn't it started snowing yet? let it snow, let it snow.
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