After undergoing deep thoughts, i finally understand why SWO members are all single... actually i believe this problem do not just exist in SWO... all bands have the same problem... this is al because of some bloody curse thatevery musicians experienced...


Curse 1
Musicians are very busy people... don't ask why but things just work this way... musicians are so busy that they don't have time for BGR... even if the do, the opposite party would not understand how busy we are unless they themselves are musicians... this makes musicians single for life...

Curse 2
If musicians ever get married and have a child, there are 2 possibilities... Firstly, if a musician and non-musician elope, the child have a 50-50 chance of becoming musically interested... if the child is interested in music, the curse repeats... Secondly, if both parents have a music background, the child has a 100% chance of having music interest... this will repeat the curse immidiately...


Not a nice experience i see... but what can i do... i am in already... an interest has become a passion... what is left to be done?

A solo work is nothing to be taken lightly... i had put n much effort for the past week and yet when i am in front of the band, i sounded terrible... the worst part is that got lost and missed half the piece and yet the conductor did not scold me... i feel really bad... i must really work myself now... i can't let the band and Mr Ng down... and i believe i breathe too hard today... i took a breath of deep that my stomach experience some chemical reaction... it felt as if my intestines were pushed forward... damn uncomfortable... the rest of the practise i did not dare to take a breath too deep... haiz... tomorrow go intensive practise already... not time to waste...

I'm playing my solo tomorrow... damn stressed... the worst part is that my lip cracked yesterday during SWO practise... its damn painful... today still have to repair instrument... how to practise... my allergy reaction from the prom night seafood is still not over yet... my lips are not in a good shape... what luck... hope i dont mess up tomorrow...

I was bored last night... and i was thinking about my friends... so i thought of some poems... please pardon the armature compositin... i only spent less than 5 minutes on these poems...


Oliver Oliver Oliver,
What a bloody idiotic no-brainer,
When he becomes your friend,
Your life will come to an end.


Oliver Oliver Oliver,
Why are you so horrible,
The sight of you is horrible,
I wish you were vegetable.


Wei Seng, Wei Seng, Wei Seng,
Your belly looks like jelly,
I know you feel corny,
But please don't be horny.


I'm real sorry if i had hurt your feelings with this poem, but i am open to critics... so if you want, you can write a poem about me... or insult me in my tag board... and if you want me to write a poem about you, just let me know through any media... just give me some time... and a poem about you will appear here...

I feel like a failure... i screwed up the sony ericsson programmes... i only read the instructons after the problem arises... what an idiot... all my prom night photos are saved in my phone memory and now i cant get them out... cant blog about the prom night till the problem is solved...


Sectinals today... i have guilt... Hongki, Yishan, Abigail, Kai Ling and Marcus went to practise their musical thing... i was asked to take sectionals... but i failed to do so when i reached my limit and just walk off from the sectionals... i was damn angry... the section was very uncooperative... i was putting alot of effort but the section was not responding... not forgetting, i need my practise... so i just told them in their face that they are wasting my time and i left to find the SLs... for some reason, i used valgarities while talking to Hongki... i feel damn bad... i just could not control myself... i went back to the section and grab my stuff... then i just isolate myself and practise alone... i practised aone till Mr. Kok asked me to cool down and take sectionals... i really feel damn bad... i wasted the section's practise time... after the musical thing ended, Yishan did not dare to come down... Abigail told me thatshe was afraid of me... am i really that scary?

i really dont understand why people want to make me angry... i don't like getting... i hate the feeling when my blood boils... i get violent thoughts and i don't want to hurt anyone... i use vulgarities when i speak... i don't lke all this shit... i always supress my anger... i dare admit that i happen to be a little more hot tempered after the 'O's... i don't know why but i just happens... base on the book , hot tempered people has lots of weakness... i have no plans in joining those failures... but it looks like i am one of them now...

A place where you'll watch animals do nothing but eat and shit... for some unknown reason, my parents have a sudden interest in going to the zoo and the bird park... damn... its gonna be damn boring... and bro agreed with me too... its a great waste of time... why can't my parents think more lke an adult... why the zoo of all places?

Then again, i've came up with a back up plan for entertainment if i ever go to the zoo... i bring along those toy pistols which shot beads... then gun the bloody animals down... watch them run for their lives as they are locked in their enclosure... it will be more exciting when shooting birds... you get to watch the bird fall... if i ever go to the night safari, i'll use my camera flash to aggitate the animals... then there will be another/some newspaper report(s) on animals attacking their keepers... sounds exciting... but it wil be better if the toy pistol has a rapid-fire function...

I just realised how much i love animals... love torturing animals...

Why didn't that old man make a website about his works before he died... now i am having so much trouble doing a research on my solo piece... maybe he is just an IT idiot like me...


Anyway, i made a pact with Mr Ng that i'll be playing my solo with the band on the next tuesday... the days are passing fast... and my lips are in bad shape for playing a clarient... due to the lack of practise, my embrosure was in a pretty bad shape and i've been biting too hard... without my knowing, an ucler broke out... now i am still pushing myself to practise...

Its not easy being a soloist... i have to start jogging weekly to train my stamina... i have to practise everyday, and i have to watch my health... Mr Ng still asked me to do a research on my solo piece and talk to the band about it, so as to have a better understanding of the piece... at the same time, the band will know how i want the piece to be... there is just so much to do and so little time... i hope i'll be ready for tuesday...


Anyway, today is my prom night... i hope it will be nice... a group of my friends went to buy blazers... haha... they are gonna be damn formal... and a got a new phone in time... two-in-one... phone-cum-camera... i can put it to full use today... oliver better watch out... now i can take a video for longer than 30 seconds... i haven't really used the phone to take any photos yet... the best part is that my phone has a red-eye reduction function... it means a double flash... i can blind idiots... request for a self portrait together... put the near our faces and i just keep my eye close... haha... i fooled my bro and i can fool another/some idiot(s) today... haha...

Its a pity that i have to call off my hit-and-run plans... i just realised that i am at a legal age of being jailed... furthermore, i be dressed so nicely... i don't want to spoil my gentlemen image, if i ever had any... i'll still find my own entertainment... i think i'll post all the pictures of the blind idiots on my blog... i like their facial expression... haha... i bet you'll laugh too...

Freedom!!! 'O' Levels had come to an end... lots of pain and suffering in between... had lots of fun studying with my friends too... too bad i lost an A for my A. Maths... so heartbreaking... paper 1 did so well, paper 2 like shit... lost just enough marks to get a B3... so sad... i was so damn depressed... that day... haiz... now all i can do is pray for the better...


During the 'O's i found many things... ALL my POA notes in my bro's cupboard... my Angels and Demons noval in my sis's cupboard... damn these people are trying to get me into trouble... i only find my notes 2 days before the paper... and i had lost my book at home for over months... damn happy...


Two days ago, my brother and i put money together to buy a bass guitar... although my mum paid it for us first, i had no plans to return her the money... till the day she ask me for it... the usual self... my brother spent about 6 months just to get $25 out of me... anyway, this is it...



sexy right... i choose the guitar... and i tried it out... damn nice... now i can play my orion bass part... and special thanks to those people who tell me the place to buy guitar is Peninsula Plaza... YOU GUYS GOT THE PLACE WRONG!!! the Peninsula Plaza is some Indian wonderland!!! all the indian stuff over there... the right place is Peninsula Shopping Mall... the basement has 4 guitar shops... damn well equiped... now my bro is learning to play the guitar... gonna jam with him sometime soon...

Good luck to all 1990 babies for the next two and a half weeks... you'll need it...


By the way, STEVE VAI ROCKS!!!

While studying at mac with Oliver and Jialan, notice something on the window... mac has made a drastic change in their marketing strategy... they are give out piccolos with every purchase of a happy meal... it was even in their display window!!!



PICCOLOS UP FOR GRABS!!!

This Chick is damn HOT/CUTE!!! i think she looked 100x better on the magazine!!! i really want to be her friend... or even more!!! i really can't believe that she is just 5 years older than me!!! 16+5=21!!! i'll take older girls if they don't give me any choice...




This one is damn PRETTY!!! super FEMININE!!! this one i also want!!! then again, 100x better on the magazine...i don't know her age... but whatever it is, i can always make exceptions... if i am given a choice again...

Wei Seng is not man... he don't like the show and he say the girls are so-so only...

I am damn confuse now... i was studying like fuck just now in school alone... when i took a break from social studies, to visit my section... after that visit i feel pretty disappointed... haiz... no point worrying abt them now... 'O's is just two days away...


Had lots of fun before starting to studying today... Oliver tried to be a paparazzi... he chased Xing Xian and Sojini around the school taking photos of the scandales couple... damn funny... he went through thick and thin just to take their photos... total he took about 20 photos of the the couple... there was once the sneaked up on Xing Xian and caught him by suprise...


I'm with Kim Chuan at the table on the bottom-right of the picture...

And i have another video of Oliver being an idiot... damn funny... the nasi padang stall uncle gave Oliver specially lot of chilli... we claimed that the uncle like him thats why he received specially lot of chilli... we asked him to eat the chilli to prove his innocence... and he really did...


Special thanks to Km Chuan for video

Now this fool is damn afraid of me an my cameras(with help of other people)... time to get a phone with a better camera...

Message specially to Oliver:
Hey moron... you think u can run from me? if that is so, you are damn wrong... what dirty methods you used to get rid of the video... the more you try to run from me, the more i'll come on you... so beware... in case you were wondering how i got the video back after you deleted the video... remember this... always make sure there is a spare copy of it with someone else... you can never out-smart me... you can run, but i'll be hiding...

I have a big dream, a big goal, but a small brain... i must go JC at whatever cost... but i am fearing the worst... i have not a single back-up plan... i might not be able to beat my bro... its just too far...i must go JC...i need this stepping stone to be who i want to be...failure is not an option... my studying stamina is dying... i can't study for more than 4hrs consecutively... i feel damn bad... my brain dies so easily... just like today...i only studied for 4hrs at KB Mac... POA can kill... 3hrs for 2 questions... i even had second thoughts on studying Social Studies... i only did and hour of geography...i think i spent too much time on A. Maths... i did all the premutations questions in the TYS in 2 days... now i can do permutation like fuck... but that is only 1 chapter out of 7 subjects... what the hell did i do to myself... now i fear E. Maths and POA... now they are becoming my weakest topics... Social Studies and Geography only takes up a little part of my mind... fear of a lack of time on the English papers... A. Maths still have stones unturned... what am i going to do with just 3 days left...

Enough with my worries... i was studying at KB Mac again when something happened that kept me thinking... a bounch of St. Nic girls were at mac... all in some sort of PE attire.... but for some reason, their shorts were damn short... it looked as if they were sluts... a girl walked past me and an aromatic feminine smell followed along... it got my attention, but i was put into a deep thought... why do girls want to doll themselves up so much? when they get raped or molested, the accuse is all to blame... have any girl ever thought that if they did not doll up so much and dress so scandalously, would anyone be so attracted to them and loose control of themselves? i dare admit that it would be the accuse is at fault too, but the girl be partially at fault too... i am not saying all this because i am planning a rape or whatsoever... i am not that tpye... but i am just damn curious on why do people what to put themselves in a dangerous position and risk hurting themselves...