Damn damn sian. I don't know why, i just can't stop thinking. Haiz. I even had dreams of it in my sleep. Got a hint on the name and i woke up from my sleep. I woke up thinking of trying to find the name, but it was in the middle of the night. I tried to go back to sleep but i was very afraid i would forget the name. In the end i managed to fall back to sleep. First thing i did when i wake up was to search the name. Any clue would be worth a try. Whether it helps or not. Haiz. It's everything that's on my mind. There's one verse from a song that could express the exact feelings i'm experiencing right now. Maybe that would explain why i keep on singing the song for the past 2 days. Haiz.


A Lonely September
Plain White T's

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind


Tried not to waste my day today. Played the guitar singing the sad song and others over and over again. Before that, i tested my sewing skills. Tried to make a little ribbon like thing to decorate the wine bottle for YanQin. In the end the ribbon came off when i took it off the bottle. Damn sad. 1 hour of effort wasted. I even dropped the whole container of needles on the grey floor. Had to use my super vision to locate all the fallen needles. Haha. Hope nobody gets hurt if i've left a needle out. Haha.


Headed out of home early. Walked to Esplanade. The exhibits are all still the same so i decided to walk else where. Walked to the merlion and enjoyed the sound of the sea. After i got bored, i headed for Marina Square. Walked about till YanQin and Vern found me. Shared my stories and wonder blindlessly around. Met up with the rest and had dinner at Kenny Rogers. Not bad. I could not finish my food. Haha.

Down to Esplanade after dinner for gift exchange. Gave out all the stuff i bought and gave my gift. Exchange here exchange there. Got a shirt from Jerry. How nice of him. He got it from the shop where i got all my shirts from. Haha. Lucky it's not a repeated design. Haha.


Thanks to my highly evolved brain, i just forgotten the song i wanted to learn. Haha. Well, i'll just play the guitar and sing a random song which expresses my random feelings. Haha.


Shut up Sam..

Freaking blogger is trying to be a freaking pain in the ass. It's like a giant pimple at the mouth of the ass. Shit. I'm halfway through uploading the pictures and now it had stopped. What a perfect timing. So perfect, i don't even know why it's perfect. My irritated level is already halfway there too. Dammit.


Well, i tried not to waste my day today. Went to the gym to buff up a little after eating and sleeping so much in Korea. Got my chest back. Now i want my round shoulders back. AAHHH!!!

Had a bad experience on the bus. Had a gut feeling that my EZ-Link had low value but decided to take the chance. I declined a ride from my dad cause i'm turning white and i want to walk in the sun to get a little tan. Haha. Well, tapped my card on the bus and the machine says, "PAY CASH". You see, they don't give you an option. No matter what, you'll have to "PAY CASH". No "ALIGHT BUS" option. Next they should change it to "PAY CASH OR ALIGHT BUS". Well, enough of that. I had to pay cash. The horrible part was i had very little coins and 3 $50 notes in my wallet. And you know, there is this "man's pride" thing and i did not want to go around asking people in the bus for loose change. So i dug for coins really badly. I'm not going to pay $50 for a $1 bus ride to YCK MRT. Dammit. Well, i was super duper lucky. My coins added up to $1.05. Haha. Super lucky. When i checked my card value, it has -46cents. Haha.


Something magical happened to me in Korea and i can't stop thinking about it. Dammit. It's against my own believes but well, rules needs to be broken. I don't know why, but i'm on a mad hunt for something i've no lead on. It's so hard, but i just find myself trying all possibilities. This mindless hunt is all worth it. Crap. What am i thinking?


Well, i've picked up the guitar again. Now i want to practise chords and stuff. Then learn to sing and play the guitar at the same time. Haha. I can pick up a couple of very helpful skilss. Haha.

I'm back, i'm alive and i've been tagged. I shall leave the pictures to another occasion cause i've yet to get photos from another 3 cameras. Haha. Well, priceless experience i had.



“According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don’t know about you. And then tag 5 people.”


thanks to the tagger - Jo

1. I hate it when people ask me "How are you?"

2. I'm quite immune to girls treating me specially nicely. (If you get what i mean)

3. Work is my leisure; an escape from all the stress around myself.

4. I hate it when people tells me to do things i already plan to do.

5. I watch less than 5 movies every year.

6. I count the number of hours of sleep i get.

7. I read books on how to be a better boyfriend/husband.

8. Sometimes i think i'm crazy, but i like it.

9. I buy my own rewards, birthday presents and christmas presents.

10. I'm never satisfied with the size of my chest.

11. I hate aeroplane rides.

12. I find the world boring.

13. Though i behave like a sissy boy a times, i'm 100% straight.

14. I've spent almost an hour trying to fill the 18 things about myself.

15. I suck big time when it comes to the girl i like.

16. I used to be a cry baby. I'm better at hiding my emotions now.

17. I'm quite short-tempered but i don't show it.

18. I drink a lot of water to cool myself down when i'm angry.

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If you see your names in the blanks, please do this quiz thing.

I've been preparing for the cold weather in Korea by making a room out of the fridge. Damn, Korea is coming near. I mean, the time for me to go to Korea is coming near. Haiz. Damn saddening. I'm gonna leave everyone man, for one whole week. And i'm going to spend one whole week with a bunch of people who i've spent my whole life with. Haha. Well, i hope i can take photo of stuff back for everyone. I don't have a decent camera and i'm using my handphone camera. And sadly, my phone's camera is giving me problems. Haiz. Well, i'll just make do with what i have around me. Haha.

I'm starting to get the miss-everyone-before-travelling syndrome. Damn, it's so heart breaking to know that i'm leaving everyone. There is so much i'm going to miss out. Haiz. And as usual, 1 week is a lot of time. People change, things will be different. After the Sydney trip in Year 1, things changed so much. Haiz. I don't wish to leave everyone.

I'm pretty worried i don't have enough money for all the gifts too. I don't think i'll be getting myself anything. Or should i say i don't think i have enough money for my own gifts. Haha. Well, i'm getting a sum from my folks. It's slightly more than hundred sing dollars. I think i'll change another S$100 and bring S$50 along. I'll need to grab something from the airport when i'm back. Haha. Well, i just hope i don't buy less. I don't want some poor souls crying at one corner calling me bias. Haha.


Well, today is the last chance for me to build up before i turn fat. My guess is that i'll be eating hell lot in Korea. It's so cold, an extra layer of fats would be really useful. Haha. Well, i took the chance to buff up a little. Did a little back exercise. Haha. It's been hell long since i did my back. I hope it grows as little as i've trained. Haha. Well, as usual, intensive chest, cutting for shoulders, size for triceps and shaping my biceps a little. At least my triceps are showing results. Haha.


Don't visit this blog anymore. This could be the last post if i die along the way. And if i don't i'll not be updating till i'm back, so don't go spam my tagboard while wondering why i've stopped my daily updates. This blog will be close till the day i'm back. If you try to access this website, your laptop will go into a slef-destruct mode. Your computer will explode in 5hours 42mins 3.5secs. So don't make any stupid attempt.


Damn, i'm hell tired. I'm gonna have a hell long day tomorrow. Bye all. I'll try to come back alive.


A customer asked me to brace my teeth today. She said my cheeks are nice.

Damn, i really need a wheelchair now. All the walking had made my legs all aching. So pain. Haha. Well, woke up really early for work. Took my time to do all the stuff. After all, i had 2 hours to do everything. So it was a really relaxed morning. Order taking wasn't too bad. I was still a little shy about talking to the customers casually and promoting the $1 voucher. Haha.

Got a new name tag from BJ. It's really ugly. Pinned it on my cap. Haha. Well, i'm keeping the old one. I still like the old one.



After work, went down to Orchard for a little shopping with Tricia and Jerry. Little Jess tagged along. It was horrible. Haha. Anyway, i got myself a shirt and Joan some christmas gift. Dinner at DTF. Had the XLBs!! Damn power. The taste had never changed. Cravings, un-craved. Haha. But it was super expensive. Haha. And it's not because i drank 8 cups of tea. I wasn't really full after all the food and we sat there chatting the whole time. Green tea was a good company too. Haha.

I really need to save, i've spent too much already.


All the travel talks had gotten my financially stressed. I want to work, i want to earn big money to satisfy all this financial burden. But i don't have the time to work. Haiz. So sad. My life is horrible, but i like it. Haha.


I'm kind of looking forward to Korea. I'm going to experience extreme sub-zero. The temperature there would be around -12 Degree Celsius. Haha. One thing i worry, i wear too much clothes. I swear man, going over seas with an over prepared mum would get you killed. I would die of heat stroke in the sub-zero temperature. Haha. The last time in Beijing, i was sweating in the thick clothing and i got scolded for trying to unzip the thick winter jacket. This time, i'm going to fight for my survival. I'm not going to faint and get drowned by the melting snow around me. Haha. Well, if there world is filled with cowards, i'll make the move, like always, to make life better and all those shit eaters will just walk the path i've created. Some of you out there seriously don't deserve the privilege you have now. All just enjoying the fruit of my labour.


Alright, i'm lazy to go on. Goodnight.

Had an interesting day today. Though i was a little sick, i managed to pull through. Was supposed to meet Tricia at 10.30am at Tiong Bahru. She moved the time back a little but sadly, i was already out of home. So i just went ahead as planned. Reached Tiong Bahru, buy some chocolate as gift for the evening's concert and off to somewhere for a little nap. I was hell tired for some god damn reason. Late night and early mornings just don't go well together i guess. Haha. Well, i was asked not to sleep. Tricia was afraid i fail to answer her call when she arrive. Well, no comments on that. So i played Patapon till she arrived. Bused to Kim's place and had branch. The food was pretty good but i wasn't really in the mood. I had a crazy runny nose and it's not helping me improve my appetite and i was looking forward to my little nap at Kim's place.

Upon reaching Kim's place, i took out my gears to deafen myself from Tricia's demonic laughter and got myself a tasty nap. Though the nap was short, it was pretty effective. Haha.Downed a pill to stop the runny nose and off the Singapore Science Centre.

Science Centre, a place i've been longing to go. A place where once held my forte. Anyway, i wanted to go there for the Magic exhibition. Got Tricia, Jerry, Kim and the young ones along. Bused down to Science Centre and the adventure begin!! Well, the magic exhibition was pathetic. I was expecting to learn more than just that. There were too much words. Since the day i've decided to do advertising in the future, i gave up facts and wordy words. Well, actually it's some time after i decided to do advertising. Well, that's not the point. The point is that there is too much reading to do. We toured around the Science Centre and i played around with the exhibits. I got really charged up playing with all the electronics stuff. I kept on getting static shock after playing with them. Haha. Painfully fun. Haha. Well, we gave a shot at the pathetic Morphis's Ride. It was.. pathetic. Horribly pathetic. It's supposed to be some cool shit simulator ride that gets everyone excited and stuff. But it wasn't so great. The graphics was horrible, there is no realism. The shaking was a little too much. It does not give us the ball-raising effect, but it gave me the wobbly-legs effect. My legs felt wrong after the ride. It was just horrible. Haiz. Wasted $4. Haha.

After SSC, i parted with the rest as i made my way for Victoria Concert Hall. It's another big day for YCKSB. Followed the crowed and boarded the wrong train at Jurong East. Headed back and got onto the right train. Haha. Well, the concert was great. The clarinet section had improved so much. I'm so proud of them all. SFY confirm GOLD WITH HONEST!!! Haha. The first piece was great. Purely mind blowing. But a bunch fucking son of a bitch was making so much noise. What a spoiler. No sense of respect. Everyone practised so hard to put up a good show for all and they do not appreciate a single thing. Well, i really love the whole concert. Great performance everyone!!

Lately i've been running after my bus a lot. I missed it at the interchange and had to run arcoss this big field to catch the missed bus. Haha. Quite exciting. At least it's a good running exercise. I've not ran for hell long already. Haha. Homed for dinner. Had a pathetic cup noodle. I had not eaten a thing for hours and this is all i have for dinner. Haha.


Gotta get an early rest now. Morning shift tomorrow. Goodnight. I love my life though it's a little horrible. Haha.

Man.. My life is getting boringly fun. Haha. Well, i've been doing nothing much or interesting lately and it had always been repeating. Work, PSP, Sleep. The 3 most common things i do this holiday.

Patapon madness today. I've reached the last fight already. But i'm not going to attempt it anytime soon now, i want to buff my army up a little first. Great game, i don't want it to end so soon.

Spent some time buffing myself too. I wanted to gym today, but i woke up pretty late so i decided to stay home and get myself a good rest. After all, i was pretty tired even after waking up. Haha. Used the pathetic 4kg dumbbells at home. Did shoulders, push-ups and triceps. The light weights have no effect on my biceps, so i decided to skip it after one set. Haha. Well, i did not know such little exercise had great effect on my body. Well, with all the blood rush, my chest do look a little more buffed. Haha. I like my body. Except the small shoulders. They used to be big and round until i got a little lazy. Haha. Well, i'll work hard for them again. My favourite is still the chest.

Work was pretty fine. The crowed came late. It was madness when there is this China guy who has a poor command of english working right beside me. Well, as the order taker, i have to interact with almost everyone. It like an interlink thing; everyone is reliant on each other to get their job done. Well, this China guy was doing the setting. Well, i had a hard time. We were supposed to communicate with him in english, which makes things harder. There are stuff that i had to spend awhile explaining to him and when i do so, i'm holding the queue of hungry people up. That's bad. People hate me cause i control when they get their food. Haiz. And when people approach the China guy for stuff, i was the closest to him. And all i could do is continue with the order taking and feel a little worried for how's he going to react to the customer's demand. There was one occasion where the customer told me straight in the face "bad service" because the guy did not explain the situation to the customer and when i went over to help him, i got shot. Haiz.


Well, i've been reading and talking a lot about relationships and stuff. It's something that i want and don't want at the same time. I don't want to be tied down. I don't think i'll be able to commit cause i've got so much to do. I don't want to make empty promises and end up getting my partner hurt and stuff. I don't want to abandon my carefree lifestyle. But i want someone to lean on. Someone to make me a more responsible person. Someone who i can look forward to. Some who would care for me. Well, everything seems to be so balanced on the scale. I can't tell if i should go for it or just stay back. Things are so complex. I guess the biggest problem for me now is committing to the relationship and giving up my current lifestyle. Well, i'll never know until i try. But this could be a high risk thing. Haiz. I wish life is much more simple.


My life seems to be a dilemma right now. I want something, but i don't want it. I want to shop, but i've spent too much lately and now i'm a little afraid to spend. I want to work so that i have more money to spend, but when i get the money, i can't bear to spend them. I'm looking forward to tomorrow's concert, but i'll be going alone. My schedule is so packed now, but i want to do them all. I'm not giving myself space to breathe. Haiz. This is why i hate holidays. I don't get to socialise and i start thinking a lot. I really need to interact with people outside my house. I want to laugh at and with people. I don't get them very often nowadays. Haiz.


I'm kind of addicted to the song "Numb" by Linkin Park. I did not know the lyrics are so meaningful. If only everyone could do the same as the meaning of the song, the world would be so interesting.


Screw all this shit, i'm hitting the sheets. I got to wake up hell early tomorrow. I'm going to be home pretty late tomorrow and i need to wake up hell early on the next day. Then i'll have stuff till the night again. Saturday, gym in the afternoon and work in the evening. Sunday, last preparaions before leaving for Korea. Haiz. Tight week.

Damn, long day i had. Very experience enriching though. Haha. Well, early in the morning i headed down to Tiong Bahru Plaza to meet YanQin and Vern. Over there, i saw a performance art going one; a man sleeping on the concrete group beside a walkway. Haha. Well, i was pretty tired then and was too lazy to figure things out. Haha.

Got myself a little Subway sandwich for lunch. The poor old lady cut her hand while she was cutting the bread. Damn sad. All she did was to pull another glove over her current one and countinued making sandwich. She was serving me next and i wanted to tell her to attend to the wound before doing my sandwich. But i got a little carried away with my hunger and told her the sandwich that i wanted. Lucky for her, there is only one more customer behind me. She could tend her wound after that customer. Haha.

Down to Kim's place when Charlene arrived. The rest went to play mahjong, i trained my fatherhood skills with the baby. Haha. Played with him for quite awhile till i got tired and decided to take a little break. Got some cool pictures with Charlene, i'll upload for viewing when i get it. Played my PSP from then till 7pm. Damn, i played for so long, i made great progress in the game. I think i went really far on. Haha. I did not touch the mahjong table cause it's not my kind of "sport" and i swear to myself to never gamble again. No matter how great the temptation, i'll never fall for it.

After we left the place, we headed down to Geylang for frog porriage. Haha. Come cool shit over there. I tried the coconut drink for the very first time and i did not like it. The taste is just not my kind of thing. Lucky for me YanQin was very kind. She traded drink with me which saved my life. Haha.

After dinner, i got a little curious and suggested walking through the red light district to experience things a little. After all, we had an adult around. I seriously feel sorry for all the girls there. They sell their pride for what the assume would bring them happiness. Or they might be forced into this industry. Damn saddening. They are all so young and pretty. Their external beauty is put to great waste. Haiz. Well, at least i've learnt something new today.

After the walk, we headed to somewhere for dinner and got a little lost. Leave was pretty though too. Haha. Then again, we got lost. Haha. Trained back with Chan. Had a good talk.

Man, i seriously don't know what's with me and trannys nowadays. I think it's a you-insult-one-you-insult-all kind of thing. Yesterday, i was pretty shocked by a tranny in the midst of a musical cute girl group. Today while working, i saw a tranny. Damn shocking. First time live. Man, i was taking his/her order and i was watching him/her very closely. Male facial structure. Later i started doubting myself. I looked a little lower to analyse the chest. Well, of course i was doing it discreetly, but he/she reacted to my observation. He/She started swing his/her scarf over his/her chest as if trying to hide something. So i guess those were either moobs or boobs. Later when he/she made the payment, OH MY GOD!!! MAN HANDS!!! MAN FINGERS!!! Never mind, i tried to convince myself by tell myself he/she does a lot of washing at home. Well, i guess the voice tells all after all. Haha.


Damn, i hate starting work in the evening during the holidays. After having a whole day of R&R, i have to stop whatever i'm doing and go to work. Haiz. I got so absorbed in my game and i lost my sense of time. I failed to do as i've planned earlier in the day and was almost late for work. Haha. Well, woke was really tiring. I guess i've not been working for too long, or i've not been walking around enough. Haha. My legs hurt horribly man. Haha. I think i'm just lazy.


Patapon is difficult and fun. Well, i played the whole day and i just keep on getting thrashed. Haha. With a little FAQ, i got myself out of my hours of failure. Haha.


I need to rest my legs now. And i'm strangely tired. Guess i'll play a little before i hit the sheets.

Damn. Today was one hell of a day. Kind of crazy though. I wanted to go to my sister's concert in RP for the Nutcracker piece. Guess what happened, while having dinner with my fat cuzzie, i received a call saying that the concert is at 5pm. And at that moment, it was already going 6pm. Haha. Well, i thought the concert was at 7pm. Too bad i guess. Haha. Lucky for me, my sister said the concert wasn't too good. So i saved that $10 for a super short and not-so-good concert. Haha.

Down to fat cuzzie's place for a few rounds of PSP. We lost so many times, a lot of time was wasted. In the end, we played only 2 rounds for abut one and a half hour. What a waste. Haha.


Watched Swing Girls a moment ago. Damn, the must was hot, so are the girls. Haha. Well, i suspect one of the character was a transvestite. The hair do until so ugly i'm still okay. The face looked a little like a man, maybe the male hormones are currently raging. The legs look muscular, OH MY GOD!!! It just act as a confirmation. Dammit. Well, at least there are many other cute girls to compensate the tranny. Haha.


On the way home from my cuzzie's place, i saw an accident scene. A bus had knocked a bicycle. Well, i was not brave enough to see the whole thing, i only saw the aftermath. Damn. I was shocked. This is that second time i'm seeing such an aftermath. Horrible man. People just come and go so easily. Well, i hope there is no loss of life in all the scenes i've seen, but well, you get the idea. Damn. Life is so fragile. We must enjoy life to the fullest so we'll leave with no regrets when our time is up.


I wanna go play my Patapon already. Haha. Enjoy life to the fullest.

Hehehe... I'm a very happy man now. Haha. I got my headphones and i'm enjoying it this very moment. Top quality music for the best music in the world. Haha. It's just so good. Well, good things don't come cheap. It took me 20 minutes before i finally convience myself to get the headphones. Damn. It cost me a stunning $121. Haha. Well, guess i'm not regretting my actions now. Haha.


Gym was really good. I got tempted to push my limits today. Got on the assisted bench press machine and went crazy. Started off with 20kg on each side, my usual. Sadly, i had not done it for so long, 40kg on my chest wasn't too light. 5 sets later, i added 2.5kg on each side. It got even tougher. 4 sets of 45kg then another increase. Finally, it's 25kg on each side. Had a troubling 3 sets of it. Well, at least i reached my past limit. I was really tired and decided not to go any further or i might end up killing myself. Haha. Well, the next time will be soon and it's going to get heavier. Welcome my new chest. Haha.

I gained 2kg in one week. It was really unexpected. When i thought i was gaining weight, i lost it. Now that i know that i'm losing weight, i'm gaining it. Haha. My weight went up to a stunning 61.4kg. I've never crossed 61kg before. Haha. It took me so long to reach 60kg and now i'm still gaining. It's damn scary. Haha.


Work was mad. I did running today. And the last time i did running is.. i don't know when. Haha. It was hell long ago since i last did running. Now my legs are hurting from all the walking. Haha. Guess i need a little more running to keep me fit. Haha. It least walking around would ensure i have the ability to run for my 2.4km in the future. Haha.


Gotta get myself a good rest and enjoy top quality music. Haha. Might be going to RP to listen to the RP band tomorrow. They are playing Nutcracker!!! I want to hear!!! Guess i'll be there for one piece only. Haha.

You Are The Hanging Man

You represent the seeking of enlightenment and spiritual clarity. You tend to confuse others, but your oddities seem deeply satisfying. Self sacrifice is easy for you, especially if it makes you a better person in the end. You are the type of person who is very in touch with your soul and inner spirit. Your fortune: Right now is a good time for reflection and meditation. You should stop resisting the problems in your life, and let yourself be vulnerable to them. You may need to sacrifice something important to you to move ahead in your life. Accept your destiny with courage, and learn to let go of what you think you need.

You Are the Ace of Clubs

You go at everything in your life full force. You are a natural gambler. Your life definitely has some extreme highs and lows, but you know how to ride out the low times. A total adventure seeker, you are never satisfied by what's normal or ordinary. You like to push limits and shock people. You're dramatic, but a drama queen. Your life has been a wild ride so far. You have stories that people can barely believe. And you're probably still young... with a lot of wild rides in front of you. A gamble you should take: High stakes roulette Your friends would describe you as: Crazy Your enemies would describe you as: Demented If you lived in Vegas, you would be: A high roller

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a tempered, reasonable way of thinking. You tend to take every new idea in, and meld it with your world view. For you, everything is always changing. Each moment is different. Your thinking process tends to be very natural - with no beginnings or endings.

Your Thinking is Abstract and Random

You are flexible, adaptable, and creative. There's many ways that you can learn - and you're up for any of them. You relate well to other people, and you do well working in groups. You can help people communicate together and work with each other's strengths. You don't work well with people who are competitive or adversarial. You prefer to work toward a common goal... not toward conflicting goals.

You Are 72% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

You Are 85% Creative

You are an incredibly creative person. For you, there are no bounds or limits to your creativity. Your next creation could be something very great... Or at least very cool!

Today's UT, CONFIRM "A"!!! Haha. Well, it wasn't too difficult. Just 2 marks lost in the whole process. I was seriously out of ideas. Haha.


Had a horrible way to start the holiday. Ending this study season with Anthropology Studies is not a very wise choice. Damn, i was so tired and it was so boring. I did very little work and i initiated all the rest sessions. Haha. After presenting, i got the group to have a mass msn conversation for fun. Well, it was fun until 5 people were conversing at once and 4 of them were trying to be creative with the name "pekchai". Haha. After that, everyone starts to quiet down and only 2 people were chatting at anyone time. And in the 2 people, i was the constant. Haha. That shows how much i had to say. Haha. And JiaXin seemed really cold. No matter how hard i try to make her laugh physically, she don't. Haiz. Great challenge, but guess not everyone is good at laughing. Haha.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANQIN!!! I'm enjoying Swan Lake here and you are getting oldernot as young. I guess she's about 27 24 26 28 23. Haha. Had a little celebration at W4 today. The cake was really sweet and i can't help but try to reject an extra slice. Sadly, i failed. With the whole mass of chocolate and extra 2 bars of chocolate, i could not consume them all without getting diabetes. Damn. Haha. Well, brought everything back to class and tried to share them. The chocolate bars were popular, but the slice of cake was not. Haha. Decided to eat it during break 2. Damn sweet.


Man, i miss the kids from YCKSB. Their concert is coming. Thursday night. But i have something on in the day. I hope i can attend the concert. I have 2 tickets with me now. Anyone interested in coming along? No need to pay. Haha. I'll try to make time off for them. Damn sad.


About a thousand hours ago, i was praying for the holiday to come. Now that it's my holiday, i wish i did not have it. Dammit. I feel like there's nothing to do now. Apart from work and occasional leisure, i have nothing else to do. Without school, i have one thing less to look forward to. Well, i'm going to miss all my friends and the evil cleaner auntie who secretly throw away our resources. There's so many things going on this holiday, but i don't find myself feeling too excited. Haha. Well, what to do?



My new 'want' list to help me save money
- PSP Battery
- External PSP Battery Charger
- SD Card, preferably 4 or more GB
- Headphones

With this perfect list, i'll save a lot of money cause i won't be needing a MP3. Haha. How smart of me. Maximising the use of all the available resources. Haha. Time for a little electronics shopping. Haha. Guess i'll downsize my christmas present a little. Cheaper also mean better; more money for other shopping. Haha. Gonna shop for the headphones tomorrow. Haha. Well, to the person who got my name for the christmas exchange, be creative, i won't let you get anything in this little list.


My fingers got a little itchy and i went to play around with Photoshop. I made the picture for my funeral. The black and white picture in front of the coffin. Have a good laugh at it. But i seriously want this to be in front of my coffin.

I've lost my ideas. I can't remember what i want to blog about cause i've been squeezing my brains to help Sakinah think of a gift for her friend. Partially brain dead now. I can't even think of what to get for my mystery person. Haha.


For some strange reason, i suck a lot in racing games. I rarely win a single race, but i'm now addicted to a racing game on PSP. After restarting a race about 8 times, i finally won. And now i'm winning like nobody's business. Haha. So fun.


Class was great today. Did some physical performances. It's damn cool. I like.


Dinner with YanQin, Jerry and Vern after school. Had a great talk. Very inspiring.


My life sucks. Everything is spoiling. My mp3, my earphones.. I don't need to name them all. Now, my stupid earpiece is dying too. I can only listen on the left ear. Maybe i'm just one ear deaf. Haha.


Damn tired and hungry now. Can't think too well.



A little something from Sakinah. Pictures from yesterday. Credits to Sakinah.

Screwed. I can't believe i just took a 45 minutes nap. This will cause disorder in all my sleeping habits. Haiz. Never mind that, i don't know why am i all so tired now. After the forced awakening, i went to bathe. The road to the bathroom was scary. I thought i was drunk for a moment. I could not walk straight, i had problems controlling my muscles. I felt a little floaty while taking the stairs. Horrible.. horribly interesting!!!

I realised something about myself. When i'm really tired, i get really grumpy. And when i'm grumpy, there are two outcome. I get really fierce and violent or i'm so lazy, i can't be bothered to think and become a puppet to others. Which i'll become, i don't know. Just now, i was the puppet one. My mama asked me to eat 6 chicken wings and i did. I washed all the stuff when she asked me to. Haha.


Met Tricia in the morning. Tricia had evil coloured nails. Damn scary. Anyway, i did good deeds today. I donated 30 cents cause i decided that i could buy more things with a one dollar coin. How nice of me. I usually avoid such people like they are AIDS victim or something but today, i stopped for them. Dammit, i'm becoming nice.


Class was pretty fun. Only 2 groups of 5 today. Haha. We settled our work quicks and went around looking at the FYP installation. I find the installaion pretty direct and it is almost impossible to relate them to the world and stuff. I could not pick up anything beyond the surface. But still, i picked up an idea or two. Haha.

Mush is super nice. Thanks to Sharon's cheapness, Mush could not escape a pizza treat. But still, Mush is a really cool facilitator. She is so laid back, you don't really feel any stress till the deadline draws near. She talks to you as if you are a close friend. I feel comfortable commenting and talking in her class as she is pretty open to comments. I really enjoy her class.


After class, met Tricia again and headed for the canteen. While waiting for Gary, i let Tricia watch Russel Peters to keep her occupied. After i got my stuff settled, i decided not to disturb Tricia cause she seemed to be having a good time with the show. Haha.


I need to dance tomorrow. Haiz. Looking forward to pick up some dancing skills from Colin and the class. Haha.

Amazingly, i slept at 10pm last night. Okay, i'll be honest, 10.15pm. 5 minutes to annoy and laugh at my brother, 5 minutes to cool down and another 5 minutes to fall asleep. Haha. Anyway, i was hell tired yesterday. I was feeling wrong all over the place and needed a good rest. Another amazing thing happened today. I was amazingly tired after an amazing sleep. Haha. I don't know why. It could be the problem statement. It was damn retarded. I hate portfolios.


Today was a horrible day for many reasons that i can't remember. Haha. One problem was that i had some rectum disfunctional problem. My ass don't seem to be too health today. I just keep on getting the shit feeling. Bomb already, still have the feeling. I think my asshole is loose man. You perverts out there, don't even think about how my asshole got loose. Haha. Anyway, i hope this lack of ass control problem go soon. I don't want to spend tomorrow in the toilet. Haha.


Anyway, after watching "Super Size Me", i've been pretty careful with what i'm eating. Down to Mac after school. Went for the healthier choice, some grill fold over. I don't know where they got the name from and i don't know how that 2 little patties resemble a chicken meat. Haha. Well, all this health shit will be gone pretty soon. Haha.


I just realised that christmas is coming soon. I HAVE NOT BUY MYSELF A PRESENT!!! And i've not bought any present for the person whose name must not be mentioned. I haven't even think of anything yet. Not even a basic idea. Haiz. I need to be creative. Where is my creativity when i need it!!


Just finished Russel Peters man. Had a great laugh and expanded my collection of racist jokes. Haha. Okay, i'll be honest again. I've just expanded my collection of indian jokes!!! Hahaha!!!


I'm getting really tired now. And i'll be expecting a call from the girl in my dream. I gave her my handphone number!!! Haha!!! Time for a little snack first. Nata de Coco yogurt!!!

Great morning to sleep. Sadly, i had to wake up. I had to go to work. Haha.


Work was pretty fine. Some physical changes here and there. It wasn't really busy.


After work, met fat cuzzie at J8 for a short game.


Home for dinner. Watched a little Shaman King.


I've come up with a perfect plan to punish those bloody drivers that high beam innocent jay-walkers like me. Why in the blue hell do you need to high beam someone when that person is still very far away from you? The next time i get high beamed while crossing the road, i'll just stop right in front of the car and pretend to be blinded by the strong light. At this point they have 2 options, knock me down or slow down. Well, cause and effect. The cause is the high beam. The effect, an accident. If they knock me down, one accident. If the driver slow down, the car behind will crash into the high beaming car. Haha. So perfect. But high risk. Haha. Sounds really fun. I should try it one day.

Had the best dream ever in the world. I dreamt that i had a girlfriend. I don't remember the face though, but i know the name ends with an "En". That's as much as i know about her. Anyway, the experience was of extreme greatness. I've never felt such warmth before. And the idea that there is someone to look forward to and someone waiting for me gives me more meaning to live. I felt a greater sense of responsibility; i needed to take care of someone. I don't know, but maybe it isn't a horrible thing to be attached. Well, till the day i get a girlfriend, i'll find out. Haha. Okay, dreams of such better stop coming, it's only going to make me feel horrible about myself. Haha.


Just watched my brother's course video. His army memory video. Like damn nice leh. Now i'm more tempted to join the army. Haha. 2010 come quick!!!


Today is a great day to sneeze. One sneeze, nothing is wrong. Two sneeze, someone is thinking of you. Three sneeze, someone is scolding you. Four or more sneeze, you're seriously sick. Dammit. I kept on sneezing today. And once i start to sneeze, i sneeze up to seven times in a row. It's madness. I never have a chance to sneeze less than 4 times in a row. Once a make the first, the chain just keeps coming. Haha. I think my house is getting horribly dusty. All the bloody constructions around. Walking around the house had already made my feet black, what more can i expect? Haha. Well, i'm working tomorrow and my brother is on leave. So chances are that he's going to be my mama's slave and help with cleaning up the house. Haha. I was once a slave every wednesday till this semester begin. Haha.


Took a great nap in the afternoon, i was praying to see the girl in my dream again. No chance man. Haha.


I'm a little worried about travelling to Korea this holiday. One reason being i need to buy a hell lot of gift back. I will be given SGD100 worth of Korean currency and i don't know how expensive the things will be. I need to buy gifts for at least 4 groups of friends. I'll need to bring some of my own money along too. Next problem, my bag might not be big enough to carry all the gifts back. Haha. This one i'll have to improvise. Haha. Lastly, after watching some air crash documentary, i'm a little worried about riding an aeroplane. I'm afraid i might not be able to come back alive. Haha. Seriously, i've been a little afraid of riding aeroplanes. Once, i sat at a window seat and i get to see the wing of the plane. The wing was so flimsy!! It was all bouncing and waving about when the plane is moving about on land. It's damn scary. From there onwards, i got this little fear of travelling. Damn. I'm always a little hesitant when it comes to aeroplanes. Haiz.

Slept early last night because i was really tired. Woke up early for no exact reason, but i was early enough for Digimon. Haha. Bro came home and made a din about him being forced to run laps in the army. Very retarded in all aspects. He was behaving very childishly. Keep on talking about getting back on his superiors and stuff. I was tempted to laugh at him, but i held back. I'll just be making the situation harder for my parents. Haha.


Spent the afternoon watching Shamon King. I bet Yusra is way ahead of me now. I gave her the link on Thursday and she missed school on Friday. Dammit. I'm evil. I'm a bad influence. I bet she had complete the show already. Haha. I'm just half way through.


Gym in the late afternoon. I thought i was gaining weight rapidly over the week after the sudden rise of body mass. In the end, i was losing weight. Haha. Anyway, i did not gym for too long. I had no strength. Lunch was many hours ago and it was as good as gyming on an empty stomach. Horrible.


After gym, down to City Hall with fat cuzzie. Had Carl's Jr. for dinner. Damn power. Tasty, but deadly(you'll understand if you read on). After which, we went to Esplanade. My main objective of the day. I wanted to get myself more exposed to all this arty farty stuff. I might pick up an idea or two along the way which could turn out to be really useful in the future. Along the way, we played MH together and stuff.


Upon reaching home, i watched "Super Size Me". After watching, i got a little hungry but scared. The result of all the food are so destructive. I will cut down on all this sweet drinks and stuff from now onwards. I shall live a long life like i should. I have a lot to accomplish in this life time of mine.


Damn, i'm getting pretty tired now. But it's not time for me to sleep yet. There is "Most Extreme" now and it's about animals with psychic powers. So interesting.


Gym for size, Push-ups for strength. Time to get hardworking.

Class was pretty fine today. Though many of us are pretty much unmotivated, we mananged to pull through the day. I got this random story which i did out of impromptu and it touched the hearts of the guys in the group. I don't know how did i get such a touching story, but i did. The girls did not really react to the story i told. That shows how heartless they are. Haha. Just kidding. Haha. During our skit, i got whipped for real by Izah. Haha. Damn funny. She was supposed to use the rubber rope from the chair to hit the wall to create the whipping sound effect. In the end, the first swing was a real whip on my arm. Haha. I reacted like any other person who had just got whipped for a spilt second. By the time the second whip came down on the wall, i've overcome the pain in my arm and resumed my acting. I guess i acted best when the first whip was down as it wasn't an act. Haha. Well, don't need to worry about my arm. Though the mark is still there, my mama did not thing i've been child abused in school. Haha.


Zach shared some of his classical music with me. Beautiful man. I'm really enjoying it. Berlioz was great. I've played one of his movements before but i could not find the mad clarinet lines that i once played in the recording. The clarinet solo at the end was pure beautiful. The clarinets sounded really cute in the last movement. Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven is great too. Listening to all this had got my heart a little itchy. I want to express the music too. Listening to the Hungrian Dance No.5 that i've transposed some years back makes me want to play the clarinet again. Dammit. Stupid computer, it just can't express the music the way i want it to. I'm starting to miss my clarinet days. Screwed!!!


Here's something i saw days back. I just keep forgeting to share it. Haha. Any idea if this is a sculpture?

Class.. today.. was.. pretty.. horrible. Sick man. I don't know how i survived the day. Haha. Anyway, i could not do much during 3rd meeting. I want to watch my anime, but the facilitator is sitting behind me. I had no choice but to take a little nap. Two 15 minutes nap in two presentations. Haha.


After school, down to Chan's place for dinner. The man did the cooking man. Haha. Quite nice. Before reaching Chan's place, Tricia, Jerry and i did a little shopping for ingredients. Got ourselves some Hoegaarden too. Just wanted to try a little. Not as bitter as Tiger though. We shared 3 bottles and i brought home one. I'm glad my money was not put to waste cause i finished my bottle. Haha.


Time to rest. Last Character Design class before the holidays. Damn sad. Haha.

It's the 4th time i got AIDS and i'm still not learning my lesson. Haiz. I seriously don't want to fall sick now. Bad timing man. Holidays are near and falling sick means shrinking body. I'm starting to realise my biceps are getting bigger and now i'm losing it. How nice.


Back to Shaman King man. Some good old anime there. I've never completed the show before. This time i'm going to finish it.


Reaching home damn early might be a blessing.. if there is no renovations around. Dammit. This is sexual harassment man. I just can't find my inner peace with all the noise going on. They better stop really soon or i'm going to dress up like a homeless boy and scare the people out of the houses.


Mama cooked my favourite vegetables. I can't wait. I think my appetite is about to come back. I can't wait for it, but i can't be eating with the ulcers in my mouth. I don't really know what i did, but i'm sure i'm too heaty. Crap man. Now my house have all the chocolate products and chips waiting for me to finish. I wish i get well before my siblings finish everything else.


Tonight will be the night that i would pop the pill then rest in peace.

I did a good deed today. I donated all my coins to some hungry dog foundation. In exchange, i was given some chocolate which i did not eat. I'm so proud of myself, but there goes $1.20. Haha!!!

I'm tired for the worst reasons. Grandpappy turned even older yesterday. Did something really crazy yesterday which made me hell tired. I shall not share or you'll think i'm mad.


Class today was.. ehh.. interestingly scary. Many stuff happened today. For some strange reason, the atmosphere was crazily tense. Everyone seemed rather moody. Some gun fires here and there from the most unexpected people. Haha. Well, this is where my future comes in. Haha. Well, that's my future. I could have brighten up the days of many, but i wasn't really in the mood. Haha.

Went for the SL Cambodia talk with Colin, Cassendra and some others. Got really interested. I want to attain some good karma, experience and CE points. After my evil past, i believe there can never be enough good deeds i can do. After all, i'm still doing bad stuff now and then. Haha. So i'm going man. I've gotten my parent's approval already. Time to endure the trainings, plannings and injections. Haha.


Dine at MOS Burger with Tricia and Charlene after school. Got a little interrogation there. And while at it, i started thinking about some stuff. What happens when things don't go the way i wish they would? Well, this is something that will definitely happen when i'm in some relationship or something. I can't be expecting everything to go as i please. Somethings that i want is a little unrealistic. Where am i going to find a woman who can cook at this era? Haha. Well, when the problem comes, i'll think of a solution. Haha.


Well, reached home around 9pm. My handphone went into it's limited edition mode again. When you call me, you can hear me but i can't hear you. How cool is that? You can curse and swear at the other party without worrying how they would respond. Haha. Any takers? Haha. Anyway, got to consume my second dinner and start on my RJ. Goodnight all. I got to get rid of my potential illness. Haha.