crap, forgot to add reading scientific stuff as a pleasure. getting
away from the complicated land of human relationships and humanities
as a whole is wonderful. now i realise why mad scientists can be happy
people.

wonderful time (4) plus more musings. random alert.

forgot to add to the earlier post (and i can't edit posts via blogger,
don't know why), thanks for the cards, envy is the greatest flattery,
albeit a pretty miserable one for the envious :( sigh.

quite sadly, my body can't take the daily beatings of sinful (oily and
fried, mostly) food plus late nights that extend up to 5am, and rudely
told me to stop indulging in my guilty pleasures (eating and
socialising till too late), by means of a formidable viral attack on
my sinuses (i.e. i came down with a bad flu) and thus i was not in the
state to while my time away in a five star hotel room and exploit its
facilities FOR FREE, courtesy of TT (quite obvious who TT is haha),
whose incredible contest-winning skills (radio contests) landed her a
free one night stay at MARINA MANDARIN HOTEL >.<

ok i'll stop my random throwing in of words which makes my writing
stylistically rojak. anyway, glutton's bay's food look good but ex,
save for my hor fun which was quite the inverse. yea, can't really
have so much good food, now that i'm getting quite sick, i think i may
have to forgo tomorrow's RV thing BLAH.

anyways, thanks TT for being so caring today (ENO!) and everyone else
whom i met, they're all so friendly and sweet and sociable haha! made
1 more new friend today!

ARGH I THINK MY SECRET SANTA'S PRESENT IS IN THE HOTEL ROOM FRIDGE.

i hope all the troubles my friends have will be settled soon, in some
way or another... i realise again i think quite simply (i.e.
simple-minded)

my gemini mood kicks in as i feel quite depressed after hearing about
some things, but my spirits are lifted up a little as i sang a song
after getting out of the cab (to quote my p3 chinese teacher, people
who never sing will go crazy)

i really wonder why i treat and view things so differently from other
people... well, at least the ones im closer to. i strip down more than
others (figuratively!), maybe because i trust people more easily
(thinking that telling them my stuff won't harm me nor others, and
it's true so far), but sometimes i'm quite self-conscious about what i
tell the other person... afraid of repurcussions, or the knowledge
(self-assured??) that it won't help if i tell.

like, today i'm quite inhibited (compared to during chorale party) it
showed during zong ji mi ma... heh.

maybe after my own experiences, i've come to realise (i think others
know this too, but never thought about it directly) that family ties
are still the most unbreakable, plus it's quite self-mending.

will pain arising from love last forever? :( if so, how much does it
affect you/does it have to affect you too badly? i like living in the
present, thank you, but it's impossible to forget all the stupid
things i or other people have done.

i've come to take things as they come, friendships can be maintained
if you try! today's technology is sufficient enough to be able to keep
in touch with others, explore more options! and it's also a matter of
what you want the friendship to be, i guess. to each their own la. but
the world is so big, people come and go, you're bound to meet another
wonderful buddy sometime later in life, i suppose? well, the
friendship is probably less close than the ones you melded during your
school life, but (hopefully) the thinner threads are still sufficient
to get you by :)

i'm not saying friends are dispensable! it's just that circumstances
are such that people may need to stay away from each other, keep the
sweet memories and it'll comfort you when you need it.

why you all make things hard for yourself aiyo. oops that was quite
insensitive, but hey, take a step back and observe things as a
bystander, so you'll get a wider view.

i'm a hypocrite sometimes, yea yea.

i'm only 18 years old and there's still 70 years ahead of me, yet i'm
so cynical wow. how am i going to live through my life HAHA! no la
please, i'm not dying anytime soon of emotional or physical burden! i
love my food and friends and family and i realise everything i love
starts with an F heh!

oh wait, there's still music and dancing, they're the best
burden-relievers ever! (food's harder for me because most of the food
i taste is of similar standard, so that equals no effect)

ooh i'm learning how to blog cryptically! and i'll slide into
obscurity because i'm misunderstood or un-understood. cryptic people
take note heh!

wonderful time parts 2 and 3! warning: long post!

another 2 days of eating, i shall describe my experiences here.

~day 2 of pigging out: chorale xmas party!

so great to see everyone again :) food was wonderful, esp the peppery hokkien mee, the pasta sauce, the barbecued stuff and the ham :)

oooh I GOT GOOD BUYS AT A SECONDHAND SHOP - FOUR CDS FOR ONLY TWELVE BUCKS! and they're original ok, with the album booklet still intact (of course being second hand, they're quite battered and dogearred, but who cares, it's original and only three bucks!) i bought 2 'the corrs' albums inclu. the unplugged one, some world music thing, and (oh crap) a COMPLIMENTARY CD FROM SIA?!?! ack! i haven't checked the CDs yet and i hope they contain good music! oh, and we can refund within 3 days, how weird for a 2nd hand shop! btw the shop's in ang mo kio central, i think there's a similar one at jurong east too.

coming back to the main topic, the party. good food, good company, fun games heh! i unwittingly made people laugh again haha :P thanks to avonne + ruth + the comm + everyone else who helped out for the party! i realise i do miss chorale quite a bit. how much i love 'soleram' :) and small group singing always sound better than large group in terms of blend haha!

~day 3 of pigging out: jeff's xmas-cum-new-year party!

before that, let me sidetrack to something else haha! i realised that i'm behaving more and MORE like a gemini now (finally)!

of course, jeff + his maid didn't disappoint me in their offering of food! :D ngor hiong and fried stuff are good! i miss the french fries and WHOLE chicken wings, jeff! and i didn't get to eat the sphagetti... anyway, i felt totally miserable for exploiting jeff's place for food + the sponsored cab rides + more recently, his xmas and trip presents (which i didn't reciprocate - i rarely give presents to others, if at all - no money.) so i bought a couple of fruits :) thank goodness they're ok! the aunties who were shopping all STAYED AWAY from the tangerines (which i bought) because they were too soft! lucky i trusted my own senses, HA! they're soft AND sweet, i like! (that's because they're very ripe, leave them for 2 more days and they'll rot)

jeff rocks.

and i suck terribly at fighting games - got thrashed at naruto (street fighter-styled game) and is it just me or are certain coordination based games (i.e. DDR, AMERICAN IDOL) a bit off-sync?! can't get them nailed properly ARGH!

~mini-conclusion:

three days of REALLY PIGGING OUT + SLEEPING PAST MIDNIGHT is not going to do anything less than destroy my heart and kidneys and muscles and general health! of course i'm so glad i got so many lovable friends as company, but i wish i can control my eating HAHA! if i could drive that would solve the problems of getting home too late hm... and oh! my eyesight is DISGUSTING now! the computer screen is blur to me! wth la! and i has near perfect eyesight in my right eye 3 years ago...

ok sleep sleep! you still got 3 more days to go before new year! and every day you'll be going out so SLEEP!

i guess you've realised i love to talk about things in good detail (read: long posts) heh! whereas others' are considerably shorter!

my wonderful time today! more to come!

today is a totally awesome day :D although it didn't start that awesome heh!

firstly it's the stupid cloudy sky + rain. next, i planned to meet my
friend at a bus stop (i.e. i ride the bus, he hops onto the bus on the
way) but! he came late lor so i had to get off the bus... blah i was
getting comfortable on the seat (not to mention, he made me waste 45
cents) oh well, i think he was a bit sorry and paid for the entire cab
fare to the venue (oh well. i had to use the loo anyway) :P

enough about the less awesome parts! ok! jay (all names changed to
protect privacy) bought for me, FF XII and Utada Hikaru's SINGLE
COLLECTION VOL. 1!!! jay you're the best haha! thanks so much for
thinking of me when you were overseas hohoho! sadly, i already own a
copy of UH's SINGLE COLLECTION :( oh, and mine's also a chinese
version (or is it taiwan?) haha... i decided to do the CD and UH a
favour, by giving it to someone else whom had an interest in 'being
exposed to more music', mr. w. i hope jay doesn't mind :\ i've told
you i would give it away, anyway, heh. don't worry i'll record
somewhere (probably on the CD i already have) that you also bought for
me the CD :)

*mr. w tell me if you like UH ok? :D*

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moving on, had really good food at ms tan's place :) love her western
food YUM! then a large bunch of us (16) played CRANIUM! omg it's such
a FUN game! however hor, i realised my acting chops are like, totally
sucky! my group only managed to guess "skinny dipping" and it's partly
because i was reacting, well, badly to it (for obvious reasons HAHA)
and mr. w is funny with cranium clay (i.e. playdoh-like substance)
WOOTS it was so fun, was laughing all the way!

interlude: how do we know that EVERYTHING we know is more than what
another person knows (and hence can conclude we are more knowledgeable
than the other person?) how would this implicate matters (knowing that
we're 'smarter' or 'more well-read'), matters of social/working life?

interlude 2: i think i'm better at drawing and singing than acting! as
proven by my better skills in pictionary (and the humming-the-melody
questions in cranium) than charades!

interlude 3: i feel a bit sad because i need to control my mouth and
mind sometimes heh! i know it's wrong and not nice to say/think of
certain things, but, i don't know, you can't help it but think/say it
:| although i must say some things i say contain no intended extra
meaning, although after i say it, i realise it could mean something
not-nice to another person. or maybe i'm too sensitive :|

was thinking of the above thought because i'm one of the few who know
"sweet dreams are made of these" by i-can't-remember-who haha

to cut my long story short, after more eating we left for home, and
chatted wif a few 'youngsters' along the way... one of them was
telling me about how this scientist proved that dinosaurs actually
only lived up till only about 6000 years ago (this length of time
coincided with the biblical Great Flood, which also happened about
6000 years ago and probably wiped out anything that couldn't swim and
get onto Noah's Ark) he proved it with carbon-14... basically
carbon-14 has a half life of a couple of hundred years, and after a
couple of thousand years (5000 or thereabouts i think :S),
theoretically speaking the amount of carbon-14 left should be
insignificant i.e. virtually no more!

ok the rest of the story is fairly obvious (you can make your
conclusions) - the so called dinosaur bones that were fossilised (did
i spell right?) for millions of years CONTAIN SIGNIFICANT AMOUNTS OF
CARBON-14! which means, the fossils (and hence, the dinosaurs)
couldn't have existed anything more than the 5000 years or so (that
corresponds to the amount of time the carbon-14 takes to disappear)!!

another fact! a very concentrated bottle cap-ful of deuterium and
hydrogen-3 (i can't rmb the name of this isotope ARGH) that undergoes
nuclear fusion can blow up a third of the world! :O that's damn
dangerous omg! i'm thinking like, james bond-style action movies where
the internationally-infamous baddie just presses the little RED button
on a remote control and something important explodes!

if you're wondering why we were talking about all these, it's 'cause i
happened to be reading a book about quantum physics for laymen :P

yay one party is down, THREE MORE to go (equals less sleeping time)...
time to listen to songs :)

christmas, part 2

merry xmas everyone, whoever you may be, whether you're my friend, teacher who happened to stumble into my blog, or random strangers who are passing by!

just a little addition to my earlier post which i had forgotten to insert in...

went for the singapore garden festival on the 24th, mainly to support the Chorale (who formed the Raffles Concert Singers, a choir formed by RJ Chorale current members and alumni) they were quite ok (the singing), in my opinion la haha! except for a few very questionable chords (i don't think the normal audience can pick that up, though) they're good... haha :D

so happy to meet the juniors and seniors again! it's so wonderful seeing familiar faces/people whom you've just started to lose contact with, but got together again :P i guess one day i'll join RCS too haha! for sure one la, once i start missing the people and choral singing

yea i wonder who reads my blog heh!

(it's quite hard to concentrate on typing when my dad's playing the guitar and singing xmas songs)

anyway, my xmas wish list!

1. speech therapy classes for improved diction/intonation/clarity! it's almost like i have a short tongue or something at times :/ and i realise quite a couple of smart people have speech impediments too (diction or smoothness of speech) so maybe i shouldn't feel so, erm, sad? anyway it's quite yucky to have a speech problem, i think, bleh!

2. muscles everywhere (for NS)

3. in relation to NS, a powerful command of hokkien. no not the vulgarities, but how to speak in complete sentences in hokkien. how embarrassing for me, since my parents speak hokkien to each other every day.

4. of course, my eternal dreams of acquiring good musicianship skills, in the areas of you-know-what-already la... i keep saying until sian liao. oh, and add the skill of art/drawing too

5. and definitely, happiness, for myself and everyone around me!

OH CRAP I HAVEN'T BOUGHT THE XMAS PRESENTS OR FINISHED DOING THE CARDS!

my first religious christmas (if my memory isn't wrong)

why am i awake during such an unearthly hour? well, i just came home
from a midnight church service :)

i'm actually a free-thinker, but i usually don't refuse invitations
from friends to attend church services/sessions (have yet to be asked
to go to a temple/other religion's activities, though) i initially
felt really really reluctant to go for this service, especially
because it's held at 11am and it's at bukit timah, off farrer
road/coronation road... accessibility isn't that great and all that...
BUT the moment i went into the hall where everyone was gathered at
(thanks xx and sam for choping a nice seat!) i knew this service was
going to be good haha!

i kind of prefer the solemn, serious kind of services and this was
really pleasant, ok, more than pleasant! apart from a few, erm, sour
notes from the big string instrument (haha! poor thing), everything
else went smoothly and gracefully, and the scent of incense is quite
calming and serene... and i could sing a couple of the programmed
songs for once haha ('cause they're popular xmas songs/hymns)! oh well
to each their own la...

thanks kwan rui for inviting me :D and xx + sam for accompanying me to
the service so i won't be standing alone in the crowd

i thought my xmas was to be, mentally draining and sad, yea the SNIFF
thing, amongst others... but the service made me feel more peaceful...
hm perhaps i should seriously consider going for religious
services/sessions regularly...

somewhat related to this, i think your surroundings influence you so
greatly! hence, i must 'immerse' myself in goody-two-shoes people, i
must remove all my xin1 mo2!!! really lor, i'm becoming worse every
day/year, TSK TSK

(i realise - again - it's sad to know that one's actions/deeds of good
will are unappreciated and, even worse, frowned upon/taken negatively
by the recipient. this time i'm the sad one haha) anyway i WAS sad
before the xmas service, now my heart is so much more peaceful yep.

thanks for the 3 hr telephone call HAHA! nothing beats having somebody
else whom you can talk with freely on the same level

(i'm expecting a terrible headache when i wake up haha)

ownage, i die!

yesterday was quite an eye opener for me haha! basically i got owned
by better musicians! not that i ever thought i was of any standard,
but some of the good musicians are like, only 15 years old and her
voice is so developed :O our carolling group "the carollers" (ad-hoc
name given by another performer at the esplanade cafe) decided that if
we channeled all our time to singing and making music instead of
studying we could be as good as them haha (sigh)

okok i'll make things a bit less confusing...

basically our little carolling group decided to sing at the esplanade
library cafe yesterday! did you know that friday evenings are
free-for-all jamming sessions? no booking or paying required - just
step up and sing! so yea, we did, but were preceded by a pair of
wonderful singers who play the guitars - their combined age is THIRTY
THREE! the girl's voice is especially good, and she can tackle some of
the more challenging songs pretty well, too! puts us to shame, esp
when we tried to sing the xmas carols in 4-part harmony (and failed).
fortunately the last song (which was probably the best) we sang was a
basic duet by the 2 girls in our group (who happened to have good
voices!) yayyy~ salvaged our reputation, i think...

anyway, the local teenage opera singer-prodigy happened to be part of
the audience too! and she gave a pretty good performance (ad-hoc) of 2
jazz opera songs (one of which is summertime by gershwin) she was qte
interested at our silly little group haha and chatted with us for a
while... she's a pretty nice person and quite easy to talk with yep
(oh yea her piano accompanist is splendid! all the jazzy
improvisations and stuff like that) sigh...

later on, we pubbed + watched our friends, well, sing at a pub! again
i got owned (not by my friends, coz i KNOW their standard already) but
the resident musician at the pub... he could play a thousand songs on
the spot! i mean, that equals to KNOWING ALL THE SONGS inside out (or
at least roughly!) and get the lyrics/melody/chords/riffs correct!

oh well. i think i'll stick to engineering la HAHAHA! (even so there
are ppl who are uber-pro at sciences and esp engineering, like some of
my counterparts in my school) dang, i should have tried harder lol!

time goes by... so fastly!

*if the formatting of this post is screwed up, it's coz i'm blogging
through emailing my post to blogger.com, which i think, signed me out
after my 30 mins of supposed inactivity because i was typing my BLOG
into the window?! and now i can't open any blogger page, much less
sign in*

i dunno, but when i'm in a 'sian' mood, it's like the perfect time to
play all sorts of (trashy) eurodance songs to pep myself up haha!
*plays 'hung up' mentally*

maybe i'm sian because i'm reeling from
*Suddenly-No-Interaction-with-Friends* syndrome (ok not totally no
interaction, but interaction has greatly decreased since i last saw my
friends, plus now they're all over the world = uncontactable, unless
you want to spend more $$ calling them)

anyway, more about this SNIFF syndrome (the extra F is there to
complete the word) it's this 'drained' feeling you get when you club
or go out too much during a short period of time, then you stay and
home and stone in front of the computer hoping to find some sort of
comfort in the form of highly-evolved-yet-inadequate interaction with
friends (known as instant conversations, through MSN or ICQ or AOL or
whatevernot you use) through the mambo-jambo network and the
cathode-ray tube which we know as the monitor (ok some of you have
plasma screen - congrats for being ahead of the
technological-acquiring race haha... just kidding... no sarcastic
intentions here, just anyhow saying things)

yea so you know i don't really like technology, because i can't fully
harness or understand it, plus it disappoints me on occasion (the
desktop gets the ominous BLUE SCREEN for at least 3 times when booting
up before everything goes steadily) argh.

anyway, just recounting the number of times i get the SNIFF... urm,
it's real bad after performing in concerts, you'll just miss the
people whom stick around with you almost everyday for the previous
weeks. it's also terrible after big events, like parties and
gatherings (strangely SNIFF didn't hit me hard after prom)

why do we get the SNIFF? even when we know, in our heads, we'll get to
see our dear friends again in the near future (point of information:
my SNIFF now is somewhat minor as compared to the post-concert and
post-trip ones URGH!) but we LOVE them too much to not have them
around with you for at least 1/3 of a day or something... maybe it's
the conditioned habit thing to want things to be "normal", after being
exposed to friends for so long...

but things can't always stay "normal" (or rather, unchanged, to be
more accurate). friends come and go, you can request, but will
everyone readily give (be it becuase of fear of possible repecussions,
or due to obligations, or pity, or doing what one feels as right - a
subset of obligations in a way, i suppose)? no la, don't be so
demanding of people, let them live the lives they would most like, if
they'll be happier that way. they didn't mean to harm you, anyways,
and you could be causing them unhappiness should you insist of
continuing things haha...

*note: this are just random musings... no references to particular
persons or events*

so weird right, there's little in life that's permanent plus truly
memorable and treasured forever... but i'm still hopeful!!! :D

oh crap, i kinda got carried away by this SNIFF thingy!!

i want to blog about how time passes by so quickly, and i ended up
talking about friendships again (which takes up quite a bit of my
brain RAM throughout the day, and erm, people with SNIFF find time
passes by SLOWLY not FAST-LY)

well actually it's FAST when you look at a long period of time (from
end of my A levels till today, for instance. that's ONE FREAKING
MONTH!) but it's SLOW if you want to count every minute of your day
(like, i thought it's already 2 hours since i started up the macbook -
far more RELIANT than the other comp ER HMM *clears throat* however,
the macbook is new la, we'll see how well it survives my family's
heavy usage)

sad to say, i am going to fail most of my planned activities (as in,
fail to carry them out) esp all the self improvement ones in the areas
of art + music... but i'm starting to get a tan :D thanks to the sun
which finally showed itself yesterday! i need more sun, please! you
make me HAPPY and OPTIMISTIC!

there better be sun throughout pre xmas, xmas and post xmas, so my
mind won't wander off into introspective things like friendships and
SNIFF and my past and future... but i'm still somewhat happy that my
life isn't as complicated as the lives of other people :S am i that
simple-minded? haha!

looking forward to more gatherings haha! see you there!

*who reads my blog arh? appear now! anw, congrats for reading this
far, i know i'm quite boring, but you probably got too much time to
spare so congrats again haha! make good use of your time hor!*

ok this is the end of one of my longest posts. phew!

the beholder is blind!

met up wif other pple for PLUNCH today, so great to talk with the juniors again after so long :) and thanks so much for the treat!hopefully when i'm older i can still find time/ability to be with friends...

in an unrelated event, as X, Y and i walked out of orchard mrt station, this short woman was standing around looking for potential models. i was walking in front of X and Y, so the woman is supposed to notice me first, right? no she didn't ok?! she looked right through me and homed straight for X!!!! (and according to X, he has been approached by this same woman before! [i think it was last year])

she said something like, "hi, i'm from the modelling agency and we're looking out for potential models. would you like to apply?"

ouch, big blow on my inflated ego HAHA! as in, i got judged by this total stranger and she concluded that 'eee he's ugly'! aiyo i'm oversensitive la. can't help it, though, it's hard to steer my thoughts away from some things sometimes heh

anw, i think i overreacted the whole day HAHA! right after she tried to lure X (unsuccessfully again), i retorted instinctively (i didn't even realise i sounded that harsh!), "eh why you never asked me?" in a stupid act of self defence. oh well, at least i got her off our backs as we were uninterested in the modelling thing (well she DIDN'T ASK ME!) and we were rushing for something else (i shan't say what, else the identities of everyone will be revealed HAHA)

i must have scared the poor woman away heh! oh well she partly deserves it for looking like a hungry vulture when she saw X!

anw, after this incident i realised models have to be tall :| teehee no wonder Y oso didn't get asked!

too bad i'm such a lazy person, if not i wld have exercised and *might* have grown a bit taller (but no way can i reach 180cm!) 172cm is too short right?! what do you think?

*here's wishing stuss/chang/wx/jeff/bo a pleasant and fun and safe trip!*

F.I.R

ok i know this is very late, but i just bought F.I.R's most recent album, Flight Tribe heh! i think it's the best of the 3 albums so far in terms of the overall quality - practically all the tracks can almost become a A- or B- side in a singles album!
i like the way they try to infuse pop-rock with different elements, like this time they tended to use even stronger cultural elements than ever (well, as opposed to the indian intro, bridge & outro in 'ai de li liang') - they kinda incorporated the 'musical quotation' in a more obvious way (the triplet figure in 'rain sakura', the beautiful intro of 'flight tribe')

wif all the cool intros for each piece, i think this album is very coherent despite the quotations from all over the world (ie no track is out of place) but, all the tracks are so good on their own, they don't seem to complement each other... its like having a bunch of red roses, all of similar shape and colour... in the end none of them stand out... and erm, the melodies + musical styles are more typical of mainstream pop (not that F.I.R is not for mainstream listening, they're just different), all very listenable but not as memorable as some of the past singles, i think...

oooh the producer (ian chen) rocks! very well-arranged and produced tracks!

ok end of music essay... i give myself a D- for no elaboration and specific references to music haha! it's so weird you know, im kinda able to judge what standard of essays i write, but sometimes i don't know where to improve (other times i'm just too lazy to elaborate too much!)

anyway, i bought this album for a steal TEEHEHE! so tired, coz i went out the entire day (some exhibition in expo, then played in an arcade in the afternoon)... woot i'm going out again tomorrow :P must sleep early la...

super eventful day

well, it is so for a couple of reasons:

1. i finally ate a BK meal in a longggg time! yummy but very ex, esp
considering that the meal consisted of a few chunks of potato, bread,
lettuce, ham, mayo, tomato + tea (yea breakfast set), and that i could
get a sausage burger + tea for $2 at mc's!

2. my coke tasted suspiciously like cough syrup or bubble gum :\

3. the good: my wonderful carollers + i carolled at a community
hospital, where they treat the elderly :) it was really nice to sing
and make them happy, and a patient even teared after hearing us. i was
out the ENTIRE of today (i woke up at 6.45am to rush to simei by 9am,
only to find that i'm the earliest! wow, that's new...) that i got all
sweaty and sticky and oily and so tired, even my GENUINE smiles to the
patients (i really do like saying 'hi' to people, really) looked fake
to someone. hey, gimme a break, smiling when you're tired is not easy
leh, got to pull up a lot of muscles, but i'm trying so hard. haha j/k
la not angry or what. anw, thank you, the other 4 of you, who sang
with me!! thank you for making me happy and laugh so much!! the 1st
time i laughed so much in a stretch of a few days!

ohoh i hope we get the deal! money money money~~~ teehehe!

*ok the next bits are rated PG/M-16*

4. the bad: the hottest topic of conversation today is the
four-lettered "W" word :O like, continual abuse of the word and things
related to it. ok stop.

5. the SUPER EWW AND UGLY!: i had to use the loo urgently. must have
been the reaction between the bubble gum flavoured coke + the mint
sweet i ate, or the ice cream and aenemic-looking tempura chicken and
mint sweet i ate, or simply eating too much of all the above :S anw,
this GROSS guy in the toilet was trying, as inconspicuously as
possible, to drip tap water into his areas where the sun doesn't
shine! :O beside me as i was washing my hands! talk about the
four-lettered W word! STUPID exhibitionist! i wanted to make some curt
comment right at that moment, but i thought it make backfire :\

OH MY EYES! it's too much for me ewww! if it's tt bad for a guy to see
ANOTHER guy do something stupid, imagine the effect on the opposite
sex.

my christmas wish *click*

*super long post, at least by my standards and by the patience my
average reader has for reading my blog haha* BUT, at least please read
the very last paragraph lest you get a stilted impression of me haha!
i think the people close to me can attest to the last paragprah :)

my christmas wish for this year is to sort out my life! what do i
really want, how to get towards it. future job, hobbies/interests,
social life blah blah blah...

watched 'click' at a fren's place; click is abt this guy who got a
remote control that could fast forward or review the things he did in
the past, but the catch was that the remote will automatically preset
to the user's life preferences and automatically fastforward your life
based on those preferences, so the protagonist basically got his life
fastforwarded really fast to the end of his life, evantually, because
a lot of his life was spent arguing with his wife, or slogging hard to
get promoted, or being sick (all of which he didn't want and thus
manually fastfwded before). i think there's this similar chinese story
right? about this guy who was given a spool of magical golden thread
by a deity, who told him that by unrolling the thread, he can
fastforward his life (without experiencing anything, so it's like
being transported to the future), just like in the movie click.

anyway, to cut everything short, the movie was trying to say that one
should treasure the relationships more than work + going through the
process sometimes is a good thing (like the hilarious take on the guy
having, erm, quick sex in 1 minute with his wife) heh! and of course,
don't anyhow make stupid decisions (he got the remote control as a
free gift from the angel of death <-- not exactly a devil, he was just
being objective...

ok back the the christmas wish, woah must choose my path carefully
can?! i keep changing my minds whenever i see an attractively-written
article about this or that, i sometimes do wish i have that crystal
ball or the remote control or the spool of thread, too bad those can't
be rewinded, else everything's going to be perfect haha! but at least
i know i want to be a teacher in the end, hopefully physics la! being
a music teacher, school or private tutor or otherwise, is a bit sucky
i think because you gotta devise a proper schedule and structure for
the lesson plans, from scratch. not easy, you know, especially when
there's so much knowledge that it forms a web, an entangled + complex
one, that you don't know where to start :|

lol if i do want to become a music teacher then things will be like
quite clear cut lol! compose music when young, get some fame + cash,
then when old retire as music teacher TADA quite a fulfilling life
right? don't even know whether music is what i want, becuase i'm not
this enthusiast unlike so many of my peers who can recognise mahler,
wagner, beethoven, tchaikovsky's symphonies + all sorts of piano works
(all the famous ones + some of the lesser known ones) AND they even
check up on what world famous pianists/violinists/orchestras play and
review them and fuss over the recordings like they're so cool + hip +
trendy. actually, the good recordings ARE gosu and cool, in a
nerdy-classical sort of way HAHA.

but anw, the thing is that they're actually enthusiastic about music
(classical) whereas i'm ambivalent about it. and don't talk about
PRACTICAL/PERFORMANCE lol! i think i'm literally years behind them in
terms of how much i practised. dang if i DID practise PROPERLY and
FREQUENTLY enough i think i CAN rival my friends HAHA. SIGH.

well, i've tried to do something about music. analysed a few pop music
songs (not STRUCTURE *hand gestures reminiscent of somebody HAHA*) but
the coherence achieved through using similar chords/riffs/patterns and
intstruments in intro, verse, chorus, bridge, out-tro, and tried to
recreate the track, but just failed because i don't know what the
stupid instruments are ARGH!

OK. maybe i go study some hard science/engineering in university, and
make my extra curricular activity = enrichment lessons here and there!
there's so much to learn, like formal dinner etiquette,
ballroom/hiphop/classical/contemporary dancing, pop singing, music
arrangement + composition, painting/drawing, photography, etc etc.
basically all the cool skills la... haha! then hor, at the same time
stay fit and get the muscular-enough-so-that-i-don't-look-scrawny look
and please i'm not iron mary, i want to have good hand-eye/foot-eye
coordination and therefore i must participate in some sort of sport...
skiing sounds cool! be it on snow or on the sea! no team sports for
me, too pressurising. and my lack of 3D vision (squint + lazy eye)
renders me useless when it comes to ball/racquet games. or maybe i'm
blaming everything on my condition when it isn't so haha.

get all that and add on being Mr Nice Guy (high EQ) and all that, you
get Mr Clifford-the-perfect Guy. or at least wayyyy closer to what i
would like to be...

dream on la clifford! sitting at the computer blogging about this
won't make you accomplish any of the above la! come on, move it!

neh never mind my dreams first, i want my sleep...

PS: i'm not always lazy! i can be SUPER hardworking, like during
pre-concert preparation, or exam preparation, or even my (quite
uneventful) library CIP stint!

EH i am not a ji ko peh!

hello, i'm tired and groggy and sweaty, sitting in front of my macbook, trying to blog (through gmail-ing my post -- i realised it
works perfectly well! :D)

anw, today i made a new temporary friend, too bad i forgot to ask for her contacts haha, coz we click quite well... met her thru today's psc evening tea session... wished certain people are this easy to talk with haha, or that i have as much (endless) things to say to...

if only i LOVED doing like, those 'normal' kind of jobs, u know, those office jobs u see in tv dramas, then all these would be such a breeze...

the hip and the cool!

the hip and the cool!
Originally uploaded by cliff_au_yong.

ok not totally cool la we're all clubbing noobs unless you include partying at club momo (postprom) as real clubbing...

i shan't type so much here... i think ppl who didn't go for zoukout missed a bit of stuff haha!



zoukout! it's basically zouk expanded to fill the beach, with lots of food/drink stalls + product stalls e.g. gaming stations (competitions), beer, colonge, even computer?!?!



above: a screwed up but quite nice shot of the stage :| pity i didn't bring the camera into the venue, coz i'm scared it gets stolen or lost... i was so paranoid, i pinned my pockets shut with safety pins HAHA!

we were so tired and hungry after clubbing for ard 3 hours that we sat around and ate afterwards (satay was quite good) and left at around 5.30am plus, then had mcdonald's breakfast at 6am (harbourfront) and finally headed home when the sun rose...

ooh and i rumaged through my stuff and found some drawings (yes i drew them myself) i made when i was in sec 2-3



zero from the mega man x series... too bad i didn't bother trying to shade properly, or to straighten out the edges. anyway i need help in shading properly to make it look less rough.



some flower. i used black pen for this. u can see 2 colours of pens coz i did use 2 different brands of pens and i think one oxidised real badly.

carolling and star awards

i thought that i would be uninvolved in public performances (at least till the end of the year) but i found myself in a little ad-hoc a cappella group which is to perform and entertain some old folks at a home (i think it's a home, er as opposed to hospice or hospital)...

not that i don't like carolling (explaining why i didn't want to participate in RChorale's engagement with Int'l Garden Festival) it's just the time that has to be spent la. ironically i wish this small group i'm in will practice MORE because the performance is only 4 days away and, erm, people are still not back from holidays --> haven't learn the songs yet haha! am beginning to worry about the actual day...

anyway, argh! i miss creating harmony in a cappella groups! esp when the tones of the voices are pretty good (as in the case of the 2 girls who were present, xi xun and sam) so the blending was not too bad, and when both were in tune, it sounds more than decent haha :) (my standard very high one!)

as for me, i'm RELEGATED TO SINGING BASS ARGH! BECAUSE THERE'S AN ACUTE LACK OF GUYS AND WE ONLY HAVE SATB (FULL CHOIR) SCORES :( i realise singing bass isn't always that easy (although after a while you'll probably pick up the pitch patterns which can be similar across songs, after all -for the musically less knowledgeable- there's a bundle of popular chord progressions hence the bass sings similar stuff) but for noobs like me who sing tenor (little leaps in pitch, usually) bass = acrobatics as you go up and down and up again. plus, my low range is a bit grating. urgh! tenor is actually a cool part to sing coz if sung correctly you can feel vibrations in your body, plus you blend in with the subwooferbasses, and you're in the middle of the harmony, so cosy!

enough of the boring bits, xx + sam were totally hilarious yesterday HAHA! like, almost on constant adrenaline rush or something, they're a limitless source of energy i can't catch up with them and end up laughing most of the time haha! like when they danced and tried to teach me how to dance like a worm (moving your body in waves) (they failed badly)...

i pigged out big time today! chocolate + 2 ribena packs + fruit + ee mee for dinner + cuttlefish snacks = me who will not survive in BMT given my current scores for the NAPFA test

being a happy bunch we got sidetracked off our goal a lot of times haha! distractions include the pet and food haha! and of course, the TV, speaking of which channel 8 had a live telecast of the Star Awards.

i must say the quality this year isn't very good, with some really BORING presenters who rambled on about things i couldn't understand, given my fairly competent grasp of mandrain (maybe it's exhaustion that kicked in from not sleeping enough due to ZoukOut, but more of that in a later post). really you know, the trio of presenters were quite bad, in my opinion, never mind that they are famous. they didn't incite much laughter from the audience although they tried to be funny (in mandrain this is called leng2 chang3! or 'cold scene'). and the planning of time was terrible, you'd think that after 12(?) years of hosting this event they would know roughly how much time each award will take, but no, they underran at the start (which explains the trio presenters' lacklustre performance) then overran because of this trio and other overseas celebrity-presenters (not to mention the super long thank-you speeches we have especially this year).

personally i thought certain other artistes should have won certain awards, but oh well haha... and oh yea we see at least 2 examples of how the rankings of the artistes (recorded by telepoll) can change in a matter of minutes simply by rallying fan clubs to hog the poll lines (i guess that's how ou xuan got in. hey i like her can? pretty and smart and quite demure i think? lalalala)

then again, how would we know how much effort the celebs actually put in?!

ok i'll truncate my thoughts here - i need my sleep badly now! cya!

boredom almost sets in.

luckily i got things to do for the next few days:

attend some NLB talk on racial harmony in the morning 2mr, cancel some afternoon appointment - i can't make it :( - and go for ZoukOut in the night :) then... oh ya i just joined xx and sam's carolling group! we're carolling at an old folks' home on the 15, but they hafn't started practising properly yet omg omg omg! looks like i need to help them out haha... sheesh, half of december will be gone! i haven't really started to do the things i wanted to learn yet :( shat.

random thoughts, ok not, it's distilled from a few convos i had/am having now as i type:

1. drawing attention to urself is one way to make friends/start conversations... like how i accidentally crafted my msn nick wrongly to say "ZOUKOUT TICKET GOING CHEAP! 28 BUCKS!" someone thought i'm not going, then i changed to "ZOUKOUT TICKET GOING CHEAP! 28 BUCKS! (i'm helping ivee n pakwai sell)" then someone else thought i wasn't even planning to go at all haha! it's really nice to have little chats with people, especially those you haven't been talking to for so long... sheesh i have too many simul convos now hahaha! like... ard 10 open ones (ok of which half are inactive - but i'm not a good multitasker) ah i'm a closet attention whore (isn't everyone a bit like that?)

2. relationships are messy. wear gloves when handling. flammable and sticky and liquid and wadeva la! but it can glow nicely and suitably well if handled properly (or so i think? that's a weird analogy i just used hm. i'm describing crude oil or smthg.)

baldwin la go learn how to doll ur blog up lol! if i can do it (i'm html noob ok?!) u can do it better than me hor!

stop initiating new convos leh adoi! i want to sleep liao!!!

THE SWANS (part two) and post - THE SWANS

Jeff and I, with Dominic hiding behind
Originally uploaded by cliff_au_yong.

ok so we're not that hawt in photos. heh. anyway, a naughty photo:



i wonder who is that? ha!



that's bobo - fellow chorale+punchmate!



my wonderful MEP class with (some of) whom i share my random weird thoughts with haha! and who went through thick and thin wif me! urgh the portfolio, the practical exams!



one more swan here - kat! we had to reserve a timeslot with her and queue up to snap a shot wif her lor HAHA! too popular already la, that's why go so many flowers? j/k

anyway, i do have a lot more pics but i just posted a couple, with focus on pretty (people), group photos and/or funny ones :)

batch video was, in my opinion, horrendously skewed to show mainly the sports ppl + raffles players (which seems to represent most, if not all, the perf arts grps hmph!) although yea i think some of the pics used were wholly memorable and appropriate (the softballers one which got onto the sch's mag, for instance) maybe show more of everything instead of just focussing on a few shots? not v resourceful. and my brother's secondary school grad VIDEOS AND PHOTO SLIDE SHOWS are MUCH more interesting than RJC's!

postprom was quite weird and tends towards being bad, haha! din go to MOMO, i just bummed along with my 2S06C frens around s'pore river (clarke, boat quay) looking for a pub to sit inside ZZZZ. and din manage to coz practically all were closed. and ppl din want to club either so no MOS or MOMO (which i heard wasn't good). oso good la, can avoid the smoke! (the entrance to MOS was HAZY with cigarette smoke, i thought they used dry ice to create it!)... and another sign that we're not catching with other ppl our age: yue-yi heard some random person commenting about us "those little kids" or smthg liddat haha! i bet s/he's ard our age?! nvm la being young is GOOD! >:)

on 2nd thoughts maybe it WAS better we din go to a club, coz we WERE slightly underdressed/inappropriately dressed, compared to all the OLDER PEOPLE heh. speaking of age/size, while walking along the s'pore river we bumped into a couple of groups of ACJC/other JC pple who happend to have prom on the same day - erps they DO look bigger, older, more mature than the average RJC person :\ why arh? nvm la i'm happy the way i am (as in, how i don't look too mature!) the adult world is a bit daunting, i think..

what happened in the hotel room (we headed back there, seeing there was nothing for us outside) was simply disaster for the drunk :\ in the end almost everyone KOed from exhaustion and abt 5 ppl were left talking abt random things (a bit of 'girl talk' which i had no choice but to hear because i'm one of those awake :|) morning broke evantually, and i had a mcdonald's pancake breakfast (hafn't had pancakes in years!)

ok so that's how my prom went :)

THE SWANS (part one); the link

ryan me stephanie
Originally uploaded by cliff_au_yong.

this was taken just before it started: ryan, me and stephanie, all from 2S06C '06

prom was basically great, ok? i didn't expect the food to be of quite-ok standard :O and the female ducklings in RJC transformed into SWANS (if only they stayed as swans :P) although i MUST say that some had outrageously odd costumes :S shan't describe them here la dun so mean to them - it ought to be THE NIGHT to remember from JC life... i must say i was stunned or mesmerised by a few girls that night HAHAHA

flickr takes too long to upload, and has a yucky size limit! shutterfly has none of that but can't link :@ i'm going to use blogger instead, although it is also quite slow. oh, hurry up or i'll cut this entry short...

so, here's a few pics of girls!



they are hui min, malisa, wendy (3 flowers from mep class)

ok anyway, before i lose interest in blogging this (and i gtg soon), "the link" at shangri-la hotel simply rocks! i went there for the buffet dinner ytd (uncle's treat), er that wld b the day after prom, anw the only possible complaint anyone can have is the hefty price - 68+++ per pax!!! i think our bill amounted to abt 90 per person :S anyway, their decor is like, totally ORANGE, from the table mat to the lights to the... aiya a lot of orange.. and they have a range of food, frm indian to jap to (quite a bit of) chinese to some western to seafood!!! ahhh seafood... ok the other thing is that the link has lots of different cultures of food all in one, but each has not so much to offer (e.g. there's less than 10 varieties of dim sum available) so it's more of jetting around the world in double quick time kind of thing... but of course quality is really good - i haven't tasted food which isn't too strong for quite a long time! the tastes are really clear and all... and presentation is cool! esp the seafood one where they arrange the prawns, scallops, oysters etc neatly on ice... OHOH the bestest thing: CHOCOLATE FONDUE AND DESSERTS AND ICE CREAM!!!! there's a fairly large chocolate fountain and the ice cream parlour (altho it has few flavours to choose from) allows you to mix flavours and add titbits to it! like for instance, strawberry and coconut ice cream mixed wif kacang putih and nuts and blah blah... the ice cream vendor uses 2 spade-like things to mash everything together on a frosted metal slab omg so cool!

here they are:





sorry la too busy eating and feeling horrendously full to take too many pics



dark chocolate fondue can?!?!?!
back to THE SWANS...



that's ivee and me yep! argh i look the same in every photo...

while that's being uploaded, i think i must live more frugally! my parents can't sustain my lifestyle la aiyo! party here clothes there, food everywhere, money just leaks out, no, gushes out like a dam with holes : S

moving on,



these are the chorale guys! ryan, baldwin, kevin h, yi han, bjorn (sorry la dun haf the omlaut) kevin c, justin, me!

more swans:



andrea! your friend is a wonderful makeup artist, really!



even more: yvonne!



commercial break: george and dominic ahahhaha!

thanks to qing xiang who introduced me to faststone photo resizer, which reduced the time i took to upload the photos by about a couple of ten times?!?! visit qing xiang's photolog - quite gd leh! (link's on the RHS of page) eh do i get paid for posting ads??

part two coming up! thank goodness for flickr's blogging ability!!

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

PROBLEM!!!

why why why do i haf problems wif posting stuff up? :@ i took off my post abt prom coz it just messed up the blog layout haha! is there smthg wrong wif my ISP or FTP or wadeva? some computer genius help me coz i'm a total noob! >:(

EDIT: WOW. i got this post up, even this edit, w/o any problems?! why not my post which had nice photos of ppl and food?!?! that deserves to be on my blog argh!

pre-THE SWANS

ok back from prom and post prom and a nice long sleep...

i will post the prom photos and my cousin's wedding photos one day, somewhere, when i decide to sign up for some free photo website or learn how to add pics to blogs :S i'm a html noob.

will talk more abt it later - i gotta go eat dinner at shangri-la: my businessman-uncle is treating us haha!

*upcoming post (reminding myself again):
1. prom - the transformations, the food, the atmosphere, myself, blah blah...
2. the weird postprom i had
3. all the stupid details of stuff, like the things i lost :4. reflections if any :\

prom prom prom pom pompompompmpmpmmmmmm

try saying "prom" repeatedly, really fast, heh!

ok i'm bored, but there's quite a bit to worry about tonight, like, where
and when to cut my hair, how to keep away my stuff in the hotel room my
class booked, will i take enuff pictures tonight, wlll i be too tired for
postprom stuff (may not go to club momo or wherever the place the prom-comm
booked) will my stomachache still persist :( and ARGH! the money i'll have
to spend tonight! for zoukout ticket, postprom ticket, haircut, some secret
items senthil intends to buy... that should cost up to 30+14+30+??? =
possibly nearly a 100 bucks! why does entertainment/leisure stuff come at a
high price??? when i think of money i feel so terrible, coz i've been really
splurging money on clothes, food, etc...

ok this sounds juvenile, but... hwoah, my life will be quite sad and boring
w/o frens to go out wif... haha! do u ppl get this longing for company, any
sort!, after you've hanged out wif frens and are now all alone (ok maybe not
totally alone, but wif considerably fewer ppl and less convos, hence) haiyo
when did i start to get this feeling arh? i think it first came in sec 3 and
it happens every holiday... see la, what school does to you :P too much
interaction with ppl in the day makes you long for more at night... chatting
wif timberwolf now, abt frens (EXCUSE ME i don't choose friends by looks :|
)... i dunno, for me my closest frens aren't the ones who i talk to the most
on msn, but who spend the most time wif me... like gg out tgt, studying tgt,
gg home tgt... i mean, the amt of time or words i spend chatting on msn wif
the person doesn't make the friendship a lot tighter/closer as much as just
bieng wif the person like, face to face/inthe flesh...

mm abt looks as a factor for choosing a fren, i guess if we asscociate
certain features wif certain traits/characteristics, it will taint our
initial impression of the person... like, how some ppl may associate fat ppl
to be clumsy, piggy, uncontrollable (when it comes to eating) etc etc etc...
but, no la, they aren't like that lor... but of course la the first
impression bit will be forgotten in time (i don't rmb actively what my i
first thought of my closest frens - as opposed to rmb what happened ytd, for
example, that wld b "active memory" - ) dun ask me for my first impression
of u peepz, coz it's v likely i dun haf a strong impression of u hahah!

*the big pple don't take offence... anw i used to be big so i know how it
feels to have relatives commenting like... woah ure so
fat/chubby/whatever... (i'm lucky i din get friends teasing me abt weight)
and chubby ISN'T A NICE WORD AT ALL >:(

-sidetracked with a phone call frm ryan-

mmhm yep so, haiya why are things, like friendships, so transient? am i the
only one who hangs on to past things? can the person on the other side of
the line call me back? *tooooot. tooooot. tooooot* no response. haiz. (nope
not referring to any particular person, and no, the phone call analogy is in
no way related to the phone call frm ryan. we were disucussing prom stuff,
simply put) is it coz frens aren't related by blood (and hence aren't bound
to the traditions of filial piety and such) are we really all that selfish
:\ even if so, is it wrong?? it's only natural to be selfish sometimes, i
think... hmm... oh well sometimes things are really blurred and distorted
when you view them thru ur own glasses... everyone has a unique pair of
eyes, fine i respect that, maybe i'm in the wrong at times, who knows...
(again, no particular references to anyone or anything, more like a
culmination of what i observed and experienced la :P)

dang i really sound like a 14 year old :P but that's abt how deep my
thoughts are right now, heh. i'm not as smart, as introspective, as
philosophical, as metacognitive-able as many of the ppl in my batch, i
think...

travelled to m'sia... some interesting things

hm i realised that blogging via email is the easiest way for me, since
safari is stubborn and refuses to upload whenever i use the bl0gger
interface... one day i will put up some photos, yes i will... :\

haha a few things happened on the trip:

1. had to jump on the newlyweds' bed, to wish them great fertility and high
quality offspring. actually, the youngest male kid in the family is supposed
to be jumping, but the bride's mom (my aunt) insisted on me, hoping i can
transfer certain qualities onto the future baby...

2. had to dip my hand into a new urine urn to pick some mandarin oranges and
an angpow lol! there u haf it, an insight into some aspects of cantonese
customs....

3. yay dancefloor during the KL wedding dinner :) as usual, everyone was
quite shocked...

4. one of my cousin apparently commented (not to me, but to another cousin)
that if i weren't her cousin, she wld jio me heheheheh! :$

5. managed to buy a couple of clothes, not just for prom. finally, some
apparel less kiddy. don't have to keep wearing the same, more mature clothes
anymore, heh

6. ummm a couple of dreams... one involved some fat generic RJ girl trying
to sing the chorus of Hikari during a school singing compeition and failed
miserably coz the song is just too high! and then she was shocked at herself
and ran down the stage (what a weird dream.)

another involved certain people whom i'm fairly close to... urm shldn't
elaborate here haha!! that dream made me v confused. thanks CJ for chatting
wif me abt this :) although i still don't know what the hell i'm doing, or
what i am feeling, or what's happening... at least...

(J knows what is it too, except he didn't really talk/respond to me and
shooed me to play mahjong, haha! i guess i din tell him the whole picture
properly lol! oh well)

don't be nosey, blogders!

ahhh wahhhheeeeeaallluuuulalalalaeeeeeppppzzzzzmmmbbbffgghhgh *loopy*

haiyo i need to be neh-nehed around, guess that's why i do quite ok in
school, coz there's constant pushing and there's a set path/directions to
follow... i tell you my future is going to be abit screwed bcoz i'll b too
lazy to apply or try for anything... why do pple keep putting me in
leadership positions arh??? zzz.

anyway, more interesting things, got the prom, postprom (i hope the class
goes to club/pub, dun just sit ard in some dark park and chit chat eee!),
and zoukout to keep myself in touch with society... at least wif the young
cohorts of s'poreans, heh.

reminders for myself:
1. sleep earlier!
2. carry out the resolutions i made recently, which includes the things i
want to accomplish during the hols... i
3. CHARGE THE CAMERA BATTERIES!!!! they were close to running out during my
m'sia trip, that i had to conserve energy greatly by taking less photos :S

i wonder who else knows my blog... tag pls! mm someday i'll tell more pple,
evantually, when theres a bit more content up... haha!

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travelling to m'sia + some random memories

ok this was supposed to be posted on tuesday, 28th nov, but blogspot didn't
accept it oh well (ok i'm going to figure out one day how to change date of
post)

***

soon i'll be in a coach headed for taiping, perak in m'sia... got 2 wedding
dinners to attend during the next 3 days or so... coz my 'big sister' (ga
jie in cantonese - actually she's my cousin) is getting married yep...
however they go invite so many relatives and since (i suppose) so many of
them are 'immobile' i.e. unwilling to travel anything more than an hour to
attend a wedding dinner they had to organise TWO wedding dinners in taiping
and kl (where the rest of the relatives are) haha! not that i'm complaining
about the food ;)

i wish for a few things during this trip:

1. my piano sight reading skills improve so that i can play all the richard
clayderman and whatnot pop songs properly so that i don't lose face in front
of my relatives, some of whom i probably forgot how to address them :|
2. that i don't get bored. 4 days w/o computer can get quite a bother
3. good food during the 2 wedding dinners. please, no omelette or tiny
prawns or choi sum (cai xin).
*lol i recall my sec 3 sept holiday trip to m'sia with the rest of my cohort
(141 of us) to pontian kelongs (an excuse for my chinese teacher to bring us
out haha! while teaching us some content knowledge) t'was a great trip,
really, coz we got in touch with some aspects of nature (firefly watching on
a boat flowing down a mangrove swamp; kelong farms along the coast) and we
got quite well-fed, and we had to eat omelettes, tiny prawns and choi sum
for almost every 8 course meal we had tehehe! ok shouldn't complain about
such things la =P

aiya so fast - already almost december... where did my long holiday from
school go to :(

i shall sign off with some lyrics...

Letters - as sung by Utada Hikaru (translated)

I walk out atop the warm sand, towards the seashore
where sad news doesn�t reach me.
Even without you here, the sun rises �
it is the beginning of one new day.

As for the Amida-kuji* line I chose today,
I don�t know where it leads.
It is why, (despite) being lazy, I would work everyday.

Ah on the sky in two hands... to the storm in the heart...
Ah farewell to you... Ah on this seashore,
a letter is always left.
Ah even in dreams, even over the phone,
Ah I want to hear your voice! Ah you, not being
good at connecting, are always a letter lying around.

One occasionally forgets to keep in touch when busy,
but it happens to everyone once or twice.

The elderly person I talked to today says that it�s fine to be alone.
Dubious me... I�m still in the process of thinking it through.

Ah give a name to a flower, give a star a wish,
Ah give me you. Ah what decorates this window sill
is always a letter.
Ah even only a little, even over your shirt,
Ah I want to touch you. Ah What I remember of
that last time was, "I�ll definitely return!"

Ah I�ll give a peaceful place, a continuation to my dream,
Ah a "Welcome back!" to you. Ah from somewhere
in this world, even I'll keep sending to you.
Ah even in dreams, even over the phone,
Ah I want to hear your voice. Ah if you're not good at relating
then the next time you disappear, I don�t need anything.

* Amida-kuji is a Japanese lottery-like game in which you choose a line and
follow it according some rules. If that line leads to a prize, you win it.
This game involves both the elements of personal choice and of fate. Each
line leads to a definite end point, except that you won't know which line
leads where until you get there. Pretty much like life.

(From http://www.animelyrics.com/jpop/utada/letters.htm)

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