me is me but is not the was-me. will i be the want-to-be-me in the future?

my dad sent me some smses while i was in camp (the following are unedited, original smses):

Fyi, archi-NUS produced only one 1st class honour student in last 2 decades! This yr intake of 140 or so, now 30 had left. U certainly hv chosen a challenging but so $rewarding course 2 study.

that was the first, then he went on to comment about this yr's psle top scorer:

Fyi, headline news of The ST shows PSLE top scorer fr St Hilda scored 294 pts topped the previous high of 292 set in 1993 by Justin Lau, now 26 and a postgraduate student in architecture at NUS. The top scorer could read at age 2.5 but my Clifford could read at age 1.3 yr-old sitting on a potty, remember?! Believe daddy, stay focus, nurture ur talent wif a well-developed physique.

awww man...


anyways, i searched for proof of his statement, and here it is:





lol. i suppose i was a born mugger? hurhurhur. and i have good toilet manners; i never read or multitask while answering my nature calls, thank you very much.

i am not a mugger! well, at least not a full time one!

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my first batch of recruits is going to leave me soon!! they are great people in general. damn, i'll miss them. i think the fear of the unavoidable led me to start searching for their friendster profiles and adding them to my friends list. not that i use friendster (or for that matter, networking sites) often. it's kind of like the last strand of thread that holds the pieces of cloth together. i hope that my next batch will be at least as good as this!

more oddities of life

internet-based human network programmes are an addiction to me. in my secondary school and jc life i have been wasting most of my time away on msn, chatting with friends who i can confide in so easily via a mambojambo network of wires and 100101110100101011100. msn's perfect for work-related discussions, too. and although the email notifications from facebook irritate me to no end, i still use facebook, knowing/assuming that my friends are going to be using it for a long time, and therefore we can keep contact that way.

but for someone who relies on internet connections (and the handphone) to stay in touch with friends, i have not been adding as many to my contact lists or asked them for their email address, or msn and facebook accounts as i could have (keep in mind i see 50 new faces every three months - bmt, bslc, aslc, and now my recruits).

to keep those things in perspective, i have added all of my ex jc classmates' and a large proportion of my chorale mates' email addresses onto my msn messenger account, let's just say the total number of those whom i've added who are from these two social groups is around 80. this is 80 out of 25 + 100 = 125 people. and that's in the span of 2 years. compare that to 50 x 4 = 200++ new faces in this year. out of that i think i have less than 30 added on msn. hate to say this, but i think i can now safely delete some of my old contacts whom i know won't talk with me unless during some special occasion. so in short, i'm hanging on to my exchorale-mates who are still going out together. how sad, the fragility of relations.

oh yea, this week was especially tiring. it's the first time that i - shock! - hurled vulgarities at recruits like how you would throw a mud pie at a wall (the wall doesn't strike back but feels shitty). luckily not from my platoon man. i think i'm too lienient with my platoon. not that they're stepping all over me (actually none of them ever tried to do that to me), but lienient in terms of push ups and other forms of punishments. i don't remember pumping the platoon since before the field camp (what if my OC sees this :O )

anyway back to the fierce part. they were supposed to execute certain drills when contacted by certain others. WA LAU that one also cannot leh!!! ya, so from that you feel like king, but in the end it doesn't really matter.

ok enough of mind nonsense. jay chou's new album is out!! not too bad la, although i think he's capable of better stuff. and i'm busy the entire of tomorrow - lunch and dinner outings organised by friends.

ok, that's all i have to say for now, because i'm totally worn out and tired today... see you maybe next week? or the following week :)

oh, stalkers please tag so i know who you are heh.

the voyeur/stalker/friend in me

a simple google search on one of my recruit's name led me to a tiny network consisting of his other platoon mates (i.e. my other recruits) on friendster =P i have this urge to add all of them to my (measly) friend list, but i think i'll save it till just before they POP la. i think i need to maintain whatever i have left of my rank superiority, sekali they don't obey my orders in camp because i befriended them. but it's really nice to have them as friends leh. i see the good friends in them, haha...




speaking of googling, just searching for my first and last name leads one to this blog O_o i must try to conceal it a little more...

would you consider fanatic fans to be stalkers? i mean, even if the artiste publicises aspects of his/her life? if so, i'm a UH stalker :$ i mean, reading her blog is rather, oddly, intriguing. her randomness and make-believe stuff and freudian tendencies... lol.


(unrelated to the above) something else of interest. how our minds can relate one sensory experience to another. like for example, a girl eating an octopus tentacle can mean something much more, urm, fascinating (not for the young):

was searching for websites for the bored, this particular website is actually quite clean, but it just happened to have this link to another site with a video of the above description O_o

so now you know "i'm not- that- in-ner-cernt..." (quote from britney spears).

with regards to training. self-reminders in quasi-encryption.

(can i stop pretending to write in impeccable, melifluous (or should i say, superfluous) language. please.) my current apparent tendencies with the complicated seems to stem from being in a relatively intellectually less-stimulating environment. need a remedy for this.

ok so the musings of the week (actually three) are as follows:

the smallest ripples caused by one's movement can generate waves and tremors in others

stereotypes can be reinforced with one filmsy example, but cannot be weakened even by one strong counter-example (in reference to... ah, not that i actually care much about this stereotype, i'm just observing things as casually and objectively as possible)

be watchful of what you do now; your eye may be twitching later. on a similar note, leading by example is a cliche but extremely important point. living your life and leading others to live their lives in different standards is suckstoyoutothemax :(

a certain level of familiarity does not breed contempt. Instead, lieniency, which must be avoided for the student's future well being.

and anonymous mudslinging is no less than an offence. with that, a disclaimer:

THE POINTS MENTIONED ABOVE ARE REFINED AND ORIGINAL THOUGHTS ARISING FROM DAILY HAPPENINGS, AND IS IN NO RELATION TO YOU WHATSOEVER. MORE IMPORTANTLY, THIS AUTHOR DOES NOT HARBOUR ANY ILLS TOWARDS YOU, AND SEEKS YOUR FORGIVENESS IF YOU ARE MORTALLY OFFENDED.

once again, the eternal internal issues with the fragility of human relationships... is there something 2 people can hang on to forever? it takes infinite trust in each other, i guess? argh, dunno la...

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on a happier note, i'm on the hunt for cheap (read: less than $10) CDs, VCDs and DVDs... currently my most recent buys are FIR's love.diva and hikki's dvd version of bohemian summer 2000 (which costs only $14.90!) but i must say it was a somewhat sucky dvd because of the quality of the acoustics and hikki's own vocal limitations. 2.5 stars out of 5. :( utada united is much better, but it's freaking expensive.

oh, faye (female lead singer of FIR) composed 2 songs in the album on her own. i say they are 2 of the more memorable songs in the album, because their style (by that i mean the melodies and chords and such) is different from the usual FIR. worth a listen. oh, and one of the rare moments when mandarin pop utilises complex or rare and innate vocal abilities, such as the whistle tone, can be found in this album :) the songs from FIR's first 2 albums are probably still our 'staple listening' from FIR's expanded repertoire, but this fourth album is nonetheless competent. 3.5 of 5.

i want: fergie's the dutchess, jay chou's on the run. never mind that fergie's a lousy lyricist, the music's still good, really. and on the run shall be my - horror of horrors - first jay chou album. have heard lots of jay chou's songs, but have yet to come around to lay my hands on an album.

and i'm glad to return home to finally smell my bed for extended periods of time, even if it is only for one night. anyway it's my fault i didn't apply for leave to rejuvenate away from work :P in spite of what i have typed earlier, i'm still generally optimistic and happy with what i do. i think i'm going to miss 04/07 when they graduate :'( haiz.