... same old s*** again...

this week was angry week for me. enough said about that.

in other news, MY DESKTOP IS DYING! i'm typing this post on my macbook btw. argh...

too tired to post the pictures of the fireworks here. and - oh noes! - all the photos which i took! they're saved onto the desktop and now they're gone!!!!

going to watch edmond's (prev batch recruit) dance concert, then sing the night away with my present batch... i'm nursing a bad cold now so i don't know how i'm going to sing :S they're expecting a performance from me since that oc's evening lol.

clifford take care...

eventful week

1. two duties in three days.

2. ippt the day after i finish my duties. (OMFG I GOT A SILVER?? WOOTS.)

3. watched the fireworks display at esplanade on saturday night, the night before...

4. AHM. which i had to wake up at 0425h for and spend $29.50 on a taxi. damnit. i can't believe i actually finished it and was jogging most of the way!!! thanks matheus for recommending the glucose gel, and all sorts of running tips.

5. immediately after AHM, went to provence (french-inspired jap bakery/al fresco) to eat.

6. visited the archi fac in NUS (very dreary on a sunday afternoon)

TIRED. maybe i'll update this properly at a later date, or not.

ORD IN TWO MONTHS.

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nth much. except it was a very mentally tiring week. maybe it's the lack of sleep. can't be because of field camp for me, since i weathered 3 more field camps before and never felt this way.

it was rather bad, that i had to take a night off on wednesday. it was quite good. ate pizza with lotsa people, then hung around with jeremy n gary. nua-ed around at starbucks with gary, talked cock, then finally booked in.

a lot of small but upsetting things happened recently. i don't think i'm being overly sensitive, as these things never happened before and ought not to have happened anyway. regretted choosing some things (persons, rather). should have taken in the reins for some matters. and could not avoid certain things which piss me off etc.

we had a bbq on friday night. everyone who was able to come did attend. the setting was lovely: two small makeshift barbecue pits set up just inches from the sea. the shore overlooked the johor straits and changi area. bonded with jeremy. listened to him analyse some matters and he's really enlightening. i used to be a bit of what he was like - i mean the introspectiveness. (until last year, when i felt thinking too much drove me to frustration.)

the coy isn't what it used to be. not in a good way.

it's no good trying to be the absolutely accommodating and concerned person you can be. it's painful! i'm learning to live and let live (did i get that right?) ah. oh well.

i'm in bad need of a confidant. someone i can take comfort in. haiz.

what have i been up to?

ballet under the stars. met up with bo teri angie beow n mat :D liked your sandwiches! some of the dances were interesting, like the african-inspired one and all those that used baroque music. kewl. and i'd like to have the body of a dancer... (envy!)

Jeremy Monteiro and Michael Veerapen perform jazz piano duets. it was a cosy lively musical evening, the venue being the arts house (which is the old parliament house, beside timbre near victoria concert hall). though the sound system for the vocalist really sucked at times, the music was just splendid. so cool to hear really complex jazz improvisations. i can't wait to watch diana krall live next month... live music is just so magical and spellbounding~~~

shiina ringo's new compilation album of her rarer b-sides. Watashi to Houden. it's seriously good stuff. an eclectic mishmash of various genres such as big band, jazz, pop, rock, classical, etc. she's... omg-so-talented. more talented than hikki, definitely, except i like hikki a bit more.

and lastly, the WORST field camp i've ever experienced as a commander. it sucked to the core to be caged behind wires and having close to no human contact, because i have to watch over thousands of little black things. if i hadn't brought a psp in tow to tide over the times of solitariness, i'd probably be a real angry WILD BEAST. gah.

anyway, here's my thanks: to redhuwan/jeremy/hafizj/dq for being there for the recruits when i couldn't; gary for taking the initiative, not once but twice, to help my plt out; yuan hui and matthew for helping me count the bloody black things out of their own accord!!!

i think i've been quite unfair to you guys, not being around for so many important events and not taking control over things and stuff. i'll try to find a way to juggle the jobs of being an a*mo spec and a ps :(

experienced quite a lot more emotions during the field camp, but it's all over now and i'm already beginning to forget the bad times. so that shall be the end of this chapter, i suppose.

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i'm still excited about the days after i ord. there's just TOO MANY things to do!!!

uni life/part-time jobs/pursuing my interests/keeping fit/picking up practical knowledge etc... i need more time! like, 3 years!

but first, clear my #$@*&#$!#$^& ippt first :'(