i *think* i can get the hang of things now (: awesome. have to remove the mental walls that restrain creative thinking and bending rules. all i'd like now is a lot more time. like one of my friends just mentioned to me today, you can only pick 2 of 3 S-es in university: sleep, study, or social life.

SO TRUE. i sacrificed study time today for social life. tomorrow i MUST not do that or else i'm screwed come monday. oh geez...

300th post

i think i understand what is expected of me now. i think? haha.

am quite excited to start moulding those models...

my mind is very blunt nowadays, though. i really don't know why.

last words

i don't know why i'm blogging at a time like this, maybe i'm taking a break from thinking about design.

it's actually not THAT hard, but i'm just impaired, i think. or that the deadline is ridiculous. i did have lots of mental blocks while doing music compositions (and mind you, those compositions started from scratch, whereas snapping photos require slightly less thought), but i somehow solved them.

actually, i think it IS the time factor. really hothousing us. forcing us to utilise underdeveloped parts of our brain, neglected for the past 21 years - because of environmental condition perhaps - to think about and create design.

it's really fun, honestly. but knowing that you're going to be judged takes some of the fun away.

and, omfg, i've only 8 hours left!? i've like, loads undone. my friends all expressed shock when i mentioned i haven't started a (minor?) assignment yet. this is bad!

however, i think my current photo is a bit better than my first one. most of my friends kind of like the photo YAY. to think that it came from my hdb block!

i think this assignment really makes us re-look many aspects of our physical environment. you can actually see beauty in almost anything, if you look at it for what it is alone, then how it relates to its surroundings. pretty patterns, colours and shapes. the lights and the shadows which shift with time.

i still think hdb blocks aren't very pretty, though. perhaps they'll look better if fewer were around?

overwhelmed

what is deep thinking?

to the point that your mind is abuzz with words and meanings that keep flowing into each other, that you can't start or stop talking about it. when everything starts to make less sense and you don't know what you are saying. you try to organise them but fail.

and then, you wonder to yourself, is it really that deep? is what you are thinking deep? and are things really that complicated?

then, you wonder if you're too smart, or more correctly, too stupid.

are artsy people really unable to communicate properly with language? or is language really that incomprehensive in describing the things around us?

maybe i need some rest. the workload isn't THAT hard, it's just... overwhelming because...

of the implications if you do not do well for it?

(i can't draw straight lines urgh)

argh! :'(

wow-ness

i danced in it!



won best float design (for the 1st time). i'm so amazed!

ZOMG!

we won faculty/club best float design :D

the people who put in half of their holiday time just to do the float have sacrificed much, i'm euphoric that we got a really coveted prize! beat my home faculty (oops) but my home fac did great as well, yea man. the part of the float i was supposed to help design could have been slightly better in my opinion. but everyone thought the temple roof was really cool, that the water bottles placed on the roof was unrecognisable (as water bottles) in the end!

it has been 3 years since i last performed on a public stage. i was strangely very nervous 30 seconds before my entrance onto the stage, with the club onlookers cheering on and on. not as bad as just before my a level practical exam (felt like fainting) but had a quick pulse rate and a blank mind.

and the carpet is actually SO SLIPPERY. geez. i CRASHED into people and couldn't recover from it for 2 counts (upset about that, haha), plus i was near the front row argh.

(ok i'm nodding my head as im typing this...) but i really do feel a bit bad when i couldn't go for some of the pracs and especially helping out with the float. and i could totally understand the emotions of something this massive coming to a closure. a lot of sweat, blood and tears (; so touching haha.

ok i haven't slept since 11am on friday (affecting my concentration on the comp) so i'll update again soon!

i'm at school now. happened to youtube for fun and i revisited this particular video:

simply amazing to listen at 12am when it's all dark and silent, if you would use earphones.