_Wednesday, January 19, 2005*

noooo homework!!!

hmmm... sometimes i wonder why i'm studying so much for... why am i so compelled to get even better marks when i have what i have. complacency?? kiasu-ism?? or maybe i was just brought up to be like this? singapore culture instilled by the government?? like that jack neo movie, 'money no enough'. it's never going to be enough! a favourite question from my dad when i was in primary school, "why not full marks??". sure i understand that parents want their kids to excel in every area... but still, there's a limit to which how high a child or human can go. or is this just my imagination restricting me? bahhh... i just don't know la. life is so complicated... what do i really want?

this year's going to be one busy year... really pray that i don't stray away from God, become to engrossed in getting what i want that i don't listen to what He's trying to tell me. seems like that's a problem for me every year. gee. everything's just irritating the hell outta me. pfft. everything's just so unorganised... argh. think i'll quit golf after i get my handicap, and drums maybe after i'm done with this stage. then... HOPEFULLY i'll have more time... frustration always seems to set in at the wrong time. wait... don't think there's ever a right time for it.

oh well, gtg... for tuition. hectic life. what a love/hate situation. -.-

*- amanda scribbled at 1/19/2005 07:13:00 PM

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_Friday, January 14, 2005*

TGIF

ooh yeah!! it's finally friday!! been so busy the past few days that i didn't have the time to blog... so, for those who were expecting my continuation of my previous post, it's here!! ta-dah!! (sorry la... i'm a lil hyper now)

ok... setting goals for a reason. as i was typing, i don't see the point in setting goals to satisfy what others want you to do. others, being teachers, parents, coaches or etc. setting a goal is actually quite a personal thing, you've got to want something bad enough to set such a goal. it's got to be so important that you're willing to change the way you live your life for it. if not, i think it's better that you live your life aimlessly. this longing to achieve your goal is the only thing that's going to keep you persisting in the face of setbacks. if it isn't strong enough to last you till the end, you'll just end up disappointing yourself cos you'll just end up so sick and tired of hanging on that you'll give up on it. so... everything will just be a complete waste of time!!

for those who've the courage to challenge yourselves, and the determination to carry on out to the very end have got the fruits of their labour to be proud of. not many, including myself, have got that much discipline to last to the finish line. from personal experiences, i can testify that following your goals is not the least simple. especially for people like me... i'm not much of a leader. rather, i'm better of as a follower. others are able to influence my actions easily... maybe not my opinions but my mind more than often gives in to my heart. when my mind obviously knows that i should be doing something else, my heart distracts me... frequently tempting me to do something i'm not supposed to be doing.

hmmm, i know some of you who're reading this have differing opinions. but all that i have typed in the above as what i think is true. for you, it might not be... but oh well different people have different opinions.

*- amanda scribbled at 1/14/2005 06:43:00 PM

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_Monday, January 10, 2005*

freaking tired... and it's only the second week of school!!

hmmm, been reading through some of my past entries... (when i was supposed to be doing homework, ok. but that's besides the point) realised that what i typed was just wad happens in my life. just a peek at how monotonous my life is... HOW BORING. so from now onwards, i'll try to add more colours here.(not literally, but figuratively speaking. never you mind if you dont get what i mean. you'll see...) and my spelling was like crap too. so... no more "e", "wad", "frm", "pt", "2", "4" 6 8 10... blah blah blah. better get used to typing in proper english before i get too accustomed to short-formed words and weird spelling.

just changed e song to 'There's Gotta Be More To Life' by stacie orrico... think it's one of e most meaningful songs i've ever heard. they still play it on the radio stations once in a while... this is one song that really makes you start thinking about life.

everybody's looking for something in life... some kinda goal to keep them motivated. but what's gonna make e most difference isn't e ending or reaching the end, cos there'll NEVER be an end! humans will never ever be satisfied with what they have... it's always more, more and more. maybe i'll elaborate about that some other time.

anyway, one frequently asked question: What do you want to achieve in life? and it's frequently answered with a simple "dunno", "something", "anything" and so on. actually i don't really see the point in setting goals when you have no intention of fulfilling them. even if you try to, you'll only end up giving up after a while. so, it just rounds down to being a complete waste of time! HOWEVER, if you set a goal with a reason behind it... it's a totally different story.

which i will continue later. lol. so... if you want to find out more, come back after i've continued.

*- amanda scribbled at 1/10/2005 08:13:00 PM

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_Tuesday, January 04, 2005*

wheee! 4Z'05 rox my sox!

who came up with that line?? i think it's deena? lol. during ltc... oh well... long time ago.

oh man... our teachers for this year are fantastic!! haha!(maybe for e exception of m2) chewy's our form teacher!! woohoo!!! she rox!!!

think i'll jus list out all our teachers.

eng- m2. nc.
chi- shilaowang. wad can i say, she's still e same.
emaths- mrs lum. been hearing that she's a nice teacher. but, haven't gotten e chance to meet her yet.
amaths- CHEWY!! love her to bits.
geog- mrs ong en chee. she rox!!!
ss- mrs lim. seemed fierce but actually a great tchr. =D gossip mama. =X
lit- m2(haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate her.)
chem- ms chng. everybody says she's a great teacher. hmms.
phy- GONNIE ROH! hahaha! ronnie goh. tt guy's full of crappy jokes.
pe- ms poon. (oh man!! i mistook her for a guy!!! oh well, i am a blind bat without my specs. and i only saw her from 4 levels up. but she does look a lil like mc! =X)

hmmm... here's a list of e EXECUTIVE committee and sub reps...
moni- dhivya!! u go girl!
ass moni- navvy fishball!
secretary- ethel!
treasurer- our dearest ah ma! haha. relax la. so kan chiong!
PAL- deeeeeeeeeeeeena!

av- darling nut! tracy dear!
eng- huiyi
chi- shi hua! =X
emaths- qy
amaths- belly
geog- shit!!! oops... i meant karthini. haha!! oops. XP
ss- hazimah.
lit- me again. sabo sia.
chem- Na+ KOH- who else is suitable??
phy- botchy!(btw thanks for e blouses! i won't know wad to do w/o u. =D)
pe- auds

gonnie rox! he's e only teacher who can talk with us for so long. don't trust me?? take a look at m2! an awkward silence after less than 10 mins. weed thinks it cos she dresses like a witch. gonnie's so full of poop. lol. at least his jokes are lame but not cold.

"you're not dumb... but you're not clever enough." hmms-

he looks damn kiddy with e ha-ha hammers!! should get him one from kiddy palace. =X

bahhh... aikido classes for pe. hope i don't get whacked by anyone. should stay away from trex. haha! e demonstrator's damn retarded. his legs are a bit e jumpy huh... oh well. wad's with e head coach?? anyhow pick people to scare. x.x

4Z'04 left a lot of funny notes on e board. lol. gonnie's so cute!!! says he's gonna scold them when he sees them. "half the time spent during soccer, was for screaming." oh man... this year is so gonna be so coool.

hmms. got a new chinese tuition teacher. she seems nice. got a new vp too! mrs tan. ms lee left for ijc! gonna miss her like crap... mrs goh... went back to st nicks. =/

*- amanda scribbled at 1/04/2005 09:08:00 PM

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_Sunday, January 02, 2005*

once again, it's back to school...

yet just another year? don't think so... hmmm. think it's high time to change my lifestyle before it's too late. gotta stop spending so much time on e comp chatting, blogging, watching movies... shopping, partying. so sorry guys... won't be updating or online on msn so often. gotta pay more attention in class too! =X no more smsing, passing notes, dozing off(if i can help it), hopefully not pissing anymore teachers off, being blur, getting F9s.

this year... i SWEAR i'm gonna turn nerd. it's off to e library again. can't concentrate at home. e comp's always there... haha! tracy! care to join me?? i've gotta finish all my homework before i get home.

my goal's very clear for this year. L1R5 of less than 15 for prelims. and L1R5 of less than 9 for o's. i wanna get to ac or nj! no more procrastinating, no more excuses, and one thing's for sure... i'll be less tardy. no more life? haha. definitely lesser playing la but who cares. i've got 3 whole months to party all i want after that. and e best thing is that i'll be legally 16! gotta keep lesser late nights too... and late being not later than 12. lol. so sorry to my usual late night chatting partners... mark? kj? can't stay up till 3 or 4 any longer. =| shall start from tonight. yay. i'm left with only half an ss essay to complete before i can proudly say that my homework's done. yipee?

*- amanda scribbled at 1/02/2005 07:20:00 PM

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_Saturday, January 01, 2005*

Happy New Year!!!

wow. can't believe that one year's gone by just like that... seemed like just yesterday that felicia and michelle's batch got their o level results. e memory's still so clear!!! they were simply over e moon... still remember felicia's big hug! =X soon... it's gonna be my turn. hope i'll be as glad as they were...

hmmm... come to think about it, 2004's been rather eventful. a new class which i totally adore, e times we spent together pissing et(i still think he's a stupid idiot.) off, when potassium hydroxide gave leowsy a hug, OAC, how secretly glad most of us were when lhb took her year long leave, e huge, major first ever public performance that hb ever had at vch, e times we hb-lers shared playing a fool with each others notes(and all e great jokes that we had), church camp, all e sundays that were spent with e yccl youths sitting around bk/ljs slacking(be it samuel/hermann's really lame jokes or mark's ever favourite corn soup story or even sher&ver/shaun&tim's frequent act les/gay comedies, whatever we gals did in dg XP, everything was great!... k maybe not so much about e food but e company's always great!), etc... wah. if i name every single thing here, it'll be next week!

oh well, guess i really owe a big thanks to all my great friends out there who've made 2004 bearable(mostly to God too =D)... and a really big thanks to those who've been there for me all this while. really thankful for everything and everyone!

k maybe i should add briefly on how my new year's eve went.

woke up freaking early despite sleeping at like 2? or 3? haha. dunno la. too excited?? k... met charis, sher, tim and shaun at ps to watch kungfu hustle. got tim e gigantic lolly with 70.8? grams of sugar in it. haha! ur bday present. lalala. bleh. i'll 'la' all i want. e movie's damn lame la.

then e 5 of us shared one large lemonade courtesy of shaun. lol. thx! wah... hid it in his bag and it toppled? haha. sticky fingers!! since e 2 guys were seriously late and -ehem supposedly caught up in traffic, unfortunately e mrt decided to terminate at amk... dropped thr and caught a cab to church instead but sher had to go home first. and that girl forgot her keys!!! oh btw...tim how much was e cab fare??? going anywhr with them is never boring. shaun and tim were acting gay again. haha!

haha. so charis and me were early(for once? =X). sat around at e parish hall waiting for more e worship to start. so few pple! but more came later. played a couple of games... then had worship then prayer... till 12.30 or 1am? daniel said it was abt 1 hr. but felt a lot shorter than that! oh well, got a lift home from aunty shirley and uncle peter. wahhh... squashed at e back seat with dennis, ilona and darius. but still quite ok la. they tried not to squash me at e turns. =X lol. i wanna stayover at sher's place!!! bleh... haha! next yr la... parents surely'll allow.=)

oh yah!! sher bought everyone cheesy hotdogs!! =P haha! i didn't forget!!

*- amanda scribbled at 1/01/2005 01:26:00 AM

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