_Wednesday, June 29, 2005*

all in a nutshell...

boohoo... hols are over. very very over. heh. back in study/mugging mode. dreadful chinese o's oral are next week. thank God we're on the last day... cos we only found out yesterday. >.< oh well, haha! can't believe i managed to complete everything cept lit, guess those early nights and early mornings are working wonders.the last week of school was purely playing hard and rushing hard. completed almost half of all my hol hmw in the last week! hahahahha. i don't think i'm ok. (=

the sports event between youth and ytssbb was fun. haha! finally met up with kenneth kor again after like 2 or 3 whole years?? the last time we met was like donkey years ago. reuben too... actually, the last time we met up was like a few weeks ago. coincidentally met him at expo. nice to see the both of them again! saw leonard in person for the first time. hee. yeah i agree with ver, he's good looking. =P too bad he's got a crush on someone else. lalala. jk.

the games were great. my team got first for both badminton and cappy ball! haha! nah, i just happened to be at the right place at the right time. shawn and leonard make a darn good pair... for soccer i mean. (= and ken was like playing bball in caps ball. now he's famous. can start his own fan club liao la! never knew his bball skills were that good. dinner was ok, i guess... hilarious conversations. haha! too bad for those who didn't turn up. it was one fun day.

went back to school on monday with muscle aches that made me wish soo badly that i was still home sleeping.worse things worse,jogging :2rounds... on the very first day. that is SO SAD. couldn't even stand up straight after that.

ah ma was tellin me of this eatery near her home named Ah Fu. and they have it in beeeeg beeeg words on the very striking signboard... imagine what would happen if a CK(calvin klein) store opened next to it. haha! that was the last thing i expected her to say.

ok. dinners callin. doubt i'll be updating anytime soon. i'm dying. (=

*- amanda scribbled at 6/29/2005 07:10:00 PM

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_Friday, June 17, 2005*

ok. maybe a break wasn't such a good idea afterall.

is that ' i like studying ' line on my nick really that unbelievable?? x( ok. it's just me talking to myself, trying to convince myself to start doing so. argh. bra reminded that there's only 1.5weeks yet... and we've yet to complete even half of our workload. talking about studying is depressing. ok... that was yesterday. pfft. i took about 3 hours to finish summarise that long , naggy english paper. wayyyyyy past the time limit. and i think i had to cut at least 50 words from my first draft, more or less 1/4 of what was on my paper. feel so dead, no motivation... now i don't really like a break... well, not when you know you have a tonne of things to settle.

bahhh... i like late nights... at least my bros are quiet for longer than 5 mins. their hobby and fascination of banging doors makes the whole house vibrate. even when the bang the door on the first floor and i'm actually on the 4th floor. can someone do me a favour and kidnap them? till the hols are over?? pleaseeeee? they. are. driving. me. nuts. argh. i can't keep going out to study either. i'm running low on $$. yeah. i'm trying to scrimp. but staying within a 10m radius of my bros for too long will eventually put me in woodbridge. well, not as if i'm not on my way there. they'll just act as a catalyst and speed up the reaction, that's all.

blehh, i've got a very short tolerance level for irritating, noisy, lil kids who enjoy screaming their heads off. so if you walk past my house and hear lotsa screaming, it just means that my bros are awake and world war 3 has started. if you hear even more screaming, it's just me venting my frustration or me and my grandma trying to shut them up and get them to sit still for at least 5 seconds. tough. they straangely resemble lynette's boys in desperate housewives. just that it seems like the mischief of 4 boys embodied in the form of 2 boys/monsters... aka my bros. oh gosh... how am i ever gonna get my work done?

*- amanda scribbled at 6/17/2005 12:20:00 AM

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_Thursday, June 16, 2005*

stupid scamsters. eurgh.

heyy all. beware of these irritants. these people with nothing better to do than to (shou zu dai tu) sit under the tree and wait for a bunny blur enough to run into the tree they're sitting at and fall down flat and lifeless. - pity the bunnies though. -

anw, as i was saying, i'm sure you have heard of many money scams which happen face-to-face, by phone, or by email. please beware, these lazy bumming treebunnycatchers are highly cunning and imaginative due to the amount of excess time they have on their hands.

one of these idiots, messaged me at 1.43am hoping that i would fall for their trick. the msg claimed that my hp no has just won second prize in some shou ji hu lian wang huo dong in asia. EIGHT THOUSAND DOLLARS CASH in US currency. and this activity was supposedly organised by some zhong mei guo ji mao yi you xian gong si. haha! and they want me to contact some woman named gao xiao jie.

and there i was just awoken from my rather peaceful sleep staring at some nonsensical bunch of chinese characters. dazed somewhat surprised cos the no was definitely weird looking enough. anybody wanna help call and find out who the hell woke me up at that bewitching hour? be my guest... the no's from china btw, +86 13 9876543 54 and i thought my no was already unique to have a 1234 in it. 9876543 wow... i can count. oh and whoever wants to claim my 'prize', please go ahead and contact a gao xiao jie at 008613108672509. (looks suspicious if you ask me.)

tata. have fun sitting at the bank counting your cash. =)

*- amanda scribbled at 6/16/2005 03:16:00 PM

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_Monday, June 13, 2005*

Case Closed.

heheh! i guess barron's right. leave it up to my parents. aaand the verdict is... -drum roll- YEAH. we're going afterall... lol. yes, i'll miss sher and i'm sure football head will miss you too. haha! don't worry la... we've still got a coupla years. i can bet you that you will NOT like football head after this few years.lol. he's already becoming a terror. >.< he just kicked a soccer ball at the younger one's head. ouch. ok nvm. BOYS will be BOYS. -.-

wheee. haha! i'll be seeing kath when i get there. lol. perth! let's see where this road leads me to...
anw thanks for all the help kath. =) lalala. ok i better do something before they kick each others asses a tad too hard.

*- amanda scribbled at 6/13/2005 06:09:00 PM

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_Sunday, June 12, 2005*

to go or not to go? that is the question...

my parents are horrible... so wishy washy. 2 years ago, they wanted to a pr in australia. now, mommy wants to go but daddy doesn't. -.- and before that was daddy wanted to go but my mom didn't. arghhh... not very fun so sit here and watch you all flip your decisions like you flip coins leh. do i wanna go? good question... i dunno either. hehh. no prizes for guessing where my habits came from.

2 years ago, my dad asked me if i wanted to stay in boston, cos of some job offer he got... but i said no. not till my o's were over. but now, it's different. now my o's are gonna be over. but if they eventually decide to go over... i'd still have to take my a's in singapore. it takes approx 1.5 years for their application to be approved. one part of me wants to go, but the other part doesn't...

yes?
1) no chinese! >.<
2) they've got gorgeous beaches...
3) life's slower.
4) easier to get into an aussie uni.
5) kath's there!
6) nicer houses...
7) 4 seasons
8) more leisure time.
9) great fishing spots. (can only catch guppies in sg -.-)

noh?
1) i'll miss everyone in sg!
2) high cost of living. movies there are EX.
3) tiny shopping malls... compared to town. (heyy! i'm still a girl k. i like to SHOP.)
4) it's almost as if i have to start from scratch again.
5) i hate moving house!
6) my bros clearly state they don't wanna go.
7) will life be too slow? hmmm...
8) i'll miss gss.
9) adapting...

any opinions?? pls tag! if not, you'll know where to find me on msn.

*- amanda scribbled at 6/12/2005 01:48:00 AM

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_Saturday, June 11, 2005*

I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade

urghh, i'm soooo sleepy. yet, why on earth am i typing this? ok, i dunno. another post where my brain's only half awake. i'm addicted to corrinne may's songs. so nice... and the best part is that she wrote all of them... maybe all except one which she co-wrote with someone else. she's just so talented! i've been stuck on 'Save Me' from the very first time i watched Chase.

crossroads... haha! how true... i like that poem on kf's blog. The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost. was reminded of it during that lit seminar by Dr Kirpal Singh(nav's uncle's lookalike). anyways... it's really easy for readers to relate to that.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;


somewhere in our lives, we're bound to come to a crossroad. be it a minor decision or a major one, we'll always end up standing there... staring down into the different paths... trying our best to see what lies ahead. which one would be better? which one would you choose? that decison... could lead you to a totally different ending from what the other road would lead down. some people say that they've got no regrets in life... but that's one thing i don't believe. i can bet my bottom dollar that in one point or another, you've regretted going down the road you've taken. this is one cruel fork... it forces you to come to a conclusion, sometimes without any hint on what to expect...


Then took the other, just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,


it looks new, it looks untrodden, a new adventure? a new challenge that's actually challenging and not boring?

' how long is the road? how long is the ride? how long is the darkness till we get to the light? '

some people are just afraid of the unknown... while some, just want a change from the routine. 2 different people... 2 extremely different opinions... as different as YES and NO. they're just DIFFERENT. yet... they have to come to a decision... somehow, either A wins more and B wins less or vice versa. many a times, i've found myself thinking back... what if i did this instead of this... what if i said this instead, or maybe i shouldn't have said anything at all... all of Life's 'WHAT IF's. maybe if i had taken the other road, i won't be sitting here typing this post, i'd be happily chatting till daybreak, just like old times...


And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.


how i wish i had the REWIND and EDIT buttons. where i could just go back and change my past. edit those parts i didn't like... maybe then things would be different now.

'i often feel like 2 steps behind, somebody must have moved the finish line'

but there's no turning back the hands of time now...


I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less travelled by
And that has made all the difference.


there are so many who've been turned down... but you were the only one i regret turning down. yet, again and again you refused to give up, you just wouldn't. then, just when these walls were cracking, you chose to give up. i was about concede defeat, overwhelmed i was... but perhaps, i turned you down a time too many.

'sometimes it feels no one understands, i don't even know why i do the things i do'

maybe i should have taken the road less travelled by... maybe... maybe...

maybe i should just go to sleep...

*- amanda scribbled at 6/11/2005 11:36:00 PM

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to go or not to go? that is the question...

my parents are horrible... so wishy washy. 2 years ago, they wanted to a pr in australia. now, mommy wants to go but daddy doesn't. -.- and before that was daddy wanted to go but my didn't. arghhh... not very fun so sit here and watch you all flip your decisions like you flip coins leh. do i wanna go? good question... i dunno either. hehh. no prizes for guessing where my habits came from.

2 years ago, my dad asked me if i wanted to stay in boston, cos of some job offer he got... but i said no. not till my o's were over. but now, it's different. now my o's are gonna be over. but if they eventually decide to go over... i'd still have to take my a's in singapore. it takes approx 1.5 years for their application to be approved. one part of me wants to go, but the other part doesn't...

yes?
1) no chinese! >.<
2) they've got gorgeous beaches...
3) life's slower.
4) easier to get into an aussie uni.
5) kath's there!
6) nicer houses...
7) 4 seasons
8) more leisure time.
9) great fishing spots. (can only catch guppies in sg -.-)

noh?
1) i'll miss everyone in sg!
2) high cost of living. movies there are EX.
3) tiny shopping malls... compared to town. (heyy! i'm still a girl k. i like to SHOP.)
4) it's almost as if i have to start from scratch again.
5) i hate moving house!
6) my bros clearly state they don't wanna go.
7) will life be too slow? hmmm...
8) i'll miss gss.
9) adapting...

any opinions?? pls tag! if not, you'll know where to find me on msn.

*- amanda scribbled at 6/11/2005 01:48:00 AM

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_Monday, June 06, 2005*

a tinge of melancholy...

aiyaiyaiyaiyai. one week of the hols just flew past me. it's going all too soon. (HOI!! come back la! what's the big rush?!)so erm, other than being a complete waste of time, what have i actually done?? lemme see, attended a lit seminar at at stnicks(boyyy... their school's so huge that i got lost. yeah, i know i sound like a suah ku.), a rather unproductive shopping trip(where i tried on lotsa nice, pretty heels... but eventually bought none.), baked some very nice brownies and erm cookies, finished 4 pathetic emaths questions, spent quite a while catching up on sleep, going to the expo with my dear ah ma!(at least something good came out of it.), got some exercise, watched a few movies and last but not least, a lot of fa dai-ing(chinese for daydreaming).

>.< i think my brain has ceased functioning properly since the chinese o's. it's going into sleep mode rather often. that's bad... very bad. it's either i'm super dead, or i'm super high(tracy and ah ma can vouch for that). argh. my discipline level has dropped to an all time low.(and yah, i obviously know that.)oh well, there're so many things i want to talk about, just that i don't know where to start. i'm seriously contemplating locking myself in my room and sleeping the rest of my hols away. and no, i'm not worried about getting fat. ah well, got my ah ma to think about. promised to accompany her to for more study cum 'sharing' sessions. =D

it's so nice studying with ah ma. haha! the coffeebean chicago cheesecake was just the icing on the cake. it's so nice having someone to talk to again. haha! ahma's my 8in1; study partner, shopping kaki, swimming and soon to be tanning kaki, party planner, naggy ah ma(even naggier than me >.<), and the best of all a really good confidante. =D i love my ah ma! oh i forgot one more, chinese tutor. x.x lol. hrmm. joker sia. makes me lmao. thanks for the 4years and counting!

darn, i'm suddenly thinking about what will happen next year... >.< ok nevermind bout that yet. i've realised i've changed a lot in 4 years. characterwise, spiritual growth wise, and physically?(NAHHHHH...)haha, as some of you(those who've known me since i was a lil erm, innocent girl. i still am k!) may have noticed. i'm smiling half or probably even less often than i used to. thanks for your concern, but there are some things i can't say... at least not yet =) oh well, things weren't as simple as they used to be 4 years ago. but at least now i can confidently say that i'm definitely having a closer relationship with God than what i had before. Satan, i can tell you has been rather hardworking in sowing discord in my life, haha! and i can sure say that he still is. but whatever you do, i swear i'm not going down without a fight. that, you can count on. when my God is for me, tell me who can be against me. you're not gonna win.

(to whoever's reading, i apologise for the really unorganised post. brain not really awake.)

*- amanda scribbled at 6/06/2005 11:04:00 PM

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_Friday, June 03, 2005*

my childhood sweets are GONE.

whee. another band that rocks. i had no idea that Switchfoot's a christian band. well, sounds like it. haha. anws their songs make lotsa sense. and i'm totally smitten with this one. lalala.

She told him she'd rather fix her makeup
than try to fix what's going on
But the problem keeps on calling
even with the cell phone gone
She told him that she believes in living
bigger than she's living now
But her world keeps spinning backwards
and upside down

Don't say so long, and throw yourself wrong
Don't spin today away, cause today will soon be

Gone, like yesterday is gone,
Like history is gone
Just try to prove me wrong
And pretend like you're immortal

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every day we borrow brings us
one step closer to the edge, infinity
Where's your treasure, where's your hope
if you get the world and lose your soul?
She pretends like she pretends like she's immortal

Don't say so long, you're not that far gone
This could be your big chance to make up
Today will soon be

Gone, like yesterday is gone
Like history is gone
The world keeps spinning on
You're going, going, gone
Like summer break is gone,
Like saturday is gone
Just try to prove me wrong
You pretend like you're immortal.

We are not infinite
We are not permanent
Nothing is immediate
We're so confident
In our accomplishments
Look at our decadence

Gone, like Frank Sinatra, like Elvis and his mom,
Like Al Pachino's cash, nothing lasts in this life
Gone, my high school dreams are gone,
my childhood sweets are gone
Life is a day that doesn't last for long.

Life is more than money, time was never money
Time was never cash, life is still more than girls.
Life is more than hundred dollar bills and roto-tom fills,
Life is more than fame and rock and roll and thrills,
All the riches of the kings end up in wills
We've got information in the information age but do
We know what life is outside of our convenient Lexus cages?
She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every moment that we borrow brings us closer
to the God who's not short of cash
Hey Bono, I'm glad you asked
Life is still worth living, life is more than what we are.


ok. back to homework. ciao.

*- amanda scribbled at 6/03/2005 04:49:00 PM

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