Hope
Hope is a funny thing. It always seems to be in the back of people's minds. No matter what happens, there is always a glimmer of hope. I guess that is part of being a Christian. I won't go into too many details because the heartache is still very raw. I was a mother again, this time for almost two weeks. It didn't work out and to be honest, that glimmer of hope is so small right now, it leaves me breathless. But somewhere it is there. I just need to get up courage to fit this demon and stand tall again. Where does this leave me in the adoption process? Waiting like usual. At this point it seems I may be waiting for a miracle. Miracles do happen, I believe it. People say how wonderful it is for me to open my home to an orphan. I think the wonderful part will be when I actually get an official referral. I long for that day more than anything. Until than, I live, I heal, I hope.
