You've got the poison, I've got the remedy =D
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
hmm.
blog for thoughts once again..
everyday, there seemed to be thoughts flustering in my mind even though not much emotional stuffs or did he sms me anymore. since i nvr sms him anymore. =x
was talking about moving on after break up and being friends once again with ur ex. To me, it's quite a hard way. You can say that I'm immature in a way. But you can say I'm mature in a way. Because, I have a reason behind. Could I be friends with my ex, when he cheated on me? Perhaps not that easily. Even though not we are not-so-close-and-try-not-contact that kinda... Another one.... i nt vr sure where he is..... and dun really wish to noee whr's he.... haha! cuz..... of some personal reason..... lol! ^^ just dun really know him.... and i lost his contact totally.... and he's a BIG BACKSTABBER. so i decided to stay away from him. the other 2 best friends, haha. was once in a weird relationship with them. we really feel weird and distant abit when we "walked". HAHA~ no, we ran. no lar. jus kidding! Then it was silent break, but we are still best friends till now. haha. still gt contact lar. because they have gt vr nice personalities, even though they do play slapping games with me, when I really dun like to! cuz they play with guys, and we are close enough to play such games tt i really hate to the core. they forced me to play. But overall, they are really caring and considerate guys who know how to NOT backstab ppl and treat me truly. haha~
So overall, I should be counted as a little immature bahs. as from wadd i said, I'm still learning from the break ups and learn how to move on.
HAHA. Now, I dun go for relationships but mostly unrequitted bitter love that left me with pails of salty tears. haha! but its alright, I learnt.
"When that person likes you, he will give you the feel, or so-called HINT, before he ever confess to you if he feels your HINT as well."
=)
I really pray hard that little Jay is not bisexual. Not that I despise such person, in fact I respect such people even though some people may nt be able to take it like me. We are still wearing gt color de spectacles (is anyone laughing?) LOL! That means not thinking in their perspective and imaginations went wild and disgusting that made people feel disgusted with gays and lesbians and even bisexuals lar. haha! =)
But i dun mind tt, because I've seen some this yr. Plainly this year. Not gonna mention who, but I learnt a lot from them. haha. even though we dun chat a lot, but from far, from wadd i observe.
They are brave enough to express their love despite many obstacles.
Sometimes I really pray hard that some couples that had come so far, will be together always without parents objection. =)
But please, I don't wish to be with a bisexual. You noe normally, a straight person, take as guys lar, of course, I'm a very straight person even though I have dearrs who are girls.... lol! and we always say we are lesbians when we are outside.... =x lol! Alright, take as guys (back to the topic), they only look at chio girls.... but for bisexual, they are interested in both girls and guys.... wah... i sometimes already jealous over him looking at girls liao.... ltr i worry about him looking at guys.... i tink i fainted long ago..... i somehow can't take it lorr.... duno y.... hahaha.... u get wadd i mean? (can say tt i'm a easily jealous person. But then who doesn't care abt ur own bf looking at girls?)
I would rather have a straight one, rather than bisexual.
I happen to fall in love with bisexuals, so be it. Let it be unrequitted love once again? I'm just melting over their cute smiles.... nothing more.... haha!
Realized that even though in sch, I'm always laughing. But weird thoughts come up in my mind and I will of course blog it here lar. To keep it for memories. Some are really inspirational lor! ^^
Straight guys please! And please, dun stand like a gay. HAHA.
I dun really mind looks (after knowing you for long*, i admit tt i do look at looks for first impression. of course lar, fierce ppl u wanna go and talk to them ar? no rite?) LOL. I mind the inner beauty. If this person has sucky personality, straight out of my list.
And if i ever realize that the difference between the both of us is too big, I will slowly drift away from you. HAHA. And my feelings for you slowly fades...
LALALA...
And its fading for someone now..................
WOOHOO~~~
*celebrates*
And, almost fell in love with someone. Not little jay. BUT SOMEONE...
darn. cannot you knoww......
ITS............
DOTTT.........
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:32 PM
during the 2hrs of sian break, ate and watched dan fei bi jiao hong... then... was listening to CK's LOGICAL talk over some personal stuffs... =) (THEN I REALIZED TIS IS THE VERY FIRST TIME LISTENING TO HIM ADVICE ON SUCH PERSONAL STUFFS SEH SO SERIOUSLY SOME MORE!!) *fainted*
HAHA! some ppl muz be laughing when they see it. lol~
HAHA... ya lar... then almost going to end the break, some one came up with "Truth or Dare" . darn. i hate tt. haha!
But had fun playing with yanyan,camii,lao jiunn and CK. haha! ^^ And noee some secrets. I oso kena once lor. darn. dun say huh! vr big secret horr! HAHA!
MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
kk... then ended with maths lecture.....
getting crazy with yan. lol~ ^^
siao liao we.
Let's have samba dance!
1...2...3... SEE GHOST NOW.
*weakened* lol!
i love today because i nvr see cher tt i dislike..... muhaha!
sian ar.... tml.... haiz~ always dun like IS de... haha!
kk.... bye!! ^^
I saw you looking at the direction I was looking at.... was I dreaming?
Still in the process of letting you go.....................
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I was talking to May.. haha... my mei larr... lol~ then horr... she was talking about helping out in band for the upcoming concert... lol~ Then I cannot... cuz one thing lazy, another thing live far, nt fang bian and vr busy with the stupid projects. haha~
so not helping out, but tried to ask for wadd songs they are going to play....
lol~ I saw SUNCOAST CARNIVAL!! I miss my xylophone part..... It kills plainly playing the song. But I feel good over the song.
How I wish they can play Music Park (my timpani solo piece) and... Colonial Collage (HAHA, oso gt timpani solo and the sound super grand de!!! ^^)
I miss my solo-s... lol~ but not going to play when i go band.... i deterioriated liao..... go there play let ppl laugh ar.... haha~ almost one yr nvr touch my dearr liao (sounds wrong)... i mean play timpani liao...... my ex laogong... lol~ ^^
HEEZ.
And they playing Last To Defend! LALALA~ Another one tt i like a bit. I played until vr man I rmb wadd my juniors said to me, heyys, i everytime play timpani oso vr man de ok! LOL~ cuz i play until vr loud. then the expression is uncontrollable de. haha. but of course, my expression definitely funny lar! LOL~~ ^^
Jia you HSSConcertBand!! LOL~
=)
I'll be back in one of the days.... to scare you people..... haha!
And of course scare my Sir lar...haha! =)
HANDSUM SIR (read as HANDSUM instead of HANDSOME) LOL!
^^ Going off,
ms. elated-cum-having-mixed-feelings mua chee.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:04 PM
lol.... I MISS HIM~~~
HEEZ...
aiyohh... jus managed to walk past tt dun-look-like-jay-but-makes-me-melt tt one... GOSH... lol~ i miss his smiles man... hees! ^^ muhahahaha!!!!!
heez... k lar... i miss dearr k... ltr she jealous seh! heez...
then heard from camii hor, she feels like he's a bisexual... oh my god... its bi again! DARN.
HAHA. y our classes ppl so weird de? Isn't there any straight ppl? I worried de leh. have to look at both sexes and worried about him! I DUN WAN!
HAHA. but i miss him.
even though he stand a bit lyk gay. but then. he's cute lar. aiyohs.
beauty is in the eyes of the beholder ma!!
ltr then i blog k...
MISS DEARR LOTS!! online early k... muacks...
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:24 PM
Monday, October 30, 2006
even though i nvr had contact with him.....
not even msg or anything....
I realized one thing from my classmate, they nvr tell me anything. I just realized that.
If you kick away that habit, you will forget it fast.
And that means if you dun like that person, u wun go and care and mind their actions and thoughts that much.
You will just listen but you will not utter much because you dun care for that person, you heck.
So, currently trying hard to wash away the memories.....
Certain actions are meant to be natural, do not tink deep.
Because all these actions holds no meaning.
All I wanted was to be a simple friend of yours. Not a good friend of yours because I can't really take your character but I don't know why, love made me fall in love with you. You don't have much good points, but I fell so deeply with you.
That's why sometimes I really hate love for being so magical and so sudden. I still remember last time when I first saw you, I sweared that I will not like you. But in the end, what happened? Everything turned around, and all turned messy in my heart.
Fate changed everything.
You changed me.
Made me scared of love once again.
But you helped me forgot him.
haha.....
But today, i totally nvr tink of him.....
cuz i was busy having fun and getting angry over APS lecture.... hehe!!
I'm vr tiredd...... sian!!
I MISS DEARR!! whr r u?!
Can I keep you by my side? Your lips is just so sexy, and I longed to kiss it.
Your skin so tender....
*melts over you*
I hope to dream of you. I love you.
HAHA. HOT OVER GOONG DE 2nd PRINCE!! HE super shuai de! lips super sexy!~~~
*faints*
HEEZ!!
DEAR SEE LIAO, SHE SURE AGREE WITH ME DE!!! HAHA!! ^^
Today when I almost dozed off, my mind was filled with your images. And I mmediately woke up, because I'm afraid I will say anything about you in my dream and my mummy will hear it. haha! =x
BYE
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:33 PM
yest didn't blog because there was something wrong with the blogger.
actually i gt post something de.
BTW, happy belated birthday to camii. heard from u tt u had a great dinner at the cable car. so envy u leh! LOL~
HEEZ.
Today morning mood was really too good. haha! ^^
Laughed like hell with lao yan, lao jiunn as well as chung chung. lol~ ^^
MUHAHA...
"when we sheh (share) our in-fol-meh-tion(information), li member(remember) to lite(write) on a pieces of pepper (paper)."
"When we prepeh for our act-xams (exams), muz weel (feel) convert-table (comfortable), must sturdy (study) hard."
HAHA!
alright, my EQ is getting lower and lower. but he's way too funny with his words. lol~ laughed a lot. and plus I said i saw a lot of "SHUAI GE" HAHA! (should noee wadd i mean), then when yanyan look back at tt shuai ge i was talking, haha! she said, "WOAH! Heng i didn't had a heavy breakfast, or else i vomit all out liao!" lol... and we laughed lyk duno wadd... hahaha...
so funny...
then after tt gt the stupid APS... LJ... lol~ LJ is vul... lol~ shld noee horr... lol~
"Uncle, you sell what kinds of birds?" (in hokkien)
"I sell all kinds of birds here.." (hokkien)
"Then do you sell blue birds here?" (vul comes in)
"Wah! Dun come here DL lor. LJ!"
HAHAHA~
"currypok, currypok,currypok,currypok..."
"gourobok,gourobok,gourobok..."
HAHA~~ Everyone was crazy today....
dun wish to talk about the APS cher. she simply makes me mad.
2 hrs teach 102 slides? u tink we wadd huh?
eat into our time and blame us for being late? sucker u.
and pulled the time from 4 to 4.30?
Then shld we request to go home next time? because you requested us to stay longer for lectures almost EVERYTIME.
wah lau u.
when r we going to change cher. I HATE HER.
dun hate her oso can lor! darn.
spoil my mood.
ms. high-blood-pressure mua chee logging off.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:13 PM
Sunday, October 29, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAMII :)
HAHA. i still used ur face to wish u. haha. ur usual smile :)
HAHA. may ur wishes come true k! lol~
and no negative thoughts horr! Tink of me! =)
The funny face of mine. and the funny language i speak! LOL~
Logging off,
ms dun-want-to-wake-up-but-woke-up mua chee. =x
Enjoy urselves. It's Sunday!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:53 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAMII :)
HAHA. i still used ur face to wish u. haha. ur usual smile :)
HAHA. may ur wishes come true k! lol~
and no negative thoughts horr! Tink of me! =)
The funny face of mine. and the funny language i speak! LOL~
Logging off,
ms dun-want-to-wake-up-but-woke-up mua chee. =x
Enjoy urselves. It's Sunday!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:53 AM
Saturday, October 28, 2006
-Where do you hang your towel to dry after showering? right in front of the toilet bowl... exact yar? lol~ xP
-What kind of mouse pad do you have? i dun use mouse pad anymor even though my jie bought mii one black one. but it absorbs some dirt. so, ahem. ya. xP
-Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush. comb only. lol~ i nt so nice to my hair de. lol~ i'm a rocker. no lar. lol~
-From your opinion, who do you think is the hottest celeberity? XIAO ZHU~ He's hot. lol~ And plus, Jay Chou. ppl disagree, i heck care. lol~ xP I love them lots.
-You got a project due tomorrow, do you use tape or glue? super glue bahs. lol~ i tink i will stick my hands onto the project so tt i dun forget to bring the project the next day =x
-Chicken or pork? depends on wadd dishh.
-By the time you get to school/work, is the sky still dark? nahh.
-If you had a choice to see a unicorn or mermaid which would it be? unicorn.
-What was in your bag the last time you went out? water bottle, my spoiled mp4 player, my hp, some money, my handprints. haha! And some used tissue. lol~
-What time does the sun usually set? bo liaos. i nt so artistic de. lol~ ^^ i'm not admiring the sun... so i dun realli noee.... i heck care it de.... lol~ night fall, jus like tt =x
- What do you think of last before you go to sleep? i vr tired.... lol!!
-Do you wear braces? last time bahs. lol~
-Can you hand stand? lol. no.
-If you were the opposite sex, how would you style your hair? go on beggars' style. hair long long, messy messy de. *hints* LOL! yanyan, rmb the shuai ge i told u about? I'm going for his looks if i'm a guy. SO SHUAI *sarcastic* LOL!
-What level math are you in? i duno. lol!
-Jessica Simpson or Alba? none. heez.
-Which subject is worst, English or Math? both. =(
- What's one thing you really want to do this very moment? do homework. homework is piling up like shit. lol! xP
-After buying something, do you automatically throw it away? nah! waste money leh lyk tt. might as well throw money away rite?
-CD player or iPod? iPod. CD player only can listen to some songs only. and its big. lol~
- Would you rather spin upside down goin 30 miles or drop 400 ft. into water? NONE!
-What you got planned for the weekend? hmmm. change mp4 player to a gd one. go for photo-shooting on some stuffs. and finish up some personal stuffs.
-Have you ever gone ice skating? yup. lol! but too bad, i dun have the money.. lol~ i'm worried over the money factor, if not, i will go.
-If you were put in a room with nothing except for a pencil and paper what would you do? starts writing emotional words. and crying over the words i wrote. *HAHA*
-Is it always easy finding your remote everytime you want to watch TV? ya.
-How was your day? heez. nt bad leh. went out with my jie. lol~
-Do you grow your nails, bite or cut them? hmmm. cut. xP
-Describe your handwritting: ugly. haha! xP felt so guilty when i look at other's handwriting! HAHA!
- Do you consider yourself a stalker? no?
-Do you bruise easily? my heart is bruised only lor. no, it's been broken into countless pieces. can't even really see the bruise liao. wah, say until so serious. haha! no lar!
-There's nothing on TV except Barney and Japanese news what do you do? switch off the TV. good idea rite? lol! xP
-Do you know more than 3 friendster codes? ar?
-You got an essay due, you either can type or write in pen, which will you choose? type. hee!
-Do you wear jeans to relax at home? bo liao. hot lor.
-Describe yourself using one word: ever-changing.
-Do you think bestfriends make the best lovers? no. even though understood each other very well but then sometimes when really get together as bf and gf, u feel really weird when the relationship changed from friends to bf/gf. it just feels weird to me. I've tried that before. haha. weird all over. In the end, we ended as best friends once again. And i dun regret on that. =) They are good, but its best to find someone who gives a right feeling but not weird feeling, in my perspective.
-Do you like ice in your drink? depends. but mostly i dun really wan to take cold drinks because i can't really take too much cold drinks. =)
-What is the best nickname that u ever had? yunzi and mua chee. lol~ both from my dearr de lor. she honored lar she. lol~
-Do you think suicide is the best way? definitely not. will get retribution in future lives.
-Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10? 6? heez.
-Are you in love with someone at the moment? no. haha! tink no bahs. was just a crush. a cute crush. lol~
-Are you missing someone at the moment? my dearr lor. she nvr online. i tink she went out with her dear liao. haiz!
-Would you die for the one you love? depends. i dun have someone i love (as in relationship terms), if die for family, i definitely will.
-Do you think love hurts? Yes, vr much to me. And I'm healing right now. haha!
-Whats the best thing about love? I don't really know. I haven't experienced the best side of love. Everytime it ended at the wrong time.
-Whats the worst thing about love? break up and so on..... dun wish to say too much.....
-Will you wait for someone you love? i will wait till my MaCoy comes.. and take me away from the crowd..... and keep me by his side..... *smiles sweetly*
-What song that best describes your love life at the moment? Ai mei by Rainie Yang Cheng Lin. VR EXACT. lol~
-Do you wanna get married? no. i dun have the thought of it. I wish I'm single, what i tink now lar. lol~
-Have you talked to the person you love in the last 24 hours? ya. my dearr lor. haha. i love her as a best friend. lalalal~ my mummy oso..... my jie oso.... in relationship, i dun have anyone i love.. bleahs =P
-Do you keep memories or try to forget them? try to forget everything.... for love.. memories for normal stuffs....... i rmb only the sweet and funny stuffs..... haha!
-Is love always on your side or the opposite way? opposite...................
-Do you have a gay/lesbian/bisexual friend? yup. i have.
-Are you sick of love? yes, i am right now. I'm tired and sick of it. But I'm still waiting. Whenever I see sweet couples around, their actions encouraged me to wait.
-What do u want so badly right now? TIME
-Do you think money is everything? not really.
-Whats the song that u last downloaded? duno lehs. english song bahs.
-How much do you love music? without music, i will die. haha!
-Do you play an instrument? YUP! TIMPANI, I MISS YOU LOTS!! HAHA! my percussion stuffs. haiz~ band ar. lol~
-Have you writen your own song? yup. in the past, when i was young. I wrote about a bird. wadd the hell. lol. how it flew in the sky. vr poetic yar? the lyrics sucked big time. xP
-What movie did you last watch? barnyard? with dearr.
.-Do you believe in love forever? not really.
Credits : camii's blog. camii's fren. lol~
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Gonna combine post together..... or else keep posting.. oso vr..... haha...
Winglin is still having problems.. i cannot even log in to post..... actually i wanna open another new account..... then repost everyting + new chap up..... But then dearr told me to wait. haha. then i waited lor. haha.
Today on bus, when i was listening to Twilight seventh chapter... bleahs...... u noee can liao.. haha.... then i was wondering, my love life are all fairytales that never came true in the end. haha! ^^
Got emotional, but didn't managed to slp on bus leh. Met up with jie to have lunch together then go bugis for the photo-shooting and she wan to buy watch. and photo-shooting. haha! rather fun. It's accurate seh. But its personal. lol~ dun tell u leh! LOL~
haha! Alright, then went to Sim Lim tower opposite to get to Rooteck Pte. Ltd to change my mp4 player... bleahs... went upstairs.... then one person served us.... his attitude vr heck tt kinda.... so i nt vr happy with his service until another guy took over and went downstairs with him larr...... to change to another mp4 player..... bleahs.. this guy service is quite good... haha... and got manners.... lol~ and at the end, he still said "walk slowly" in chinese larr..... haha... then when i close the door behind me, i had the urge to RUN to shock me. You finished serving me, and said "walk slowly" in chinese ma, then I show you how SLOW i walk lor. I RUN FOR YOU TO SEE. HAHA! But then when we walked away from the place then I told my jie wadd's my actual intention larr. haha! I told her, "man zhou" right... haha..... I RUN FOR YOU TO SEE... haha... then i showed the run actions then she burst out laughing..... then she say i vr notti..... haha~
lol~ then today was talking about tt day i went to buy notes before sch re-open, but one girl scared me in the middle of no where when i was walking to bus stop... She boo me lar. haha! Then my jie say, you nvr say "I still GANG leh.." BOO (female in hokkien), GANG (MALE in hokkien) HAHA! vr funny! And we stood behind the notice board... then I was acting as if I was shooting ppl..... lol~ tt part we were crazy..... can u imagine 17 yrs old and 27 yrs old girl and woman going crazy lyk tt? HAHA! siao... lol~
Then went back home on 66... on the way, talked and be crazy with my jiee... haha! had lots of fun larr.. MUHAHA. then went to 7 eleven to eat ice-cream. bleahs. went to settle some stuffs. haha!
bleahs and so on. HAPPY TODAY.
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Prime Deli de waffle is nice! Yest Jurong point de was not bad. yanyan, my place there gt one shop oso sell VR NICE WAFFLE right! HAHA. the shop nice is Prime Deli leh! can you believe that! HAHA! VR NICE!! *drools* lol~
nxt time muz go there buy. lol~ ^^
kk. gtg le. BYE.
love dearr lots!! miss dearr lots!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:17 PM
Friday, October 27, 2006
"愛情, 確實會帶給人好心情、好氣色,但是, 相對的, 也會帶來煩惱與憂愁.其實一個人, 真的真的沒有什麼不好.我常常覺得, "孤獨"有時候是一件很不錯的事呢!獨處, 可以有更多時間可以思考, 把混亂的思緒整理清楚,獨處, 可以有更多自由做喜歡的事, 不必考慮別人的想法.談戀愛的時候, 因為要考慮另外一個人,總是患得患失,往往失去自我、放下自尊, 甚至越來越不愛自己,悲傷的愛情故事, 我已經聽得太多,和自己談戀愛, 才可以多愛自己一點啊!想像一個安靜空閒的午後...一個人坐在窗邊, 泡一壺花茶,什麼都不想, 什麼都不做,看一本喜愛的書, 聽著輕柔的音樂 ,這樣的自由與放鬆, 是一個人的享受,絕對不是分享的快樂.我也喜歡, 單身女郎雙人床,那是愛怎麼翻滾就怎麼翻滾的空間,寬大、自由、自在、舒服,是可以不必隱藏情緒的私密空間,是可以完全表現真我的個人空間.跟自己戀愛,或許沒有被呵護的甜蜜, 卻不會有被傷害的風險,至少不會有失戀的心碎, 和被背叛心痛,不需要為別人流淚, 為別人憔悴.我知道自己是貪心的,一但愛上個人, 我會要的很多很多,愛情如果不能完美, 我寧願不要.算我膽小吧, 愛情的賭注太大,如果沒有八分的把握, 我想 我還是跟自己談戀愛就好,然後, 靜靜等待真愛來臨的一天....現在, 我只想多愛自己一些些, 可以嗎?"
credited to Rainie Yang.
Url : http://blog.yam.com/rainie
I totally agreed with her about complex concepts of love.
You may not experience the sweetness and good sides of true love, but at least you had prevented yourself from getting hurt from the trap you fell into.
Loving her more and more because she's just like me. so similar. Whenever we emotional, we will just write down stuffs in our diary and blogs. =)
Just like wadd I'm doing almost everyday whenever I thought through about OUR things.
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Extracted From Goong and plus my own inspiration.
There are 3 types of people you will meet around you, whether is it now or in the future.
The 3 types are :
People who dun have affinity with you. You can never be together with this person.
People who have affinity with you. Then you are bound to get together. True love awaits.
And another, is have the affinity but not enough affinity for two person to get together. One person have to suffer alone.
I've met all three.
How many types have you met?
Recently I met the third type. =)
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Sorry dear readers of [ Dubious Chemistry ], due to Winglin's problem (some readers cum writers shld noee the prob) I can't log in and post story hence there's no updates for the time now. So sorry about that. I even rushed back and switch on laptop once i reached home. But winglin is faulty. darn. haha~ Wait for my updates alright! Important chap! LOL~
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Alright, I shld start off with my okay Friday. Haiz. Really dun look forward to every single APS possible. Just dun lyk her teaching.
LALA... dun wish to talk more about her stuffs... lol~
then after tt, gt IPC tutorial... darn... i gonna laughed my heads off again... lol~
and "PREPEH" made mii laughed once again... darn... lol~
starting to be immune liao... but then this tutorial still made mii laugh until tears came out.... haha~
LOL! but i controlled liao ok. but can he not say the "prepeh" until so natural a not. its tickling me, alright. haha! ^^
And today his actions is super cute de lor. haha. mii and camii agree strongly on it. haha! ^^
Almost wanna burst out laughing liao... lol~
Then after tt gt 2 hrs break, shared the videos with my classmate on kieron's laptop... his laptop gt louder sound... hahaha... our class ppl were laughing away... lol~ so happy tt u all liked it... lol~
then went up bleahs.... lol~
today yanyan said something super fantastic de. lol~ ^^
ASSUME - make an ASS out of YOU n ME.
HAHA. almost wanted to clap in the lift when she bickered with CK. wah kaox. best bickering partners man. I Tink yanyan dun agree hor. she dun lyk CK, i noee. haha =x
LOL~
CK, too bad, u can't get up to level 51 if u compete with yanyan. haha! ^^
BTW!!! Today when i wanted to go up to lab with many others... walked past the 1P01 (nxt pharmacy class ppl). they sitting at the bench there. lol~ ^^ Then horr, I was searching for my little jay. AND, I SAW HIM AND OUR EYES MET. And tell you, I ALMOST MELTED INSTANTLY. HE was smiling man. SO SHUAI. haha~
OH MY GOD... and today is another "bio~-shuai-ge" day. LOL~!! Gt some shuai ge i saw today... but everytime my frens can't get to see... so i enjoyed it myself... MY EYES CANDIES... HEEZ!! ^^
Today de practical oso vr enjoyable... haha... still as funny my lecturer... hahaha... this week was a ok one..... lol~ ^^
lalalalal~
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Even though I can't really let you go immediately (you are still tied to my heart), but slowly your image will start to fade. All the actions you made, all the words you said, all the things I saw, I will slowly forget it..totally.....
Today almost felt someone was going to replace (which is tt little jay =x) *blush* but when I felt that he was still not good enough or close enough to touch my occupied heart, I felt so pained. Because he's way better than you, but how come you are stuck to my heart?
I'm really a foolish one.
And, today my eyes was really bloated like goldfish eyes even though ppl dun find it so, but I could feel the tension on my eyes, so I really felt weird when I looked at ppl. lol~ ^^
All your actions, holds no meaning to me.
All your words, as time goes by, will turn meaningless as well.
Even if the several webs say 100% we will get together, I would rather trust myself. My instincts.
Now, I finally know the internet quizzes are all fake.
Impossible stuffs, how can they be miracles in my pathetic life?
Eventually, you will turn into a transparent person and I will see through you.
I was wondering, if we were grouped together as good friends, what will happen? Will our relationship improve? Or will I hate your character even more?
Time flies, my dislikes towards you is increasing day by day. I found out all your differences during the holidays. I was forlorn over the differences and was obviously jealous when I really compared with the others. But then, I could do nothing either.
I had to feign.
as if i dun care.
act as if i had forgotten you when you are still stuck at the back of my head...
Will I forget you........
It wasn't me...... *smiles bitterly*
It wasn't me...........
It's someone else.................................
I hate myself.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:42 PM
Thursday, October 26, 2006
i cried...
oh god..... tml sure swollen eyes..... for sure......
lol~ ^^
stupid seh! ltr ppl tot wadd sehh.....
and now super hungry de!! LOL~ ^^
Hmmm... I cried over Goong as well as over him a little bit.
He did not do anything nowadays, nt even msg or anything lar. But then, just i thought thru' it myself. oso duno wadd i tinkin. jus all the sad stuffs jus came by... and tears just flowed....
I could feel rejection, do you know?
I could feel that touch wasn't really for me, do you know?
But I could feel something bad was really for me, but wasn't really definitely sure over the answer. And dun really wish the answer to be true.
If yes, we really dun have the affinity to even meet.
If no, I will still cry....
Were you really talking about me?.....
It's so contradicting and funny when we are acting in front of nobody....
It's so pathetic when mixed emotions strikes when i'm in sch.....
It shldn't be me, let me feel again .
love only dearr.
signing off, ms. fallen-out-of-love mua chee.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:50 PM
Beauty is seen in the eyes of the beholder...
Where's my beholder...
*looks around*
NEVER MIND.
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I miss hss and band so much man! HAIZ~~ HAHA. How i was i was still in the sec sch days. when i slacked ard in sch and band... haha! xP
Till now, i still can't kick away the habit of getting high with the mention of band. lol~!
i love bands alright!
Today thought through some stuffs again, everyday i tinking over the thing and getting a little bit tired liao. haha. happy to be tired over tinking abt it.
lol~ its gonna be over soon..... and i'm happy over it....
if it comes back, so be it. lalala~
the grip.... haiz....
i was missing it... and when i had it.....
it was like.....
dream..... when am i going to dream about you.....
xiao zhu..... lol~~
ILOVEXIAOZHU!
so many entries today lor. super high de. my readers oso vr happy rite. can see so many craps around here. haha. the most active blog i've ever seen. haha!! ^^
See ya!
congrats to my band juniors who got thru' and promoted to sec 4 express as well as sec 4 normal... haha....
hee... hssband rawkx....
=) i miss my timpani..... goshh....
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:58 PM
tears rimmed my eyes as I looked at the male lead giving his gentle touch to her warm forehead. Just as he placed his hands on her forehead and slightly brushed away the brown strands of hair blocking his perfect view of her facial features.
I cried because, I suddenly realized how powerful is love, how love could change a person's emotions and touch. Even the slightest touch could feel his whole-hearted love and passion towards her.
He could be so gentle in his touch.
That touched my heart and I really cried for that.
I was watching Goong. It's a really nice show. I cried so hard in the living room alone, my mummy was having dinner in the kitchen. haha! ^^ But she was watching, but she wasn't crying. lol~ I felt lucky tt today i nvr eat my dinner early today or else i miss this crying part liao! i love crying over dramas. VR SWEET DRAMAS! LOL~ ^^ I'm crazy! HEEZ~
And now, the episode one part rite, (the part when i cried so hard on) was tt the prince wasn't really sure about his feelings towards his wife. Then after tt, when he was about to kiss his wife on the forehead, his mother came in and spoiled the mood but she looked so infuriated lor. haha! then his wife went out. bleahs. lol~ then after the mother went out in fury, the wife came back from opposite then she asked him wadd's wrong and so on de. Then when the wife asked him, "wadd happen?" when she saw the news about him going out w/ another girl in thailand. then he simply replied coldly,"It's none of your business." (WAH KAO, TT HURT MY HEART DEEP) HAHA! The crown prince say he shld take good care of her own body instead of mending small stuffs lyk this.... then the wife argued tt it's none of his business to care oso! ( MY HEART FELT SO SOUR!!) Then the prince asked him then y u wanna be sick? Why are you sick until you can't even eat? Your appetite becoming poorer and poorer...? Then at first the wife didn't want to say anything.... until finally she said, sobbing in tears, "It was because of you. I lost appetite because I was worrying about you in Thailand." She blurted all out but she went back to her room, crying, face all pale.
I cry lyk nobody's business seh!! HAHA!! But I love crying here... heez~
But no worries k... today I'm not sad over anything...... haha~
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Today didn't had much lar. morn stuffs i already said liao. Then after tt had INFO stuffs. haha! oso nt much. in between gt some funny stuffs going on. Due to personal STM, I forgotten to write it down! SO SORRY! LOL~
Then today's APS totally sucked. It getting sucky-er and sucky-er. haha. nt tt i'm being coarse w/ my words, but its the only expression i could use for her lessons.
today supposedly to be practical, and she somehow went too into the lecture. And we felt like she was wasting our time. At first, all of us listened to her "lecture" cum practical go-thru. But then, slowly ppl starts to lose patience, and i even see ppl around mii laughing? I oso duno wadd they laughing abt... i jus kept on listening until finally siew jiunn says, "ppl already started drawing liao..." And we supposed to draw finish the pics of cells before we go? DUH~~ She talked for 1 hr leh! Then how are we going to do then?! DUHS~~ She continued on talking, and we started drawing liao, with ears shut liao. haha~
Then after tt, after e break, i switch on my mp3 stuffs de... and started singing.... nt the whole song... but parts of it here and there... and yanyan feels super funny... haha! HAHA. and when drawing the cells and tissues, we feel lyk we are drawing watermelon lar, all kinds of weird stuffs with hairy stuffs on it (mind you, dun tink wrong k!) LOL!!
Not only tt, I oso used laptop on IPC class. His class, gosh! HAHA! Funny. lol~ laughed a lot at the last part. lol~
shiok seh~
Then went home lorr, with CK crapping all the way to the bus stop. He said he succeeded in the combo thing...haha! ok.....
*lame*
HAHA.
camii, my face really funny meh? LOL~
AIYOH... gt another person say my face funny liao... wanna laugh whenever see mii... oh my god... tell you all something (my sec sch frens shld noee vr well liaos) LOL~ I'm famous for funny face. haha! I'm too crappy a person so when they see mii they rmb abt my funny stuffs and start laughing. haha! SO FUNNY HOR!
lol~
KHAM A AN NEH!! LOL~ ^^ ( REMEMBER HOW TO PRONOUNCE GIRLS) LOL~
HEEZ had a fun time joking and talking in weird FOREIGN language. haha! ^^
tml friday liao! yay!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:44 PM
duhs.. jus finished my info thing... lol~ comp stuffs...then now waiting for... APS... sians... i dun lyk her lesson... practical some more... haiz~~
sian... tml gonna laugh a lot sehh... hee! xP
i today IPC lesson already laughed a lot liao... jus because of his one mistake... mii and siew jiunn laugh until duno how to say... yanyan nvr catch the funny part tt's why she nvr laugh... she missed the best part... but heng she missed the part... or else... lol~ can wadd thing lehh... lol~~ she will keep di-siao-ing mii lorr...
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3:45 PM
currently i in sch now, then super sians de...
all the way, i dun feel right... even though its..... hmmm....
lol~
and yanyan today super funny de... she say she has ulcer... so she in pain...
but she still as funny... lol~
then she say horr, today our first lecture at lecture hall, lyk freezer lyk tt... then yanyan say, i wanna complain, or the news shld report tt, NP is accused for abusing students by letting them study in a freezer. haha! ^^ super cold de lor. today we wore long sleeves and jackets, still as cold. haha! i still quite ok lar. but then yanyan is shivering lyk hell today. lol~
"cold..."
LOL~ ^^
ltr going to endure the pain of sitting there.... for straight 6 hrs...... pray hard tt there's a longer break in between.. 12 -6.... will die seh! LOL~
super sians.....
dun feel right....
gtg le.... haiz~
listen to songs now bahss...
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:57 AM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
bathing with cockroach..
Supposedly i dun wanna blogg...
but then jus now i bathe with cockroach... i really can't take it le!! OH MY GOD!! xP
HAHA~~
When i started bathing, i saw two strings moving... then i was lyk... hallucination ar? then i looked into the mirror, saw the reflection, almost screamed the hell out of me. DARN, cockroach. and its big enough for me to be scared. i mean cockroach small one i already sian liao. haha. its ok if i dun have to stay in the same room as it is. if i was jus walking past, i still feel alright. staying with it in one room is worse than walking alone the cockroach street near my house. duhs.
haiz.
then now my mum comes in and nagged abt the utilities bill is going up lyk duno wadd. and i dun lyk her nagging man. i have to use the laptop, wadd do u expect leh? haiz. stupidd sehh. and this sem have to bring laptop almost everyday. remind mii abt tt APS cher. duno y suddenly tink of her. bad things i will tink of her first. haha! ^^ too bad!
lol~ today is a rainy day. hmmm. just lyk tt. sians.
i tink i sleep at my room today. dun feel lyk slping air con w/ my mum. ltr she ask mii watch tv when i wanna slp. she will ask mii qn when i was going to doze off then her qn made mii woke up again... kaox... difficult to slp... and..... NTH~... haiz~
cannot say more liao.... i wonder if i get married, how am i going to tolerate...... haha~
ppl snore beside me. or their sleeping habits as bad as me de. haha. lyk to kick here and there. but at strange places, i'm calm until vr weird. not kicking of course!
SIAN. tml going for class at 8... haha..
now, hair still nt dry yett... sians...
darnnn....
if we have the fate, then be together larr... dun always prove tt we are able to meet at weird places can...
duhss.......
contradicting....
winglin, when r u ready..... i wanna reply to reader's comment liao!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:57 PM
XIAO ZHU!! HAHA!!!
i siao over him.
today went to sch for pathetic 2 hrs. and the thing is once, i online, ppl started talking to me. haha! ^^
okies... lol!
hmmm... then horr... did a stupid online quiz larr... nvr really do it... because the cute guy told mee the ans... haha! so thx to him! HEEZ!!
lol~!!
alright, nth much.
duno wadd to say
today broadcasted. haha! and rushed all the way back home... helping my mummy buy stuffs... lol~
so tt was fatee.
stupidd.
imissudebutthen.hais.
yay!
BYE!!!
ltr will online again! see ya!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:20 PM
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
today went out with dearr... had a really delicious and fruitful dinner lorr! LOL~ and had lots of fun chatting w/ her... haha... laughing w/ her... muhaha~ always love dating w/ her de lorr... and the funny thing is, when i reached commonwealth station rite... when i get out of the door, her dearr went in the same door and he walked past mii without even looking at mii... darn... haha! LOL~ i gt so small mehhs... *sob*
HEEZ. nvr mind. Holland V hor. the place rather nice. walked past a lot of places w/ lots of FEEL de. lol~ ^^
then went to TCC to eat...lol... ex sehh... for mii larr... hahaha.. usually i eat cheap stuffs from food junction de... lol~ ^^
but jus to let my tastebuds enjoy bahss...
HAHA~~
love her lots k. lol~
heez. everyday oso love nt sian de lor. haha~ ^^
then on the bus i was tinking. so many similiarties between the two of us. yett affinity doesn't come. haha. something is vr wrong. heez.
one day, if we are together, so be it.
if we are not, so be it too.
i will let fate to decide my love life. i dun wan to care too much liaos.
tiredd le. i'm broadcasting now. haha! so today blog a little only.
tml if u wanna come, visit : http://purplepanadol.blogspot.com at about 5 or 5.30 kk... i will be hosting the prog... lol~ i gonna talk crap all the way... lol~ =)
take care everyone!!
heez... AIR CON ROOM I COMING~~~!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:14 PM
 | You scored as Blue. Your heart is blue. You are a very calm and relaxed person. You are very caring and like helping others. You're grateful for what you have in life, even if it's not perfect. People love you for who you are, don\'t ever change that- it's what makes you the great person that you are.
~What colour is your heart?~ created with QuizFarm.com |
Seen this webby from Kieron's blogg. haha. thanks. lol~
Going to do many others noww... waiting for dearr to online... ltr going to meet herr... haha! ^^
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HAHA. dearr today is popular one. but then she scolded F word when she talked to me. of course not scolding mii larr. i'm too nice to be scolded liao. she will only slap my MUA CHEE face only ma... haha! ^^ dun slap hor! LOL~ ^^
Just read my classmates' blogs. haha! realized i'm a full time blogger sehh... haha... no one is as free as mii... anytime oso can blog all kinds of crap and nonsense up... muahha!! but then i'm really free ma... *cries*
LOL~
the feeling is decreasing slowly... even though its realky hard but really going to give up lers... haha~
really feel worthless bahs..... haha...
And, yest miracally, I got new inspirations for my "completed" story... haha! I've finished typing my chaps but I haven't post to my readers... xP HAHA. I going to edit it later when i finish blogging nonsense here...
HAHA...
sorry dearr... can't ask ur frens to come along and eat all together in a table... HAHA. nt familiar and dun feel lyk talking when they are around... you shld noee who i am... haha~ I'm not so open to strangers... lol~ so you will jus find mii uninteresting and quiet all the way... and i dun lyk this kind of me... haha... so sorry horr... but u all go out after we had eaten together at holland V. k~ HAHA.
thanks lots dearr. heez~
ltr going to take mike from her sehh. and going to have a live broadcast tml.. darn... nervous seh! LOL~ ^^
HEEZ~~
=)
iloveeandmissdearr. haha~
she so honored. my best fren for so long most of the time, always say i love her so much. haha~ ya lar, love her larr. haha. nt of a forceful way. i really love her lots.
missbeeoso! LOL~ =)
LOVEeveryone.
BUT, love dearr the most!
dearr sure love her baka the most rite! HAHA! hmph! xP just kidding! *becomes scared when mua chee girl saw her dearr's hand raising up, preparing to give a tight slap*
LOL~ *grins*
BYE~
Super high today de!!
Learning how to let go of something impossible....
Signing Off, ms. elated mua chee. =)
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:51 PM
Monday, October 23, 2006
When you clarified that it cannot go deep anymore.
I let my heart and path remain there, but the stab that was already deep in my heart, went in deeper unknowingly? And blood have been oozing out for almost 2-3 months?
I was giggling away when I suddenly realized I have been single for so long. 2 years, previously when I didn't start on any relationship, I thought I could remain single for... so many years... for almost 14 years... haha! =) very pro~ but after I started the worst relationship that made me almost couldn't climb up, suddenly I realized love is a scary thing to touch on. It's a very magical thing, but usually it always leaves an invisible scar that can never be recovered and haunts you whenever you are alone.
LOL!
Was talking to dearr. suddenly realized ppl's fate is better than me. They have suitors, when I don't have. But it's alright, I have to wait for that fate to come. I've waited for so long liao. Two years le (it's short though =x) HAHA! But then, I will continue waiting. If nothing happens, I gonna be old virgin forever... JUST KIDDING!! HAHA~~
I will go find one..... someone i really like and confess to him straight away... and not keeping my feelings in my heart....
cuz unrequitted love is painful for me.... I duno experienced how many times liao.....
HAHA~~
one day, someone will heal tt invisible scar of the hurting past.
He will heal mine.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:48 PM
FATE
"Ms. Mua Chee." - yest's nick.
"Fate have not been visiting me for 2 years..." - a few days ago de nick.
"I don't know what is my feeling towards you, but I know it's still a like." - today's one of my nicks.
"Heart connection bill was delayed for almost one week..." - My nick for now.
If you talk to me often, you will find that my nick changes as my mood changes. My small nicks are the sentences and stuffs that occupying my mind mostly at that period of time. So when you see nick, you will see my emotions being put into the nick. MUHAHA! ^^
Very easy to see through me lar!
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It's been 2 years since I was single-status-ed.
HAHA!
Okay, I had one before. ehhh. more than that.
xP
okay! LOL~
Sometimes it's rather easy to see whether I'm out of love a not, see whether I have new stories a not, then you will know liao lorr. haha! That's how my dearr see through my love life. HAHA. How could she! She so understand me, who ask mii to be her dearr mua chee leh! LOL~ xP
A transparent mua chee. hee! A mua chee who always open door for her. I mean, she knows it herself. *grins at dearr* LOL!
The latest one was the most unforgettable one. Now, I still have slight contact with him but we are still in best friends status. In life, I had met two guys whom I stead with, but in the end, we could still be best friends once again. We were best friends for many years le and happened to get together, but honestly speaking, I feel weird steady-ing w/ my best friend. of course its a guy. lol~ I feel, really awkward. because we knew each other too well lers. Can see thru each other liao so I dun really feel the chemistry even though when I see them, my heart raced madly but a kind of feel is not there. In the end, it was some kind of silent break. haha! vr sad thing! HAHA~
2 years already, time really flies. And I'm still single and suitors around me.
Don't know count myself as lucky or not...
HAHA... But somehow happy that I'm not tied down by relationship...
But then really wanted to fall in love with someone lorr...
HAHA... i miss tt kind of feelings...
But I not going to force... tt's y i failed several times...
=)
I went thru' lots of times when I really lusted for love ( who dun lust for love man. haha. face it man) LOL~ then I managed to controlled myself from steady-ing with someone I really dun fancy lor. haha. so I have a lot of love experience liao. love-lust-rejection. haha!
A rather GOOD experience.
HAHA.
kk. I will continue to wait for my right one to appear.
Hope that someone will treasure me.
And not use me. or take me for granted.
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"Check in, check out, kua tuo gui NOW!"
HAHA!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:58 PM
i miss dearr... lots... real lots...
i miss dearr badly... i duno whyy... haha! ^^ just simply miss her lots lorr...
she shld feel honored yar?
jus came home, with a little tear stained face because something not really bad happening to me, but i feel useless over it. haha! ^^ jus to share lar.
lol~
hmmmm, it didn't take a long wait for my bus 61 to come... and then ehhh.. i sat on the bus larr... today is so-called my "bio (peek at) shuai-ge day" HAHA. the bus gt some shuai ge-s. gd thing. but then after several bus stops, a ah ma happen to sit beside me. then when going to reach my bus stop, i pressed the button and got ready but I only started standing when i finally reached the bus stop, then the door opened (but no one was alighting except me) and ah ma very slowly shifted herself but didn't really shift to the side for mii to cross over, it didn't really make an difference, so I wanted to move carefully as I looked at the door at the same time, pleading in my heart, hoping the door don't close... (i was rather close to the door) then after tt rite, the door closed, my eyes immediately widened and I immediately uttered to myself "Shit, just let me alight at the next stop..." then when i was about to sit back to my seat (i didn't manage to get out from ah ma's side and i was still stuck at my seat, see how terrible it is) then i abt to sit back rite, and the bus moved a bit rite. duno which kind-hearted person, helped me pressed the bell several times until the bus driver finally open the door for me. Then i went down, face red in embarrassment sehh. darnn.
I dun blame the ah ma's slow movement, but i scold myself for being so useless for not getting out of my seat before the stop was going to reach. HAIZ. so embarrassed but at the same time, I really felt SUPER TOUCHED for the kind person who helped mii pressed the bell. haha! i duno even noee who's tt person was, but I'm very grateful to that person, and I will rmb this for quite some time bahs. and learn from this experience.
I did say "Thank you" when I got down the bus. HAHA.
*shy*
So people, if you are going to alight, get ready by the door if u happen to sit by the window, and the person beside you, you tink dun have fast motions, it is more advised to move out and get ready first instead of getting past the bus stop u wan to alight, like me.
I'd learn from my mistake. People learn from my experience k! HAHA~
A very big thank you to that kind person.
Even though I don't know who you are, but I hope my thank you did touched your heart some time.
Truly I thank you for helping me, or else I will have to walk extra miles back home liao, with heavy stuffs. haha! ^^
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today had a rather funny day, didn't had much stuffs lar. =)
but tell you something, I really dun like APS lecture because not only its fast-paced, its sometimes even unclear lorr. like duno wadd to say lorr. i feel vr sucky over the lecture. We had to copy notes and listen to her attentively at the same time, then had to worry about our names being called to answer some stupid questions tt we dun have any idea on. If you heng heng, then get the questions tt is common sense or from the notes lar, if not, good game liao. haha! ^^
Then during the 3 mins toilet break, many girls in the toilet grumbled about her. It's really too... AHEM....
And tell you something, I said a lot of times "F***" when she turn to next slide when I was still copying UNTIL HALF on the previous slide... She's FREAKINGLY FAST until I said I feel like beating her upside down... haha... see how TEMPTED I am... lol~ u can hear ppl throwing pens lar... then ppl wah here and there... when they are not able to copy finish the notes on time... so darn...
then halfway gt break in between APS tutorial and lecture, then happened to be in the same lift as the lecturer... haha... then she asked did we do for the pharmacy thing... then we say we didn't... haha... then she asked why... there was only silence in the lift, then I said "Not free..." followed by VERY dry laugh. haha. Princess, dun say out ok! LOL~ Still dare to reveal to lecturer tt SOME PPL actually wanted to go for pharmacy thing but in the end, went shopping... wah lauu~ dun so obvious ma!! ppl pai sehh lehs!! LOL~ dun say larr, horr...
but overall, today was a okay day, played the laptop... haha! ^^
and mii and yanyan siao today... sang the FUNNY SONG (tt jacky wu tt funny show lorr) we learn from there de... haha...
and oso..... many other stuffs.... haha... we still continued our prepeh of course! and we felt strange why today he nvr say "prepeh".. but I still laughed until tears came out during his lecture... hahaha...
=) never forget to smile...
lol~ ^^
Today everyone like rather tiredd lehh... haha^^
I'm one too!!
But tml, wanna date with dearr!! HAHA~ ^^
Kk, gtg le... if got anything I forget... I will tell you all kk...
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:08 PM
heyy yox.
mii now in sch, vr sians oso. wanna chat w/ dearr lehs but then she lyk having a BIG mess talk with her class. its ok. haha! ^^
hmmmm. lol~
ehhh. ltr going to do small presentation. haiz.
ltr then i post another entry lorr. hee! ^^
BYE~~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:40 AM
Sunday, October 22, 2006
ms. mua chee.
call mii that. haha. my dearr give mii this nickname de.
HAHA. cuz i'm too fair and abit squeezy and Q so she gave mii this nick. haha! ^^
i love this nickname quite a lot. can call mii tt woor~~ LOL~ =P
but only certain ppl. all those ppl who have met me and my close frens and classmates. the others are prohibited. I will class that as rude. warn you that. haha~
Just rain jus now.
Today in quite a nice mood. haha.
Yest was in a bad mood. Mother really gave mii a vr cold de blanket sehh. i mean didn't comment the clothes nice. so, i was rather sad. I'm so happy w/ the clothes tt i loved. but she didn't comment anything nice. so.... i was rather affected... and... HAIZ~~
today rain. nt so hot. i hope.
hmmmmm. duno wadd i going to do next. vr tired i noee.
jus read some horoscope stuffs. and felt true abt some stuffs.
i read my next chap (updating next fri), tt's a .................. CHAP. hahaha... cannot say yett... climax liao... my climax vr small only..... so nt shocking de larr! HAHA~
then ermmm... its really lyk tt... when you just use thinking, u tink u can resist everything... but when u really met tt something, u can't avoid it at all. like me. haha.
=) now i can forget him. but wadd if one day i met him again.
ppl who consoled me, thanks for it.
but then, u may nt have the exact info on wadd happened between the both of us (only dearr noes! =x) and oso my character so its easy for u all to say "tell me to forget" when in reality, its really hard alright.
in the world, there may be loves worse than me, but my love is worse than so many ppl.
so dun compare. *compeh* LOL~
thx for the consoles anyway. as long as u dun ask mii to forget the jerk or something lyk tt (except my dearr) haha.
tt wun reli help. jus cheer me up will do. haha. or jus give mii a listening ear if i ever speaks. haha!
=) thx~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2:58 PM
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Today pharmacy trip thingy is somehow cancelled. lol~ because we decided to shop at bugis junction and street. and tt's simply cool~
went out w/ yanyan (yuyan), wanwan (wanyan), siangyun, halfway rui xia and her bf joined in.
HAHA. I wanted to look for puremilk shirts. purple ones of course! but i found nothing... vr disappointed... and I was expecting tt i wun buy anything at the end of the day... but in the end, i'm the one who spent the most... lol~
$54.90... lol~!! but still nt my highest... lol~ my highest is $100.70+++... lol~ forgot the exact amount... abit heartpain larr... but all i lyk de... so its ok!! HEEZ~~
MUHAHAHA... then shopped a lot... duno wadd to say oso... gt lots of things tempting us lorr... lol~ my very first thing i bought is the button earstud? hahaha. button type lar. vr unique and its purple! yay! LOL~ ^^ then after tt, slowly i bought stuffs here and there lor. started trying at this fashion larr. lol~ ^^ hees. i bought the moz stuffs, vr paii sehhs. lol~!
nt gonna say too much, because i had too many things in mind larr.. tt's vr memorable... hahaha~~ ^^
and had a fun time shopping w/ them... we cannot go out often sehhh.. will broke de...
EYES BRIGHTENED, BUT POCKET DARKEN with the mention of SHOPPING.
HAHA~ I fina;lly mentioned this. we are funny ppl. and i super high today. because i bought stuffs tt i lykk. haha. i nvr buy bags and shoes onlyy. if nt, MUHAHA. my happiest day ever. lol~ happiest shopping day i mean. haha. and oso a jacket back home. tt jacket, mii n yanyan vr tempted to buy but in the end nvr buy. haha. i wonder if yanyan gt buy a not. haha~ hope she did. but ltr she tempt mii seh! LOL~ ^^
"prepeh..."
LOL~ ^^
saw some ppl tt i know todayy...
bleahhs... took mrt back home..... lol~ can't find the 61 back home route... but i found the 61 "imaginary bus stop" (i assume tt the bus turned left) HAHA~
imissdearr.
winglin is nt back yett. sadd. wanna update lehhs. haha! ^^
lovetoday! ^^
ltr going to try out the clothes and let mummy see. hope she dun say another tt's cold blanket lorr. haha. she always have been a cold blanket in the house. and going to slp at her room tonight once again! love air con! LOL~ ^^
heez... gtg le... i going to eat liao... hungry......
roti prata vr nice~~!! heez...
SUPER HAPPY DE~~
dearr, one day we go out k... lol~ dun sad liao... and dun say i ps u lehhs. sadd de lehhs... haha... ppl booked mii liao mahss... haiz~~
loveulots.
ntgonnadoanythingtou.
when on bus, then i finally noee how tired i am for the day... but satisfied when i touched my bag... haha!! ^^
was rather sad when i listened to a guy singing "I miss you dearly" HAHA~ vr nice songg... lol~ and there's this couple sitting in front of mii, behaving intimately... can't tahan... lol~ ^^
kk... BYE~~
Tk cr~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:09 PM
Friday, October 20, 2006
i noee the reasonn..... but i duno wadd to do...
I'm lost.
Stuck in the middle.
I already know how to reject. Reject his msg, but sometimes I really longed to see his msg.
I learnt how to look at other view.
HAHA, he treated all girls lyk this because its his personality. he's nice in flirting.
a prominent one.
And, I'm expected to fall into it. Now, I found out his talent and I going to kill his talent by acting opposite. lol~
When you wan me then wan me horr? You tink I wadd?
I'm not just a plain someone for you to play with. Not a someone to fool with.
I'm simple but complicated in composition alrites.
---
Other than this, LOL~ I had a really nice laughing day. lol! ^^
Today had IPC tutorial... darn... saw tt funny uncle again... lol~ nt a gd thing lorr... see him will laugh liao... hahaha...
once he said the word "prepare" as "prepeh", I laughed lyk madd sehh... but then I laughed secretly w/ my mouth totally covered and my shoulder was trembling away. HAHA~
and today, he kept sayin the word "prepare". lol. every time he said it, i laughed. a stupidd thing is tt, whenever i tried to stop my laughing, he said the MAGICAL word again and i laughed once again. can't help it. he say until TOO NATURAL liao... and cher duno wadd we were doing... hahaha...
LOL~!! laughed until i asked yanyan for tissue... yes, i cried once again... lol~ ^^
And yanyan, was suppressing her laugh by looking down at her bag lorr... so many times she looked down... lol~ we realized the BIG WORD. lol~ and some others, noee abt the JOKE we were talking, and they looked at us laughing. haha~! darnn. stop laughing. i have no strength to even write liaos. lol~
then had a break... hahaha... went to SIM to da pao... lol~ pack and take away larr... DA PAO (BEAT BUNS direct translate from chinese) and my laughing point was super low today... i even laughed at this... oh my god... but its was hell funny... lol~
then during break, i ate vr fast... super hungry... no choice... came back from letlet, then i switched on my laptop and wanted to show them the show dearr sent mii yest. haha. and so on de lar. in the end, most of them came here to see the show and laughedd. had a fun time laughing lorr. haha~
then went to practical after some crappings and doing nothings, then went up bleahs. lol~ the practical lecturer is funny~ HAHA. pretend and assume this that de... lol~ her actions vr funny oso~~ LOL~
She could take out a lot of examples from various jobs... hahaha.. she's real funny... lol~ ^^
I finally met a nice teacher. haha. from all my lecturers. Maths is not a bad one larr. but then ehhh. lol~ a little too hypo. LOL~ her tone i can't take it sometimes. lol~ i end up laughing as well. my laughing semester. lol~
CAN'T TAKE IT.
HAHAHAHAHA~~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:09 PM
Thursday, October 19, 2006
i really have decided not to like you...
seen from ur msgg... today almost wanted to cryy... when i saw it...
haha... perhaps I really need to feign ignorance yar?
it's hurtingg when wadd i suspect somehow came truee and lett mii saw it by my own eyes... its really painful...
Being with so manyy.... dun you.......
*speechless*
You are obviously oblivious about the girls huh. perhaps only i fell in love w/ u. i'm the only stupidd one. HAHA.
IT's bleeding now, very profusely. lol~
hope it heals.
It was an unrequitted love, I already told myself so long ago, but I still can't give you up. I'm a really useless and soft-hearted one until SOMEONE really took me for granted. Dearr, dun angry when you see this. I'm really confessing my feelings to tt HIM.
Now, honestly speaking, I do hate him and hate to see him in front of me.
And he made my emotions so bad tt i dun feel lyk talking sometimes. Just simply so moody.
Feign Ignorance ( i love this ) . HAHA~
I gonna heck care his stuffs. not kena see his msg anymore... dun wish to noee him more anymore...
jus wanna concentrate on my schh..... nothing elsee.....
I HATE HIM~
Mr. NAM
---
dropping the emotional stuffs, i'm sometimes too happy today, due to yanyan. wah lauu. she super notti de lorr.. haha. during our IPC lesson, when we listened to the cher talking (tt uncle talking the Air as A again tt one) LOL~ then today we heard PREPARE and PREPEH. lol~ WAH LAU~~ We immediately laugh instead of writing down the notes... hahaha... and when we went out of lecture hall, yanyan kept on repeating... and I kept laughing until my tears came out... lol~ IPC, is my laughing period... lol!! CANNOT LAUGH TOO MUCH LARR...
HAHA~~~
And many stuffs lar, nth much to say abt. today de INFO still ok lor... sianss~~ lol~ Maths lesson, i feel its vr fast... three hours oso no prob!! LOL~ ^^
--
Do you know a terrible thunderstorm is going on in my broken and AGAIN broken heart?
The rain will never get to you....
Like how my feelings flew to you, you never felt it......
Or perhaps you took it for granted....... and threw it away after usage......
And use a brand new one after that.......
You sound so fragile but I think I'm more fragile than you.......
The reason being is ...
YOU.
You idiot.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:16 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
NICE DAY CUM... SIAN DAY...
today is my great day c.u.m my duno wadd day. SIAN.
haiz. this morn, tried to switch on my fone once again, and it worked!! YOU RECOVERED FROM DROWNING!!
Oh god, its miracle~~!!
Okays, then hmmmm... went to sch, almost late lorr... hahaha... then was in same class Fatimah and CK, so happy... then we are grouped together with another cute guy from chem and bio engineering... HAHA~~ =) TOO CUTE A GUY LIAO~~ No bf, HAHAHA. Can anyhow see! MUHAHAHA!!
kkies... lol~ ^^ *watches dearr glare at me*
lol~ then when going home, i took the stupid 61... wah kaox... the bus super fast de lorr... and i almost fall down liao lorr... duhs... drive so fast for wadd... and gt one time i really almost slide down to the floor... then i scolded the F word. lol~ so many ppl ard.. but they nvr hear me... and on the bus, there are 3 handsome guys... 2 sitting so near to me... then horr... the bus was driving so fast tt my hands and legs sweat lehh... nt vr gd lorr... then when i came down, i sighed really deeply.. hahaha~ ^^
Those guys, gosh. SHUAI~
lol~ *melts* and they look at me so many times... their eyes nice man... lol~ ^^
kk... gtg le... ltr going to bathe... after listening to dearr's broadcasting...
LOL~~~
MY MP3, U RECOVERING A NOT!!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:32 PM
LOL~~~~~~~~
now vr sian. lol~ havin' break... lol~
hmmmm... then CK is vr sad over a gurll... lol~ HEEZ~~
and we r in the group w/ a new cute guy... muhaha... super happy derx~~
hee... look forward to it... lol~ ^^
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2:46 PM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
i will blog it... in case i forgets all...
Today is a dirty day...
lol~ ^^
I mean dirty-minded day larr...
and today had sucky APS class lar, lol~ ^^ then horr, is naming the body parts and its function learning very great detail de... lol~ then we were examining the body parts of the model... then one of the model called the muscle "man" is a female structure... gt breasts and vagina de... hahaha... our well-known dirty-minded guy, CK, haha. once he walked over, he took out the vagina part (expected) lol~ and he tapped my shoulder, and showed me an action on putting his finger at the vagina there... and moving here and there... DUHX~~ HAHA~~ and i was lyk..... DOT... lol~ SO DIRTY...
okay, then today very open minded, then princess told us abt the vagina thing larr... whr the eggs are... and where's the G spot... super interested de... wah... experienced worr, princess!! HAHA~~ no la, no la! LOL~ ^^
HEE~~ VR FUNNY TODAY~~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:01 PM
APS cher sucks.
You are obviously someone who likes to chat w/ others. I've seen it from your msg.
Seen from your actions when I met you on the streets. And very truly to say, I really loathe you right now. And dun even wish to talk to you.
I miss the little Jay, HAHA~
abit lar. his action kills man. hee~
And also, someone did something and I did back something tt is super bad ders. lol~ but i feel you deserved my bad doings on you. You made me so...... angry......
LOL~! Even though after i did it, i didn't understand why i did it lar. but nvm~ jus let the relationship go down and down. haha~ i dun mindd actually. i jus dun wish anything to continue larr. in a bad way. relationship already nt gd liao. wadd for improve the relationship in a really bad and hurting way?
Hopes, I dun need any.
I dun need YOU to give me hopes. You give me ROTTEN hopes.
HAHA. Today, I laughed lyk siao lehhs. lol~ love being w/ my class. they are jus so crazy... HAHA...
Xinyi says : "Wo Tou Hen Tong (My Head very pain)" -- direct translate... muhaha!
Siangyun and Wanyan : Huh? Gu Tou Hen Tong (Bone very pain?)?"
mii and yanyan : Huh? Gu Tou Hen Tong? (Bone very pain)?"
Both pairs misheard xinyi's sentence. and the worst one comes here.
siewjiunn : *misheard mii n yanyan's sentence* Ru Tou Hen Tong???????!! (Nipples very pain?)"
WAH KAOX... I burst out laughing... and I laughed non-stop when we were climbing stairs and walking back to the science block... they are just so funny... hahaha...
kk... then had APS class... i still hate the cher man... DUN UNDERSTAND A SINGLE THING... THEN TALK FINISH LIAO, STRAIGHT AWAY REVISION BY CALLING US TO COME OUT TO SAY... U tot we wadd? Genius yar?
And I was laughing abit when the Maths cher was teaching, LOL~
"x SQUARE + y SQUARE = x SQUARE + 2xy + y SQUARE"
SQUARE, read in a HIGH TONE. haha. we laughed.
siewjiunn say, she sounds like a dance coach. the one who counts 1...2...3... lol~
VERY CHEERFUL TONE HORR!!
LOL~
LOL~ But I still love the joke of IPC... lol~
my fone died today because it drowned in my saliva cum water from water bottle.
SADDD!!
And my NEW mp3 is not working... it refuses to go to the menu... WADD'S WRONGG!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:22 PM
001. Real Name - YY
>> 002. Nickname - yy, y square, yunzi, yaya and so on larr... list nvr stops...
>> 003. Single or taken - single ^^
>> 004. Astrological Sign - Gemini
>> 005. Male or Female - Female
>> 006. School - yupp. currently in poly~
>> 007. ipod- hmmm... nahx?
>> 008. How many buddie on your list - ehhh. friendster u mean? 100++
>> 009. Friendster name - - tw elvee -
>> 010. Hair Color - abit black, abit natural brown, red, purple (can't see), strands of golden hair. LOL~ messy horr. lol~ >>
012. Hair Long or Short - Shoulder length liao! yay~ >>
014. Eye Color - duno dark brown or wadd lar... heck care... eye too small... >>
015. Are you health freak - ehh... duno? >>
016. Height - 162+>>
017. Do you have a crush on someone - duno oso. >>
018. Do you like yourself - nt reli. lol! >>
019. Sexuality - hmm? straight. >>
020. Think you're awesome? - nahx. nvr. >>
021. Piercings - yup>>
022. Tattoo - nahx. >>
*Your 'Firsts'>>
024. Surgery - ehh. braces counted?>>
025. First piercing - when 5/6 yrs old>>
026. First best friend - pri 3, i still rmb tt.. >>
027. First Award - duno kindergarden or when lar... dance award or sth de? I OSO NT SURE LIAO! >>
028. First Sport You Joined - hee~ duno lehhs. I STM>>
029. First pet - tortoise! duno when. >>
030. First vacation - ehh.. duno larr...>>
031. First Concert - kindergarden... lol~ >>
032. First love - hmm? >>
*Favorites>>
033. Favorite movie - nt vr sure lehhs. gt lots lorr... haha! >>
034. Favorite tv show - funny taiwan shows... hee! >>
035. Color - purple and black. >>
036. Music - almost all. >>
039. Drink - warm mineral water. >>
040. Body part on the face - none.
041. Cartoon - Cardcaptor Sakura! YAY~ Gu Nie Nie Chee Wa! (Hey-Hey-Hoo)
042. Favorite piece of clothing - ehhh... anything tt is my fav purple!~
043. Brand Of Clothing - none
044. What do you sleep with - pillow, bolster, and another one duno how to say.
045. Favorite School - bhsps, bvps, hss, NP (i love every sch tt i had been to) because there are so many sweet memories..... hee~
046. Favorite Animal(s) - tortoise!~ *screams*
047. Favorite Book - chinese love novels.
048. Favorite Magazine - teenage.
*currently>>
049. Eating - nothing.
050. I'm drinking - water.
052. I'm about to - slp
053. Listening to - Tui Hou By Jay Chou
055. Waiting For - For daddy to end his call so tt i can online again ( i doing this quiz offline =x)
056. Watching - my laptop lor... *my laptop is blushing btw*
057. Wearing - tees & shorts>>
*Your Future
058. Want Kids - i dun feel lyk having one. heex~
059. Want to Get Married - nahx. dun wish to. tomb of love to me. I dun see true love. and I changes my heart de. lol~ so, forget it. i'm not a devoted person.....
060. Careers in Mind - duno yett.....
*Which is better with the Opposite Gender>>
068. Lips or Eyes - Lips. Eyes, ppl will shy lar~~ Okay lar, both lar. I love eye contacts as well kkies! Eye contacts says everything. HOW SWEET~
069. Hugs or Kisses - BOTH. GREEDY~~
070. Shorter or Taller - normal. taller lar.
072. Romantic or Spontaneous - spon.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms - both. lol~
074. Sensitive or Loud - duno. none.
075. Hook-up or Relationship - none.
076. Sweet or Caring - both!~ ^^ > 077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant - ehhhh... none is gd..... hee~
*Have you ever>>
078. Kissed a Stranger - yupp... for once..... and the very last time.... haha!
079. Drank bubbles - wadd?
080. Lost glasses/contacts - i dun wear glasses...
081. Ran Away From Home - nt reli.
082. Broken a bone - nahs.
083. Got an X-ray - nahs.
084. Broken Someone's Heart - nt vr sure.
085. Someone Broke Your's - oh.of course.
086. Turned Someone Down -ehhh.?
087. Cried When Someone Died- YUP!
088. Cried at school - ya... of course..... cried very badly..... over SYF result.... haiz~~
*Do You Believe In>>
089. God - duno....
090. Miracles - no
091. Love at first sight - duno... i haven REALLY met tt before...... heez...
093. Aliens - nahx.
094. Magic - ehh. duno.
095. Heaven - hmmm.
096. Santa Claus - haha. duno.
097. Sex on the first date - nahx!~ TOO FAST, TOO FURIOUS... hahahahahahah! 098. Kissing on the First Date - depends on the mood. hee. 099. Angels - ... no....
*Answer Truthfully
100. Is There someone You Want To be with right now? NAH.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:47 AM
Monday, October 16, 2006
heartbroken ` or ?
I duno wadd exactly do i feel now...
even though i nvr see you... but then my heart seemed to be tearing up... and stains of fresh blood can be seen once again... God~
HAIZ~~
Today de APS class, wah kaox. tt cher's teaching style really sucked. gt so much to complain abt!~ Her powerpoint slide and our notes are totally different and I duno if I wan to copy or not lor~~ SIAN~
Okay, and the thing is, we still dun understand the topic and yet she called us to represent on the diff. types of systems.. identify the body main organs of the one/ two of the body organ systems... and have to state the function... you thought we know? I thought we expected you to go thru' with us? And the thing is, this chap jus ended so simply lyk tt. DEN WE PRINT THE NOTES FOR WADD. you hardly ever go thru' lor. kaox. NTS.
IPC, died. APS, died as well. HAIZ~ for now larr. Maths, haiz. tml will see the teacher liao... sians... heard tt this cher dun teach well... gonna die too~~!! LALALALAL~~
LOL!
After the stupid lecture *still cursing*, then gt the tea session larr... but in the middle there's break... wah... went to the photocopy shop to see if gt extra notes to buy... woohoo... all i can say is, ITS SUPER EMPTY DE!! *THE OPPOSITE* was filled with people! HAHAHA. okies.
then went up for tea session stuffs. lol~ super sians de. lol~
lol... then had a very boring foto taking session with another class... ever since the tea session started, i already taken note of a guy for very long liao. rumored to be the "small jay chou" in the next pharmacy class. HAHA! dun look so alike, but yanyan say his nose look lyk. he looks quite ok, but hits my heart man. haha! ^^
*drools*
alrite, when taking foto, i was the only one sitting together w/ the foreign class, and TT GUY HAPPEN TO SIT BESIDE ME *fidgets but smiles away* LOL~ Then he took out his sweet, he offered his sweet to his classmates then he asked me whether i wan seh!~ *melts*
easily satisified person lar! ya la! LOL~ i hope to fall in love w/ him leh~
dun wish to be in love with Mr. NAM~ lol~ and i dun even wish to see him on the streets or anywhr again~ he freaks me off totally... with his mood swings and so on... darn...
today i thought to myself... I was somehow emotional here and there... still unstable... after i saw something..... dearr, dun angry for me k... I'm quite okay de... =)
HAHA... hmmm... if he really has one, and he treated me like an extra one and prepares to make me his second, i gonna turn him totally off. Or, if I ever feel like he's jus playing, I will really reject.
Because that's really hurting lor. to be played with.
Every single day, mood swing because of his mood swings. Being unstable because of him, all because of just tt stupid him.
If I could, I really wanna wash this person away... and let him just die.....
He really dun deserve anything and yet he has so many........ HAIZ~~
Today happened to hear CK saying, "Wah, gt so many legs ar. Can step on many boats."
HAHA. tt applied to him. But CK was saying someone else. But this sentence applied to him totally. He has gt so many legs lor. Stepping onto so many boats until one day, I curse him to drown to death. Or even, be slapped by one of the girls one day.
I loathe you, to the core. sucker.
Who cares about you. and stop doing it.
It's gonna shorten your life staying beside me.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:58 PM
currently i'm in sch... slacking around and doing nth! HAHA.
HAHA.
this morn woke up. with mosquito bites all over me. lol~
^^ and horr... hmmm... i didn't managed to sleep well lorr... but then nvm~ my Inorganic bleahs chemistry teacher really made my day because his accent is lyk all those uncles one... not vr accurate... and sometimes he doesn't noee wadd he's saying oso lorr... (mii, yanyan and ah jiunn nvr listen to him de lorr... we kept laughing at his words...)
can say we didn't pay attention to the lesson but the words... LOL~~ every single word... hee!
^^ Example la : Comfortable - he read as covert table.
Compare - he say compear
And air became A.
Gases became gay-es... lol~
HAHA... i laugh lyk mad in class... suppressing my laugh w/ mouth covered... *dearr, u sure noee how i suppress my laugh horr* and tears came out lorr~~!! LOL~~ and yanyan super notti de... she kept repeating his words... and made mii laughing non-stop... lol~ laugh till throat gt prob seh... hahah~
And currently, i sitting outside the class.... ltr going for the APS class... hahaha~~ and have a tea session with the department director and class foto taking... sians~~
i wanna go buy mp3 w/ daddy leh~~
and btw, this morn had a very terrible stomach ache... lol~ and then horr... lol~ i endured the pain on bus... looking super emotional de... hee~
Then hmmm, when i reached the "meeting place", i immediately went to the toilet lorr... hahaha~
Then I poo-ed out lots of things... hahaha... censored... not going to say further...
HEEZ~~~
After I reach home, i going to blog again! I hope so!!~ But no one online for mii to chat leh... lol~ ^^
I miss my story... and my dearr... hahaha...
jus now sms her... hee~ ^^
she say he's a clown.
HEEZ~~~
LOL!!!~~~
And i rejected....
lol~
yay! today super high de~~~
BYE~~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:52 PM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
happy birthday milk~
happy birthday to hL milk~!!
HAHA~
may your wishes all come true horr... and study hard for your future stuffs... oso duno wadd u studying liao... hahaha... duno studying for O's or wadd liao...
HAHA... its ok...
And tml, its the start of first day of sch!~
sian~~
haha... 8 some more... sian... i wonder if i can wake up tml a not... so early~~!!
HAHA... wanted to update another chap today de... but dun wan liao... hahaha... i update on fri and sat night better...
READERS, I will update on Fri and Sat night liao... to make my updates faster... hahaha... since I finished typing my story liao!! HAHA... free to update anytime~~!! But jus scared nt much readers are able to read... ltr they tot i nvr update... haha!! ^^
kk... gtg le... haiz~~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:26 PM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
miss sch but dun wish to go sch... contradicting... lol~
LOL~
saw my title horr...
today went to sch w/ my classmates... to buy notes... then after tt, i went to shop at jurong point... at first gt lots of stuffs in mind wanna buy de... in the end, i bought nothing back home...
and i met a BAD SERVICE bus driver of 174... haha... =) but nvm~
LALALA~~
=) kkiex... i've updated my story. do comment! ^^
dun wan sch to start leh~~
And jus now, my relatives came to visit mii. duhx. but i was watching tv. i didn't care abt them. because i dun reli lyk them. haha. their attitude lar. lol~ in the end, the whole family of 8 came... wah lau~~ i was jus expecting three... and all the kids except 1 came... siao... HAHA~~ heng mostly smaller than mii or else i have to call them sehh... sian... lol~ ^^
lazy ppl do lazy stuffs... hee! ^^
kk... bye~~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:10 PM
Friday, October 13, 2006
HAHA. had fun time watching tv... lol~
HAHA. had a really fun time laughing when watching tv... laughed until tears came out... HOW SERIOUS... hahaha~~
And i couldn't stop laughing... but the thing is, my parents weren't laughing when i'm laughing... lol~ ^^ my joke point is super low at home ok... i tink i'm the lowest... a easily-contented person... hee~ vr easy to please me de lar... jus find the right time can liao... muhahahahaha~~
and dearr readers of [ Dubious Chemistry ] , I MAY update tml evening or night k! LOOK OUT FOR MY UPDATE!! =)
BYE~~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:35 PM
haiz~~~~~
"Bankbook have a special power that makes you dun wan to go shopping anymore."
My bankbook have this power. In fact, every single bankbook have this power. Just that, whether does it do effect on you or not.
It did on me. When my daddy helped me updated my bankbook.
OH GOD.
My money is getting lesser. One of the reasons is because I spent my own money on sch notes and so on de. My mummy nvr help de. My hp, all my stuffs, I buy on my own. Independent. DUHX~
Okay, so it killed all my mood in shopping liao. haiz~~
*cries*
HAHAH~~ my dearr muz b scolding now lorr... my money is more than her... and i'm crying now... HAHA~~
lovee dearr. xP
*dun scold me le*
HAHAHA.
heartpain over $$. muz work liao!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:29 PM
HAHA~~ Today is a really fun one!
HAHA. in actual, promised dearr to go out w/ her on wed. but then i had sudden stomach ache due to eat too much cold food liao! ^^ hee~ pai seh... but today we went out together liao...
firstly, went to her house and play O2jam and Audition... haha... btw, forget to bring the shoes along... and i forgot to bring back the mike oso! ^^ so sorry~
haha... but we had lots of fun playing the games... and oso watching her play crazy frog... the route was crazy enough... lol~
and today i learnt a new vulgarity. a vr cute one. i may use it in sch, listen for it. haha~
=)
kk... hmmm... and after that, we went to marina square to find a place to eat (somehow window shopping oso lar while deciding) on the way, we were crapping and laughing away. haha~ =) had a really fun time. then after eating, went to Giant and buy strawberry wine and TWO GLASS CUPS to drink at esplanade for heart-to-heart talk. haha! At first, we were tinking about plastic cups but too much liao. i dun wan to bring back. then i say plastic bowl wan? LOL~ be more vintage... haha~ xP
then lots more jokes in between larr... lol~ then we bought two glass cups and walked to esplanade... on the way gt lots more things happened larr...
then drank there... talked a little there... when i started drinking, haha. nothing much happened. jus dun feel lyk talking. wanted to burp only =x
HAHA then our heart-to-heart talk ended up to be duet singing... HAHA~! But the night ended well, when we watched the Salsa Festival performance held at esplanade itself. Wah, cool man. and sexy babe.
And we watched our salsa instructor (my ex instructor liao. cuz i halfway quit le. haha. but salsa is really fun! I jus scared i no time. lol~ and can't catch up~ HAHA! and plus live too far le la!) HAHA, then they dance VR HOT. haha~ And I eyed one girl, who looks like Ms Lee (from my sec sch), lol~ then hmmm... after that, i was telling dearr tt if this girl have Ms Lee's chio look and her own figure now, wah kaox. all guys die under her liao. haha. her figure is super good. boobs may nt b TOO big. but at least its nt flat and not nice. ITS SHAPELY FIGURE ALRIGHT! HAHA. And her legs is a killer to me. haha SUPER NICE DE. and I find tt her leg is worthless, you can simply use money to buy them. they are simply too nice. and I observed so many legs to many years ( i mean these few years, i stopped this habit) HAHA. but then today happened to see their legs, wah kaox. this girl caught my eye immediately and my eyes are totally fixed to her beautiful slim, slender legs seh. and its fair ok! HAHA~ Sounds very delicious. LOL~ Her legs, made my day.
But overall, MY DEARR MADE MY DAY~~
With her is always so fun~~
That's why I love her lots...
HAHA...
=) Wanna be emotional oso cannot worr~~ jus dun have the right mood to be emotional... even though i was starting to miss you... haha~ when i looked at that bridge... lol~ but its ok! HAHA
SOMEONE LOOKS HANDSOME UNDER ORANGE LIGHT ONLY~~ Too bad, or else I woo you. haha~ jus kiddin!
at least u are shuai in certain light lar!~ ^^ treasure tt. bring tt light along w/ u k~
today super crappy de. and today's joke is not cold. its SUPER FUNNY~
but too many liao, cannot everything oso say. i say liao, i forget there de... haha... i STM MA~~ MUHAHAHAHAH~~
AS IF...
*walks off*
Drank by 6% alcohol contented dearr's fav strawberry wine. =)
its FAB.
lovedearr. muacks.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:47 AM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
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The link is at my friendster profile. HAHA. if u wish to see, inform me oso. tried to post the link here, but it stick out of my blog. vr ugly. haha! ^^ if u wan, dun feel shy, jus drop mii a note k! ^^
If you are interested , can email at [email protected].> For any queries, pls feel free to email her.> Thanks for reading & viewing.
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Thanks for support!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:51 PM
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
LALA completed my story...
FINALLY TYPED FINISH CHAP 15 LIAO!!
HAHA!~ YAY!!
finally completed my story liao... but waiting to update one by one liao... haha! ^^
now i have nothing to do liao... hahaha...
this story is not as gd bahx... but the funny parts are...... ehh.....
haha... and the ending..... lol!
cannot say. hahaha... keep it to the vr best.... hee!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:48 PM
Being mature
Just had a lot of chats w/ ppl.
=)
Hmmm... thought through lots of things... duno is it.... we are mature in our age or adults are immature in their age...
But personally, I feel is we are still immature in our age... Just a personal view... you may object to my view... ya i noee...
We, still small kids, don't really know the cruel reality in the outside world. (even me, I have some working experience liao. I still haven't meet the worst ppl and I dun wish to meet of course!)
I'm still not mature enough to really think that deep. That's why I learnt from my life, my working experiences, my friends and of course from my parents.
When we lost a very good friend because of certain reason, parents always would say "You just lost a friend, and you cried until lyk tt... There's nothing for you to cry about..." At first, I thought they were somehow heartless... but then slowly i thought abt it....
Adults already went into the outside world, they tasted the bitter taste of life and saw the worst side of friendship and they find that this kind of simple friendship is just nothing. Perhaps they already saw everything bad about a friendship. That's what my mother told me when I told her that she don't understand how deep my friendship is. And she told my experience with her friend. And I finally realized, our simple friendship during sch years are just a small fry to them. During work, u meet very nice friends, you seem to feel but behind they backstabbed you and cause you to lose your job and reputation lost. pride on the floor. how do you feel then? Comparing with the sch years de... maybe its less hurting bahx... I oso duno how the others reading my blog will feel... but to me, adults are still mature to me. They experienced lots more things than I do. And the strange thing is, what my mother told me, it happened on me. And now, i totally understood what she's saying.
"If you cry over the friendship you lost, then I think you will cry a lot of times when you get on your life as time goes on."
HAIZ~~ oso duno larr...
you will learn more, listening to adults. at least it applied to me. I really learnt a lot from my mother. and all made sense. And the thing is, when I told her my friendship stuffs to her, she consoled me and asked me to move on. haha. it helped somehow lar.
when you grow older le, you will slowly realize liao.
rmb, adults got thru' childhood as well.
sorry if i offended anyone. =)
tt's jus my personal view.
not all adults apply to be mature ones. at least my parents are. but my sis is not. haha! ^^
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3:58 PM
INSPIRATION DAY~~
btw, congrats to sia ling jie jie... she go register marriage liao... haha...
wadd a nice name she chose... 10/10/06... lol! ^^
congrats to her... lol... she's my jie de fren... haha! ^^
kk... hmmm... today wrote at least 3-4 chaps of my [ Dubious Chemistry ] . Today had too much juices liao. so i used it up today. and I left with some brain juices for my last chap. I think if I'm not wrong, chap 15 is the very last chap le bahx. hope NOT. haha! ^^
kk. if possible, I will try to post i tink two chaps bahx. lol~ but comment more lar!
lol~ ^^
hmmmm. love chap 14. lol! ^^
HEE~~ tt one i tink for vr long... hahaha... ~
kk... bye..
lovedearr.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:06 AM
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
today felt funny~~
HAHA.
crapped w/ my mum... today mummy is super funny de... oso duno wadd's wrong with her... lol!
hahaha... she say bite her buttock... haha~ then she scared she will go to places that it shld go... hahaha... then i say it will sure die... hahaha... either drowned by urine, smelt to death by faeces or hot to death when get INTO the body. haha!
and watched stairway to heaven. haha. and had some vr nice inspirations! HAHA~
=) thanks for tt. and I wrote finish my chap 12. haha. chap 12 is terrible. lol! ^^
but nt posting. lol! ^^
old rule, post on every friday night. in case when sch reopen, i have no inspiration (choy!) HAHA! =)
HEE!! ^^
lovedearr. lalala~
and my story getting climax liao bahx! vr short this story. and I fast forward everything didn't want to crapp on. cuz sch going reopen soon... lol! gonna end this story soon! HAHA~~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:15 PM
Monday, October 09, 2006
today felt a little ok...
Hmmm... my jie ask mii how come my eyes bloated de... lol~ no choice, i made up a stupid excuse...
"Drink too much water last night."
When did I drink so much water?
HAHA.
okie. After yest's cry, I felt a little better. Chose not to remember it, or even care abt it. even though I still care in my heart.
its really hard to forget.
then today hmm. went to Lot 1 to return clothes and so on w/ xinyi. lol~ mei juan and xiu juan looks vr cute in their uniform! HAHA~ they shld wear this! SO CUTE~~ HAHA!~~
HAHA. then di siao them lar. of course. i whr gt so gd de! xP
LOL~ then went to taka to return the stuffs. bleahs. haha. then shopped at wisma w/ xinyi. tried the ping tang hu lu... DOT... i dun lyk the taste! HAHA.
then bought some stuffs... sians... haha~
hmmm... jus felt a little not right today... lol~ but its ok! LALALA~~
ilovedearr.
today observed ppl's leg when i was in mrt. LOL~ ^^ so funny~
their legs can talk. LOL~
and today I felt a little good after giving up my seat to an ah ma. =) haha. when she said thx~ wah. nice seh, the feel. LOL~ even though I only gave up my seat when I really going down at that station (i actually wanted to give up my seat during the outram park station but then she can't really move properly even when standing, how can she walk over to my side and sit when the train is moving so fast? Normal ppl oso cannot liao. how can she!) then i waited until going to reach my station (tiong), then i stood up. then her husband call her go over. then i held her by the hand to balance to let her sit down. =) wadd a nice thx i like! =)
kk. tt thx~ makes my day alright~~
HAHA.
ate w/ my parents n crapped w/ them. haha. then shopped a little. bleahs. =)
bought 2 stuffs only. sian.
HL's birthday countdown : 6 days
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:14 PM
today felt a little ok...
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:14 PM
Self hypotism
Happy birthday to Rita Nu-er! May your wishes come true k! =)
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Mood swing.
haha. and tears blurred my visions just now when i was talking to my dearr. we didn't quarrel. dun be mistaken. jus tt we were talking abt him*. how we really met, wadd we did.
only she knows everything.
so what's the feeling of being toyed by someone you like?
Is it a really good feeling?
HAHA. I going crazy.
What kind of feel did I got from you. I also dun have an exact answer.
Do I really have to act in front of you even though I'm all hurt deep inside.
CAN YOU NOT GET NEAR TO ME ANYMORE !
I'm really warning you. I would rather you say the thing and do the thing. Dun say the thing and do another thing can you?
DON'T GIVE ME HOPE! I don't need any hope!
You tink I'm soft hearted? Do you? Tell me that. Don't fool me can?
I really had enough. No one wants to be in a dubious relationship which is so impossible. And I really hated myself for being SO DARN USELESS. I don't even know how to react to your actions. What am I going to do? Just remember your every move and etch it deep inside my heart and go over it when I miss you? DO I HAVE TO DO IT IN THIS WAY?
feeling really depressed rite now. so personal liao the blog. haha. no choice. dun worry, u guys duno this person well. hahahahahaha. I can scold all i wan here.
Ai mei, who wans to be in this?
I'm the first one to say no. Even though in life, there's always a dubious relationship to get through but I really can't take it. It's too cruel to me. It doesn't seem to be a good ending to me and I obviously know that he will eventually put an end to my happiness and what was I hoping? Affinity? Fate to bring us together?
What exactly do I want?
I feel so messy. So sucky.
If I could, I want to be a killer. HAHA. second top killer. LOL! I will kill lots of ppl. Kill all those heartbreakers and betrayers and suckers ard in my life. lol~ ^^
I want to feign ignorance. I want to know nothing abt you. I wan to stay away from you.
I don't like you. I don't want to like you.
I want to keep a distance from you. you are a virus. like how the other guys are. haha! ^^
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Lastly, happy birthday to rita! =) muackx~~
love dearr.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:17 AM
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