Thursday, May 31, 2007



I thought I wouldn't be blogging because I feel so BORED on Vesak day!

My mum was CONSTANTLY complaining about UNINTERESTING Holiday Shows on television (actually there was not much change in the special programmes on PH, tt's y my mum grumbled =X)

However, I found a lot of special movies on Channel 5! I fell in love with Channel 5 seriously! Usually I dun watch English movies, I dun have a crave or anything because I dun listen attentively to the chim english accent (I tend to like to imitate and end up not listening to them talk) so I love chinese subtitles to be there to help me! HAHA!

I watched two movies in one go! HAHA! =DDD So happy today!!

I watched Shallow Hals and 50 First Dates. Bascially Shallow Hals was about a guy being hypnotized by SOMEONE EXPERT (haha) then he began to see ugly, fat girls as someone extremely gorgeous. Previously this guy was someone who mind looks a lot, as the first priority. And the hypnotizer actually wanted this guy to understand the importance of inner beauty. LOLs. And then this guy after being hypnotized, fell in love with truly ugly fat girls but in his imaginations, they are really gorgeous in terms of looks and figures. =) It was really humorous and great! And in the end, the guy kena un-hypnotized and realized the 'pretty' ppl were ugly and fat/too thin. But later because of this, he finally understood inner beauty and he even rejected a pretty girl for that ugly, fat girl he fell for when he was hypotinized. HEES. The ending was super sweet.

Oh wells, wondering if there's this kind of hypnotizing that could be casted on some guys who go for looks! They shld see the other side of not so pretty ones! =D

As for 50 first dates, the movie was funny and had many diff kinds of method of wooing a girl. =) All were original and sweet! HEES.

I love these two movies to bits! =)

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Will you choose to be forgetful like the girl in the 50 First Dates, whereby she only remembers what happen on that particular day? And the same day REPEATS everytime when she wakes up?

Oh wows, I understood so much about life now after talking to my mother this afternoon. I learnt really a lot about reality and punishments. oh yes, it's fabulous and cool~

And clever in a way.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:34 PM

Tuesday, May 29, 2007



Is life simple, but humans complicated?

Or both life and humans are complicated?

Why are we born?

Why are we making things complicated then?

Why do people have different standards of a single issue?

Why must we compare ourselves with others, why must others compare each other, when each have their own specialities? Are we trying to anger ourselves?

Life has to be so unfair?

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Sulking wouldn't improve the standard of my life now, so I decided to smile to everyone around with a strained smile.

Will life turn simple, or it was just a description?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:34 PM

Monday, May 28, 2007



Do you believe in fate?

Total strangers becoming lovers, being a couple.

Sounds impossible yet possible.

Mind yet later dun mind.

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I'm still in the past when my heart feels like tearing.

I missed writing love stories to him. That particular long story about my first love to him.

He...

*sighs*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:14 AM

Sunday, May 27, 2007



Finally I can accept myself for being moody on a non-birthday day already!!! =D

Missing someone really badly yesterday. It's useless to miss someone like this.

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Btw, I finally updated a short chapter on Impeccable Assassin! Dear readers, do comment as much as you can! HAHA! =D

*

It's time to forget..

I fell in love with Jay Chou in my own words. I'm useless.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:54 PM





RANDOM PHOTOS TAKEN ON MY BIRTHDAY!!

This is my birthday cake bought by my sister!! It's a fruit cake once again! See how much I love fruit cakes more than chocolate cakes!! HAHA! It's vr fruity! HAHA! =DD And there's almond at the sides (which i dun really like, but my jie like so i chose it!) HAHA! =DD Oh wells, my mummy grumbled my birthday is mother's suffering day (the day when I was born, and she's in pain) I laughed at the joke! HAHA! She's funny! HAHA! But of course I agreed to it!
It was not done really nicely with good equal slices and sitted nicely on the plate, but at least i gave my first time to my family! *grins*
These are the lights and ceiling at West Mall Sakae Sushi place. The light is nice rite. Feels like being in an aqaurium... haha! =D
YAY! Today my jiee bought both "Whatever" and "Anything". And Whatever (uncarbonated drink), what we got was peach tea or something like that. Anything, we gt a 7-up i think? HAHA! =DD It was fun guessing the drinks!! One of my fav way to decide on SOMETHING too!!! HAHA!


You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:26 AM

Saturday, May 26, 2007



Yesterday was still my 17 years old days...

There it goes...

Even though my 17 years old life hasn't been too good as compared to other years too, in fact it was a little torturing in some parts of life, and I knew too much hurting facts that made me pondered and cried quite a lot. However, I really treasured it despite being a little regretful. I'm grateful that I had experienced it and heard it.

I'm officially off the H-F society, hopefully (because nothing happened)

I promised myself I will forget you.

*

I really believed the sentence, "Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder."

Last time I really find him unattractive, but now no matter how I see him, it's some kind of attraction.

Btw, my hand is still healing, reminding myself how much time I'm left with to forget.

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Dear readers, I will be updating Impeccable Assassin on probably tml. Today's my birthday, I need to take a break from the hectic weeks too! Thanks for being understanding and so thoughtful!

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Once again, thanks to those who wished me! =) Today I'm easily touched, tears blurred my vision many times today! Because I'm so super super de happy!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@4:33 PM





This is the birthday cake I had from my class!!! It was a surprise from FABS Gang too! HAHA! I find them secretive these days and was expecting something today!! HAHA~ And it was a sweet surprise this morning! HAHA! =DDD FABS Gang is really thoughtful! HAHA! They ordered this fruit cake that I really love a lot, because personally I dun like chocolates and quite a few other stuffs, but i just love sour stuffs, and i dun mind fruits. and they bought fruit cakes that I could drool a lot about! HAHA! =D And it was super sweet when I see the chocolate signage on top! =D
This is the signage!! HAHAHAHA! With my name on it leh! So happy de lor! =D That kind of happiness cannot be described by words, happiness may not be written on my face because I really had those kind of mixed feelings in both heart and mind (which is a really good thing), and I couldn't act fast to show my actual expressions. But truly I'm very happy with the surprise! =D
Oh yes! FABS gang and dearr and me were having our SAKAE SUSHI STUDENT BUFFET!! YAYS! HAHA! It was a final full meeting with FABS Gang for that precious hour and not only that, I have dearr by my side too, which once sounds so impossible on the day before my birthday (i actually thought she was too busy, and I almost decided not to disturb her from her busy schedule)
This is what dearr gave me! HAHA~ A lock pendant with necklace. =)) It's really nice! The lock pendant, she told me the key is with her now. And she will give me the key on my 21th birthday! That's a promise!! HAHA! =D *heys, doesn't it looks like proposal or something like that? HAHA!
Hey hey hey!!! Dearr oso gave me a bonquet of rosybrown roses which I really loved a lot! One of the major reasons why I cried. Dearr is so caring to me la!! =DDD And remember the lock pendant? It's in the red artificial rose in the middle of the bonquet of purple roses! =D It's a small surprise gift! =) I love everything to bits.

Going into details of my birthday celebration! ^^

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HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME!! *yays*


I was super high at home when the clock striked 12. Oh wells, tell you something. The very first thing I did in my first few mins of being a 18 year old girl, was to bath in a dark bathroom (because the bathroom lights happened to be spoiled) muhahas. I gave quite a few first times to ppl in my 17 years old life! HAHA! =D


I finally bloomed into a flower already!!

I really enjoyed my birthday celebration to the fullest despite being so tired. Despite showing tired expressions, I was actually very happy in my heart. I'm just tired physically from that hectic two weeks of quizzes and projects. I really love every single thing dearr and FABS Gang had planned for me. It was unexpected for some VERY BIG SURPRISES. =DD

In the morn, when having PHC tutorial, ahh xiia galfriend and yuyan darling came in with the birthday cake lighted (kieron was in charge of off-ing the lights) and everyone sang birthday song for me! =) It was sweet! =D HEES. Thanks lots!! =)

And they handed me the gift bought from Espirit! And tell you something, it's a white pants with altering lengths. I could still fit into it! muhahas. They were really clever, galfriend wanted to borrow a formal pants from me, and I naively thought it was an event she wanted to attend and I happily borrowed her my pants, and they took it as a reference for the birthday present! HAHA! I just realized my pant size is just so hard to buy! HAHA~ Too thin already, I shld gain more weight on the waist, just 1-2 inch more. =)

And after CLBC quiz, we had our break. And I played Super Puzzle Fighter with quite a few people, that I dun rmb. I tink I played with Kieron, Xin Yi, CK. haha! =D Had some fun playing with them, while eating my BIG SLICE OF CAKE!! =D HAHA! And tell you something, my that slice of cake was my LUNCH for that all day. haha! But I really love it to the fullest, and I ate the whole of the customized signage. haha! =D It was very sweet and chocolatey. muhahas.

After having all the lectures and tutorial, yanyan followed me home to put down our heavy bags, some of her belongings in my house. =) Then ltr we went to meet the other FABS Gang at City Hall asap. On the way I was still guessing what surprise are they going to give me. And yanyan revealed that it will be my kind of style. If I dun like, it will not be me. haha!

And finally reached Funan Sakae to have our dinner there. After quite some time of waiting, they asked me to close my eyes and cannot see the surprise that's coming into the restaurant. HAHA! When I opened my eyes, dearr was just in front of me. I was like so shocked la! I didn't know that dearr will come! I thought she would be too tired and busy to be involved in the celebration! I didn't know she was one of the masterminds. haha!

And we had a enjoyable dinner with 40 sakae plates conquered for the Sakae Buffet! =) But I didn't eat much, I was laughing away with the rest. You know what, when I was having dinner that time, I felt love from them! =D HEES. I felt really, really loved for the very first time. It gives a kind of smile that never fades off in my heart, with happiness overpouring in my heart. =))

And we finally went to esplanade, then ltr walked ard marina square.

But because my mother didn't allow me to stay outside until past midnight (for safety reasons), I obeyed and went home straight away.

And we all went home, and mii and yanyan darling took mrt to jurong east interchange, and took yanyan's bf's car to my house to take yanyan's belongings left at my house. =)

And that's how I spent my last day of being a 17 years old!

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Thanks to all the lecturers that had wished me happy birthday! =D HEES.

Thanks to the whole of 2P02, for wishing me and singing birthday song for me for three times, twice in english, once in chinese! =) HEES. You guys are so sweet to me! =D Sincere thanks to everyone! =) (of course more thanks to those who personally wished me! I really appreciate that, it warmed my heart!)

And of course, I want to thank my FABS Gang for giving me so much surprises in one day, and the SPECIAL GUEST of the day, my dearr! She really surprised me and I cried when I saw her! It was like omg! I was touched to tears. I was still telling yuyan on the mrt train on the way to city hall, that I wondered if dearr already reached home and bleahs. haha. and in the end, she appeared at Funan Sakae Sushi there! AIYOHS! Vr big surprise! =D

I also wanna thank my family!! They have been really nice to me nowadays despite me being really stressed out. And esp. to mother, she even woke up at 3a.m, she prepared some hot beverages to drink because she scared i'm hungry while studying. *hugs mummy* and to father who's overseas, I love you lots and miss you lots! And sister, for giving your first birthday wish to me! =D You pampered me so much de lor! Love my family la!~~

dearr gave me a bonquet of rosybrown colored rose with gift in the middle, and a letter. That was the first time in my life to receive flowers. Even though I didn't like receiving flowers because I find it impractical, but I found out one reason for people like receiving flowers. Flowers means thoughts, love, a kind of present, a way to express passion in a romantic way. And not only that, when you walk away with a bonquet of roses, ppl are green with envy! And when I walked ard in marina square, i could see such envy gazes from anywhere, esp. places like cafes. HEES. Of course, the bonquet dearr gave me was super nice and unique, unlike red roses. =) dearr said she even heard compliments from a girl, and she somehow "hinted" her bf to buy her a similar one for her by saying, "Dear, that flower very nice hor?" HAHA! I was so happy to receive these flowers!

Even though I still didn't like flowers as a whole, but some of my thoughts about flowers had changed. It was kind of sweet and romantic to receive it =)

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To dearr,

I had read your letter. =) I was close to tears when I read the letter, even though the letter was short, however it touched the deepest part of my heart. As usual, you always could touch the part which I'm most touched of. Yes, our friendship will be like that rose, never dies or fade colors.

Dearr, I really didn't blame you on the past between me and HIM. Even though it was kind of hurting when I thought about it. My heart will still skip a beat when I hear his name or something that let me remember about. But I always didn't blame you about it (i always said that, and I really meant it). It was fate for him to change, and for me to experience. =) I didn't regret, because I learnt from his way of love. All those hurting past had already been replaced by the new, sweet memories that we are creating now. Yes, we already stepped over the barrier.

Dearr, thanks for coming and giving me such a big surprise which made me cry (how bad), despite feeling a little unwell at almost the end of the day. It will be unforgettable for life. That was the first time receiving flowers, first time being so touched and loved in a birthday celebration.

I will always love you. Take care dearr. Muackx *hugs*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:46 AM





I promised random pics for these whole two weeks (what I have been doing). I never forget about blogging, but just that I didn't have the time to blog. But here I am! =D

Taken when slacking during pharmacology tutorial when Ms Wu's not ard! =D HEES. I love this view. I love my seat, I love my everything!!! HAHAHA~

Legs just tell stories so I love taking pics of legs. haha! Taken my mother and sister's legs. haha. my mother's leg was unwell so she didn't wear any heels. haha~ =D



You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:31 AM

Thursday, May 24, 2007



This week is my very, very tired week (until i dun even have the time to blog), how pathetic. However, hopefully I can flood my blog with pics when the weekend comes because previously i took some stupid photos which dun link to each other, just trying to fill my blog with pics. haha! =D

But anyways, this week was still a funny week despite being so tired, and sleepy even when standing. but nvm! =) Love my FABS gang a lot! HAHA~ They brought some much laughter to my life... haha! esp. yanyan darling... haha!

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Today on 173, i listened to the radio. Oh darn, what happened to this world? I'm already distrusting love completely and things happened in the big society is making me hate love now! =( You know what, so many men and women are having external affairs outside like having sexual intercourse with their maids, or go to other countries to find maids to have the excitement, or even more convenient, just randomly find any woman in the neighbour DOWNSTAIRS and they can find any hotel to do it (that's what I heard from the radio) And women are even doing it too! She said, it was for excitement and she felt tired in that long relationship and she said doing it can make her treasure her current relationship by HAVING EXTERNAL AFFAIRS?!!!!!

Oh this world is going crazy.

I dun understand this world.

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All thanks to TIME. It made me like you lesser, and drifting more apart from you, feeling less painful in the heart.

Knowing you as a friend is better than knowing you as a lover. =)

I think I'm no longer a H-F to you or you to me, we are just normal friends now.

If there's a first time, there's a second time. If there's second time, there's a third time.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:10 PM

Monday, May 21, 2007



*jumps*

*still jumping*

"YAY!!!!!!!!!!!" *screams into ur ears*

HAHAH!

Paiseh! HAHA~ I finally finished my 2ISP (social psychology) IS module!! HAHA! It's a 6 weeks module thing... and have been really tired and lost a lot of sleep due to too much tinking about this module... Alrights, at times I really regretted taking this module when I compared myself with others, ppl could be so slackish and wasn't too worth the extreme stress, however I tink I learnt a lot of things, and my lecturer told the concepts that were taught will turn out useful in all kinds of job scope... so at least I felt happy taking this module after hearing this... haha! =)

Today's presentation turned out okays! HEES. And finally finished everything. I was just wondering how come all the others presented so fast, while it seemed decades for me to complete everything? =/ HAHA! But nvm! I'm super happy now, cuz its all over! YAYS!

HAHA~ And I'm happy this week!! Cuz a special day is coming!! *grins widely*

I'm blooming into a flower soon! =))

HAHAS.

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Today went home early and was on the almost empty 173 (it wasn't a long wait, which i loved abt) and then i almost wanted switch on my laptop and play my laptop for a while until my stop is reached... but suddenly decided not to use it... just not in the right thought of using it even though there was no one... haha! =)

And this is the very first time AFTER A LONG TIME that I went downstairs to buy lunch for me and my mum!! HAHA. See how happy I am today!! =DD

After ISP, it was some kind of relief. This module was kinda stressed and fully packed with all kinds of activities and projects, however, from this, i get to know my group members more... =) And they are all kind people! And thanks to one group member that helped print my slides today when my printer last min paper-stucked. =X THANKS LOTS!!! HEES.

The lecturer was a really nice and sweet one... I treasure this module a lot! =)

But still, NP ppl who are tinking of taking ISP as ur IS modile, you have to measure between stress and interest. If you have more interest on the module, and care less and you tink you can afford to manage ur time and stress thing, maybe you will want to choose this. haha! To me, probably I will learn other things to compare back bahs? HAHA!

=DDD

HAPPY!!!!

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The boss attitude is very impt to the trainee. If you ever meet a short-tempered and a boss who likes to command and shouts a lot at you, probably you wouldn't like the job and wouldn't even do a good job on it. Today I met a really nice boss who's treating the trainee really patiently even though he was in the wrong, and he made me wait because he made a mistake in taking away the money in my ez-link instead of topping up money into my card (in 7-11) however the boss was like so nice, and she taught him patiently and all that. =) And even told him to apologize to me ltr very softly (oh, i heard tt) HAHA! But I dun mind!! HAHA~ We were not born to know all these things, to work is to learn =) Good attitudes! =DD I oso hope to be a customer with good attitudes so that he will continue to persevere and learn as a cashier there. If I were to be angry with him, i tink he probably will be disheartened and feel himself useless. So attitudes plays a very impt part here! =)

Go on boy! =)

Go on me!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2:35 PM

Sunday, May 20, 2007



something not very nice happened yest. I'm sorry dearr =(

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This week is gonna be a busy week once again, homework homework and the homework. I'm so darn stressed.

=(

Hopefully I can enjoy this week! =D

And btw, today I observed almost nothing you know. It's so shitty. Hope my presentation turns out well. =)

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Why do people still ask when it's so obvious? We seriously love people asking us "you had cut ur hair liaos ar?" even though it's like so obvious. then when ppl dun ask, we will ask other ppl, "can you see the difference in my hair?" trying to hint that u cut ur hair, and expected more attention. HAHA. Sometimes, humans are so contradicting and cute.

We just wanted more attention from people sometimes.

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Today while observing people, I saw the chemistry between some couples, and how they let go of each other's hand and interlock it back once again. when they were interlocking their hands, the scene seemed to have slowed down for me. I felt so loved, by no one. Just loved by the feel. haha! =D

I still miss you ever since that day. =(

How I wish I had the permission to do it...

Will there be a second time? I don't know.

H-Fs...

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You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:11 PM

Saturday, May 19, 2007



omg!

Today I observed nothing you know! =(

*cries*

I have to present on monday liaos. I expected to observe something today.

I wanted to observe people, but in the end, i was kena observed. Instead, I was stared at by someone disturbing.

idiotic.

And both my mum and jie were oso unhappy about being stared at all the way throughout the bus journey. we even shifted our seats quite a no. of times. Is it that he never seen woman before? Is that so weird? And there are quite a few ppl, he chose to stare at us even though we threw angry gazes at him. WEIRD GUY.

GRR. He bascially spoiled my day.

And today went out with mum and jie to a gold jewellery shop, hoping to observe some ppl, but i tink i ended up observing my slping face in the mirror. haha! =D No one to observe, excuse me. the place seemed to be isolated lyk tt. hardly anyone walks there! It was rare! HAIZ~

I have to go out tml once again! I must observe something!

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I miss you badly today, ever since yesterday.

Your scent...

*sighs*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:20 PM

Friday, May 18, 2007



This tiring friday is finally gone! Another tiring friday is going to come again! Next week is going to be more tired, I reckon. Haiz~

So many things not done. And the list is getting longer and longer.

I don't even have the time to think about other things other than school, alrights, during my free times, I was tinking of some people... haha! =D

I'm really, really tired.

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I don't know who I like now. HAHA. Probably I will drop all the people on the list.

Was it fate for us to meet at impossible junctions?

Is it that when things done can't be undone...

I really wondered if we proceeded, did we commit a crime.. LOL!~

I tink I wouldn't be able to face you when I see you because some kind of feelings will overwhelm everything.

And I probably couldn't concentrate talking to you...

Grrs.

*

Hey, ask you something, are we still H-Fs?

When you long for that touch, it's unbearable sometimes. You are so absorbed in the feeling of lust. Quoted.

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You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:12 PM

Wednesday, May 16, 2007



Today is quite a happy day for me! BECAUSE I SAW HIM! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

LOL!~

So sorry, vr high! HAHA~

But I'm tired overall, have lots of homework waiting for me. all kinds of graphs and stuffs like that. *pouts*

HEES.

But still in a very high mood. Today saw all kinds of weird people I could see. The best thing is I saw HIM! =D So hard to see him in real la! =D HEES.

Today took bus 75, and I saw him in real person. his hair really looks nice until it looks lyk a wig from far. his hair is in top condition man! =) And he's super cute! *melts*

muhahas. but heng, he doesn't noee my blog! LALA~

It's a a never thing la. =P

And I saw a "A-looking" girl when I was standing in the bus 75... near NP... hmmm... She has those big eyes, and innocent looks and sexy figures but you know all those simple yet sweet clothings, and with her puppy innocent eyes and pleading facial expressions (i duno y i saw her expression turn out to be like this), she looked like all those... you know what I mean. *clears my throat* muhahas. then at NP bus stop, a vr fashionable gay-like guy came up the bus... he was wearing those DJ-kind of BIG earphone and he's wearing all those big clothes and he's wearing a grey pants... and he's kinda of fat, when he first got up on bus, i was tinking this person is a guy or a girl... but then shldn't have girls not wearing bra to poly rite? *narrows my eyes* Hmmm... so I deduce it's a guy! I couldn't see the adam's apple! =( And he walks rather girlish-ly and a little manly with A LOT OF PRIDE in the bus. LOL!~

Actually, HE made my day! He's so darn cute!

HAHA!

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Yesterday I met something interesting but I forgot to tell my friends. yanyan darling says she saw a auntie swearing vul. in the mrt.

"LET ME GO OUT! DARN IT!"

Alrights, after yanyan told me abt this incident, the day itself I met the same kind of auntie (probably the same person?!) LOL!~

Bus 173 has got all those poor license drivers, which means they drive until vr hiong de... so I always choose to sit instead of stand on 173... as compared to 61... 61 drivers oso quite fast and breaks vr powerful... lol!~ oh wells, tt's nt my main point...

And because yest de 173 bus was super fast and break until super hiong until the inertia was SUPER SUPER HIGH, we jerked forward la when the bus break. Then the auntie sitting beside me said,

"Wah, this bus driver is DARN BLOODY ROUGH."

I guessed she took a glance at my reaction. HAHA. I was expressionless (due to fatigue) MUHAHAS. And I dun wish to "ya lor.." back to her... ltr i will be super pai seh, cuz we are strangers, why talk and act we are NOT strangers? shldn't talk so much wadd... ltr she start topic how? HAHA! =D

ALrights, I was tinking too much.

probably it was due to her children's influence. haha! =)

She used vulgarities as practice secretly in public in her life, not wanting her children to know... lyk wadd yanyan darling had said... haha!

*laughing*

Today the lab was super fun and noisy! The whole class was quiet except me and yanyan! =) Enjoy the times! HAHA! =DDDD

HEES.

Alrights, gtg le. It's long yar?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:28 PM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007



Today had quite a few thoughts that is rather nice to me. haha! =D
Quite a good day to me because I cleared some thoughts today.

=)

Today I wasn't able to catch 61 bus when I was already near the bus stop, and I didn't run after the bus even the bus driver did looked at me and INTENDED to wait for me... but I had no move... And the bus just went away...

And a simple thought came up my mind,

I was timid in the past. I like so many someone, I couldn't pluck up my courage to tell that someone that I like him. All because I'm scared...

REJECTION . A scary word .

My injury is healing fairly well now. =) So happy!

HAHA~ And someone is finally out of my list! =D Left with one now! =D

HAHA!

Sometimes, even though someone can be good-looking but to see someone "good-looking" without growing tired is not having perfect facial features, seen in any angle it's all perfect. One person dun have to be lyk this, and can never be lyk this.

A "good-looking" person shld have good inner beauties. =) Today this person is out of my list because I see too many short-comings in one row, and I could no longer see him as a "good-looking" person anymore. I always thought he was perfect in my eyes, but as time went on, time proved me very,very wrong. And finally, he's kicked out of my list. I cannot tahan him anymore even though I dun contact with him tt often but from what I saw, what I heard from him, it says everything about him. Maybe it was because in the past, some stuffs changed my feelings towards him, and caused a "all-the-way biasedness" [I can't possibly help it]. But seriously, those shortcomings are unbearable. And yes, I overcame him! =)

That another someone still in my list, hopefully I can kick him out too! =) HEES. He's not good-looking or anything. He's just a normal guy. I've yet to see his shortcomings, but it seems like I've been seeing his good points when I contacted him =( That's a bad thing to me! HAHA~

Hope it heals soon!

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Today watched 3 hrs straight of tv... feel guilty now... haha! =D And, there's one korean drama, quoted from there :

You couldn't just go back to the original past after the both of you had a BGR relationship with that guy. You couldn't go back to the times when you all haven't started. Once things had changed, they are changed. You can't go back to the past.

I should tell him this too.

Once you did something, you can't just turn back and treat it as nothing had happened. And treat as NORMAL FRIENDS again. Surely something had bloomed in ur heart. It's kinda of hard to erase it away.

They are MEMORIES, they are not NOTHING.

To me, seriously, if I had a BGR relationship with someone near me (e.g. in my class [tt sounds so impossible]), if we broke up (choy!), I wouldn't be able to face him like how I treated him in the past before we even liked each other. I wouldn't be able to.

Those that could treat ur ex like you didn't like them at all before, and nvr tink abt the past sweet memories, I really salute to you.

Because I can't do it.

*

I'm TIMID.

I'm HURT.

I'm HEALING.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:41 PM

Sunday, May 13, 2007



YAYS! =DD

Happy Mother's Day!!!

Wish all the mothers on earth have a happy day today!

*

Oh btw, my post have been shorter and shorter, as you can see. I hardly have time for inspirations for blogging liaos! =(

Tt's a sad thing! I'm going to flood the blog with entries when holidays are coming, I promise! HAHA! =D

*

I felt so LOVED by just see my tagboard!! =) *melts by all the LOVE felt*

HEES.

*

Nowadays understood a lot of stuffs about things I nvr experienced, and never understand other people about.

In dramas, I often see people having hesitation saying the three impt words that girls love to hear.

"I love you,"

Those people just hesitate until there's no tomorrow; perhaps till eternity.

And today I experienced that, totally.

I had a really hard time saying out "I always love you, mummy."

If you were to ask me say TRULY, "I love you," I can't really do it, you know.

It's those kind of.... you have a mouthful of mushy words to tell that someone, but you dun have the courage to, and duno how to... maybe you will tink it's simple but to me, its complicated... because I'm quite scared I will end up crying when I say all those words... It's because I need to experience various good and bad stuffs (ups and downs in life) together with a person before I could really really love that person... you can call me write or text "I love you"... and write all the mushy words... because you wouldn't see me crying on the other end... muhahas...

The other day, I forgotten what I had experienced, but for that, I believed already. I tink it's if someone you love cheated on you really badly, mentally, you will not believe him at first and didn't even want to befriend him (when you still haven't see him) but then when tt someone suddenly came and hugged you tight in his embrace, and muttered, "Dear, pls believe me. I won't cheat on you ever again." when you know there will be a second time, your heart still foolishly chose to believe he does love me. I could imagine that scene. A contradicting truth.

*

So I started worrying if I would say "I love you" to my future bf (if i really have one in future, which i dun have confidence for)... in the past, I never said it before... except for text la... haha~ text until dun wan to text liaos... lol!~ But then by verbal, I haven't said for once. If I really could have the courage to say the three impt words from my golden mouth, I tink that will be THE ONE liaos. jus kidding! HAHA.

So pardon me if I never say "I love you" truthfully and calmly to you, when I really really love you. I just dun have the courage to do so.

Now I can understand why some people can't say out their love even though they love someone so much already. It needs quite a lot of courage. I really envy all those people who could say it so easily. Probably I was being too conversative? Not sure lehs.

She could feel how warm his chest was…
She could feel how gently and lightly his touch was on her long hair…
She could feel how tight the embrace was…..
She could feel the exact size of his arms, enveloping her in his tight embrace…
She could feel his heart beating fast against his ribcage…
She could feel his breath brushing on her slender neck…
Everything about him….

Quoted from: [ Veiled Ambiguity ]

Comments: I dun rmb having this such detailed feelings but some I had really experienced if I really hug this person for really long. haha! =)

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:37 AM

Saturday, May 12, 2007



HEES. =DD This is 2P02`o7's NERD DAY!!

HAHA~ Surprising that I uploaded pics of ppl? HAHA! =DDD Anyways, I hope to have such days again! I really enjoyed it! HAHA~ =DD

I <33 2P02! =)

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:31 PM





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Comments! =)

Hopefully there's more comments because MYE is finally over!!! YAYS! =DDDDD

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3:12 PM

Friday, May 11, 2007



NERDY DAY!!! TGIF!!! =DDDDDDD~~~~

LOL!~ I've been very tired even though there's no psycho meeting anymore, but homework are still piling up as usual. =(

However, I enjoyed myself somehow today, as a partial nerd today. all thanks to kieron kor's specs. I tried my best in acting nerd liaos. haha~

aiyahs, wadever, I had fun~ HAHA!

During Microbiology class, dark mood almost ran over me.

I love S.H.E de new song, MAY DAY! =D HEES. It's sweet. =) Say you love me oso!

Oh yes, btw.. many funny things happened and yest we had practical and had to print labels for our medicine bottles... haha! And the usual YELLOW CK DADDY playfully went to print labels for his 'Viagra Suspension'... haha!

The instruction was : Get Ready on Bed Before Use
Viagra Suspension
Keep out of women and children
NO expiry date (always so superb wor!!!~)
Duno made by what institution.

*

I had already decided,
when the injury on my hand heals, that's the time I forget about you...
I know it's hard to fulfill. But no matter how, I can't pretend anymore btwn the both of us.

I already had made it clear to myself.

If he likes you, he wouldn't do something like this.
If he likes you, he will signal you.

I wish I could turn back time, and stop what we had done earlier.
But I'm grateful that we didn't continue till now.
It was lucky I turned away.
Or else it's a irreversible thing liaos.

Because once my feelings is fixed, it's hard for me to change my love for someone.

Fulfill it in my dreams, please.

Be myself?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:01 PM

Thursday, May 10, 2007



Basically today is just a simple normal day. =)

With not much handsomes today. What a normal day. =/ LOL!~

But anyways, was laughing until vr pain during that long break. lol!~ =DD Thanks for the FABS GANG! HAHA~ <3

LOL!~

And today was lucky, even though I missed bus 61 today, however i changed bus to 75 to another bus stop where i could take 173 back home... haha! after i went off the 75 bus, 173 was just behind! I WAS LIKE so darn happy de lor!

*

One day I still need to clean up the mess.

I really believe I like you. I really do.

*sob*

I'm someone who's unfaithful to guys, I can like a lot of guys at once perhaps sometimes for no reason (vr rare), but no one is occupying the place where I wanted him as my boyfriend.

No one.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:28 PM

Wednesday, May 09, 2007



Today still a hot day, but happy day for me!! HAHA!~

No matter what happened in the past, I'm still a typical girl who bio-s shuai ge-s ok! HAHA~ I'm still single, I have the right to bio shuai ge-s!! HAHA~

And if I didn't go to the second level for make up class today, i guess i missed quite a few handsomes. haha! =D And... muhahas~ He's super shuai... lol!~ But I doubt I rmb his face now! And on the bus, there was quite a few... haha! And I was lyk, did my standard drop plainly for today? Maybe even the normal lookings today looked handsome too! HAHA! =D But anyways, the handsomes made my mood super good. haha! So go on! HAHA~ =DD Handsomes! HAHA!

I finally saw the 'disappeared' first yr handsomes already! =)

And, muhahas. =D He's shuai man! HAHA~

*

Whether or not, are we going to be closer or further, it doesn't matter now. The thing that matters now, we shouldn't just keep silent. And not move on. We just maintain what we are now...

oh yes!

Btw, today I treated CK cheese hotdog! muhahas! =DD For him helping me take out the splincter! haha. just a random repay. haha!~ =D LOL!~ =D And btw, thanks for yanyan darling de vr sour sweet! =D And that imaginary treat of chocolates (i didn't eat any) LOL!~

I forgot wadd the brand of chocolate that i like liaos. haha! =D nvm. it doesn't matter. LOL!~ =D

HAPPY! CUZ IT RAINED!

And handsomes..

WOOHOO!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:31 PM

Tuesday, May 08, 2007





You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:38 PM





Today is still a very hot day..

And poor me, I'm typing slower than normal because the wood splincter that went into my hand duno on sat or sun, kena taken out by CK today (thx CK! =D) HAHA. And my hand was plastered by ah jiunn's plaster (thx to her plaster) and kieron kor help me plaster (thx kor) HAHA! And of course, ahh xiia galfriend and yanyan darling too! They were worried of my hand, and tried to help me see my poor hand... haha! =D THX LOTS!! LOL!~

Today is such a love-filled day! =)

HEES.

I'm happy today! =)

*

I thanked for the things that happened to me, even though some were bad, but at least i knew I learnt something and, i could feel care and concern =)

Love FABS Gang! <33

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@4:40 PM

Monday, May 07, 2007



Do you know what? I decided to set a new rule for THE ONE.

HAHA. Feels more MAGICAL.

Propose to me at any day of the year, but at the time 5.26 (what a weird time, yar?) I actually prefer ppl proposing to me at nite (feels more cooling and romantic too!) whatever, never mind. haha! you wanna propose to me at 5.26 AM i oso dun mind! HAHA! =DDD If gt ppl propose to me la... just a kind of dream... haha~ =D

Anyways, BYE!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:34 PM





YAY!!! *jumps and jumps and jumps* LOL!

It is finally finished!!! I dun have to meet the psycho group for discussion anymore!

I can finally have a small break now!!!

Next week there's no presentation!! =DDDDDDD

Happy until duno how to describe... muhahas! =D

After my class, met up with kor to eat... but we lyk strolled the whole NP for eating place... from near LSCT... to convention centre.. canteen 1... back to SIM to buy... then we went ard LSCT for a place to eat... and finally we sat at level 6 with nad!! =) LOL!~ The scenery there is nice... haha! =)) I had no lesson after tt, so i could slack my way eating =) while kor and nad went off at 12 plus. =D And I rewarded myself a slice of WATERMELON on this SUPER SUPER HOT DE DAY! =) And I lied myself on the bench alone, looking at the clouds flying away with the wind as I listened to my mp3... it was a super relax de feel... i have another thing i lyk liaos... when time stops, when everything slows down... when the clouds floated in the vast sky... =)

And finally I went home! YAYS!

Vr happy de day!

*

Somehow I regretted I didn't do something in the past.... =(

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:26 PM

Saturday, May 05, 2007



Have been wasting the whole afternoon doing ISP psycho project. =(

Had enough of editing the slides, and btw, I haven't really type on my part yet! darn.

Sian off. HAIZ~

After monday, it gonna be all over. =) And I dun have to meet them again!

I will be doing individual work liaos!

*

No time for other things to occupy my mind

Something (a very tiny wood bit) went into my skin and it's painful now as i typed. because it situated in my thumb. it made my mood so bad. I cannot take it out. GRR.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:28 PM

Friday, May 04, 2007



Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

1) i love to gaze at stars at the kitchen window, sitting on a small chair.

2) i love taking long bus rides from the beginning to the end, for no particular reason, probably just for relaxation. (and during the rides, I will blast music in my ears all the while)

3) I can cry over anything when the sad mood comes.

4) Tend to console myself during my moody times when no one consoled me (sounds so sad)

5) I distrust love completely.

6) Could be high/moody for no reason at anytime, anywhere. (sometimes just hate being a gemini, my thoughts change so fast)

7) If I could, I choose not to go out. I prefer staying at home =)

8) dun really like chocolates or flowers. chocolates, i had a really terrible taste of one VR SWEET chocolate which made me stayed away from MOST of the chocolates. while flowers, i find it impractical and I hadn't received one before. The show often says when the woman receives the flower, she will be the happiest person of the day, and always beaming to herself. But I dun tink so. Flower dies, so do love. haha!

9) If I could, I would stand at the back of the lorry and shout anything I want on the expressway (provided no one heard me, but I could hear myself screaming at the top of my lungs)

10) I was super 'buddies' with some guys and super close to them! HAHA~ =)

Alrights, I tink I'm not weird. I'm too normal. =)

Not really a good thing to me leh. I wanna be weird! HAHA! =D

Alrights, BYE! =)

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:53 PM





I'm getting busier and busier, week by week. And getting more and more tired of stuffs liaos. But anyways, trying to keep my good moods and keeping my laughing moods around for my dear friends!! HAHA! =D

I'm still gonna blog despite being busy! That's my habit! I will only skip blogging if I'm really too busy and cannot cope at all! =D

I just simply miss blogging. Have so many thoughts la!

Took some pics this week. However, I was having a very small cam-whoring (that's rare) session with my new specs! =) The new specs borrowed from Kieron kor de! HAHA~ Thanks anyways, even though I just wear for a while to get the NERD FEEL. But it was kinda funny when I wear it. haha!

Taken when almost half the class outside somewhere, SQUEEZING AT THE BENCH~ And having a delicious lunch~ HAHA! I had watermelon at the end, and of course you saw banana too! That's Sallie's one! HAHA! =D Not gonna reveal who are the ppl in my pic!! HAHA. They shall remain confidential! =) Of course it's not me! =X
OH YAYS! That's my nick for this year 2007! I named myself this! HAH~ I decorated it on one of my notes. The other notes I did decorate because I duno whr to write all those words. haha! =D But anyways, I love the purple! =) I love NP! =)

*

Today had the psycho meeting AGAIN. I couldn't count how many times I met them already. And I simply missed going back to my sweet home with my classmates, laughing our ways to the SIM bus stop! =( And yest was the miracle day that I finally walked with them. =) I miss the funny moments with them! HAHA~

I just felt strange. The discussion was almost never full in one whole group. Today, left me and the other two guys doing the work. And we did our stuffs until 7.30. It's tiring alrights! =(

But it's gonna be done on monday and I'm going off with it! I have nothing about them anymore! I'm tired of them, seriously. haha! Dun wan group work anymore. =( for psycho class. I going psycho, close enough.

NP looks nice at night, with the lights at a certain angle.

*

Today someone resembled like my first ex, that someone that hurt me super badly. I thought I saw the real him in front of me. haha! =) But it was not! And miracally, I saw a lot of people from my sch unexpectedly at many places.

I'm super shy today over some things. haha!

I will change blogskin alrights. dun wan you all always kena scolded by the blog thing. haha! I dun scold "nabeh" ok! I scold F*. HAHA! =D Ppl noee my style. haha! =)

BYE!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:48 PM





The past is like seaweeds, they entrap you and prevent you from moving away from your pool of forlorn tears.

In the whole journey in life, my life was filled with regrets at times.

Sometimes, people had to pretend that they were happy.

I don't even know if I'm truly happy, because sometimes...

I find my smile unconvincing.

*

Today is going to be another tired day for me. I'm tired of that module lers. =(

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:32 AM

Wednesday, May 02, 2007



When I hear the sweet-nothings from practically ANY GUYS, my ears will go deaf temporarily subconsciously. I mean not really that DEAF (so scary) but then I distrust all those words and I dun take them seriously. That's why I dun mind hearing them and I dun take them to my heart, except that I will be shocked at times. Those words do linger, however every single word hold no meaning to me.

Like how I had defined my meaning of hugs now. It could be meaningless to me. It could be just a tool to others.

*

I miss dearr super badly today, don't know why.

*

Something pierced my heart when I see you.

My heart turned sour when the both of us turned away, in order to avoid each other gazes.

I wish we don't see each other that often, even though we dun really see each other that often at all. But the # is enough to kill me.

*

Have been talking love stuffs because I'm hurt once again. haha! =D But it's okay la! LOL!~ ^^.
Used to it liaos. muhahas!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:12 PM





Tons of homework today~ =(

And of course, the stupid psycho project is coming up next. =( And HAVE TO MEET THEM ON FRIDAY AGAIN!! My goodness! Oh my god, I rmb their face so vividly now! I dun even rmb my last time de CATS class or COMMT or IAC ppl de face for some of them liaos. All these ppl are lyk so vivid la! =(

Today managed to escape the discussion at 7. If I were to stay and keep quiet, I tink I will stay until about 8 plus liaos. =( I dun like!

*

I'm very exhausted over things.

Can I choose to be blind over stuffs that I see around me?

I shall stop myself from being over-sensitive....

Because I knew we never started..

in any means...

Was I obvious?

When our lips met, that's where the right feel comes in.

Can I choose not to meet with your eyes, because I'm still avoiding you.

Since both of us are of the SAME KIND, I tink we shall concentrate on what we like now. And stop looking at the past. Because the past really hurts.

*

Today I'm super high.

*

So long as you dun exceed my line, I won't mind any other contacts.

*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:23 PM

Tuesday, May 01, 2007



"Make Love."

*grins evilly*

"Make Life."

CHEY. Taken from advertisement la! But then my eyes CONFIRMED widened when I saw Make love! HAHA~ I'm still as A, alright! Even though I super stressed. haha! =DD

And btw, my parents were super funny today. and plus my mind was darn dirty today, so the outcome was funny until I burst into tears. My mummy de leg is in pain, and my daddy helped to massage my mum's leg and ehhh... looks vr A vr far and I was laughing the hell out of me... haha! =DDDD

And I secretly told mum and dad guessed out what I meant. haha!

MUHAHAS.

Nowadays stay at home is to relieve stress, and laugh all the moodiness out of me! MUHAHAS!

LOL!~

*

Even though my thoughts are unstable, I know something weird is acting up on me, however I will try to suppress all my emotions towards you. =)

I will try to stay away.

Btw, Channel 8 de nine PM show is funny!!

*

Today my laughing point is SUPER DUPER LOW! HAHA! Even the slightest thing I can laugh, and mum gave me a cold face. muhahas!

*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:36 PM





1. Hot guy/babe passed by. What do youdo?
- haha. will tend to look a lot longer until he's out of my view, or he's looking my way, i will act blur =x *shh, i shy liaos*

2. The person who you really got a biggod damn crush on him/her is calling?
MUHAHAS. got really high but act I'm not high when I see him call. LOL!~ =DDDD I will keep on smiling foolishly over the phone bahs? LOL!~

3. Someone just called you a word WHICHIS NOT A GOOD WORD. You....
- it depends. if it's offensive, I probably will glare or just walk away.

4. Your ex just IMed you. Are you gonnareply it?
- It depends whether I'm free or not. It applies to everyone.

5. That person you 'OH SO HATE' justIMed/texted you. What's ur next move?
- ignore and delete it. Clear enough. muhahas.

6. Anything BIG's gonna happen to you?
- nothing BIG will happen la. always small small ones. haha! Everything about me is small *grins*

7. So how are yah?
-tired and stressed?

9. Who was the last person who hugged you?
- my band ppl. if i'm not wrong, its lynn =) anyone wans a hug, just tell me. I will just hug you! =) even though I tink my hug wasn't too nice (too bony). LOL!

8. If the guy/girl you have a huge crush on, doesn't like you back.You...?
- duhx? then I will secretly like that person on and on until I find another target lor. Nothing matters lar. I have this kind of experience so many times. used to it liaos. as long as we haven't started, i tink there's not much heartbreaks bahs. haha!

9. If you can reverse time,what wouldyou want to correct?
- oh, a lot of things I had to reject so that I won't feel so terrible right now. =)

10. The song's that's in ur head inthis very moment.
- Blue - Guilty, If you come back (his songs)

11. Name one person that's in ur mindright now
- HIM.

12. Do you hate anyone?
- same HIM. haha. no la. no one.

13. Does he/she hates you back?
- heck care. i dun see him anymore liaos.

16. Any martial art that you're into right now?
- nahs.

17. Name a weapon that you know & youlove it.
- can't tink of any now. muhahas.

18. Do you believe that eating chocolates can relieve stress?
- sorry, i dun like chocolates. haha! muhahas. weird girl I am yar? LOL!~

19. Kisses/Hugs/Bites?- Kisses and Hugs!! <33 Bites huh, hmmm... if its 'passionate' and 'meaningful', I tink i will <3 it too! *blush totally*

20. Have u met ur mr.right?
- NOPE. haha!

21. Have you ever looked back to your old crushes/gf's/bf's and wondered why the hell you ever liked them?
- HAHA! YUP! MUHAHAS! =D SO FUNNY!! HAHA~ So irony now when I look at them. I find that I was too blind in the past. haha!

22. Do you love ur life now?
- not at all.

23. Done ur homeworks?
- nope! *frowns*

24. omg,ur phone,u were holding it thenit slipped!!! What's the 1st thing yousay?
- F*

25. Are you vain?
- ehh duno leh.

26. Your fav color?
- black, purple, rosybrown and many other very dark colors! =D

27. What is/are the word(s) that youoften say?
- wah lau, F* (nt vr nice to say it but too bad i often say it =x), mothball. HAHA!

28. Your fav phone's ringtone (if you have one)
- mi die xiang (Rosemary by Jay Chou)

29. Your message ringtone
- standard tone.

30. A language that you so wish you are good at.
- hokkien, english.

31. You watch Heroes?
- ar? no.

32. Am I annoying you?
- no. HAHA! you are killing my time.

33. People label you as?
- I duno. anyone can tell me the ans =)

34. Are u labelling a people?
- not sure of myself too~ =X

[ credits to camii's blog ]

*

OH YES!! 1st May! =)))

Firstly, wish yanyan darling and her bf happy 2nd year aniversary! So fast de lor!! HAHA~ Hope you all enjoy your day k! =DD Doing MEANINGFUL stuffs around Singapore! =D

And its my month! I'm turning into a flower soon in 25 days time! =) *grins*

LOL!~

Was discussing with dearr what flower do I want to become on that day, she suggested lavender (because it was purple in color =x) and rose (coz I love rosybrown). But I told her roses have thorns. However, I've decided to become temporary rose for the time being, because thorns on roses test ppl's love for me. HAHA! =) HEES. Ppl have to get thru' lots of things first before they can really have me. Because I have a very thick personal barrier actually, ppl can't see. haha! =D

But anyways, currently I wanna turn into a thornful rose of rosybrown color if possible! *beams*

*

Can I dream of you tonight, once again?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:50 AM

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