Monday, July 30, 2007



Everyone has got their imperfections . No one is perfect . Oh yes .

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Especially when we try to view and judge ourselves.

Because we knew our shortcomings, we often say ourselves as not good enough. As humans, we are greedy, in anything, even on our own personality. We try to be as perfect as possible, so that ppl will like us.

It's the same as we dun see ourselves pretty because we've seen ourselves without makeup, or the look when you JUST woke up (that ghostly, messy look).

No one seen themselves as perfect because no one is perfect .


*

He will be somewhere out there, perhaps single, perhaps attached .

Do you still believe that fate will meet them meet and get together as a couple?

Wild thoughts, want to try wild things like....

*ahem* like what i see other ppl do but dun darn to do... muhahas =XXXXX~~~

I will be waiting for you to come!!!! =DD

*

Evil plan.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:49 AM

Saturday, July 28, 2007



http://fireflyproduct.blogspot.com - My fren in her second year is doing her I & E module project. Do look up on this website!!

=DD She's selling stuffs together with her group mates. =) Do contact them if you want to buy!! =D

That's their module assignment!! =DD

Thanks for those who supported! =))

Good night!!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:36 PM





I love my family a lot! =DD

They are the only ones who could probably tolerate my bad temper during my stressed days.

This time I did not lose too much of my temper (I was controlling really hard) because I realized in the past, when I was really stressed, they were the innocent ppl who kena-ed my bad-temper-throwing which is super bad la! If I were them, I wun be happy de lor. Even if they are happy, they see someone so stressed and so black-faced and throwing temper ard for "no" reason, wun happy de la! So I tried to keep my temper down during my stressed times, and when they shared their care, I will give in and go do whatever they want me to do. Because they were in no wrong. They were showing love and care to me. *eyes appearing at the corner of my eyes* Suddenly feel super touched de! =( HAHA!~

I love my family!!

*

Changing hp is like changing another bf/gf.

Different brands can have different kind of functions, and when you type your msg, the buttons positions are diff for diff. functions. It takes time to get used to it. Everyone differs in a way. And inevitably, we tend to compare btw. two things. And you have to find some good points about the new hp or else your feelings tend to go back to ur previous hp (and perhaps start to miss ur previous hp).

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When your fingers kena printer ink, is like forgetting someone you wished to forget... (this thought came up a long time ago when I was fixing the printer ink)

When your finger kena the ink, it really takes time to "disappear".

If you try with a lot of force with the wrong method (using the tissue to wipe it off), ur skin will tear together with the ink in return. Then you turn out to be hurt.

Sometimes you could just let nature take its own course. Somehow or another, when you didn't even know, perhaps the ink is kena washed off when you were bathing or shampoo-ing.

So dun force yourself to forget someone if you can't.

Perhaps it's torturing, but then sometimes it's better for you to let it dwell for a while, and find the right method to drop off the thoughts, and not getting too hurt with ur feelings.

*

Yes, it's easy to say, but frankly speaking, it's hard to do it.

When ppl are forced to a corner, we tend to do the tough things that usually hurt ourselves.

Humans' actions are contradicting to their theories, their thinking.

It's normal, it happens on everyone.

Even me.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:45 AM

Thursday, July 26, 2007



I thought I could shut my thoughts about him. However, I really couldn't do it. 

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:51 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007



It's really true that when something is overly done, it will lose its original value (hopefully this sentence is not copyrighted by anyone because I knew this sentence is very popular).

Because it happened on me. I think it happened on many people too.

In the past, when I was still small, I told myself this, between guys and girls, hold hands means both like each other. But as I get older, ever since primary school started, holding hands are like normal.

Getting into poly now, oh my god, holding hands are like nothing to me now. Only boyfriend and girlfriend can hold hands? Have to think twice. Two people having no feelings for each other can hold hands until VERY GOT FEELING. HAHA~

Hugs are so common now too. HAHA~

All the things, all the words that held meaning, become meaningless now. Really.

*

And I doubt you are missing me...

Perhaps I'm not the only one who's doing it to you....

When I say I miss the feeling, perhaps you are thinking of someone else......

Infinite possibilites.

*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:07 PM

Monday, July 23, 2007



When you still have feelings for someone you shouldn't like is really terrible.

I may not know his exact feelings. However, I dun have the courage to even ask him.

Probably after sometime, the feelings will fade like how it always do when I dun miss him.

I always said I mind everything.

But then in the end, I mind nothing about him.

*

Was it you or was it just a hallucination?

I hope I'm missing nobody.

*

Terrible life, busy life.

No life.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:04 AM

Sunday, July 22, 2007



Finally it's time for me to blog again!

Didn't really want to blog because I'm too tired from my homework and projects that are like a lot and never-ending. Supposed to have no aims and goals for the day. =(

But then, yesterday had some overwhelming feelings that I really need to say.

20th July, Daddy bought a new hp, he wanted to exchange the new hp with my sucky Nokia 6111. And he bought the phone brand that I most hated, Motorola. HAHA~ Even though it's flip phone but then it's the last few brands I will think of when want to buy a new phone. And the other day, my jie and I were talking about upgrading our plans to buy a new cellphone and then the day before, was really a big shock to me. Daddy was standing at the living room with a bag when I just reached home. Then he said he bought a new phone and wanted to exchange with mine. And I was like "Huh?"

Even though the phone is the least I will like. But then I'm grateful for it. Because that 100 dollars I did not have to pay. I get a brand new phone of one of my fav color, black. It's a flip phone. And the color is not bad. The sound effect is not bad in POV. And I bombarded the phone memory with my personalized stuffs. haha! =DD I'm trying to like this phone because my daddy bought this for me as a kind of "surprise", looking in another light. LOLs. Thanks daddy. haha!

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I think I'm someone who holds on to the past memories for really long. Always, I thought I could forget permanently. However, it was just temporary. By just some simple triggers, sad and happy memories came back like waves. Something triggered my past memories yesterday. And I was like kind of struggling.

Am I that someone you will think of? Or are you lying to me?

I really wish to ask you that question that's stuck at my throat. It's so hard to bring it up again.

I still have that kind of feelings....

I hope I didn't get it wrong...

If I didn't reject it yesterday...

What will happen? Continue or stay the same?

I miss you, that memory untouched.

That many years again de childish memories.

That touch, that feel.

That embrace, freezing of time.

Say yes, if I were to ask you that question, if I have the courage to.

*

My life is ruined. Seriously.

Why do I meet this kind of people? Am I meeting the right ppl?

Is anyone same as me? Meeting this kind of ppl?

Why so blur? Why so complicated?

A clear status, please.

I'm suffering in such status. Was that kind of retribution?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:39 AM

Sunday, July 15, 2007



I duno what's wrong with my blogskin. But currently will take this as a temporary one. Will try to change everything properly when I'm really free! =D

Sorry for the wait, readers!

Alrights.

Homework is piling up! I'm stressed! =(

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After watching today's Channel U that movie (When Man Turn Into Woman - Direct Translate from chinese)...

I really wonder what will really happen if guys really turned into girls? Perhaps when guys on the outside are really still guys, however, they dun have the PRECIOUS BIRD!! Instead, it's changed to a vagina? Oh, how nice a world it will be! HAHA! *grinns evilly*

Just like how the movie illustrated, the guys will now realized how precious vagina is to them, the period how hard it is to get thru', the moodiness, the loneliness (sounds like girls are so pitiful) HAHA! How girls couldn't sound out their opinions, they are treated unfairly by the society and men, and asked to go for abortion when pregnant, kena F* by playboys. It's a really pitiful thing for us girls to get thru' this.

muhahas! And I was thinking... what if girls turn into guys? What will I do then?

MUHAHAS! *evil laughs echo the room* When I get to have a bird on me.

Probably I will touch the birdie first when I get the chance to. Not to the extent of PCC-ing. But then just give a touch to it, to get the feel of it. Touching ur own birdie, how does it really feels. All the kind of curiosity on the birdie, can experience this time. LOLs.

For instance, trying to cough hard, hoping to see some responds from the birdie. And many other things. And perhaps ehh, watch some porns and see how it stands up. haha! It's getting rated this entry! HAHA! =D

Perhaps you all can think, what will you first do if you are changed into another gender for a few days, or perhaps for one month? What will you do?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:49 PM

Saturday, July 14, 2007



I'm still not sure if I'm able to update the story, after such long wait. Sorry readers.

Anyways just a quick update on what I've been doing this week.

Have been having presentation and quiz coming up. And really busy prepraring the presentations and also trying to take good care of myself. But still, I'm sick =(

Still, funny things still happened as usual. So, I still love school no matter how! =D

*

Campus Superstar 2 REVIVAL ROUND is finally coming up after a really long wait! It's this monday leh! =DD *grins*

www.campussuperstars.blogspot.com - This is the blog of their videos, their score and so on! =D And can even view their individual singing. Hmmm, quite a nice website to intro.

In my perspective, I think those that should be revived are : :

Females :
Elaine (it's really bad for her to be out)
Jia Qi (after she's eliminated, i find that it's quite a pity la, even though sometimes i still dun like her face in certain angle. She sings better than some of the ALREADY in de female contestants, seriously speaking)

Males :
Shawn (He's cute. In my POV, I dun tink he looked proud in any way. I just find him super cute and approachable to me. haha! Perhaps ppl went to see him in real person. I duno? HAHA! But anyways, he's the only guy I tink he shld not be out)

*Actually wanted all those good/cute-looking guys like Xu Bin and Wilson to be in, but this is a singing competition, I tink I will put singing as the first priority. The good-lookings in guys dun really sing well. So Shawn, JIAYOU!*

Hopefully ONE PARTICULAR GUY *yuyan darling and some ppl noe who I'm referring to* dun get in again! It's so hard to get him eliminated. I dun find his voice good in any way. So please continue to be out.

Other comments : It's good to see my primary sch fren Zijie to be in for so long. I dun really agree he's good-looking because seen him in real for so many years (and perhaps, you know diff ppl have diff standards of shuai). He has got his ah-beng-charm la. HAHA!

I have no further comments about him. Dun like him and dun dislike him. Just kind of neutral. Hope he can stay in the competition in his best performance bahs. =) Hope he can continue to improve.

His attitude is still so funny. haha! CK, go for him la! I noee you love his attitude a lot! HAHA! =D

*

Bye ppl!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:44 PM

Monday, July 09, 2007



PICTURES TIME!!! =DD A lot!!

That's my parents and my pretty jie in her room! =D Already veiled liaos!! =D
That's the final touch up on the hairclip and stuffs like that, before she sits in the room and wait for jiefu to come. =)


You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:56 PM





Finally the wedding day is OVER!! =DD

Just give some brief descriptions! =D Photos in next entry!

At abt 6 sth, we were having breakfast together. Of course, one of the ‘sisters’ came to stay overnight at our house because we have to get prepared really early in the morning. And then the makeup artist came at about 6.45 like that.

Abt 7 to 8 lyk tt, jiefu and his brothers came to our house and we spent quite some time with the gate-crashing games. It was super simple. The first stage was to ask for angbao money of course. And because they were insincere in giving money WILLINGLY, we asked them to drink our cup of SOUR (made of of DOUBLE DROPS), BITTER (blended with BITTERGOURD), SPICY (blended with SMALL CHILI) and lastly, SWEET (blended with HONEY). I think the games were like too simple for them, they easily passed the stage and came in. Standing just outside the room door, the sisters requested jiefu to shout across the door that he will love my jie for eternity in Chinese. Haha! And we asked him to repeat many, many times. After numerous times, we then let him choose the right key from a bunch of keys. Of course, he successfully got the bride. And we had some phototaking session.

Then we headed to jiefu’s house to let jie enter jiefu’s house within the auspicious hour. Their house was filled with a lot of people, which I dun really like because all the people there, I dun even know them at all. And another thing is, the house was filled to the door. I was standing by the main door while they were having their phototaking session there.

Next, we went to Millennium Walk to have further phototaking. Wah, we were already so hungry and tired under the scorching sun. We spotted some sports car on the way!! =DD

And then we returned back to jiefu’s house to pay respects to the elderly. Then went back to our own house! Oh yes!! =D That’s the only part that I really missed! And finally afternoon ended.

At abt 5.15, another ‘sister’ came to fetch us. Once we reached, we were like very busy, had to change to clothes, make-up, make the hair and so on. And I was in charge of the reception yesterday night. And had to set up the projector for the Montage. Oh busy!

And finally, losing track of time, I sat at reception there, occasionally walking into the hall. Lolx!

8.15 pm – First march-in!

Went into the hall and sat at the red table, able to eat some dishes. But later just before the second march-in, I had to help my sister and my jiefu’s second march-in clothes! So I have to help them change into their clothes.

After the second march-in, I was kind of relaxed! =D

About 11, the whole wedding ceremony finally ended with a quite ‘okay’ de mood. I shake too many people’s hands, whether I know them or not. Some even asked me when’s my turn. Oh wells, it’s still far away! HAHA! =D

*

I really love my makeover!!! =DD So nice!! =))

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:54 PM

Saturday, July 07, 2007



The BIG DAY is TOMORROW .

Just a few hours away to the start of the BIG DAY .

The whole family is nervous , of course including me .

Finally, my sister is getting married ! =) I'm quite happy for her because at least she found someone she loves bah?

Today was kind of emotional here and there. Because today is going to be the last day she officially lives here. Tomorrow night, after everything ends, she will be officially living in another new house, living with her husband, just occasionally coming back to the old house and visit us.

Despite we will still live in the same area, yet it just feels kind of different when's she's no longer in our house anymore.

When she was painting my nails, she suddenly asked me, "After I'm married off to kor kor, will you miss me?"

Without hesitation yet in a bit of playful tone, "Of course I will miss la!" Just trying to hide my coming emotional feeling.

Then, for the next few moments, she was silent. And I heard sniffing sounds.

She cried.

I pretended I never see her cry despite her face were all red, because I was keeping my emotions.

I will keep all the emotional stuffs to tomorrow.

I dun wish to hug her tight, and cry together non-stop like two crying babies.

Must keep her and me in the best condition. So, cannot let her cry too much too.

HAHA.

And just now, it was supposed to be the "last reunion dinner" still as my sister in a "just registered marriage" but not ""legally married"" status, yet I did not sit with the whole family to eat.

One is because I did not have appetite when I first woke up for less than 1 hr from my long nap.

And another, just to prevent any awkward situations. It just feels emotional.

I'm just afraid, my tears will fall silently into my bowl of food. =X

*

I probably will give her a small surprise. =)

HEES. ^^. To my dear sister. =)

*

Alrights, no more emotional stuffs anymore! Tears are at the brim of my eyes liaos! ='(

I will try to upload as much photos as possible!! =DD

Take care everyone!

Wish me good health! =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:25 PM

Friday, July 06, 2007



Sometimes I do ask myself, why do I sound so cold when people tell me something exciting...

Slowly, I understood as I looked around and what I learnt from the DJs.

The DJ mentioned that just by observing different people laugh at the same show. Different people react and laugh in a different way.

Not only that, different people have different views on a certain thing.

Perhaps they experienced more exciting things before, and now this "exciting" thing they heard about was a lot less exciting, so they had cold responds.

So probably that was why I reacted this way.

*

Actually, you cannot expect people to react in your way because you are not that person. Different people reacts differently, and expects things differently.

=))

Alrights, take care!! Gonna be a busy week!

=(

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:55 PM

Tuesday, July 03, 2007



On Monday, I had a crazy thought.

Oh wells, online meetings are so "in" nowadays.

And MRT stations are the most commonly used place for these ONLINE ppl to meet! HAHA!~

And I feel kind of disappointed that no one came to ask me whether I'm the person they wanted to meet.

Or was it because no one intended to meet there at that time? HAHA!~

Crazy me!

Funny me!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:23 PM





Haven been blogging actively! I'm sorry! But by the way, did you miss my blog entries? Hope you did! *looks at u with puppy eyes* Please say yes. haha! =D Just kidding!

Alrights, I'm sick currently ever since Sunday. And then now having sore throat, and feels very "dry" at the throat area *must specify which part I'm dry with, muhahas!*

But still, funny things still haven't stop as long as school is still going on!

My life have been rather fine here and there, as long as GOOD and FUNNY things continue happening! MUHAHAS! =DD

*

Btw, yesterday after flash app. class, after sometime, went to cineleisure to watch "Nancy Drew" and "Transformers" with FABS gang (excluding CK). The two movies were fab man! They are seriously nice! =D Btw, it was a movie maranthon thing. And it's free from acuvue (i dun use it, muhahas! feel guilty seh).

*

Today had some funny things happening even though I tried not to laugh because of my really dry THROAT. But all the funny things are worth the PAINFUL laughs. haha! =D

Was darn curious over many things. HEES.

=))

People are cute in my eyes man!~ =DD

CK, if u happen to read my blog now, dun wear jacket to sch anymore ok! You really look better without the jacket! HAHA!~ =D

Today's a funny yet painful day!~ =))

MUHAHAHa!

I injured my hand today. =( But nvm!~ =DD

HEES.

Take care ppl! The weather is stupid nowadays (yes, I did test its IQ) LOLs.

Drink more water ppl! =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:23 PM

Sunday, July 01, 2007



Someone knows who I'm talking about.

He seemS to be happy with her. I really wish him happiness.

It's just so hard to let go...

After so many years...

The pain is still there.

Him.

Why so happy?

Why so poor thing?

Why so contradicting?

I knew both of you are not............

*sighs*

Emo leh!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2:03 PM





Sorry I've not been active in blogging and online-ing because I'm starting to be busy over my sister's wedding which is next week! =DDD I'm looking forward to it! =D HAHA!~ That's gonna be my first time!

Yesterday I went out almost the whole day with my sister to have our SISTER'S MEETING to plan about the crushing games for jiefu and stuffs regarding the whole wedding. It was too detailed that I almost wanted to sleep!! Yesterday went near my old old old house there! And I had the very strong urge to go up back to my old house de doorstep and asked the owner if he/she is living happily in my old old old house!! I'm going crazy, but no worries!! I did not go up in the end! Because by the time we finished discussing, it was already 12! Cinderella oso go home liaos! muhahas! So mii and jie walked home lorr! =D

I felt kind of awkward being together with jiejies who are a lot older than me. All 10 yrs and above older than me. I'm definitely the smallest there (in all kinds of means you can tink of) HAHA!~ Yesterday I was rather quiet. haha!~ I know them ever since young la, but then still have that kind of age gap and communication barrier there, unlike my jie. She understands my language.

But when at one of the jiejie's house there, they kind of opened up and talked a lot lor! HAHA!~ I just laughed there, so unlike me! HAHA! =D

Alrights, had a really tiring day these two days!

Still have 3 big projects waiting for me =(

JIAYOUS!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:13 PM

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