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You've got the poison, I've got the remedy =D

Friday, November 30, 2007

Nowadays my mood is neither here or there. Sometimes mood swing, sometimes don't.

But I'm kind of relieved that I will see you everyday!! =)) MUHAHA. Hope it will remain like this forever!! =DD~

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I've been feeling terrible these few days in my heart. I don't know why. Overall mood was kind of fine, but then as for my heart, it wasn't too stable.

I feel different about him now.

I dream.

Why is it so?

Is it just another period of thinking of ppl differently?

Or, it's really coming?

Is it the one?

Am I sure?

I just feel kind of weird and hope to see it everyday.

I miss that...

Voice, sensation...

Gentle...

OMG, a mess.

Feel kind of A yar?

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Back in love .

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:11 PM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Yesterday did some charity work with yuyans darling and kieron kor! =)) Had lots of fun and enjoyed ourselves while doing such charity work!! =DD Should do it more often!~ MUHAHAS.

Btw, what we did was the annual BB collection of food items for all those needy people living one room flats. Their family income is less than a thousand or something like that... so yest a large group of people went around Bukit Panjang around to collect these food items from the residents lor. =)) Had a great experience la!~ Somewhat addicted of collecting food from ppl le, cuz some residents were really nice and friendly to us! =DD

Hope to do it again next year!! =)) HEES.

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Listened to radio one night and the DJ said something I really agreed on.

"Let him/her go. Because if that someone you couldn't let go still stands in a place in your heart, another person cannot go in. So just let the relationship go. You will feel better and feel a change."

I was like enlightened la. It's like, yup I agreed to it totally. Let him go, let go of the relationship. People occupy space. They takes up space. And your heart can only have one place for only one person (alrights, pls assume your heart can only have one person in your heart =x) and if that person you cannot let go still sits/stands/lies (or whatever he's doing. HAHA) in your heart, a new person cannot get into your heart. And the one you cannot let go, you can never let go. Am I right? That's so logic la. HAHA~

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Yesterday I had a really nice dream that I long time never had it. The feeling was so real. Hopefully it was that kind of "REAL" but the feeling is real. HAHA!~ HEES. I can feel it neh! AIYOHS~ SHIOK LOR! *dun tink y pls* LOL!~ It's been a long time I had this kind of dream (I know I made ppl tink y ONCE AGAIN). It's not tt kind of dreams! *blush*

I hope to wish again and wish longer. HEES. Of course not faster (haha, purposely make ppl tink y again.) LOL!~ I'm so bad.

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The other day I wanted to take another step out. But then, I couldn't. I knew once I took another step I couldn't change the history. So, I held back my emotions and temptations.

Just fulfill it in the dreams bahs.

See you in my dreams! We will do it again!

MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~~~~~~

I miss you.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:23 PM

Thursday, November 22, 2007

ONE "SCARY" Picture I going to show!!!

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That's the FRIENDLY lizard that always appear by my room window and "stayed" by my side when I was surfing net. lols~ I mean as in, erms. this lizard (duno male or female or have sex difference a not) stick on the wall near my desk. lols~ Then I kept looking at it because it's darn big... haha!~ But cute la actually, I see today. muhahas.

Btw, I went to IMM today after having family dinner together to celebrate daddy's birthday today! =))

Had a really nice meal today. But the walk at IMM wasn't too fruitful. I bought almost nothing. lols~ Aiyahs, whatever la. no mood to shop anyways. lols~ I thought I will be able to buy anything nice. lol~ And today is the first time wearing SO DARN CASUAL to shopping centre... haha!~ I never tried it except when I'm young... lols~

Other than today, some updates about the past few days I didn't update and many many days ago...

Remember? I was sick and I took this pill of two colors. And I took photo of it. lols~

This is my new water bottle that can put hot water inside to keep warm de! =) I love it to bits, esp. during my menses and some other cold days. =) It's my lovely now. lol!~ And now my mum also have the same bottle too! All thanks to ahh xiia gf and kieron kor!! GAM AH!~

(P.S. - Beside the water bottle is kieron kor's gift to me! =) Gam ah, kor! HAHA. But I have difficulty taking out the small letter la... so I haven't see the hidden message yet... But I tink you did wrote something in lor... haha!~ Anyways, thanks... no matter what you wrote inside... hees!

Some other days ago, I went to buy some temporary stall food in SIM, then some SIM ppl gave us the freebies... and inside, there's condoms!! HAHA~ Because their theme was on AIDS or something like that? I not sure too? muhahas. But I'm just happy to see condoms man. I mean, umm, ya. lol!~

Close view!!~ HAHA~ The packing so cool lor~

And I played with the condom and go and measured the condom man! HAHA!~ The condom felt so oily. muhahas.

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Then last sunday, went to Radin Mas CC to settle on I & E project with CK and Kieron kor... Then after that, we went back to Tiong Bahru Plaza. Kieron kor have to meet with his team members while me and CK go to tiong to have small lunch. LOLS~ CK brought some bread to fill his stomach while I bought my fav. (duno how to spell la) LOLS~ Just some Hong Kong fingerfood... haha~~~ Then after that, because the fingerfood too hot liaos, in the end, me and CK walked towards my old house there... one thing I can cool and eat my food... another thing, I can go and see my old house (and hopefully can see someone) and also can take bus from there... lols~

Then in the end, we went to my old house! So many changes... The block changes color, the bridge changed into slant kind instead of staircase kind... then the lift floor color also changed... I had so many memories there la... I still miss there somehow... But I can't turn back time anymore.... =)) But I'm happy with my current house now anyways. =) (despite doesn't have lifts de) LOLS~

I took a pic of my old house de doorfront! =))

Thanks CK for peii-ing me siao and go back my old house together!!!! =DD

I have thought through le, I knew we are the ends of impossibles. So I shall forget you and not let the hurtful things come and hurt me anymore. It's all because it already ended so long ago. It's just me who's dwelling into the wound. And you happily moved on. Since you moved on, I shall move on too. Or else everything I see you, my heart will bleed again...

The presence of death makes human recognize the importance of life. So treasure life.

There's not much "if only-s" in our life.

My mummy said, "When you see stars, it means today won't rain."

Can rain and stars exist together? Can we?

Today I betted. If I see stars, it means it's still possible. Yet, I saw no stars. Does that mean it's impossible?

I don't know.

I'm confused with my feelings too.

I have high standards for stuffs man. I had a hard time finding something I like man! When can I find you?

Still waiting. Still pending. Still hoping. Still wishing. Still whatever. LOL

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:25 PM

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Quick update!

Still, still busy.

Still a bit sick.

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Had funny days.

Just realized something. Jay Chou is in the trend in SIM! I saw another Jay Chou in SIM (and I swear it's not the same person because yuyans darling and ahh xiia galfriend oso saw it! LOLx.)

FUNNY LEH! MUHAHAHAHA~

*laughs off*

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I'm really relieved you did not reply back, despite being disappointed.

I'm relieved you are not by my side now.

Thank you.

Take care.

Hope you are living well on your side.

We will meet one day.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:19 AM

Monday, November 12, 2007

I'm relieved that you did not appear in my life, now.

So, so relieved.

If you are going to be near me, I will not care or bother anything. I will just let everything about you go. I will slowly get used to it and forget about your existence.

Please don't appear now. Please.

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Today's a funny day. =))

Wo Zhi Xiang Ai Ni (mis-said as Luo Zhi Xiang Ai Ni). LOLS!

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love dearr. hope dearr is living well. =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:36 PM

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Still sick.

The smell is still around me.

Irritating.

I hate,

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Had a slacky week.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2:08 PM

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

I was just listening to Jay Chou's song on the bus when something struck my mind...

As we get older, will our protective barrier against people get thicker or thinner?

The answer I got was, depending on every individual.

But for me, for now, I think in future, my protective barrier is going to be thicker and thicker, harder to get through.

Because I couldn't find my true self anymore. I couldn't find IT.

I couldn't, oh yeah.

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Please let the smell go away from my nose. It's annoying! =(

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Do celebrities envy normal people too?

Then we do envy celebrities too, for being so popular and rich, with girls showering love and hot over them.

Very often, things that you do, does have to pay a price.

Like giving up your privacy as a celebrity, in order to earn money w/o much disruptions or misunderstandings.

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Goldfish, I still envy you.

Wait till I find another animal to replace you from my puny mind.

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I was listening to some other songs that talked about martial arts and stuffs like that.

Then you have heard about a pill that you eat, and you can forget the person you love? (Jue Qing Tan)?

LOLx.

Seriously, I think a lot of people need it badly.

ME INCLUDED.

So, if anyone is able to invent such drugs, you probably gonna be rich man!~

But hopefully just forget the person you love (e.g. your ex bf/gf, or whatever crushes you have that hurt you a lot in the past) but not the person you "essentially" love (e.g. friends, classmates, family, etc). Then it will be good. HAHA~

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RANDOM ENTRY TODAY!!! =))

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:56 PM

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Oh wells, it's too obvious in the past.

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Now, reading about the past, I saw the pain I went through and was pondering how I managed to get through it? LOLs.

And there was this one day when I looked through my love history, there was no one I truly "loved", they were just "likes". No deep feelings for each other, seriously (it's not like the love I see in the people around me). The memory may be hurting but maybe not so long-lasting.

As I reviewed, I realized I wasn't into a relationship whereby you can call each other everyday to say the sweet-nothings until they became meaningless (oh wells! =x), you can meet each other and give them a hug everyday (so sweet...) or if not, in school, you could openly hold hands and let everyone see and envy... Or, in secondary school, you can secretly winked at your bf (your heart filling with happiness when he winked back at you with a handsome smile). I wasn't into a relationship whereby we could have dinner together more than three times as couples, wasn't into a relationship whereby I had to spend money on the other half, and crack my brains on what to give on Valentine's Day and his Birthday.

None, none happened to me.

I was laughing at myself the other day.

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Humans love to envy each other, isn't it? Have you realized that?

All because we thought the other person had less troubles than yourself do but in actual fact, probably he/she was facing more problems that you do just that he/she used a smile to cover the cruel truth about their life.

Everyone have got their own problems, troubles.

Sometimes you feel that you are very poor thing as a single, but sometimes you can think on a good side.

Because somewhere, in the world, who are attached currently, wished to be single like us. And is envying us like crazy.

They wished they were single so that he/she won't have to quarrel with the other half.

Don't have to think about what the other half thinks when he/she says certain sensitive issues...

Don't have to get angry over him/her..

Don't have the feeling of being tied down.

Don't have the feeling of having "less time" in their life.

Don't have to crack your brains on what romantic plans to come up with on Valentine's Day or birthday just to surprise him/her.

Don't have to declare anything.

Don't have to be heartbroken when he/she did anything bad to you.

And the list goes on....

So, let's just continue envying each other bahs...

Never-ending.

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Singles shall just wait, as long as don't be desperate to find someone you don't like at all to be your lover.

PROBABLY the wait will be worth it.

Do you believe that?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:34 PM

Why we can say things out so easily but find it so hard to fulfill it?

Why we can console other people so easily, but we find it so hard to convince ourselves with exactly the same words?

That's such a strange world.

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I'm sick. darn it.

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I miss dearr, I duno why. haha!~ =DD Duno how exactly she's doing but then hopefully she tends to tink of my stupid face whenever she's unhappy to cheer herself up! =))

I will continue,

finding the one who dun mind my true self.

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I love Jay Chou.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:39 PM

Friday, November 02, 2007

If I can, I want to be a life philosopher (and find life meanings on the way).

Life meanings may be difficult to find but then I find it really meaningful.

As long as it won't drive me crazy and too stressed, and can earn me money.

This will be one of my interests too. lols~

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Jay Chou's album is out! FINALLY~

I like 蒲公英的约定, 无双 (like the chorus part), 我不配(fall in love even before he started singing! LOL!), 扯(sounds abit weird, but i like it. haha!), 最长的电影 (quite a sad song)...

Do go and listen!! =))

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:58 PM

Oh wells, the overalls of this week!! =)) This Tuesday we had our field trip to Great World City de Living Pharmacy. I was expecting some of my juniors or some ppl that I really wanted to see nearby, but I saw none in the end. Probably because O and A levels are in the process bahs!! *sighs* But never mind!! =)) Ms Sally treated us at TCC at the end of the field trip! OMG!~ =DD She's so nice!! She made my day la!! HAHA!~

About 10 ppl were there bahs, and the bill is about 100 plus... it was like "AIYO!" to me. Thanks Ms Sally for the treat!! =)) So nice of you!!

So here are the pictures!! =))

Ahh xiia ordered de... =)) That one nice lor!!~ HAHA

Our drinks!! + our innocent legs... haha!~

That's my drink!! The cheapest of all drinks ordered!! LOLS~ Duno was it 4 - 6 dollars like that... haha!~ It was quite nice la... even though I thought I wasted the trip but I having menses, so I cannot take cold drinks. So, yup, drink milk lor! HAHA!~ =DD

Chocolate mint for Kieron kor. =)

Hazelnut drink by ahh xiia darling. =))

The other day (Thursday, which is yesterday), we had lab sessions. And we were really excited and scared over looking at our own cells! HAHA~ Because we need to take out some blood to examine under microscope. So scared pain!!~ =D But the pain wasn't as bad as APS de. So it was still a pleasant experience.

Oh wells, I didn't know who started shooting photos of their own cells through the microscope but I saw most of the people are taking photos of their own cells liaos. INCLUDING ME!! =DDD And of course, I need evidence to proof my saying!! HAHA. That's my proof of kor and ahh jiunn taking the photo of their own cells. haha!~

HAHA, kor, thanks for the standard victory pose. haha!~ =DDDD

That's the picture of my cells! But then my phone lousy de! Cannot take too clearly, and seriously I had a hard time taking down this picture!! HAHA~ =)) Just for remembrance bahs. lols~