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sermon for this week so cool! Pastor Joakim is so funny! what he preached was really problems we youths are facing. great impact=) and i wanted to take photo with him, but he gotta rush to the airport. so sad! never mind, at least he is still coming back!


he shared about this girl Sarah from UK who responded to people who bullied and hit her with love and forgiveness. out of the 5 boys who she thought was the toughest case she could ever thought of having, four of them were saved, including the most difficult case she ranked first! i saw her photo, she is pretty. hee. but the amazing thing is that though the guys hit her, she was not angry, but love them even more and prayed for them. and hit her is to punch her. she is an amazing girl.

sarah also helped a lady prayed on the bus. she did not meet the lady in her entire life, yet, when God spoke to her, she picked up her courage and approached the lady. like hello, not many will do that yeah.



Recently, i have been thinking back the days when i first accepted Him. if you dont know, i backslided once. and im gonna tell you, there is no next chance im gonna backslide. initially, to come back to church, i was a little afraid. as i backslided once, i wonder if i still have the chance to follow Him. and initially, i was scared to let people know that i backslided once before. i was afriad to let people know my past. but not now.


However, i do know that some people will be wondering, why did i chose to go back again. i gotta tell you, though everything just happened in just a few months, but it was a great turning point for my life.


The period that i stopped going to church, i constantly told myself, there is no chance i can go back, because i gave up the chance myself. thus, for almost half a year, i have not attended a single service. the life, on the surface seems to go fine, yet, you can say it is the a period of aimless walk for me. sometimes, i have thoughts of going back, but then, i told myself, it was impossible. i still continue my life normally, and i thought it was normally.


i also had this dream when i backslided, though it may sound nothing much, but it means everything to me. like what Pastor Eris said, a point of reference. this dream is one of my point of reference.


it is amazing i had this dream consecutively for 2 nights. it was totally the same thing. i was in this dark and tattered room, strangely, i was holding something like a rifle. okays, dont laugh. ha! and there were many monsters coming out from every direction. i cant see clearly what it was, but i knew that i just had to destroy them. i failed to. there were way too many for me to fight alone. feeling afraid and helpless, i seems to be defeated and i woke up.

yup, i thought it was a stupid dream. but the next night, was what really impacted me. i had totally the same dream, about the same thing. when many monster came, i knew i must do something or i will be defeated like before. i shouted," O, Lord, save me." i immediately felt a sense of peace. i opened my eyes(still in my dream), and there were nothing around me anymore. i felt safe and assured. i woke up. shocked. never in my life i called Him in my dream.


well, at that time, i still told myself, so what? how can i return to church? i let the dream pass. few weeks later, peijun invited me to service. i was reluctant to go. but the dream came to my mind. but i was still reluctant. truthfully, i ignored her sms, trying to pretend that i did not received it. she called me, and i was like... AH!! haha! due to her persistence, i promised her i will attend. i still remember it was at the singpost centre before renovation. i stepped in, and saw jieru. wa, i was afraid+awkward to see her. ha! but she was smiling so widely that touched my heart and my worries were gone.

i remembered clearly, valerie passed me a ticket for Red Rain concert. of course, still feeling a little reluctant, i wanted to reject her. but i could think of no excuses, i accepted it. i dont feel like going, but my mind said, just go. just go.


Red Rain concert was the start of turning point for me. i attended the service week after week. still feeling so new and out of place, there were certain time i really dont feel like going. soon, i started up my follow ups. it is really amazing i agreed to have it. everything starts to change, change for the better. =)

follow ups made me stronger, though initially i thought, why do we have it for?! ha. but now, one factor that let me grow is through follow ups. i was baptized in the Holy Spirit. i was really amazed that though i started going back for not a long time, i could felt His presence so strongly. no one told me is Him, but He who told me.


many people told me they see a change in me. i really do not noticed but even so, i knew it must be for the better.


i know. when i start going back, there is surely many persecutions and people wondering why i became so committed again. so much committed than the first time i went church.


okays, let see. you have an apple now. you may not think it is precious because it worth just a few cents. apple, apple. i can have it everyday i want. i can have dozens of it! however, if now, right now you are in a desert. there is no trees nor rivers. you have no food nor drink. the sun is scorching hot, and you think back of your apple. how precious they have become. how you will wish the apple will appear before you.


likewise, i got the apple, when i first stepped into church. when i backslided, it is like i am in the desert. how precious the apple was to me now. it is because i lose the chance before, and thanks God for giving me the second chance to follow Him again. i dont wanna lose the chance again, but hold on to it with my faith.

God knows, and He told me, i am the person who dont cherish easily or treasure things that are before me now. one day, i was asking myself, woah! im like so different when i stepped in church last year. He said, "it is because you lost the first apple, you realised you have to cherish the second apple that was given to you by Me." the second apple is the second chance for me.


yesterday, Pastor Joakim talked about the narrow road and the broad road. im glad to say that i took an U-turn, and walk back to the narrow road. i do have to admit that sometimes, i felt christian life seems to be a little difficult to walk, and the devil keeps tempting you to choose the broad road. i am tempted of course, by the devil and confused by the devil. but the coward devil is the father of all lies, but my Heavenly Father is the Father of all Truths.


i gotta say, from every attack i had from the devil and i overcame it as i fight the coward back, i feel that i went on to a higher level. a stronger faith. the feeling is amazing. you feel another step closer to Lord. no doubts, sometimes there are so many temptations. and i nearly give in sometimes. woah! lucky He pulled me back.


i knew, that this narrow road is not easy to walk initially, but the narrow road starts small but end up BIG, Pastor Joakim said. i wonder, if i can face the persecutions, flee from the temptation, fight the devil. but now, the answer to my qns is that i have Him in me, therefore i can do all things.

Phillipians 4:13
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." =)


i read it in the devotional. christian life will be difficult for you to walk if you dont love Jesus with your everythings. if you chose this road for the sake of your friends or whatever, you most probably will turn back. to walk this road easily, you gotta love Him with all your mind, with all your heart and with all your soul. =)

i wanna thank the Holy Spirit for guiding me through in writing this. i was also shocked that i could still remember so much!


i love You, my Lord. =)

taken a century ago!!

and this guy! he got a hug from Pastor Joakim!! =D

in John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life"