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My name is ANG.ZHILIN.Turning 18 this year.Loving heartofGodchurch and D5.studying in nyjc 0832! |
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wosh. this week is really FULL man. haha. activities just doesnt seem to end. awww. days without mobile phone is really bad. but now, you can contact me through hp le. got one temporary phone. digital natives. tsk tsk tsk. is almost cannot survive. haha! almost... hahah! this week is really cool. but next week is exciting! zone D camp is coming! yeah!! SHOUT! haha! how i wish how i wish. that i can bring my sister and bro to church. my cousins too. its fun doing the same thing together. God is certainly a God of miracles and wonders. i lost my phone and desperately need to find one. but no one has it. sort of worried especially at this time, when many things is going on in church. and i gotta fork put my own money to buy a new phone when im super broke. BUT! God is GREAT! i got home super late after service today. okays, not very very late, but i didn inform my mom. haha. i wonder if she will nag and nag. but no! and she said she found one phone in the office which i can use temporarily! WOW! i was thinking to buy over this weekend, but she found the phone, i can save my money and wait for sales and promotion. HAHA! it is a miracle. i was asking all around for everyone and i got home, forgetting about everything, i got a phone! haha. save the situation. at least im contactable. haha! and and! my mom offers to pay for my phone! MIRACLE. cause she keep saying dont buy ex one, then i say i pay for myself lor. haha. then she today suddenly say pay for me! yeah! no more tight budgets. haha! and and, my shoulders were super uneven recently. dont knw why, most prob my bag is real heavy and im carrying on one side. till today, it was still uneven. while doing my qt, i told God, oh Lord, heal my shoulders. the uneven is real ugly. i looked into the mirror, AND IT IS EVEN. hello, i cant believe it too! praise the Lord! it real super miracle. the presence of God was so so strong. im pondering what should i do on 8/12. my mom kept pestering me to go some outing with her office. -.- but its on sat and staying overnight at some weird place will mean that i will miss the service on sun too. mean one week! then my mom starts to talk about church... say im siao... wa. i ask God, what should i do. i dont wanna miss service, but i dont want my mom to be upset. oh no. then God told me what i should do. and i have faith,it gonna works, and my mom will be happy and i can go for services. =D praise the Lord. God of miracles and wonders. the Greatest. this week is certainly fruitful to me. i learnt alot of things. and also, i lost my phone. my phone is only 1 years old plus. wa. all my contacts lost. my pic lost. my pic with brad. and the most impt thing, my handphone chain. i bought in hk disneyland! so cute one then lost. ah. singapore cannot find nice one lor. oh mine. so urgent call, if any of yr friends going HK, must tell me! bad experience. and my mom is going crazy. anyway, hope tml openhouse will be fruitful.   hello! yesterday was the parachute band concert!! oh mine. super high. and their performance was certainly awesome! haha. not to mention they are real handsome too. HAHA! esp aliston. HEE! let muying come back and she will be so angry. haha. cause she cant attend the concert. anyway, the key is that the whole concert was really cool. with the songs and raps. oh man! 2 hrs is just too short! hello, it didnt even feel like it was 2 hrs. haha! come on! sing overnight!!! =P the songs were great. the presence of God was with us. and everyone enjoyed themselves so much. and and! at the end of the concert, got autograph session! hee. aiyo. then i super pai sei can. cause really cant hear and understand them properly as we have totally different accent. i think they also cannot understand me.-.- haa! and super excited in front of them. woah! i shook their hand. ah ya! shouldnt have wash hand. HAHA!! well, i look at them. though we look different and may not really understand each other english well, haha, but then had the feeling of like you know them. hmm, or rather, dont really have the distance feeling. haha. because we are all child of God. we belong to the same kingdom. =D thats why the concert was even cool-er! awww. how i wish they can come back again. they were really great man!           oh! the orange boy is randyne! P.S thanks nicholas for all the pics!
life after O's is certainly relaxing and free. and the thing is that we can stay back late after service! =D so cool. long time D5 have not sat down together for dinner. and we played BANG after dinner. haha. but i still couldnt understand how to play! aiyoyo. then valerie talked about monopoly. long time no play!!! haha. but we all have fun! sitting down together, laugh and play, really brought the bond closer. spending time with D5 is great!=D thats why im excited for later! later after service we will be going to jieru house! of course, not forgetting admin hour! =D then then, next day steamboat. wa. i only eat that during new year. haha! lynette is joining us! =D and vanessa brought her little bro to church today! he so so cute. got that type of baby face. hee. then like kids in the commerical. so cute. wa, hyper-active. haha. then he very funny. a bit active then fungqi also cannot take it. HAHA! wa. the first service after O's end. which mean we can have dinner, can stay later, no need chiong home study, walk super slow also can. haha. fun time. anyway, i forgotten my sis is in china. =X i love You,Lord. a thousand words can never express my gratitude to You. who am i, that You would know me from the start... hello! today had my cafe training! which was super exciting!! make coffee need alot of skills one okay, don play play. haha! everytime go coffee bean see the people make the milk thing then wa, so cool. now i know how to. HAHA!! im so pro. er... but the first latte i made... i drank it i nearly faint. hee. then must go rush meet my mother. cause she promised to buy laptop for me! =P wa, i nearly faint. cause very expensive. heart pain. love mommy. i know my brother sure say me. haha. anyway, i must go find work to pay my mom man. or not, i heart pain see the money just like that fly. but i want find one got flexible working hours, so can accomodate my things in church. any lobang? first time i spent my mom money so guilty.=P ok la, not first time. cause i super spendthrift. anyway, want come see my house. cause i threw away all my books. ok, i know should recycle or something, but my mom say dont. -.- she cant wait to see a house with no textbooks. since the last day of O's, she keep asking me to throw all. now very empty. haha. aiyo, after O's very relaxing until abit not used to it. like very zhuo bo.(do nth). haha!! no hor. niu zai hen mang de. jay chou's new song. hee! wow. it do wrecks my heart. just finished talking to this guy. well, i remembered reading his blog, which was full of praise for Lord and could see that he was really on fire for Jesus. it was quite a suprise that he talked to me through msn. i mean like for almost 2 years?! haha. since he graduated. what really wreck my heart is that he lost his faith and left the walk with God. and strongly believe that he will never return. he was so strong so strong in the past, so what really happened? full of doubts but not faith. he said i was talking like him in the past, when he was so on fire for Christ. i told him i really hope that that the past him will really come back then. well, he did asked my thousands of questions that really knock me down. and yes, theoretically, it may sound logical. then what is logical. he felt that he is now more rational compared the past, then what is rational. what is logical without God. what is rational without God. what is me without God. i wondered where his faith went to. a young man, still in his teens, who were once so strong, left His kingdom and promised never to return. i strongly believed he made the WRONG choice. a wrong choice doesnt mean a dead end. he chose the wrong way doesnt mean he cant choose again. i still strongly believe he will be back for Christ, back for God. where i felt his life will be happier. i know God still loves him. it set me into deep thinking. deep deep. deep down. sometime, i do doubt myself. yes, i doubt that if im really for Jesus, and nearly, took a step back. thanks God, everytime, i fought back, and step forward instead. i dont wanna ever doubt myself, i dont wanna ever leave God. i love Him, and He loves me. that is a fact, that never change. CELEBRATE? ADD ON: oh oh! did i tell you last week service was superb! wow! things were so amazing. God's presence was so strong that everyone was crying. and when pastors and the leaders prayed for many of us on sat and sun, it was the best of all. then, my heart now keep having an excitement. i believe that something great will happen soon! one has, that is D odds breakthrough 95! and D5 26! upsize 700!! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- WO! O"S ENDED! not relaxing. cause im getting sick!! -.- spoil my fun. i stone during physics paper! wa. just stone. then water keep running out of my nose. -.-, hello, my holidays is here you know!! i think im fainting anytime. haha. anyway, so excited for tml worship session. i got a feeling it will be strong! =) hee. and enrichment class starts tml. tml i got the photography one. don envy when i know how to take nice pic. =P got no strength le. see you my loves. D5 breakthrough. hello! how is life. oh, it been so COOL for me. cause O's is ending!!! say YEAH with me!! =P cant wait for zone camp. cant wait to do cg admin again.haha! actually i didnt even know what admin is all about. but something is that it is addictive. haha! cant wait for training for cafe to start! then next time, i also know how to 'pao kopi'(make coffee) for my mother. then she will stop nagging. =D oh oh!! i went to make contact lens today. and it cost me a bomb! cause of astigmatism. i shall go to the garden and look at the greenery, since green helps your eyesight. =) or i will just look at my uniform also can. hee. and i bought a skirt too. =P cant wait to go shopping tomorrow with my mom. it must be fruitful okays. haha! today was geog p1. dont talk about it. nearly faint by doing the mapwork. and the whole hall only have half a class. haha! so cool. mon is my last day of O's! im going to enjoy that day. you know, once in a lifetime you have the last day of O's, which is so exciting. cause it means the START of freedom. =P and xiao long bao(qiyun), dedicated a song to the whole class on 93.3. cool! haha, jobel is zhu bao dan. so funny.thanks xiao long bao. feeling full of joy.=D D5 has 30 people. =) hi guys! O's is ending soon yeah. oh ya. supposed to study SS but have the strong urge to blog about this week sermons! it was GREAT. this week was about leadership. and certainly, i learnt alot from it! it taught me more on what is leadership, and i realised where i am weak in, where i can improve on! and like what Pastor How said, when we rise up as leaders, more people will come in. then, upsize 1000! Amen! well, so far, i have not seen people say they dont wish to be leaders! i mean, almost everyone hopes to be a leader in any kind of ways. maybe in school, your cca or church! i really seen people fighting for power and get the position they wants.( oh, i sound so old, like i been living for 65 years...) but really, in school or wherever, people are always fighting and trying to be leaders of another. yet, most of them i seen outside, wants to be leader because of power,fame,glory,status. i learnt that being a leader is not about positions or ranks, but about influence. how much influence you have! of course, good influence. you can lead people by forcing them, but then, are you able to influence them? people will be changed by you if you have a good influence. for example, your friend speaks vulgarities, however, he was influenced by you because you dont speak! isnt that great. you are a leader! of course, being a leader is not that simple. leaders teach! people learn from you. leaders obviously lead! most importantly, leaders inspire and motivates. how can you be a leader when you are forever discouraging people, putting them down. you will never be a leader, and you will never produce a good leader. oh come on, this week sermons are really long, and i cant explain all to you. but you can always ask me =) haha. im going to buy the sermons cds. however, there are some points that really impacted me. no man with a marred face! a leader should never have a marred face spiritually. which mean he or she has low self-esteem. and these people can never do their best for God or give their best to God. so i realised that being confident and bold is important. when you have ideas and wanna share, why not just take the step out. i may not be sure if my idea is good or bad, but if you think it is okays, and really want to share, just say it out! it not going to kill you. so what if my idea is rejected, but i took a bold step. and sometimes, i feel that with no confidence or boldness, we dont speak what we think. we hide our feelings, our thinkings. we dont share the solutions we have to a problem. cause we dont want to be responsible for it. what if things goes wrong and everyone blame me, then, i will be blamed and laughed at. but i learnt that we should never have this thinking. a leader should be accountable and responsible, as what Pastor How said. cause leaders are reliable and trustworthy people! no man with a broken hand! a leader is not to order people. but leaders are to serve people. we, being children of God, must be servant-hearted. i learnt that big things or small things, it doesnt matter. cause whatever we do, we are serving God! it reminds me of the devotional. one man went for a job interview but was refused. when he goes out, he saw a needle on the road and he picked it up! he was then offered the job and rose up to be a great leader! yet, another man who also appiled for a job, spelt tuesday wrongly. this man was not offered the job. i mean, how many of us will really pick up the needle, or rather, how many of us will really see it? i realised that only through small things, we are able to see if this man/woman is a leader! aww. there is really lot of things to share. through this sermons, it really point out to me where im really weak at leadership. and of course, there are alot! ha! but it is a good thing i know, im learning and changing. i always thought leaders were always to lead. they also had the responsibilities to raise up good leaders. that cool! and really, i seems to see people are getting more initiative and pro-active in small little things. however, we gotta continue to improve and change our weaknesses into our strengths. no one is without weaknesses. but has he/she realise it. wow. a precious lesson i had. and always say, i am a leader! its great to see people in our cg growing. really. then, we can breakthrough 30 regulars by christmas this year. and church will break through 1000 regulars too! D5 has 30 people. =) i love You, Jesus. You are so amazing! =D it is not even 12 nov, yet m slacking my day off. oh no. okay, im going PP later. hahaha!! nd next thurs, im going shopping with mommy. yeah! say you are happy for me! i never imagined how much i can love. i have never expected my life is to be so filled. are you reading my blog today? shouldnt you be studying!!!!!!!!!!!!! random. anyway, went airport yesterday. and before i left, bought a hairpin. retail therapy. =) study people. one thing i ask that i may dwell in Your house forever D5 has 30 people. =D |
