Dear 2008

You sucked. To honor you, I thought it would be appropriate if I listed some of my favorite posts.

So, here's my version of Times Square.

5...4...3...2...1

This is Me

The Pooh Before the Poo

A New Addition To Our Family

We have embryos!

The 8 Phases of Grief

Personal and Confidential

Public or Private?

Always a Bridesmaid

A Little Privacy, Please?

One Year Ago Today

So, thanks for the memories 2008.

(Don't let the door hit you in the ass on the way out)!

2009... c'mon in!

Merry Christmas!

I just wanted to wish everyone a "Merry Christmas".

I know this time of year is extremely difficult, trust me. I'm right there with you.

But, we'll get through it.

Together.

Don't you want another?!

Today started just like any other day.

And, then at 11 am, my world stopped.

Yes, that's right.

"Mommy with twins" decided to come for a visit with said twins.

You might remember her from several months ago - when she tormented me all day long with her woeful tales of heartburn and deciding what to eat.

Right on cue, the entire office surrounded her with the usual "Oohs" and "Ahs".

Let me put this in perspective for you. This is a real picture of my desk. Do you see the half wall? She sits on the other side.



One guess where everyone gathered.

I've gotten better. I can actually stand that for about 10 minutes now.

When I felt like I had enough, I started searching for reasons to leave my desk.

I successfully found a reason to walk to the copier 4 different times.

"Boy, isn't Suzanne busy? She gets back to her desk and then runs off again".

I was running out of things to copy and about 2 seconds away from going back down to copy my own ass when the question came...

"Aren't they so cute? Don't you want another?!"

(dream sequence)

We interrupt this program to bring you late breaking news...

There seems to have been an incident at a business located in the Washington, DC suburbs.

Sources say a crazed woman grabbed her stapler and began running around the office screaming.

One eyewitness reports, "She was crazy and shooting people with staples. I heard her scream "That's for my ovaries, biotch!"

Another eyewitness reports he has never seen such a crazy scene.

Suzanne? Did you hear me?

Uh, yeah. I heard you...excuse me - that was just a minor psychotic break.

Now, part of me wants to give dumbass a break because I'm pretty sure she doesn't know what I'm going through.

And the other part of me?

I wanted to strangle her for being so damn ignorant.

Bringing your new kid to work is something I've never really understood.

I mean, is it just a reason to say "Look at me and what I accomplished"?!

Because I seriously don't give a damn about what people think of me or what I do outside of work.

They are co-workers, not my friends. I don't need their approval and I certainly don't want them manhandling my kid.

I've seen what those people do in the break room.

Adios Dr. Ass

I saw my new endocrinologist on Thursday and what a difference!

She took one look at my results from Monday's tests and said "You aren't on the right dosage - we need to up you".

Both my RE and my new doctor (Dr. R) said they wanted my TSH to be around 1.0 and Dr. Ass was keeping me around 4.2. So, we're upping my Synthroid to 75 mcg but I'm only going to take it 6 days per week - giving me about 67.5 mcg per week.

Dr. Ass finally called me on Wednesday with the results of the bloodwork. I had already given up on her and actually called the Radiology place and got my own copy of the sonogram.

Good news - the nodules haven't changed significantly but Dr. R. said we need to continue to keep a watch on them. If there is any change, I'll have to get another biopsy to make sure they haven't turned malignant.

Dr. R is also friends with my RE so I'm taking that as a sign. I have some peace of mind knowing that there will be consistency and communication on both sides of my treatment.

So, we're still on track for IVF #2 to start in February; assuming we can get my TSH regulated and maintained.

100th Post

To celebrate my 100th post, I decided to give myself a makeover. Whaddya think?

I don't really have anything new to report. I had my thyroid sonogram done yesterday and I'm still waiting for Dr. Ass to call me with the results.

I'm so glad she feels the sense of urgency here.

I'm looking forward to my appointment with the "2nd opinion" doctor and I'm trying to be a good little patient.

I sat down tonight and made 2 lists. One of my IVF cycles and the medications that I took and for how long. And another list that provides a timeline.

A journey of my thyroid, if you will.

I started to create a video complete with music but I thought that might be overdoing it.

I'm debating on whether I should provide details on my eating habits since Dr. Ass seemed so concern.

And, I still feel like I need to prove that I don't eat entire logs of fiber each day.

I guess I'll skip it for now but I could get pretty darn creative if I had to outline my diet!

Getting Caught Up

I apologize to all of my fellow bloggers. I have not been a very good blog buddy.

I've been reading but I haven't been commenting much. Not really any reason in particular - I just couldn't think of anything to say that didn't seem cliche or uncaring.

There hasn't been much happening with me. DH and I met with my RE a few weeks ago to discuss our next options. She is still very optimistic that we'll have a successful cycle. So, for now, we're shooting for January/February time frame.

I also had another check-up with my regular endocrinologist. I think I've probably mentioned (several times?) that I have an underactive thyroid. Dr. P was basically a pain in the ass from the beginning but my last appointment pretty much confirmed it. She is now affectionately known as Dr. Ass.

My RE checked my levels back in July and it was pretty much the same from when I was released to begin IVF. Apparently, Dr. Ass doesn't take too kindly to other doctors stepping on her turf.

She started lecturing me about how I wasn't taking my medication properly because my TSH should've continued to drop; not remain the same.

And, then she started giving me the 3rd degree on my eating habits. She decides to tell me one year later that dietary fiber can affect absorption.

I might have an occasional bowl of cereal for breakfast but I'm certainly not chowing down on entire logs of fiber so I fail to see how that is affecting anything.

So, anyway. This time last year, they found a nodule on my thyroid gland. I have to have another sonogram to see if it's gotten bigger, smaller or remained the same. If it's gotten bigger, Dr. Ass said I'll need surgery to remove the entire thyroid gland.

Not a fun surgery and certainly not the look I'm going for when wearing v-neck sweaters. I'll look like Frankenstein with a huge scar across my neck.

It would also delay our next cycle because we'd have to get the replacement hormones figured out and regulated before I could start again.

Thinking about Dr. Ass performing any type of surgery on me freaks the hell out of me so I scheduled an appointment with another doctor. I see her on Thursday. We'll see what her opinion is.