Growing so fast

I can't believe how quickly time is passing.  I can remember my IVF cycle, pregnancy and the twins' birth like it was yesterday.

And, now here we are almost 19 months later.  It's exciting to see all of the changes the kids are going through but it makes me a little sad too.  They aren't the cuddly little babies that would fall asleep in my arms anymore.

Now, they are toddlers with opinions.  Oh yes.   Oh-pinions!

About everything.  They know what they want and more importantly, they want it NOW!  Thank God I'm a good multi-tasker because I'm seriously doing 4-5 things at once all of the time. 
Left hand - making lunch
Right hand - pouring milk
Left foot - wiping runny nose
Right foot - tapping and keeping the beat while I sing the Hokey Pokey.

Yep, that's how we roll around here. 

We're all doing well and looking forward to warmer weather.  It's supposed to be an awesome weekend so we'll be outside as much as possible.  I bought a sand/water table that we'll use for the first time today.  We'll see how that goes.  Hopefully no one decides to have sand for lunch.  Bleck!

Since it's been awhile, here's a few recent pictures:

Hey! What's that?!

The kids were taking a bath tonight and K kept looking over at C.  She finally stood up, looked between her legs and said, "Ut Oh". 

Now, I know they are my kids so I'm a little partial but it was seriously the cutest damn thing ever!

We're all doing great and I got some extremely good news about my kitty.  I'm still waiting to talk to the vet so I don't have all of the information but it's looking like my kitty might not have cancer!!!  She's not in the clear because it's still an autoimmune liver disease but at least we're not looking at losing her in 6 months.

The kids are growing by leaps and bounds.  Kendall's vocabulary is now at least 15 words and it seems like she's saying something new every day.  Christopher is talking too but it's not nearly as much as Kendall.  Ah, the difference between boys and girls development.  It really is neat to watch.

I celebrated my birthday over the weekend.  My family came over for the afternoon and then me, DH, my sister and brother-in-law went out for a few drinks that evening.  It was a real treat for all of us.  My sister has a 2 1/2 year old and a 6 month old so they don't get out much either.   It was nice to act like adults!

I am still reading all of your blogs even though I absolutely suck at posting and leaving comments.  Most of the time, I quickly check in via my iPhone but trying to type and leave comments is too frustrating and then by the time I get home, it's hard to find the time to log on. 

Hopefully I still have some readers?

Suckity suckity suck suck

I mentioned in my last post that my cat is sick.  They think she has cancer. 

Notice I said "think".  Because, you know.  Nothing is EVER easy.

They've done bloodwork, an ultrasound and a fine needle aspirate.  We've spent almost $2,000 for a diagnosis of "we think".

I've done a lot of research and, to their credit, distinguishing between liver cancer and liver disease is hard.  The symptoms mirror each other almost identically.  Some of her test results aren't definitive but they are pointing more toward cancer than an infection. With today's technology, you'd think they would figure out a way to identify one from the other.

If it is cancer, we have 2-6 months left with her.  If it's liver disease or a form of hepatitis, we could have 6 months to 2 years.

And, so we wait.  The vet has offered other tests that could be more conclusive but the $2,000 we've already spent has cut into our already tight budget.  We could pursue chemo for another $5,000 but there's no guarantee it will work and at best, it might buy her another year.

So, we've opted to do what we can to keep her happy and when the time comes, we'll say goodbye.  For now, she's still eating, drinking and remains active.  But, every time I see her, it breaks my heart.

She's my first baby.  We've had her since she was 8 weeks old and we're going on 13 years now.  She comes down to get me when it's time for bed, she waits for me to wash my face and she sleeps with me every night. 

How can having a pet be so great and suck so much at the same time?  You always know this day will come but somehow, we're never prepared. 

Christopher has grown very attached to her.  When she comes downstairs, he runs over and pets her and hugs her.  He's so gentle.

Part of me is thankful that we're dealing with this now instead of next year when the kids will truly understand that the kitty is gone.  I don't know if I'm ready to see the heartbreak of a child who has lost a pet.  That "heaven" conversation is awfully hard.

Have a good night everyone.  I'm going to snuggle with my kitty.