life throws you unexpected changes. change is good and often brings its own rewards for the hardship which it brings. i dont know if i would say ive "turned a new leaf" but i definately have changed. in my mind and heart. but the consequence of change is the unknowing. when you do the same thing and dont change, you know your result. and so far, change hasnt been much of a part of my life. i mean, i try and do new things, but i always resort back to the same unchanging world. ever since my birthday ive been reflecting. things on the inside are changing. the way i think, act, feel are changing. i am changing inside and out. ive started the baby steps. i know what i want in baby steps, but my ultimate goal is still unknown to me. i know the direction of who i want to be and where i want to go, but the girl who once was is slowly revolving into the woman i want to be. the past is gone and nothing will change that. i have few regrets and love the trials ive gone through for they were perfect and a gift. im not sure if everyone gets to this point in their life where they hit a crossroads of sorts and their life completely changes. ive made some very difficult decisions in the past couple of months. the things in my life that i just went with are no longer able to be in my life and the choices and the person i once was is no longer a part of who i am. the learning, growth and opportunities that have occured in my life have changed me forever. every individual has affected me in some way. and every sincere action has changed who i am and how i view the world. with the help of my savior and father in heaven my dreams are coming true, even though, at times, i am unaware of what those dreams, or my capability truly is. no matter who i was, i am changing for the better.
