Posted on: Saturday, December 31, 2011
Posted at: 12/31/2011 11:20:00 AM
Posted at: 12/31/2011 11:20:00 AM
At times, you cry alone. And you have no one to cry on. But the reason youre crying is cause of yourself too. Youre the stupid one who did stuffs and caused everything to be bad. You fucked up your own relationship. You were the one who deserves all this. Now she will never open up to you ever again. And its all YOUR fault danish. YOURS. no one but yours.
i just.. hate myself. Today's gonna be a difficult day. Ill perform and Ill leave. Ill leave before anything.
I promise myself i wont ever fuck up her life in 2012. I wont even do anything stupid. I promise.
i just.. hate myself. Today's gonna be a difficult day. Ill perform and Ill leave. Ill leave before anything.
I promise myself i wont ever fuck up her life in 2012. I wont even do anything stupid. I promise.
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Posted at: 12/31/2011 11:19:00 AM
Posted at: 12/31/2011 11:19:00 AM
I guess i fucked things up.
Posted on: Thursday, December 29, 2011
Posted at: 12/29/2011 11:57:00 AM
Posted at: 12/29/2011 11:57:00 AM
When you care abt someone and love someone like your own adik. When she does sth that hurts you or makes you sad, you dont tell her ant it. Cause whats making you sad is whate making her happy. Or as it seems.
So you just keep to yourself. Away from everybody else. Even when you go out, you hav a door where your feelings are there and your deepest worry and happiness are there.. No ones close cause youll
Hurt them. What matters is that youre happy my dear mira :)
So you just keep to yourself. Away from everybody else. Even when you go out, you hav a door where your feelings are there and your deepest worry and happiness are there.. No ones close cause youll
Hurt them. What matters is that youre happy my dear mira :)
Posted on: Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Posted at: 12/28/2011 08:58:00 AM
Posted at: 12/28/2011 08:58:00 AM
This morning i saw an old uncle. And i as sitting on the proority seat. But i didnt give up my seat. He entered to the other side of the cabin. If he entered my side id hv given him. But i could have called out to him and ask him. Part of me wanted to sit and nt give my seat up. I.. Feel bad..
Posted on: Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Posted at: 12/27/2011 12:00:00 PM
Posted at: 12/27/2011 12:00:00 PM
When i eat more than i should.. That means.. Im sad. And depressed.
Posted on: Monday, December 26, 2011
Posted at: 12/26/2011 03:42:00 PM
Posted at: 12/26/2011 03:42:00 PM
The closer i get to someone, the more i become scared. The more I wanna withdraw myself. The more I just want to leave. Im scared. I dont wanna hurt anyone. Id rather live alone. Without troubling anyone. Music. Thats what carries me through. Im so.. idk.
http://youtu.be/zlLsVn4YWoA
That video. That live version of it will rain on ellen. Thats the best ive seen. I dont care. its nicest. hahahha. no ones gonna watch it anyway. But ill watch it in a few years time. I found a couple of things when i was cleaning my ws today. My sec 2 grp hist proj disc! My chinese special program books and my physics notes. alot of other notes too and ws. But i kept some that were meaningful. Like the chem notes naz gave me. The ones in sec four. And my own physics notes in sec four. The one i spent a lot of time on. But now that i dont take any sciences idk who to give the notes to :/ the books also alot. Like sec 2 lit books and sec science books. >< expensive. Id love to donate to whoever needs it so takyah buang duit beli. Save sikit kan. At least 20 dollars. thats alot. :)
Hope my dad can find one of his friends that needs them so we can help anyone out. And as for the ws, im gonna recycle! :D so like tak waste kan.
Charlie's asleep. Hes been sleeping. His bone feels weird and im worried ): I hope hes ok. OH ytd i urut my kaki yang sakit with oil and i bace selawat nabi. Now alhamdulillah dah ok! :D thank you Allah. I feel better now. Imma try run tonight. or tmr.. or the day after tmr hehehe. ELLEN IS AWESOME! HAHAHA shes damn cool, and nice too. she helps people and entertains them. makes people happy. and she makes peoples dreams come true. itll be better if she can help more family with her wealth and popularity. but i guess she does have a heart of gold :)
I miss you naz. I do.
http://youtu.be/zlLsVn4YWoA
That video. That live version of it will rain on ellen. Thats the best ive seen. I dont care. its nicest. hahahha. no ones gonna watch it anyway. But ill watch it in a few years time. I found a couple of things when i was cleaning my ws today. My sec 2 grp hist proj disc! My chinese special program books and my physics notes. alot of other notes too and ws. But i kept some that were meaningful. Like the chem notes naz gave me. The ones in sec four. And my own physics notes in sec four. The one i spent a lot of time on. But now that i dont take any sciences idk who to give the notes to :/ the books also alot. Like sec 2 lit books and sec science books. >< expensive. Id love to donate to whoever needs it so takyah buang duit beli. Save sikit kan. At least 20 dollars. thats alot. :)
Hope my dad can find one of his friends that needs them so we can help anyone out. And as for the ws, im gonna recycle! :D so like tak waste kan.
Charlie's asleep. Hes been sleeping. His bone feels weird and im worried ): I hope hes ok. OH ytd i urut my kaki yang sakit with oil and i bace selawat nabi. Now alhamdulillah dah ok! :D thank you Allah. I feel better now. Imma try run tonight. or tmr.. or the day after tmr hehehe. ELLEN IS AWESOME! HAHAHA shes damn cool, and nice too. she helps people and entertains them. makes people happy. and she makes peoples dreams come true. itll be better if she can help more family with her wealth and popularity. but i guess she does have a heart of gold :)
I miss you naz. I do.
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Posted at: 12/26/2011 12:20:00 AM
Posted at: 12/26/2011 12:20:00 AM
I have fever, diarrhea and flu all at once. Suffering in silence. Allah is really testing me.
Posted on: Sunday, December 25, 2011
Posted at: 12/25/2011 06:31:00 PM
Posted at: 12/25/2011 06:31:00 PM
So i couldnt really run 4km. My timing was like what 23 mins? ): it used to be at least below 20. meaning 3-4 mins extra. Gosh i really had difficulty running. Made worse by my left hamstring being injured. Honestly, it hurts. :/ It hurts a bit too much when i stretch. ): So idk what to do. Hopefully, itll be okay soon. So i can run easier and maybe faster. Im too tired to do exercises :/ give myself 5-10 mins rest first luh.
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Posted at: 12/25/2011 05:24:00 PM
Posted at: 12/25/2011 05:24:00 PM
Hi (:
I guess no one really reads this blog anymore. So imma post things up here. I guess sometimes its better for me to write it down than to hurt someone with my words. No worries, i wont violate any rules or laws. No racism no badwords. Just my thoughts :)
I miss sara. Dont worry naz, I still love you and only you :) Haha i scroll down my blog.. and i see the posts she posted! haha and i smile. thanks :)
Im gonna go run now. Then after this, ill try out some work out that i found on youtube. The gym is kinda close anyway. So i guess have to exercise at home. Im fat now. Got belly. Haha. Before i went for holiday, i was pretty fit. 4km in 18 mins and all. now... 4 km. im dying. hehe. I dont know who im writing to. but i guess this is... better.
Im gonna work my way up again. Im gonna keep running again and make sure i can keep 4km at 18 mins plus. Like i used to be able to do. And im gonna get rid of my tummy. My fat tummy. I miss a flat tummy. easy to put jeans on.. And maybe insya Allah can get abs.
Oh im gonna make sure i dont miss solat lima waktu. Im doing a good job i guess but not perfect. Kalau boleh jgn miss langsung. Insya Allah. Im gonna be a better muslim! and a better guy. Even if im alone, Allah is here. I believe, he will help me. If i turn to him, have time for Him, he will have time for me. I love you Allah.
And then schools starting soon too.. Means ive to start studying again! I finished 2 chapters of math :D gonna start on chap 3 tonight.. at like.. maybe 8 plus? and try finish chapter 3 although its alot. :/ When i finish chap 3, im left with 4,5 and S1 :D YAY!!
Oh ive to keep reading malay book too. Restu, that one got hw. And econs too. Nak kena start. Ah ): Im gonna settle what i have to do tonight first.
1) Go run now!!
2) Exercise
3) Solat maghrib and baca yaasin
4) Start and try finish math chap 3
5) Sleep or sth. Ah :D
Bye <3
I guess no one really reads this blog anymore. So imma post things up here. I guess sometimes its better for me to write it down than to hurt someone with my words. No worries, i wont violate any rules or laws. No racism no badwords. Just my thoughts :)
I miss sara. Dont worry naz, I still love you and only you :) Haha i scroll down my blog.. and i see the posts she posted! haha and i smile. thanks :)
Im gonna go run now. Then after this, ill try out some work out that i found on youtube. The gym is kinda close anyway. So i guess have to exercise at home. Im fat now. Got belly. Haha. Before i went for holiday, i was pretty fit. 4km in 18 mins and all. now... 4 km. im dying. hehe. I dont know who im writing to. but i guess this is... better.
Im gonna work my way up again. Im gonna keep running again and make sure i can keep 4km at 18 mins plus. Like i used to be able to do. And im gonna get rid of my tummy. My fat tummy. I miss a flat tummy. easy to put jeans on.. And maybe insya Allah can get abs.
Oh im gonna make sure i dont miss solat lima waktu. Im doing a good job i guess but not perfect. Kalau boleh jgn miss langsung. Insya Allah. Im gonna be a better muslim! and a better guy. Even if im alone, Allah is here. I believe, he will help me. If i turn to him, have time for Him, he will have time for me. I love you Allah.
And then schools starting soon too.. Means ive to start studying again! I finished 2 chapters of math :D gonna start on chap 3 tonight.. at like.. maybe 8 plus? and try finish chapter 3 although its alot. :/ When i finish chap 3, im left with 4,5 and S1 :D YAY!!
Oh ive to keep reading malay book too. Restu, that one got hw. And econs too. Nak kena start. Ah ): Im gonna settle what i have to do tonight first.
1) Go run now!!
2) Exercise
3) Solat maghrib and baca yaasin
4) Start and try finish math chap 3
5) Sleep or sth. Ah :D
Bye <3
Posted on: Saturday, August 21, 2010
Posted at: 8/21/2010 11:45:00 PM
Posted at: 8/21/2010 11:45:00 PM
FEELING BETTER.
I LOVE YOU!!
HAHA.
Thanks for the geylang trip! <3 will remember it for lyfe
I LOVE YOU!!
HAHA.
Thanks for the geylang trip! <3 will remember it for lyfe
