Delta-4477 : Beyond The Blue

Somehow this got stuck in my head. I still think it’s more for emo types than me, but this just seems to be so…real:

Verse 1:

I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy, but no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said.

Chorus:

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own.

Verse 2:

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

[Chorus]

I tried to be perfect it just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along.

[Chorus]

Some lucky associates of mine are attending leadership camp.

…I wanna tag along.

…but I don’t think Ms. Debbie would take kindly to that.

Anyway, have fun fellows! Be punctual! Enjoy 3 days away from urban life without your parents hovering over you.

“What happens when waves break upon a rocky cliff?”

It breaks apart, only to reform around the base.

Persistence is the key, not patience.

//

I recall a time when I was deadlocked over a major issue. I said “It takes a strong will to persist through hardships”.

I will never forget what my close associate said: “It takes an even stronger will to realize that one has made a mistake, to drop the vested effort and begin anew, for that means you are in total control of yourself: able to hold on to what is worth, and let go of what is not.”

I did not truly understand his words then, but now I do. Now, I truly do. Giving up isn’t necessarily an action for the weak. It takes great willpower to recognize and acknowledge our own mistakes.

As an esteemed acquaintance once said, “The loss of some friends is not a loss at all”.

“Do you remember the first day you stepped into college?

Your insecurity showed with every tentative step you took.

Your apprehension, compounded by the slight chill, made you feel awkward.

But despite all that, you remained alert.

You were silent because you knew no one.

You were humble because you have achieved nothing.

You were reticent when socializing because you knew not where toes lay lest they be treaded on.

As a result of your silence, you adhered to one of your guiding principles.

As a result of your humility, you acknowledged your ignorance and learned much.

As a result of your reticence, you impressed upon others an image of aloofness that kept you sane.

Where now is that silence?

Where now is that humility?

Where now is that reticence?

Do you still remember? “