I will love you .. come what may

I wrote this poem on 14jan 2003… one of my earlier works… probably why nothing dark in it
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I shall be there for you,forever and ever to come
To be with you always,to be not two but one
walk with you through lanes ahead dark and sly,
be with you through all your sorrows and strife.

We shall show the world,the strength that lies,
deep beneath our feelings for each other,in our eyes.
with the essence of each other,shall we live apart for a while,
but together in our hearts beating in unison,in our smile.

I have seen a life out there,free from care
filled with joys and happiness,and a lot to spare,
For long i have prayed,with only one thought in my mind,
A thought very divine,a thought “thou art mine”.

With the fear of the world our steps shall not quiver,
We shall fall on each other through horror and rise,not shiver.
Aboard the ship of hardships shall we make a world,
A world Utopian,replete with love,OUR WORLD.

there is a promise,my love,I make,far away though we stay
My love for you shall be always there,come what may.
For, O! my Love!,What the wall of thorns to cross,
If the mere touch of thy lay across.

September 11, 2008
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Maybe that night…

This is a translation of a Hindi poem I wrote in May 2004 …

Dusk was approaching the city covered by lights,

there was commotion all around, hustle in someone’s mind.

Shadows cast by dark clouds encroached upon the sunlight,

as he kept walking on a path that had been nothing but unkind.

An ordinary man, he traveled on the less often traveled paths,

but his destination was in someone’s arms, his love.

He took a detour towards darkness,to face the path’s wrath,

as he could sense her fragrance from that road,feel her love.

Blinded in love,darkness tried but invain to be an impediment,

only to find his march getting swifter, and his breath quicker.

Then lightning struck, halting his life long journey in a moment,

It was not fear but the sight of a tear,the momentary glimpse of her.

The moon was now out in the sky, clouds had been banished from there,

the only noise that could be heard was of the silence that lat around.

there was a slight breeze,as their breath caused ripples in the air,

Frigid weather,the only warmth they got was from the heated ground ..

there was only one heart beating maybe,between the two bodies,

faith was flowing between them,the depth seen in their eyess.

filling each other in love’s embrace, they sat beneath the trees,

with a haggard body,she placed his head gently on her thighs.

She played with his hair,talking not in words but mischievous signs,

hiding the plethora of thorns that lay pierced in her,under a smile.

He had always known her plight,knew she had endured great pains,

but he kept mum, to make the mesmerizing moment last for a while.

The last expression on their face was that of a contended smile,

as their heartbeats lowered becoming heavier in every breath.

I know not for sure, maybe some tears were shed that day,

maybe those few moments turned eternal,filling life’s dearth.

maybe the hearts had succumbed that day,stopped beating,

maybe two souls had joined as one and left the world that night.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Kavita~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Shayad us raat ko….

Din ke teesre pehar ka anth tha, roshini se dhake us shehar mein,

charoon aur chahel pehal thi,shor macha tha kisi ke mann mein

aaftab chup raha tha,ghane baadaloon ki chaon mein

Ek umr lamba safar tai kar raha tha wo,nirdayi rahoon pe.

ek samanya rahi hi tha magar asaamanya raahoon pe,

manzil uski alag thi,door kisi ki baahoon mein.

Ek mod mud gaya vo,chal pada andhere ki oor,

Kareeb kahin thi wo, hawa ki lehron mein ehsaas tha uska.

Andhera ghana tha,par kab gavara thi roshni us ulfat ke andhe ko,

Uski dhadkannein badh rahi thi,kadamoon  mein furti bhar rahi thi.

Achanak bijli kadki,aur uski dhadkan jaise tham si gayi,

vo saamne khadi thi uske,aankhoon mein nami bhi thi

mahtaab ab benakaab ho raha tha,shor bhi jaise sirf sannate ka tha,

pavan to beh rahi thi magar,sirf unke saansoon mein.

Ek dil dhadak raha tha,shayad do jismoon ke beech,

Ek vishwas beh raha tha,un aankhoon  ke beech.

baith gaye pedon ke neeche vo,pyaar ki baahoon mein,

thaka hua tha wo,aur let gaya tha uski goad mein.

Khel rahi thi uske baalon se,aur baatein kar rahi thi nat khat isshaaroon se,

hasi thi khili hui thi chehre pe,kai chube hue kaante chupaye the usne aanchal mein.

Wo jaanta tha ki dard tha, chupa hua uske dil mein,

par kuch na kehna chahta tha wo,anoothe us ek pal mein.

Ek halki si muskaan aane lagi unke hoonthoon pe,dhadkanein ab bhaari hone lagi thi,

kuch ashq vida hue the shayad us raat ko,kuch lamhe ek sadi bane the shayad us raat ko,

dhadkanein duniya ke sitamoon ke bhaar tale dab gayi thi shayad us raat ko,

do roohein ek ho chod chali thi sansaar, shayad us raat ko…

September 7, 2008
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On the path of love….

His body was on the ground,as life was dripping out
His eyes were dry and open,as the sun burned them out
The hay was flying hither tither, dust swirled in the air
The dryness of the Lips,was causing them to tear.
He lay there amputated,not his body,just his soul
He just wanted to leave,bid adieu to the world
His mind held him captive,using chains of pictures
Of his life,his love,his desires and his adventures

One constant thought plagued him,Of what went wrong,
Where had he faltered,why he ended up lying there woe-begone
Why had he lost his love,why it got buried under the ground
Why had the world cursed it,to chains of misery got it bound..
A dream entered those eyes,which were still open
In it he saw a spirit, the embodiment of bad omen
The spirit hovered around his living corpse,
laughing heartlessly at him,mocking at his soiled props.

Something lay concealed within the eyes of the omen
It looked like her reaching out from beyond a blurred horizon
Telling him that their love’s journey was not yet over
So what if the ground has been burnt?,the summer is still not over.
He still had to walk over many thorns, go all the way
But he had lost his faith in succeeding as haggard there he lay
The omen swooped tying to move him,make him stand on his ground
Displaying before him his love,it’s moments sights and sounds

He closed and reopened his eyes,only to pick up his lost courage
the picture of a tear on her face,His strength now was his rage
He found his motivation in being there for his love, ridding her of her pain
His soul amputated, he marched like a wounded soldier not yet slain
There was a flash ,suddenly he knew what had gone wrong
He knew why she cried,why he lay there haggard and woe begone
how he had forgotten to give,how very selfish he had become
As he failed to see the pain she never showed,Such misery had come

He realised his folly, realising he made her pay for loving him
A price of tears,misery,pain and sorrow all given by him
That he was blinded by his pride,her plight he had not seen
He had kept wallowing in self pity,not caring how she had been..
His head bent with shame, he walked on thorns to see her smile  again
Hoping to be a better man in the future,being responsible for his love’s gain..

August 30, 2008
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you complete me

Every moment that passes by,
Holds your picture in my eyes..
The thought of you does not go away,
I love you, in my heart you stay…

O! my love , it was an Utopian life,
Free from discontentment and strife..
I still feel the soothing sight of your smile,
Feeling lost in paradise for a while..

I wonder, how you made me a child,
Brought out the mischief,let me go wild..
I had transcended many worlds with you,
Holding your hand, being replete with you..

Now it is me, and I am still standing by,
You are gone, have become an angel in the sky..
I know my sorrow still makes you cry,
It’s still raining,your tears haven’t gone dry..

I shall be happy,not let my promise break,
Find happiness, another bond I shall make..
But the inside of me shall never be replete,
Without you, my life’s portrait shall never be complete..

August 21, 2008
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… could not give it a title…

Initially I cud not come up with a title but then a friend suggested a title i liked.. so shruti bansal thanks for naming it for me..

Love lasts…Come what may..

A cool breeze was blowing,the night was milky white
clouds were on a break, stars were shining bright.
the curtains fluttered often,breaking the silence of the night,
they lay cuddled under the quilt, having turned off the light..

He held her in his arms, staring deep into her eyes,
she wondered at his act,tried to shy away from his eyes.
she tickled her way out, leaving him with contended sighs,
playing with him, with a child’s mischief sparkling in her eyes.

the mischief soon disappeared, as her face filled with pain,
it was their last night together, the thought struck her again..
She cursed herself for it, in her own court she stood arraigned,
she loved him true to her heart, yet was turning into his bane.

she knew he had understood, strongly stood by her decision,
he was responsible for it too, yet she justified his position .
she wanted to see him always smile,have his appellation,
give up her life for his, such was her love’s disposition.

it had to be done for her conscience, there was an ethical reason,
their love was true, yet going through with it would lead to a treason.
he had made her believe, their bond could survive all seasons,
she relied on his strength to hold his own, defend their love’s bastion.

He saw it all in her eyes, the pain in that moment,
swooped her off her feet,trying to rid her of the torment.
dancing with her still in his arms,as the night grew more silent,
he told her their love would last,even if it became their punishment.

reminded her the code they had made in love for each other
that their life was beautiful because they made it for each other,
their life had joys because they gave them to each other,
that they had a life because they had made it worth living for each other.
even if they had to pay a price for being right,they would pay it together..

July 31, 2008
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his bride

a day dawned and went by,

giving way to a lonely night

the stars were up , a crystal clear sky,

with a full moon looking milky white

dew on the grass filled two eyes

depleted with hope, towards the sky
the drops did fall as the ground bore sweat,
with the burden of his grief, the fate he had met
the wind grew moist from the tears in his eyes..
tears in memory of his love, heart and life.

agony caused by the loss of his wife..
She would make his problems disappear in a snap,
find a way out for him, through every cul-de-sac.
She would rejuvenate him,often make him a child,
pamper him, with her love make him go wild..
She gave him a thousand reasons to smile,
with her no agony lasted for more than a while..
Now she was gone,flashes of the past crowded his mind,
how she had been selfless and always very kind..
how he had often not noticed her cry,
instead of having wiped them,he let them dry..
Love her, he did, but also his own pride,
he had forgotten to LOVE back his own bride..
The pain of loss, had long left him,
the affliction of repentance now plagued him..
He had lost his chance, and also his pride,
for he had not truly treated her like his bride..

July 29, 2008
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This is me…Why did you not love me..?


I had watched you smile,and cuddle with me,
you had held me close, purged the sorrow in me.
I had seen you cry,taken your tears away with me,
you had made me a child,disinterred the innocence in me.

Bad times had come and you saw other sides of me,
You liked some,and prayed for some to leave me
There you were, by the side of me,
changing so many things in me.

Who you were,never concerned me,
but you seemed unhappy,with what is me.
This is me,I said,the real me
the one I always want to be,every part of me.

I would never let you get hurt because of me,
I could never live with that agony.
But you walked away leaving me,
for you did not like being without changing me.

I always thought you had said you loved me,
then why was it that you tried changing me.
I thought you would understand by changing me,
You would not have the one who loved you,the real me.

Why could you not love the bad in me ?
when you fell head over heels for the good in me ?
My tears have dried,alone lies the real me,
You knew I had tried,why didn’t you try to stay with me ?

This is me..
This is who I will always be..
That was you…
That is who I always wanted you to be..
But I always wanted YOU to be with …………
ME !

July 25, 2008
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My father’s letter to my brother and me….

Dear Kachri,

Time off from my work ; thought of tickling you a bit! First things first – did you receive my mail on personality development ? Let me know.

In the process of growing – mentally & physically – with age, emotional world also grows and finds its expression in certain ways: moments of joy, happiness
and not lacking behind those of grief. Emotional world has many parameters and therefore as many attributes as well, if not more. There is this kind of emotion
among brothers & sisters; between brothers & sisters as also parents and their children. Its intensity between an individual and his/her kith & kins naturally
evolves and , therefore, is not of the same magnitude on a scale. Nothing wrong with that as that is natural.

Above all, there is this very special kind of emotion which – if it finds an expression – causes metamorphosis in an individual’s internal world. No body ever plans
for it , but it just manifests itself catching one unawares. That beautiful fleeting moment, that arouses boundless emotional tides, is that of ‘LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT‘.
Nobody could ever reason it out much less explain it, because it just happens. The communication thru eyes – during that fleeting moment – and both find themselves
on ‘cloud 9‘. Whatever happens thereafter is not material , but divine intervention makes that marvelous event possible. No reasoning helps; no counseling helps; none
of the sermons help; the defiance to any kind of resistance leads – more often than not – to marriage! How things shape up thereafter, only TIME unfolds the mystery.

Very few fortunate ones experience that kind of divine bliss. For others it is a routine matter – lot of reasoning & planning to find the match – and yet only TIME
unfolds the hidden mystery.

You kids have added a third dimension to this !! That is, trying to look out for one & then reason out mutually whether the prospective bride/bridegroom is worth the
effort & decision!!! Kiddu, in my opinion this is neither arithmetic nor geometric mean of the two approaches detailed in the preceding text.

There are certain fundamental laws of nature that every one of us need to keep in mind – when it comes to inter-personnel relationships – & one of the AXIOMS is that,,

AXIOM 1:

YOU CAN NEVER UNDERSTAND OTHER PERSON YOUR WHOLE LIFETIME TO PRE JUDGE/DECIDE FOR REST OF THE LIFE! YOU CAN BEST DEVISE DYNAMICALLY WAYS & MEANS FOR A HAPPY PEACEFUL & JOYOUS LIFE TOGETHER!

I have always held that anybody who makes a statement,” I know him” , makes it out of ignorance if not arrogance. All thru my life I have understood that I do not know myself
because I am sometimes amazed/disturbed/pained/ saddened by my thought process within ; my acts & deeds in the external world, notwithstanding. The point I am trying to make is that even if – lets say – I have done no harm to anyone till date is no guarantee that I shall not do that in future (!!) because base instincts never die out & that I have not been able to erase at least a few of them is my singular failure. Therefore, if your Mom says that she KNOWS ME I smile within myself for the reason that she could not have known me when I am ignorant & unsure of myself , even at 58 yrs of my age.

AXIOM 2:

LIFE IS SIMPLE KEEP IT THAT WAY !

Life evolves and in the process of doing so it throws up many surprises; brings forth moments of joy & grief. Not all that happens in one’s life can be reasoned out. In my opinion, Causation is not the all defining parameter of the dynamics of life. There is something beyond & above all that which we are unable to fathom. Therefore, life cannot be planned in its totality in advance. If I try to do that, I make LIFE COMPLICATED, but LIFE IS SIMPLE!!!

AXIOM 3:

BEING CAREFUL IS NOT BEING APPREHENSIVE!

No matter how big a business, a business concern and/or anything that comes to be a part of my life; whatever infrastructure I may devise scientifically for it to succeed
I should not loose sight of the fact that in the end it is the mutual faith & trust that shall oil the bearings of the gigantic wheels of the chariot of my life that encompasses
my endeavours too. Therefore, I always need to start with implicit trust & faith in all that I have and all those who cohabit with me. Watchful may be the word , not
apprehensive for, if I am latter I shall only die every moment and not live a single moment.

To take a pause here, I would think that if you go thru the text seriously it may help !!!!

Love & regards.

papa

June 20, 2008
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main tujhse kya kahoon..

main tere se dil ka haal bayaan karooon to kaise karoon..
khoya hua hai wo gardishoon mein uska deedar karvaoon to kaise karvaoon..
mere armaan ki tadap ka ehsaas dilaoon to kaise dilaaon..
tujhse har baat samajhne ki umeed rakhta hoon to kaise samjhaoon..
main khud hi bikhar raha hoon tujhse gila bhi karoon to kya karoon..
neend bhi zalim ho gayi hai,ek pal chain paane ka khwaab bhi dekhoon to kaise dekhoon..
meri aankhoon ka sukh gaya hai udaas pani usmein dubana chahoon to kaise duboon..

February 25, 2008
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Laya hoon..ek nagma…tere liye

laya hoon ankahi…ajnabi si pyaar ki ek pankhadi….
khwaboon mein rehguzar hogi jo,aisi hi..ek pankhadi
pheroonga usko main tere tan pe,O pari
halki si chuan se ,badan ki tilmilan se aayegi ek hasi
gulab ki panhadiyon jaise tere laboon pe
laya hoon aise pal…simta ke teri aahoon mein
jo khule to failey charoon aur mastiyaan..
sunahre kalpanaon ko bhi wo sharmajayegi
tere mahekoon se saje…honge pal,jaise baghoon mein kali..
tei aankhoon ki nammiii..hogi na unme kahi..
laya hoon aise hi ek anmol si kadi
mere dil mein basi teri ulfat ki hai wohi dastaan..
dard aur shikan nahin,hai jannatoon se bhari
muskurahatoon se rangi tassavuroon ki gali..
laya hoon tere dar pe aisi hi ek sada..
mere dil ke armaan jo honge na ab fanaa.
tujhko hi le jaoonga main wahaan, honge jahaan..
aise hi kai saherien,shyaamein aur ek choti si dastaan
laaya hoon himmatein,mitane ab dooriyaan..
ab nahin hongi fir kabhi koi addchanein apne darmiyaan..
jaan ke bhi ki hai tu ajnabi..,chahoonga
ye ulfat hai meri prerit tujhse hi..
bhulkar bhi kabhi na juda hoonga kabhi..
chahogi umr bhar humko bhi..hai yakeen
poorn karti hai meri tasveer ko jo wo rang ho tumhi…
rang auroon ka bhi hai magar,tere bagair adhuri hai tasveer meri..

February 14, 2008
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