=)

you know. sometimes things aren't as bad as you think they are. i think i should learn to live with it.

a very interesting day. busy morning. kinda terasa when i saw them gathering. but managed to control myself. had fun during custom check. science class was fun. learnt about reproduction. it's not as interesting as..we thought it would be. but we managed to make jokes out of simple things. haha. jon came and asked about the PA thingy. that made me missed what teacher said about menstruation. i hate missing important talks. as in..it will come out in the exam right? so yeah.

and we didn't know the time was shortened. so by the time we came out from the science lab, recess has ended. so i assume the canteen was in an even chaotic mess, seeing the absence of jaarvis. but no big deal right? it's only messy canteen. hehe.

tomyam is quite nice actually. but not satisfying enough.

classes after recess was normal. didn't really have any p&p actually. serene, kim, kai shek, ushana and i were talking through the last period - moral. we really had a lot of fun. like we never had before. and then the debaters came back. and they joined us. so there was even more joy.

garry was molested by kee. he [kee] touched garry's balls from the back, between his legs. i leave the imagination to you people. and clement was nearly molested by jaarvis. the same way too. haha! the laughter. omg.

then jo and jaarvis told me about that indian guy prefect whose name escapes me at the moment is now the head prefect. and i thought they were going to say something about catherine. =.= anyway, who bothers about that head prefect. although it would be fun if we can go to the sbu gathering. STUPID KURSUS KEPIMPIMAN. HATE YOU! YOU BETTER BE INTERESTING AND WORTH OUR TIME OR ELSE..

clement was saying that he wanna shift to sbu in form four. haih. no comment about it. i just don't know why.

and he and jo was saying that sbu form three girls are... i'm so not going to say it. however, jo [and clement if you happen to be reading this], i just wanna tell you to that, after a deep thinking, i don't believe what both of you said. about the sbu girls thingy. in my opinion it's still impossible. unless i witness it myself or something. x)

anyway. holiday tomorrow. enjoy people. AND I WANNA WATCH AMERICAN IDOL! demmit this download is so slow.

Tuesday blue?

it certainly wasn't a good day.

lawrence commented about hairstyles today. and i really terasa. terasa until teruk-teruk that kind somemore. i don't know why. but i just terasa. i can't help but my hair stands naturally god damn it you buggers

then early in the morning saw those debaters. i don't know why but i wasn't feeling good. i felt..left out. and...jealous. don't ask me why. i just..felt..so. therefore my mood was completely down after that.

having a free time during geog class didn't help much. when we were doing the exercise, the fact that i suck in geog was proven. i couldn't remember anything. tempat-tempat pemeliharaan haiwan-haiwan. all the empangans and shits. i've completely forgotten them.

bm was normal. not very boring. but normal.

recess. that's when things got worse. because of my forgetfulness, i have to walk from downstairs to three floors up to get the paper i printed for tzen hong. and after that, called by someone to find the debaters again. dahla i said i didn't see them since recess started. he wanted them to meet him right away jugak. bloody hell.

some more it's about debaters again. terasa again. AGAIN! was not feeling good. at all.

then. amanahians came out late from bengkel kh. i saw garry on his way to his class. while i wanted to gather the prefects already. he saw me looking at him. so he asked, can he put his things in his class first.

because that innocent face of his, because our friendship.. i don't know why. but i let him. eventhough i was about to scold the prefects. YES, SCOLD.

and then shortly after that i asked jaarvis where are all the 3A prefects, he said i gave them permission to put their stuffs first.

FINE.

everything was raging deep inside me. i am not sure but i think i overdid it. i scolded them like..like...however bad a father can be when he scolds his children. i hope they sedar-sedar. zzz.

then free time during sivic class. and i kinda told kim, serene and huee ming if he was listening [kai shek was sitting directly in front of kim so he definitely heard it] about what i felt. and i think i agree with kim and kai shek. i suppose i think too much. toooo much. until i think about something bukan-bukan already. maybe i should relax or something.

wait. i said i was jealous. it was NOT because vicky asked them whether they wanna join the team and he didn't ask me. i was jealous MERELY because..because..[this really sounds very stupid] this year, we don't do and join things together like we used to last year. and i really felt left out. and jealous. can't help it. 

after the talk. i felt better. and we talked about..wet dreams and masturbating. = = all thanks to serene.

and i realised something. when i am not in the right mood, i can ignore everything. everything as in EVERYTHING, y'know. that is a little bit scary i think.

and angeline, imo, is a weird girl.

oh yeah. kai shek and kim said we used to be really close to each other. we were? how come i can't even remember the slightest incident? all the walking-together-thingy and whatsnot. but it's all in the past right now. although this sounds cruel, it really is [in the past right now].

after writing this, i should be feeling better. good day to you, blogger, and myself. =)

waiting for the worst to come.

i'm supposed to be studying right now. that was the initial plan. and i planned it myself. but i ended up watching project superstar. however those retards didn'tworth my time. henley was horrible. maybe because he's sick. because he sounded better in the video. but i think wee is better than him. he can sing better and he even looks better. hehe!

about the girls. no idea. i didn't watch. but i guess they're much better than the guys.

however. this project superstar's quality is much worse than other reality singing competitions. one in a million is so much better, although the best reality singing competition is still American Idol. =D blake and jordin and chris and melinda will be in the final! no lakisha. no no! xD

...

okay maybe i was stupid and thought a lot of stupid things.

and maybe i'm also stupid to believe that it can happen that way.

but i want to do this.

please, shield every one of my friends from misfortune.

may luck be by their side.

may luck be by her side.

amen

i don't think i can use that. but who cares.

amen.

don't get around muchie anymore / don't speak

oh my gosh i think i'm in love with chris richardson. PUNYA VOICE! omg. very. erm. sexy? OH MY GOSH I CAN'T BELIEVE I JUST SAID [typed] THAT.

WAIT WAIT. I AM NOT GAY. SO TO ALL THE GIRLS OUT THERE DON'T BE DISAPPOINTED. ROFLMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ai ya. he really has a nice voice leh. really really nice. and blake also. but chris's is nicer. melinda and jordin can sing very well too!! i just love them! xD

and i saw a photo the other day which shocked the daylight out of my life. a photo of blake sitting on chris [richardson] on one-seat sofa. SITTING ON. like what? SO GAY? it looks cool. BUT GAY. well of course it's photoshopped la. don't know who so free go do something like that. = =

aha! yes crys that was the photo i saw. not other someone-kissing-or-doing-something-obscene-to-me photos. = =

eh that made me wanna learn how to use photoshop. is it hard people? i guess it is. i don't even understand the htmls and codes and stuff. @_@

ai ya don't wanna learn la. i just wanna learn how to differentiate ori photos and photoshopped photos. aha! so that i won't get tricked. x)

omg jordin sounds so sweet. and suddenly i like gwen. she looks quite pretty without make up. the so-read-lipstick and so on. she is just pretty without those. and i wonder what nice songs she had when she was in the No Doubt. people intro intro??

gweeeeeeeeeeeen~

yeah i like her because i just finished a book recently. it's about a teenager who had saved usa president and turned from a ordinary-and-always-teased-by-other-people-girl into a hero. she had an elder sis who likes to dress her into this fancy dresses and makeups. and also a younger genius sis. memang genius until no genius. haha.

then don't know how but she is in the same drawing studio with the president's son. and it turned out that the president's son named david likes her. so yeah got a bit tourble here and there and eventually both live happily ever after. that's the end. haha! well there's definitely a lot more things than that la. just lazy to say la.

overall. not really a nice book. [don't let yee shan sees this.] i think jo likes it. but i prefer Can You Keep A Secret?. I ALMOST BURST MY STOMACH LAUGHING AT THAT BOOK!! haha!

oh yeah. i think i did mention about it in my fs blog. i really want it to happen. i don't know why. but i think it will be cool. so hopefully something good will happen soon. x)

hmm. so yeah. somehow i should start studying. 8 subjects to study. and three thick textbooks for each subject. omg. i can die right now.

bye.