Merry Christmas again :)

I wish all of you enjoyed your Christmas. I did spend mine wisely - painting my house. I really wonder when does this painting job gets done. But i still enjoyed it nonetheless.

I think compared to Christmas Day itself, i prefer the moments of waiting for Christmas to come. While waiting for Christmas to come, i would have all these thoughts of what to do during Christmas and thinking about all these plans just brightens up my days. Waiting for Christmas to come gives me hope that a wonderful and meaningful festival is about to arrive. It gives me hope. And i can play Mariah Carey's All I Want For Christmas Is You non-stop! But when Christmas has actually arrived, it is less joyful, i think. Partly because i know that tomorrow will be no more Christmas. :( And playing Mariah Carey's Christmas song will have no more meaning. That's a double sad face! :( :(

But again, i still enjoy Christmas. So i am definitely looking forward to my next Christmas. :)

Hopefully my friends who are celebrating Christmas are having fun tonight!

Merry Christmas!

Would love to watch some romantic comedy right now.

Wish everyone enjoy this day and appreciate your loved ones. :)

Christmas is coming!

Joyful aura all the way~

Well yesterday's interview was not so good. I did not even get through the first stage of assessment. It was kinda embarrassing but what to do? It was a group discussion. The examiner asked us about Sime Darby's operating system and which division do we think that could be improvised. Too bad i did not study too much about it so failed to answer properly. Plus, i think i stuttered. It was horrible. :(

But that was yesterday's news. Now full load going for movies and dramas. Beverly Hills 90210 is not bad! :D

YSD Interview

Tomorrow! Anyone going?!

I hate interviews because I get so stressed up and worried and nervous because i think i will stutter, seriously! Hopefully it will go well since there is only a discussion and some online assessment. *fingers crossed multiple times*

...

I'm scared for no reasons.

Okay okay i think i really like Mariah Carey's beautiful voice. She is so good at Christmas carols. I think i need to hum the song so that i do not get nervous tomorrow! *roar*

Okay i am very random. My windows installer is still giving me problem so i cannot install MSN nor can i install any order softwares. So i cannot chat with anyone at all :( I need to talk to someone!

Okay i shall watch NCIS to kill my nerves now!

I okay-ed three paragraphs man. Amazing.

Okay bye.

All I Want For Christmas is You by Mariah Carey

TOTALLY LOVE THIS SONG! THIS RENDITION! IT TOTALLY PUMPS UP MY CHRISTMAS ADRENALINE! Though i last heard this song last year, i still love it now! Just can't express how much i love this song man! LOVE LOVE LOVE!

Forgot.

With that said, I AM BACK!

*edit*

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!

First post after SPM

=)

Okay so i am kinda busy right now. House under renovation and even after renovation i (together with my siblings) will have to paint the whole house by ourselves. So yeah i am kinda occupied. Why of all times, my house would be renovated now? Because on the first day of SPM, the day before Sejarah paper two, someone inglorious bastard broke into my house. House was vacant though parents were not working but they went to Mid Valley and actually planned to watch 2012. But the unfortunate happened. Parents figured that that bastard aimed our house because our fence was short. So now after this renovation, the fence together with the gate will be as tall as i am.

Speaking of the break in, i lost my camera! :( And bro lost his laptop. Damn heart breaking. AND I HAD SEJARAH PAPER TWO THE NEXT DAY! Screw that bastard!

Anyway SPM was okay. Whoever who said that SPM was easy should get his/her ass kicked very hard! SPM is not easy so don't take it for granted! Especially the subjects which you like the most / subjects you are best at! Because i think i did not do well in Add Maths and Accounts. I don't even have as much confidence for Maths =.= Fingers still crossed. That's all i can say. *mouth zipped*

Oh yeah i had a funny blogskin *grin*

I don't know what i want to do now, after SPM. Many of you are going to colleges in Jan and that's SO SOON! I really hope the NS letter would come right now but i think it's impossible. I want to go NS in Jan rather than March or June! Screw it. I still don't know what i want to do now. Parents think i should work. But i don't know. *shrug*

Happy belated birthday to Jon and TongKwun and Garry. :D

And i'm done for now.

eat dung, you good-for-nothing piece of trash!

WHOEVER WHO DID THIS TO US, NO MATTER WHAT RACE YOU ARE, WHAT GOD YOU PRAY TO, WHAT FOOD YOU EAT OR WHAT HARDSHIP YOU FACE, MAY YOU MEET THE END OF YOUR LIFE THIS INSTANT FOR BRINGING LOSS AND SORROW TO US! MAY YOU GET THE PAYBACK FOR ALL THE EVIL DEEDS THAT YOU HAVE DONE AND NEVER COME BACK, NEVER COME BACK AGAIN!

ANGRY

Carrie Underwood - Cowboy Casanova - CMA Awards 2009

Hot. Sizzling! SCORCHING! I think she's embracing the sexy side of herself. If she can successfully wrap up a new image as a hot and skillful country singer, i think it will be good for her. Totally hot.

HAHA damn random suddenly posted this. Okay back to my Negara dan Bangsa =.=

Hectic Weekend

Unofficially graduated!


Bravo! Everyone looked very cool yesterday! Of course, myself included! :P

Having problems uploading the photos but i am not giving up. Gonna get it done tonight!

Erm. I should be studying. My rate of studying is extremely slow. There goes my aim of finishing one bab of Sejarah per day. How am i gonna catch up with time? *roar*

Oh anyway special thanks to ChiewTeng for fetching me home yesterday and again thanks to ChiewTeng and CengYew for accompanying me today. Very cool of them.

Alright, back on track to race with time at the speed of light!

无名氏

下载不到Adam Lambert的新歌，很纳闷。



我很想重新再来，因为我觉得很苦闷，且透不过气。



最近迷上了《情迷贝多芬》，也从中领悟到了很多人生道理及原则。
每件事的发生都是有原因的。所以我们必须懂得体谅。
但我认为，谅解是人类在这世上最后才抓到的技巧。

讲起来会有几匹布那样长。我有的并不是时间，算了吧。



虽然很难免，但当你一心情不悦时，就会直接性的影响你周围的人。这可能是一种很惊人的传染病吧。



若你失去了诉苦的依靠，你只好自己撑着自制的包袱向前走。

maybe it's time for miracles..

'cause i ain't giving up on love~

Love the song. Period.

I am so hyped up for his album man. Comments about his up coming album are never bad. Heck, they are even over the top! I bet when it comes out, it will rock the world! Right now i shall stay satisfied with 2012's Time For Miracle. Woots~

Whee so happy this week for no apparent reason..

Oh yeah sorry for the repulsively detailed post last week.

Okay bye.

I WANNA WATCH 2012!

I need to get Adam's album! He has one of the most touching and inspiring voice EVER!

Bio and I are not friends at all. History and I are so distant i think i can barely catch it in my sight.

BUT i decided to make love to them. Both at the same time. It'll be one hell of a hot night tonight, the eve of Deepavali!

...

Okay maybe separately. Bio only wants me alone or else she is leaving me. So am gonna catch up with History next time.

Open up to me, Bio. Allow me to stay long in you.

*closes door*

A moth. N.

I heard Muse's Time is Running Out the other day and thought that the timing could not be anymore right for me to start liking this song again. Indeed time is running out for me, and all SPM candidates. Yet i do not see any anxiety or nerves in my actions. And I actually freaking do not care?

Have been eating lots of pizzas lately. But today we had special side dish, CHICKEN WINGS! Too bad we were busy eating we did not get to take any pictures. But thanks to Pn Karimah and En Imran!

Everything around us has been changing so frequently i almost could not catch up with its pace. Things seem to be out of place sometimes but i guess with a little effort, it is not impossible to understand things. Maybe circumstances have had things changed for many of us. Slowly and unconsciously, we begin to leave everything we deem ceasing to a stop and move on only with things we that we think can cope with us. We might not even know that we are doing it, it's the nature of life, yin and yang, good and bad. That's why, time does not allow me to do anything at all. Reminiscence? Mourn? I can only focus on SPM and gamble my life with it. You? I'll leave time and fate to decide.

Oh anyway let me present one little old girl to all of you..


Aren't you smiling too happily? :P

Reminicience..

I thought i would not cry when i watch it. Well, i did not. Except, this feeling is even worse than crying. At that moment, that 14 minutes, i almost could not breathe.

Please go to Chris' blog

And BSMSAB 2008/2009, thanks for a wonderful year.

Breathless in amidst of a Marathon

...because i am SCREWED OVER and losing my rhythm. *pant*

End of holiday :(

Quick update.

I am not sure if i am happy or sad. I still wanna watch more movies or dramas. Chris got me interested in How I Met Your Mother. I wanna watch House for a long time. I still have the list going on and all these can only come true AFTER SPM. Damn it.

I think having a picture of Beyonce here is nice. Very nice. I like it. Hehe.

Erm, i thought i saw Jarret when i went to jungle trekking this morning but apparently it was not him. I've confirmed with him. But that dude really looked like Jarret at some angle. Luckily i did not wave or say hi and made a fool out of myself (again).

And i need to complete the Economy notes. Pain in the arse.

Oh and i love Carrie Underwood's new song (Cowboy Casanova) and Leona's Happy. Can't wait for Adam's new song!

Ming Yan : It has not even happened yet and you're asking me to surrender? Haha..

Vivien : Only two. :P

Beyonce rocks everyone's socks!

So please do not cancel her concert!

VMA 2009

When the world slows down..

and my time does not seem to be fruitfully used.

Instead of studying, i spent my time finishing Digital Fortress and Deception Point. At least now i have a better understanding of both the stories.

Anyway, happy belated birthday to two of my wonderful friends, Miss Tai and Miss Tan! The one common thing i found in them is that, they are both strong individuals.

Had a great time celebrating SheMei's birthday at her house. I guess i was a really bad guest because all i did was eat and eat and eat. There were LOTSA food, i can't resist my temptation! Rupinder's grandma's curry chicken was DELICIOUS! SereneLiew too made a delicious..erm..black pepper sauce chicken. I'm not sure how to name it but it actually tasted great! Yet, we kept on teasing her as if it really tasted no good. Hehe. SiewLi brought LOTSA fruits! Jon brought healthy vege. So unlike him? :P TongKwun's wantans were cute! Elena brought dragonfruit jelly. And last but not least, the one i ate the most, fried chicken prepared by SheMei's mom! Totally tasty! Oh i did not not prepare anything. I brought 100plus! :D

Talking about this party, it's supposed to be a surprise party, yet a failed one it was, due to SOME reason. :P We had fun playing games, talking about our embarrassing moments and played like three yeared old at the park. And SOMETHING HAPPENED. But promised her it cannot be revealed. But it'll be remembered forever, right someone? :P

XiTian : Haha right. I think i can recall. :X

Victoria : Yeah! Guess why i was so breathless that time? It was actually till my dad's turn to make his payment but we realised that the watermelon was not..er..priced! So i actually RAN in econsave. Luckily i didn't bump into anything and fall >.> Oh happy to see you too! XD

Ushane : Eh i can okay! I just hide the bully side of myself deep inside my soul! XD

Sya : Haha. Lobster! :)

KaiShek : Lol not that i am consistent. Spent my time reading Dan Brown again. Sigh.

VivienLim : No you will not, little kid. No way are you going to be taller than me! :P

Dawn : You can never imagine because it will never happen!!

Jon : That coming from you? :P

I wish i can undergo ecdysis..

and grow slightly taller and bigger so that i can become a bully! But the process is kinda repulsive, i guess. Imagine my skin continues to peel off for..5 days? And i massively inhale oxygen, indulge in food and water, just to increase my body volume and enlarge my body size just before the new skin completely covers up my body again. Hmm.. Not a pleasant sight to see.

I think that's why the curve of human growth is a sigmoid curve and not an intermittent growth curve which involves ecdysis and instar.

Bio is actually kinda fun because now i feel sad that the tube nucleus of the pollen tube only gets to penetrate through the style but does not get to fuse/mate with either the egg cell or polar nuclei. Sad sad tube nucleus. But the generative nucleus is darn lucky! Once mitotically divided into two male gametes, one of them gets to fertilise the egg cell while the other one actually gets to fertilise TWO polar nuclei. It's like a guy getting two girls at the same time!

Anyway thanks to Sya again for knocking some sense into my stubborn brain. Probably underneath my skull is another layer of thick thick chitin, that's why i'm so stubborn and facts can hardly penetrate into my brain. Time to melt the chitin down by..alcohol?

Life is good when you deem it good.
Live life the good way and be blessed.
A saying a friend always say.

Argh must concentrate and come online less! What the heck!

The hidden..

Shout out to my mom and Hong Kyenk. Happy belated birthdays! Although it's a pretty awkward time to bring two strange people together for a birthday wish but yeah that's how i do things - messy. There's a difference though, i love my mom more, so much more! And i believe Kyenk already has someone to be loved. *wink* Hopefully they like their respective presents.

Erm, i believe this week will be a busy week. At the same time, i hope things will go on as schedule, without flaw. And i am definitely having my time savouring the fun i get with my classmates.

Few more days left till god knows what happens.

Sigh. Random post.

XianJin : *wink*

Impostor : no bye bye..

Probably i should just shut myself and what i feel into a closet or cupboard or safebox or vault. =.=

Time to sleep.

*edit*

Whoa the ministry of education has allowed for an additional Raya holiday. Now what's left to do is to wait for the school to apply for the Friday holiday! Down side to that news is that holiday has to be replaced on 31 October. I wouldn't mind i guess. I don't know. *shrugs*

呐喊

我觉得很多人应该会很不爽我吧。 若换个立场来观看此事件，我也应该会不爽我自己。昕奕，你说得对，我的确会过意不去，但会有人理会吗？不可能。

今天很开心，在班上high了三节，又歌唱，又作弄Clement，又骚扰俊杰，昕奕和Tim。但下课后的Maths节时，我已经筋疲力尽了，结果在老师教完课后，在俊杰旁边的位子大睡一场觉，因为那位子特别凉爽，空气流通。=)

华语班时，老师要我们做作文。闷。但我还是完成了，有少少不可思议，因为我平时写作文时，尤其是华语作文，写得特别慢。无论如何，我觉得我的语法太简单了，不知要怎么样去补救才好。

Typing in Chinese is extremely slow.

Alright so.. F, a tuition teacher in my tuition center was complained for sacrificing her time to prepare topics which she predicts will be asked during the big exam. She allocated extra time for the students with the same amount of payment or fees for that month, just extra time, yet there are some unsatisfactory students and parents who complained because the new timetable, the extra time, caused nuisance in their lives. That's the way i see it. I do not understand how some students and parents can be so selfish and see the picture of their own life with only themselves in it. Teacher has sacrificed so much time and effort into planning the pra-seminar and seminar just so that we, the students, stand a higher chance at scoring our papers. YET, this is what she gets as a payback.

UNFAIR.

That's all i can do. Hopefully she is currently feeling better. *sigh*

Oh.

Today is one of the best schooling days ever. :D Luckily there is still one week before the school reshuffle the students and classes. Let's enjoy our last week with our classmates!

SookShian : It's more like a punishment to me rather than a birthday present to her. Haha. Why not you do that to your mom? :P

XianJin : LOL you naughty naughty but she's so far away from me i like someone nearer :P

FuiTeng : Hey pretty, you got it as well, no? (: Anyway i where got emo? I damn hyper today okay? :P

ROAR!

XianJin : Blake Lively is damn hot weh!

[rant]

I AM SICK OF IT!

[/rant]

Birthday surprise 1 for mom failed. Need to prepare a second one. But tomorrow is the big day! ANY IDEAS?

*sigh*

How should i make it special? It's her big 50! It's either i stick with the seemingly unsuccessful plan or i make another one. But the latter seems unlikely.

ROAR..

Okay i am stuck.

And i wanna be a bit more violent. I wanna HIT SOMEONE!

Hit and run could be fun i guess.

you leave me hanging..

SeeKee : I can only smile at you :)

Instead of singing Kit Kat's commercial song, i sang She Wolf the whole day, using the fake, girlish voice. People might misunderstand that i have the cri-du-chat syndrome! O.O And i think Stefira was SUPERBLY annoyed. *grin* What to do? Stressed people always have weird ways to release tension or else stressed people will snap!

[rant]

I have no choice but to try to stay away. I don't know if what i do is right. I don't know if any decision i make is wise. I regret every single action that i make. And right now my life is very miserable!

Probably i am just thinking too much.

FUCK

I hate the me now!

[/rant]

痛苦地渴望着你的关心

JooEr : Oi what did you type there why censored one? Later people misunderstand then how?! LOL!

Sya : Haha definitely your friend. :P You should probably join him and omigod together :P

XiTian : I did? When? :S

分开了，真得很痛苦吧
每当看见你，心难免都会酸酸的
但却不敢太接近你
只希望你的日子会快点好转
这样，让大家都会好过点吧

其实，只会说人不会说己
自己的日子也不好过啊
最近思想都一直受影响
可能是成绩的因素
或可能是我
总是觉得我们之间。。距离很远了
我很清楚明白自己的弱点在哪里
也有尝试改变
但说来当然容易
次次的挫折都使得我很灰心
很无奈

看见你
我也不敢向前去
因为
我总认为
我只会成为你生活上的“不舒”
只能在远远看着你开心

对
问题是在我这
或许你不需要我
或许我在你心中的地为已不重要了
或许目前这样，你活得比较开心
我自能坦然接受
默默祝福

也许
事情也并不是我想象中这么悲观
但
我只能期望
多么痛苦，多么累都好
我还是在期望

朋友
你还记得我吗?

*edit*

I think i've been feeling emo-ish quite a lot recently.

I realised that all my friends are very smart. If they work extra hard, there is no reason why they cannot score great marks. Which proves my point that i am not smart. I just apply what i learned. I should really change my mind and take things less seriously and less competitively and just focus on myself and FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS and at the same time, be more diligent. HOW MANY DAYS LEFT TILL DOOM'S DAY?! ):

Friends, shall we start getting serious? *ironic question* i wanna divert my attention to something more serious la so that i will not get emo easily and act weird in the class.. Like singing Kit Kat's commercial song out loud.. *smirk*

SASA Scholarship Interview

*inhale deeply*

*exhale slowly*

It was not as bad as ASEAN. Luckily!

There were a morning session and an afternoon session and i was in the afternoon session.

Firstly there were a Personality Test and a Career Test. Those tests were still under development and they kinda needed our help to "experiment" their tests. I did not care much about it because i have already done one of those before.

There were MANY interview rooms and mine was in the Executive Conference Room. A big, comfortable meeting room. Due to my early arrival to the registration desk, i was the first to enter the ECR.

I was really nervous but everything somehow happened in a dash and i was a in a blur, i almost forgot my manners! When a senior called for my turn, i kinda rushed to the room and almost turned open the door knob until suddenly i remembered something was wrong - i had to knock! So i knocked. No response. So i opened.

The conference desk, as how a normal one should be, was long and the interviewers were sitting at the other far end. And there were SO MANY chairs. I made my way in, they greeted me WAY before i totally prepared myself so i replied and got my seat, after asking. Manners first.

So my interviewers were a friendly looking gentleman at his 40s or 50s and a nice looking lady in her 30s maybe. That gentleman was the director of A Levels department and he teaches Maths. And i believe he is very good at it because he told so. He actually said that if i were to continue investigating, i would find that he is one of the best teachers. I just nodded my head and smiled.

Not much introduction needed because basically, Mr Director of A Levels talked most of the time in the interview. I believe he was there to give more information to the applicants rather than him torturing the interviewees. So i was rather relaxed.

I only remembered three main questions which were, What qualities do you think a leader should have?, Why did you choose A Levels? and Why did you choose help? Those were definitely not tough questions, lucky me, and like i said, he talked most of the time. As long as he got my point, he would interrupt me and continue elaborate my points for/to me. Well, he explained later that it's his nature, he picks things up very quickly and as long as he has already understood the points we are trying to convey, there is no need for us to continue elaborating anymore.

I guess i was lucky! :D I had fun during the interview and hopefully i'll get the scholarship. I hope my friends who went will get as well. And i saw KaiHui! A pleasant surprise!

Oh Maggie, at HELP i saw a senior whose name is also Maggie, except she is twice if not three times your size. For once i am helping you feel thin. :P

Oh and probably i should at least say thanks to Mr Jahn Cheah for the info. Thank you sir. :)

Fingers crossed one more time

Donald is a good Bio teacher! I enjoyed his class though it was kinda..dull. No one actually laughs at his jokes. But he's good. He teaches in detail, pauses and asks if anyone has any questions or doubts, he cares if his students fully understand what he is teaching and he is friendly! (though he might look like some gangster :P) Should have followed his class in Martin earlier to save my Bio. *deep sigh* Hopefully he can help save me during Seminar!

Now i finally know what is Down's, Turner's and Kinefelter's Syndrome. And during the class, ShunRen, TongKwun and I came up with the perfect examples for each of the syndromes. *wink*

SASA's interview is tomorrow. Hopefully all will turn out well unlike ASEAN! :(

To Miss Goh Joo Er...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Well i am not that hyper about your birthday but since you are the one who make everyone realises how sexy my body is, probably i should do something nice in return, right?

;P

So, this girl might be the stereotype student next class who seems to blend well with her surrounding but she actually stands out A LOT, for example, no matter under what situation, may it be solemn or relaxed, she always finds a way to slip in "Of course la, it's because i am pretty ma!". Her degree of narcissism is totally beyond anyone in our school. Despite standing by being over conceited, she sometimes does show her modest, quiet side. Now and then, you might find her sitting alone in her seat doing her homework. Though, it seldom happens because most of the time she is the one going around asking "Why are you so moody today?" although no one is actually moody at all.

She is often laughed by her friends like Clement and Garry and KaiShek for her..personality and behavior. To me, she speaks like an animal-based cartoon character [come ask me personally if you're interested in knowing XD] but to them, the way she behaves and the way she carries herself totally amuses them. Well, it cannot be helped because it is her personality and it cannot be changed, just like KaiShek and ducklings. *grins wiiiiiiiidely*

Of course if you are close to her or if you actually stalk her though i doubt anyone would actually do that, you will realise that she is a very nice and interesting person. However above all, i believe that she is a great friend. She takes care of her friends well and she cares about her friends no matter when they are happy or unhappy. I cannot say more about this girl..

Anyway, JooEr, i believe no one would ever call you fat again..for today. :P Stay blur-at-times and cheerful and friendly and great! :) And STOP molesting me i know i am irresistible, okay? =.=

Replies..

JooEr : I am not a woman =.=

Wormy : Not funny! =.=

Impostor : Your love to me must be unconditional. =.=

Yawn..

XiTian : (:

School starts soon.

Transporter 3 was so boring i think i could cry. And why on earth is the connection so slow? :(

Seminar at Martin Tuition Centre

Impostor : Isn't the answer pretty obvious? :) Anyway since the 31st is two days away, i just wanna express my gratitude to you for going through the trouble to assist me in replying the messages at the tagboard. I really appreciate it. (:

Mario : Kenapa saya tak boleh tgk cartoon ke? Saya juga blh jadi secomel kamu, dari segi mental dan rohani. :P

Opacho is still very cute.

RIA class today was exceptionally fun!

Anyway ATTENTION TO ALL SPM CANDIDATES THIS YEAR! Martin Tuition Centre at Pudu is holding its annual SPM seminar starting from 2nd November until 9th of November. It's RM25 per subject but if you 10 subjects AND above, you will only have to pay RM10 per subject. Plus, it's 2 hours per subject. ISN'T IT A GREAT DISCOUNT?! The time table, as usual, is a flexible time table. Meaning that throughout that week, if you cannot make it on day A, you can find another day to replace it. For each subject, there should be at least 2 teachers teaching it therefore you can get PROFESSIONAL advice from the Martin students regarding which teachers are better. Interested? Please come to me as soon as possible if you would like to sign up because places are, as usual, LIMITED!

PS. If you come to me, i might have some surprise/discount for you. *wink*

Kawaii~

Sya : LOL you know what a half-life is? I'm amazed! And if i am going through half-life at 17, does that mean i'm gonna die soon? O_O

XiTian : Haha because of H1N1?

Isn't she cute?


Her name is Opacho..


and she is one of the characters in Shaman King.


And she is extremely cute i cannot stand her cuteness! I think i really like babies and infants now.. They are so tiny and cute!

PS. AM NOT IMPLYING ANYTHING!

BookFest at KLCC

Impostor : Alright good maybe you be off forever as an impostor.

Chris : Haha!

I almost forgot how fun it was to go hang out with my friends.

The bookfest is huge! It was divided into two sections : the English section in Hall 4 and 5 while the Chinese section in hall 2 and 3. I wanted to buy a few books but was lack of money. Someone almost spent hundred plus just for Anime while someone was lucky enough to have her mom there to pay for all the books she wanted. So i am gonna drag the whole family there so that i do not have to spend my own money to buy the books then! Whee~

OH and thank you to someone's mother. You're far too kind. I am very very embarrassed.

Madam Kwan's nasi lemak is still be best and the most fulfilling!

And thank you to someone for the ride. It's fun to disturb you while you're..busy.

Mag looked like she's in Alaska. Hehe. And Ushane looked so cool. The rest of the gang watched movie instead of bowling. Come to think of it, i have never played bowling with Jo before.

And TongKwun was so lucky, she could play bowling the whole day i think she is still at it now.

And someday, i am gonna watch all the movies i want!

And last week, my highest score was 123 and it went to 59. =.= Then currently it's 106. I am really not consistent.

Some things are supposed to remain secretive and cannot be revealed. :D

Sigh..

Sya : LOL! I definitely know why you always run out of credits. :P Anyway, update your blog, woman!

A friend constantly sends messages to me, reminding how our friendship, though obstructed by a long distance, will never end. Her touching messages never fail to fire up my spirit and motivate my soul to continue the anatomy of my life especially when life seems to be a little hard on me. She always reminds me that no matter what happens, there is always a friend out there ready to lend a hand and prevent us from falling.

Yes, a phase whereby i am uncertain about myself.

I am undergoing half-life.

谢谢你，荔枝。

Time for tuition!

O.O

被炸到够够！

Impostor : I thought you have left. Just make your exit since i do not think that you have any business here?

Clement : Now i am not the one who insulted your..size. :P

Tzen : Well done! :P

HynYi : Nah. Candidates for National Service are chosen randomly.

JooEr : I know ar. I was just referring to me :P And you pms again is it? Kesian..

TongKwun : Yeah. Thanks :)

I think i really have to resort to replying my tagbox messages by blogging a post. This is kinda tiring. Anyway holiday isn't exactly interesting. I've been reading manga. That's how i spent my three days so far. I think this will continue until next Monday. *sulk*

I think i wanna go to the book fair on Fri. Then go bowling again. And i really wanna eat KFC! And i have nothing better to do. And i really like Halo. And i am very random. And i wanna continue my manga now.

Mr/s Impostor, make way to your exit. Bye.

FAILURE..

Imposter : Nah it's okay but i don't think i need your help? Because i am doing pretty fine by myself here.

Ushane : Nah, it's just you :P

Xi Tian : (:

Clement : I know i just wanted to kenakan you on purpose :P

The interview to me was a disaster. BIG ONE. I think Reezal was a better candidate than i am. And i think i did pretty badly. Even i think that i did not do well. Nevertheless, i appreciate the chance they gave to me. A pretty bad experience, to me, but at least i have learned something. Thank you.

Untied for now..

Hi Impostor. =)

XiTian - Thanks. :)

VivienLim - Haha. In the end i did not drop anything.

Sya - Yeah la. Biasa wat. SAB. =.=

WeiHwei - Thanks dear. Love the letter you wrote. :P

MingYan - Thanks.

Trials ended. At least unlike the other schools, we're not tied to any stress and tension of examination until the real deal comes around. Exam was really not nice. The tension was overbearing. I can actually feel the loss of my spirit from day to day, which meant that my account was extremely unsatisfactory. But still, hopefully i have done enough to score.

Went to Berjaya TS with a whole bunch of friends right after exam. Take note : CLEMENT NAIK BUS! It was fun! We had our lunch at Uncle Duck's. Too bad Mr Qwah did not follow, else we might have had a free lunch. Clement couldn't resist his hunger, he even ate Tai's share of fried meehoon. :P On the contrary with his massive desire for food, sis settled with a glass of strawberry juice. Sis, no wonder you're so thin. :P

The bowling alley was kinda empty yesterday. 10 of us played and i ended the first round beautifully with a score of 123 and ended the day with 70. Adam continued playing and getting better like his hand was not tired. Halfway through, we celebrated SuYin's birthday. SuYin and RouJun dressed so nicely i was kinda surprised to see them. Pleasantly surprised, of course. Really had fun there. Boey was good at bowling too! Liew was funny! Haha! SheMei was busy disturbing people till she and Boey made Clement clueless. ShanPig didn't join us. And Ushana kinda proved that brown ball does not like him.

Went home after that. Kesian JooEr, tak habis-habis kena kutuk fat. I wonder who so bad kutuk her. *sigh*

Was really happy on that day. Probably will join them for bowling on Fri again? :D

Halfway through exam..

i am here, online.

Is trials important?

I ponder.

I think i am posting this one short and sweet.

Well the line before was slightly longer.

It's okay,

short is simplicity,

short is..

short is..

short is good. =.=

I am praising Chris!

正在寻找自己的路。

但仍然觉得我无法立足，

就好像enzyme，

我想我应该是很specific的吧。

有难度，

真有难度。

在分叉路口徘徊许久，

仍然在寻找及思想。

或许
是我不懂得改变
还是
不敢接受残酷的事实

好无奈

Kiddo, just concentrate on trials for now.

Seriously bombarded, literally.

Very ironic.

The day before today's photography session, i purposely went to the salon to get a better haircut so that i do not look like an idiot in my last year's magazine. So while the photography session was going on today, i was busy settling some stuffs for the prefectorial board in the Discipline Room. And.. I totally missed the photography session. TOTALLY. 炸到！I wanna faint. But i could only sigh. And sweat. =.="

To my classmates, i am really sorry for my absence. It was utterly stupid, i know. =="

TongKwun, at least you are not the only one missing in the photo. (:

Sucked

If i let loose of my imagination, it can really run wild! Don't every say anything wrong around me. :P

Anyway, congratulations to PBSM's new AJKs. That's all i can say. I believe KaHou can do a better job than i did. And Staff Sarjan's legacy still remains - height. :P All the best to Wani as well! I believe you can do it! And SookShian, guide the board with your elegance. :P To the rest of the AJKS, serve PBSM and most importantly, serve the members well. :)

Before i forget, i hope next year PBSM will win the footdrill competition too! If i have the luck, i will come back. *fingers crossed* But then PLKN... :(

The time has really come. I am old, like SeeKee. :( Gonna step down from the very last post i still hold. Mightnot be feeling dysphoric but i believe this year will be the most nostalgic year among all my schooling years. *sigh*

Am speechless..

Good luck to everyone!

And, does being sick give me a rigid reason to not study and do homework? As in eating medicine kinda sick.

Sunday Spree~

It was too dreadful to wake up early in the morning because i was having a wonderful dream! But Dad came into the room and shook me up. =.=

The plan was to go jungle trekking at Taman Saga near Look Out Point. But the sky was slightly gloomy. Our fingers were crossed so that it would not rain. There were not many people. I thought such seemingly pointless activity would only be joined by the elder ones but on the contrary, people of all ages were there - from old man and woman to young kiddos, even teenagers and youngsters of age 20+!

Mom took an umbrella as a support while dad and I went bare-handed. The starting itself was quite challenging and i even wondered if mom could undergo such dangerous sports. But we proceeded anyway. There was only one entrance, which was also the exit. We went in and came out using the same path. So while we were at it, we had to excuse other people to pass through first and vice versa. The slopes were kinda high at some points so it was definitely not easy. Ropes were tied on tress to be used as support but not at all places. I was grateful for that. Some people even brought cute little doggies along with them! Then i heard some aunty saying "Even the small dogs can climb, why can't you?" After she left, my dad replied "Because the dogs used four legs, we used two." I have absolutely nothing to say.

The dogs were really really cute though!

3 minutes to the hilltop, my head started not feeling so good. Luckily that part of the hill was kinda flat, so I leaned against a huge tree and rested. And my mind went spinning round and round and my eyes went black. Pitam. (What is pitam in English?) Lack of oxygen. Very embarrassing! I am not weak but i pitamed! :( Maybe due to lack of food earlier, or the dizziness last yesterday. There must be some reason!

So my parents continued, leaving me to rest under that huge tree. After a while, i felt better and proceeded my solo journey. Then i caught up with them at the hilltop. They were surprised to see me. See, i am good! :D The hilltop was kinda wide and there were swings and tree trunks as seatings and wooden tables and chairs. It was very chilly! Maybe because i was wearing singlet. But never mind that. After we rested a while, we went back. It was fun going down but it drained more energy out from me! :(

Went to makan dim sum after that to reward ourselves for successfully reaching that hilltop. Haha.

I could not smile less..

I know i have not come here for quite a while. Busy with undone homework. It's a never ending work.

Not supposed to blog about camp. :P It's fun nevertheless!

Footdrill competition was great! Well, the custom of all competitions - there are some who do well and some who do not. As long as everyone does not give up and keep on striving to the front to be good, the table will definitely turn around and the victory will be in grasp. Speaking of that, i just wanna say that..

I AM VERY VERY VERY HAPPY WITH ALL YOUR PERFORMANCES TODAY! REALLY! Rocyie was gonna laugh! Can you imagine Sabrina saluting Chris? *hint hint* XD Sook Shian showed her elegance again? KaHou indirectly made a funny stunt, like Garry! All my daughters did very well! And all of the members surprised me! I'm just very happy! I believe all AJKs are! =D Results will be out soon! *evil grin*

Time to head bed!

Adam + Kris + Hayden + Ryan

Not a bad combination.

Not on bed la! It's on radio!

They were hilarious! I can listen to them for hours and not get bored. Hayden is so cute!

Okay school's tomorrow, again. Not exactly excited. And it's gonna be a busy week. Pfft~

Bye.

Grateful

A special post specially dedicated to everyone i know, everyone who reads my blog, all my close friends especially MissYouKnowWhoYouAre and my sibling. Feel free to extract any points you want to yourself because this post has multiple purposes and refers to a number of people for different reasons. :)

I am grateful that i am not infected with the A H1N1 disease. I am grateful that my family is healthy. I am grateful that all my friends are still bubbly and perky and not getting sick.

Thank God.

I am still praying, hard, for our health to be maintained. I am still praying hard, so that the virus can stay as far away from us as possible. I am still praying hard so that the people i care about will not be down with H1N1 disease. As i type, all your images flash in front of my eyes. Yes, i do care. No you do not need to know. Because to you, it might seem like a fraud, too phony. I do pray, hard.

Here's the point.

When our lives, some of our lives, are in danger of getting exposed to the H1N1 virus, why do we still spend time and energy on other unnecessary matters? Who cares if he does not care about you? Who cares if she does not care about me? We should be grateful enough that we can still wake up in the morning not feeling our brain spinning and nauseous. We should be grateful that we can even open our eyes early in the morning.

So what's with the relationship problems, friendship problems and what not? Yes, we get influenced by those a lot because those are part of us. But no, do NOT let them get into us too much. We shall not let our goal waver. Not because of the unnecessary problems. If blending in is not an option, then blend out. Look else where for better options. You still have many choices around you. If she does not care about you, do be reminded that you still have many people out there! If he does not look at you in the eye anymore, bear in mind that he's not the one you'll have to depend on to live. There are always better options, better choices, better people.

Be grateful. Be optimistic. Be happy that we even have the opportunity to face all these problems. Be delightful that we are not the ones lying on the sick bed in the hospital, quarantined. Be thankful that we are not the ones getting stuck at home because of other irresponsible people. Be grateful, because we're at where we are. :) And remember to pray.

So. Let's pray hard.

Ps. Gosh i think i come across too hostile! O.O
Ps x2. It's very ironic as to how much what i typed reflects and refers to me. =/
Ps x3. To Miss J, though you are not my teacher but i think i am fond of you and i respect you as a teacher and a person and you still give me the supermodel feel. Please stay well and i wish your family healthy too. :) Hope to see you in school soon!

Savour the moment

I might be a sadist. Probably.

The weather was not pleasant this morning. It was dark, pitch black, and we nearly could not see Mr J. [Joking!] The sun was no where to be seen. Obviously, the cats and dogs were about to come run over. Yet, i was surprisingly high at the weather! It actually got me quite..excited! The sight that storm was about to come actually got me happy and in fact lifted up my entire day! Not long, it rained. Rather heavily.

See, i might be a sadist!

After the rain, the sky brightened up. The air felt fresh. As if the heavy downpour was there to give us a wake up call. As if the heavy downpour came and washed away the H1N1 virus and gave us a bright start (of our life) anew. As if..that could ever happen. Yet, such a downpour, to me, brought slight hope. A hope that after the terrifying storm, the sun will eventually come out from its shelter and bring light upon the many puny humans. A hope that..after all these terrible infection and illness and, god forbids, deaths, eventually, hopefully not gradually, a cure will be invented and people can stop getting sick. A hope that..our life continues.

Am i really a sadist, then?

=)

I've developed an eating disorder recently. I cannot stop eating. I ask my mom for food after my dinner. I look for more food after my lunch at home. I simply take snacks like biscuits or cakes or raisins to chew when i am sitting on my study desk. I just can't help but need something for my salivary amylase to break down! Okay that came out a bit too gross but i got my point crossed over, i guess. I NEED TO EAT! I think i am getting fatter and more compatible with Maggie and JooEr and Serene. Both Serene. :P [I bet they are so going to come punch me! Okay la, right now you are all still as slim as i am. :D]

However this does not really happen when i am outside my house because at outside, you need to spend to get food and spending too much money on food at this age is too..much of a waste. It's just my funny little philosophy. So at outside, i usually do not spend too much money on food and save more money because deep down inside i know, one day, i will spend all those money on food with BETTER QUALITY such as SUSHI or MORE SUSHI or MORE MORE SUSHI with all my friends! Okay there might be other food as well but sushi is all i can think of now. Oh yeah, and mini steamboat!

Enough about food. I think my hunger is pouring out from my soul and devouring my physical self from the inside.

I've developed a funny little hobby too! Well, it's not entirely a hobby since i have only picked it up REALLY recently. I blog on paper. I write what i want to post on my web-blog on a piece of paper due to a few reasons. Such as, i do not forget what i want to post when i post a blog which normally will be quite a long time after my idea comes up, it saves time and i do not need to come online that often just to blog, i can practise my ugly handwriting (right..) and finally, i am lazy to come online just to blog! A bit silly, i know. But the down side is.. Most of the time when i write my paper-blog, they do not get posted on my web-blog. Most of the time i write them during examinations (paper 1s) or during briefing while jotting down notes or when i am scriblling on a piece of paper or when the idea / inspiration comes to me. And i either erase them off because i write them on exam papers and i use pencil, or i throw them away. I hardly keep them. So yeah. You can request the paper-blog from me though, well not that you want right? Just a bit funny of me. :D And i always bear in mind that i should erase some sensitive paper-posts that i write because i do not want my stuffs to be leaked out to the cruel outside world. I am still a teenager after all. :D

Ah. That should be all for this post.

Happy Daddy's Day!

I seriously do not know how to rate this day.

But i had fun in tuition.

And Julia, you owe me one! :P

And to the daughters, thank you! Enjoy your day with your dad! :)

It's getting closer. It's coming.

*edit*

Just had a mini celebration for dad. Here comes the main cast..

My beloved dad!

He's pouring sparkling juice to go along with..

This lovely carrot cake! Look at the cake closely. Do you see something hilarious?

It's spelt as Happy FatHer's Day! Almost read as Happy Fat Her's Day! LOL! Ain't it funny?! Credits to Vivien for the lovely and fulfilling cake and the humour! XD And the rose looks very very VERY tempting!

Dad cutting the cake.

Cutting the cake..

Still cutting the cake..

STILL cutting the cake..

And in the end he went all around the table to cut that one cake.

The cake was really hilarious delicious! Thanks Vivien! :D

Olympiad Maths

It was not a pleasant morning. In fact it even rained, because TzenHong sang in the morning. *chuckle*

There were plenty of students from all around the state gathering in UM for that one single test. They seemed well prepared, with hands holding stacks of papers and discussions held here and there. Me? 9 questions in two and a half hour. 6 questions in the first section, each carrying 2 marks, and 3 questions in the following section with 6 marks per question. In total, 30 marks. The paper was really NOT easy. Yet when uncle did it, he made it seemed so easy and doable. But that's that. I shall just leave it as it is.

It has been getting more and more obvious that anything around us can reflect any part of us in life, depending on our willingness to accept it or otherwise. Being slightly more self-conscious regarding things like this does not make me proud and happy at all. People tend to ask why but the truth is, no one knows. I am just getting more and more fed up with everything around me, and myself. Change of angle has to be done. Change of wavelength. Change of amplitude. Probably a lend of hand from both focusing anode and accelerating anode?

How to spell "psychiatrist"?

White Horse~

Taylor Swift has a really sweet and soothing voice. It's my loss for realizing that this late. It's like Carrie Underwood's voice but hers is much sweeter. Ain't it obvious because she's still a teen! Her songs are quite catchy as well! I like You Belong With Me. It's not hard to sing and it's a very easy-going song. Well, it's not like i am going to sing it but i can imagine Sya singing it. :D But i think her songs are mostly love-themed? A little bit girlish, no? :x

Olympiad Mathematics tomorrow. I have not been preparing for it. It came a little much of a surprise to me and the questions should be really hard because i have seen and attempted the 2007 questions and boy, how hard it was! I almost could not do the lower form level, let alone my supposed level! Even TzenHong can't do the questions! Let's just face doom tomorrow.

Anyway school has been like a roller coaster except this one only goes downhill. It might be only me but the atmosphere i have been picking up seemed to be really tensed with anything surrounding us. That aside, kudos to En Rofii for organizing the Minggu Kerjaya and invited so many lecturers to our school to share with us regarding the post-spm courses and pathways. I understood that it was not easy for him to do it with so many opposition from so many people. But i really appreciate it!

Competitive - I hate this word.

Hyprocracy - Hate this even more, because it more or less symbolizes me.

That pretty much sums up the day.

What a day.

It was so different than yesterday, Monday.

I want to care
But do i deserve the right?

*edit*

You know in the previous post, i said how i think i look better without glasses. I just wanna say that it's my own opinion and perception which people normally oppose to. So now you kinda know why sometimes in school i walk around without my glasses. Even Affandi asked where were my glasses the other day. Do i look that..odd without them? =/

Smile.

Today was actually not so bad for a first day of school. I actually liked today. Probably the cloudy weather has its effect on me.

Bumped into En Affandi today on my way to Bio lab and chatted for a while. Surprisingly he remembers my name. Shockingly he brought a bad news and a not so bad news - not so bad news = he has my Physics peka file, bad news = my physics peka file is empty. EMPTY! Where the hell did all the form four peka reports go?!

IF ANY OF YOU SAW MY HOT AND SEXY FORM FOUR PHYSICS PEKA REPORTS, PLEASE KINDLY RETURN TO ME AS IT IS VERY MUCH URGENTLY NEEDED! THANK YOU!

I hope this will help bring me to the report or vice versa.

En Affandi is actually kinda funny. Not that he was not funny before. But, he made a joke when he was talking to me, it actually caught me off guard! Funny dude. Anyway my point is... Please return my physics peka reports to me. I do not want to redo!

Chatted with Vivien a bit after school. She made me realised one bad thing i have done. When WeiHwei came and called me "Daddy", the guilt came to me even clearer.

I. Have. Not. Been. In. Contact. With. Everyone.

Everyone being my daughters and friends. This is really my fault, my mistake. I have been too busy with things recently and was totally ignorant of all my friends and close ones who once [and still do] have an important meaning in my seemingly meaningless life. I apologise. I'm really sorry. I can see that everyone is busy though. Hopefully all of you are having a smooth life, not a bumpy road. :)

Miss VivienLim, hope to see you on the track one day. :)

WeiHwei, be more energetic la~ :D

Form Fours, do well in the competition! (:

SeeKee, i am not clumsy! Someone did take my reports out without my permission, i guess. :x WHERE ARE MY PHYSICS PEKA REPORTS?!

Helo school!

Stupid unstable connection and laggy laptop!

School's tomorrow! Tomorrow's school!

Anyway I just wanna upload some random photos. And they are not arranged in any particular order at all. Witness the laziness.

The lady's finger mom planted outside my house. Its gigantic size surprised all of us.


This is what you will get from me if you have the calculator and camera on my table.

I think i look better without glasses.

I am Mr Thinker. I'm thinking.. I'm thinking.. I'm thinking..

My breakfast today. Got it from one booth at Leisure Mall. Did not taste as nice of course.

Delicious, no? :D

This is the Unagi! Did not taste as good as Sushi King's though.

Mom's Curry leaves.

Mom's Pandan plant.

Totally random. School's tomorrow. Tomorrow's school. I hope i can enjoy it. (:

I love fruit cakes!

Finally i know what to blog about!

Miss Vivien aka Bro's girl. xD The fruit cake is lovely! Can't get enough of it! Yum yum~

Life is pretty much aimless. I miss being sentimental with my friends. But i guess when school reopens, it'll be a slightly, if not totally, different me. Just a wild prophecy prediction.

So, the remaining assignments are Kerja Amal and Add Math project. I guess i should be able to finish them tomorrow. And spend some time for MindJolt Games at Facebook. Very the addictive!

She nailed the question in me..
Am i s.a.d.?

Monsters and Alien

And that makes Angels versus Demons. :P

I am not quite positive if today was a fruitfully used day because we ended up watching movie. Was supposed to finish all the holiday homework at Serene's house. Obviously when three lazy people come together to TRY to do work, it usually does not work out. :P Okay i was the most lazy one, always asking for food. XD

Thanks to Serene for her hospitality and her grandma for the delicious food and the invitation to her house.
Thanks to YeeShan for her craziness and her mom for the lovely sushi! I miss them so much and ended up devouring most of them. *sheepish smile*

Monsters Vs Alien was not as nice as i thought it was. Reason most probably due to the trailer. Most of the funny parts have already been featured via the trailer so to me it's not as funny. But had a good portion of laughter. And a RM10 ticket was reduced to RM6, not bad!

Trying to concentrate and finish the rest of the holiday work. Restless days and nights!

Oh and happy birthday to Kanye West!

ASEAN Scholarship Entrance Examination

It was not easy. Left MANY blanks on the Mathematics paper. It seemed easy at first glance, with a number of 25 questions. Yet, i doubt if i actually answered half the paper. Gone case. English paper was not as difficult as expected, seeing that it's based on Singapore standard. However i think my summary was not too good. I did not have sufficient time to search for points and reconstruct the sentences. And hostile means unfriendly, not violent and aggressive. That's very idiotic of me. The essay was worse! 350 words in 30 minutes?! That was a first for me! I just 'blurted' out anything that came across my mind at that moment. It must be horrible. The General Ability test was more like..a puzzle? It was fairly easy to me because it's an objective paper! At least there were options right, and there were actually EIGHT choices! :D Relatively easy and fun compared to Maths. Definitely.

Met many friends these two days and found some new friends. They are rather nice people. One of the invigilators could not pronounce 'r'. Paper became papel and answers became answel. That was rather interesting. One of them was very fierce! One vicious look from her can kill anyone. You can ask Kimberly or Jon. And one of them was rather humourous, i think his name is Albert. And another invigilator named Jonathan looks like Mr Kung, a Maths teacher from Martin, according to Jon but he actually reminded me of Jonathan Kong more. :D

After the last paper which was General Ability test, we went to eat at Kenny Roger's. It was a bit uneasy for me because i had to..erm..lie to someone so that i could follow my friends. :))) Anyway after that we went to ice skate and surprisingly my parents allowed me to ice skate because last night they did not allow me to. With a nod from my parents, YanYuan, FuiTeng and I joined the gang in the ice ring. My first impression was the boots were relatively heavy! When i first stepped into the ring, i almost fell! It was EXTREMELY hard to balance myself! The blade just moved by itself! I could not control it at all! KaiHui constantly and patiently asked me to straighten my leg so that the blade would be perpendicular to the ice but i just couldn't do so! And it's really hard to skate because it required the balancing of both legs and accurate timing of lifting and moving of the legs. It reminded me of my first time learning how to swim. AWFUL.

I bumped into so many people including an old man, a few children, a mother teacher her daughter and a few couples. FuiTeng and YanYuan could walk across the ring after a while and i still had to hold on to the sides. It was a failure for me! *shakes head* Saw multiply plus multiply in the ring too, with his girlfriend. That bugger was so good at this he was showing off to me! Bummer, why am i so bad at this? Jon was really good though it was his first try! Kimberly was even better since she already knew how to skate. She could stand still, bend her body downwards to touch the ground/ice and stand back up like it was very easy. I was dumbfounded, i don' t know why. Manwyn was better than me too because he could balance his body really well! Either FuiTeng or YanYuan said something like Manwyn couldn't skate easily like Jon and Kim but he wouldn't fall easily either. I think i look like octopus trying to stay stable and still on ground. I just waved and flung my hands all around especially when i couldn't balance myself and i was about to fall. Kai Hui was REALLY patient to stay by my side and teach me non-stop! Thank you so much, KaiHui! Thank you so so much! In the end, after i went out i realised that my skates were loosened and not fastened properly, which explained the extreme difficulty in controlling the skates and balancing myself. =.= KaiHui was worse, her toes were cramped. Poor her! :(

I am not sure if i would skate again because i think i have ZERO talent at ice skating it's like CengYew trying to sing. :P Moreover, it costs RM21! Excluding the gloves. I am really not sure if i would come again. But again, somehow i know that i might come back again. Probably after SPM. I don't know~ Anyhow, am still really glad that i went ice skating! :D YanYuan, no matter what your parents say, be happy because it's your very first outing and you went ICE SKATING! :D

Oh. A painful reminder for me. UNDONE AND UNTOUCHED HOLIDAY HOMEWORK! *curses*

Decency

Am i too afraid to be dull. Too afraid to blend with the normal. Too frightened to be common.

There is always a constant conflict and contradictory within my inner soul, blabbing about what i should do and how i should react to things and deciding which goals to set and finally whether to set my foot down on the chosen path. Yes, i am too frightened to set my foot down because i am well aware of the risk behind that big move - the irreversible consequences. Longing to be different but scared to take the steps. Crave to be indifferent yet do not favour the common. Contradictory. Veiled by the environmental factors. Lost. Constantly lost and ranting about it.

I know what i should do. I just don't know if i dare do what i should do. And.. This summarises my life.

A test, to test if i am capable of sitting for a test.

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry
And everything, it will surely change
Even if I tell you I won't go away today

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask, oh God is there some way for me to take his place?
And when they say it's all touch and go
I wish I could make it go away but still you say

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent, I'm permanent

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry

Isn't it supposed to be a happy day?

I don't know. Probably she's mad at me. Probably everything does not seem right to her. Probably it's the time of the month. =.=

But anyway Mr J, peace sign and I have the lowest possibility ever on the couple-hood list. So quit dreaming. :P Hey! Why am i shutting the doors at myself?! However, peace aka tranquility aka ______ is still available to you, though that slim chance might slip to other people's hands if you do not seize it tightly and with haste. Besides, he's dark like you and you've known her longer than he does. So, certainly you're at the advantage and i will root for you. You're my boss! :D :D :D

Life is good when there are many potential couples all around. Except you're not on the list. That's a HUGE bummer. Whoa, i sound very desperate. If i look at this ten years ago, i would not recognise myself. But it's okay. I mean the not-on-the-list part!

Oh yeah. To anyone who is interested, if you wanna date FuiTeng, the trick is to use carbon-14. She will definitely be delighted. :)

Ding~

I think it's not the right time and it will come across as a very weird statement but..

I am still SINGLE AND AVAILABLE AND LOOKING!

There!

I just sold myself. Out. Literally.

=.=

Reason behind that huge..statement : Unknown.

Haha wait let me figure this out. I got scolded for having a unique handwriting which i have been proud of until i got scolded. I got sounded for having a moony or moody face though i thought i was actually expressionless and that i was being totally tactless and unreasonable. And the way i am looked at, totally not the same anymore.

..That has utterly nothing to do with what i initially wrote at all.

Just being random. TOTALLY random. (:

Wesley Methodist School BSM Gathering 2009

Loved it!

Morning was hell. No offense to the teachers. Happy Teacher's Day. :) But it was hell. Spent the whole morning doing black books and only finished it at around 12.30pm. Missed all the performances at the assembly ground. They were celebrating Teacher's Day. I only saw Tim's performance. It was better than Chris'. [Boo Chris :P]

Walked to Petronas for lunch with Serene. Saw some kesian people waiting for SJ bus for hours. Because of one of them who has face problem, so the bus did not want to come. Kesian. :P

Took bus + LRT to Wesley Methodist with Serene, WernXin, XiTian and SeeKee. Serene did not know what The Mall was. She embarrassed us. :P Met up with Brandon, Clement and Garry at Sentul station. Clement thought the Wesley BSM members who were stationed at Sentul LRT station to welcome us were our school BSM members and INTEROGATED them! "Why aren't you wearing black shoes? I've never seen your name on the masterlist." Literally the BIGGEST embarrassment! Chris and XianJin and Sabrina and Ana and SookShian came later.

Garry, did you get scolded by your dad from your phone? I'm sorry because i dropped it. :D

The performances by the Wesley BSM members were..normal. Ice-breaking session was normal. All the games had been played before by us. So we were not really excited, i guess. But all the fun started when the station game started. I got into the group where i was the only guy. But the rest of the girls are quite pretty and attractive also lah. Except Serene! :P The two form one girls form Wesley were really cute! Luckily i am not like Ushana. I'm no goldfish uncle. :P

The games were pretty interesting! Someone tricked me into talking to the tree while i was blind folded and playing the chair stacking game. Bugger! I must have looked stupid! The song gurgling was hilarious! Apparently my group broke a record? Hey hey, music is kinda my niche! :P While we were playing song gurgling, one girl whose face i did not see came and asked, "Oh so this is the group with the only guy is it?" I feel famous. :D And muahaha i i could even play basketball with my eyes blind folded! Ushana, can you? :P

I think my friends are all very sporting! :D

Garry aka Gayre or Garry with double silent 'r'. And that scout dude whose name i forgot to ask. I think he's interested in Serene. Finally, FINALLY, Serene is wanted. :P But too bad that dude is a scout and he's an Indian. Will you accept him and make SOMEONE feel bad, Serene? Wahaha! Oh the coordinator of the station game, Ko Chia Chea is kinda pretty. I cannot resist to call her name. Chia Chea. Chia Chea. Catchy name. Stephanie is hilarious! And she's..cute. I don't wanna hurt her feelings. *smirk* Qi Wei looked sick. :x Poor dude.

Overall the gathering was really fun because the people there were really really nice! Got to meet WeiMing but missed the chance to meet Melvyn and LeeXia! I forgot to ask for them! My one chance to meet Xia! Argh! But probably she has gone back, so..

Made a hell lot of noise in LRT but it's okay. I enjoyed the company and the fun. Like i always say, i have funny friends. :)

其实，我还小

很不开心。但不是moody。

"No matter what posts you have, no matter how much power you possess, residents or not, you're still an intern!"

Yes. Undeniably. I am learning to become better. I'm learning how to be happy although everything around me seems to fail me. Everything. I am learning how to live with disappointments. I am learning how to trust what i ought not trust. I am learning how to cope with despair. Together with my close friends, i am.

YuHan, thanks for asking earlier just now. That's very sweet of you. (:

I am still an infant.

I hope my brother is not right.
Though deep down inside, his statement is the one i side.
I don't know if i can really get over it.
Toying?

There's somebody I've longing to see
I hope that you turn out to be
Someone who watch over me

I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood
I don't know if I could always be good
To one who'll watch over me

Although you may not be the one people might think of
As attractive
To my heart you carry the key

Why won't you try hard to put on some speed
Follow behind me, oh how i need
Someone to watch over me
Someone to watch over me

Hey hey i think i have some talent at lyrics-editing. :D

Start of a Beautiful Day

I like jogging recently. Like seriously. I did not mind waking up 7 o'clock in the morning just to sweat myself out at Tasik Permaisuri park. That is, if i can get up successfully. But the morning was not sunny. Bummer! I need the sun to tan myself! Why was the Sun lazy today, of all days? :(

Had slight improvement. One round at the track is 1.4 km according to ShunRen. Managed to break my own new record, 7 minutes 30 seconds. Still very slow. Zz. But it's okay. This is my fifth or sixth time running and i improved from 10 minutes to this record. Must try harder.

Looking forward to next week's turn, if i am not going to PD. Probably i should try jogging by the beach if i get to go to PD. ShunRen, when do you wanna join me la? Jogging at 8 o'clock is not late okay, it's very early in fact!

Oh yeah. Bumped into Razi, the dude the girls used to say is very good-looking, just now while jogging at the park. He was actually wearing Laksamana's shirt! Over spirited. Haha.

Who wants to join me next week? :D

Anyway, the Indonesian immigrant who robbed a house and threatened to kill the wife and her three kids just for RM3000.00 really deserved to die. Served him right! I really anti immigrants who refuse to look for a proper job and, instead, ruin other people's peaceful life. Go back to your country if you cannot find work here and do NOT create havoc and destroy other people's beautiful life just because yours is miserable! *roar*

*edit*

Not a productive day. Having slight headache and it is getting worse. Searched the ASEAN scholarship website for the latest info. Apparently only the short-listed candidates will receive notifications regarding the interviews and tests one week before the tests are conducted. And it's gonna be in June. Is there any slight chance that i will make it? *fingers crossed*

Stiller.

I almost forgot that i have already watched Night At The Museum. It was a fun outing. Lotsa laughter with friends. Movie was not bad. JooEr was funny. YeeShan was hilarious with the huge car. Spent, to me, quite a huge sum of money. And thanks to the buggers who insisted on eating ice-cream. *guilty*

My friends are all very nice and cute people. Serious. Except Serenes. Both Serene. They are both old aunty. Wahaha! *random*

Life rocks after exam! Feels less stressful! I hope life stays this way! Yet i know it's impossible.

Anyway, i must not let myself fall in too deep into the undug whole. Else, i will not be able to pull myself up, again. I barely survived last time and i am not gonna let myself repeat the same mistake again.

Have i fully recovered from the inner injury the impossibilities between us made?

LMAO!

For a good laugh, and i mean serious good laugh, go to Manwyn's blog. HAHAHA!

Exam's Over!

Feel very tired. Very very.

Anyway, i've been reading a few articles about Kris' win. Yeah, i'm beginning to really like his personality. He's a great artist, no doubt. And my support to Adam never dies.

Anyway Rickey posted some stuffs Clay Aiken, the gay runner up in season two, said about Adam. Some incredibly nasty stuffs, followed by how he really dislikes the show because he thought everything on the show was biased. He said things like Adam's Ring of Fire made his ears bleed and how that made him feel nauseated and stuffs. That kinda shows how shallow-minded he is and i used to respect him A LOT. Thanks to his post on his blog, now i know better. Though he apologised, nothing much is changed. His image is ruined, terribly.

Same goes to Danny. If only people watch the interviews by Ryan Seacrest at Larry King's. Ryan asked who did Danny support to win the show after he was eliminated. He said Kris. Then, he ocntinued to explain how it feels hurtful(?) that the judges always compliment Adam and how Kris was lefted out and things like that. I can't remember what he said exactly. He is long-winded! And when he was expressing his opinions about why people should vote for Kris or something like that, he was in front of not only Ryan but the rest of the Top 5! He was literally talking shit of Adam in front of Adam. Yeah, he was being honest, AND tactless!

I am incredibly distrubed by these pieces of shits.

Anyway, Garry dude, thank you so much for the compilation man! You're the Kris in my life. Wahaha. No i am not Adam. =.=

Saw another video of Kris hugging Adam from the back. It was cute! I really hope Kris has a successful career and a blissful marriage. :)

So what if Adam has sexuality issues? Tzen Hong and Garry have it too! :P

Hail Adam Lambert the Runner Up

Saw this coming. Inevitable, the crown was snatched away.

The Dark Horse, Tender Puppy, Sexy Face, the American Idol.


I really hope Adam would have won. What i can do now is sulk and mourn. :(

I think Kris is going to be a great recording artist. Adam is a better performer than a recording artist, imo. But still, i hope this competition is a good stepping stone for both of them to excel in their careers. Don't stay in America, must go worldwide! Come Malaysia especially!

*mourn*

*edit*

What is with the results show? Kara in bikinis? Not really a nice sight? I wanna watch Cook! I wanna watch Allison! I wanna watch Adam! Why no StarWorld here!

Sorry to myself.

Exam was horrible. My hope for A1 for Bio is totally crushed into powder form. And Economy's tomorrow. Joy.

Anyway Garry and KaiShek sure do understand my pain for only listening to AI performances online. I totally need to get StarWorld channel installed in my television, without Astro.

Oh Suzanne, stop reading if you have not watched the Finale. :P

Anyway Kris's Ain't No Sunshine was normal to me. In fact, i prefer the first version. His entrance was too slow for me. And i enjoyed the first version more than this one. Just a feel. Simon gave the first round to Adam? (I have not heard Mad World yet :P) What's Going On probably was not a performance type of song but it totally showed everyone what kinda artist Kris can be and he can really be a good recording artist (amateur's two cent opinion). This performance was really soothing and nice to hear. I think i can imagine it on radio. However I heard a few pitch problems, which was surprising. But it was not obvious i think. No Boundaries was... It sounded like every single new song being sang in the finale - weird and the song was not a good song. Apparently Kara wrote it. I thought she was good? This song probably can be a good ballad. But Kris's entrance of the song was very pop and i personally feel that he struggled a lot with the song. Notes were flat at times. I wonder why did he not modify the songs. Obviously the song was written for ballad singers who have huge voice which is something he lacks. It was almost like Katharine McPhee's single when she was in the finale - inappropriate genre.

Oh yeah. I think i dislike the idea of singing their favourite performance in finale which means repeating their performance. I prefer them singing a new song. Producer's choice and the new single are still okay.

Adam's turn. I like the entrance. It is different. It was more like the studio version. But i guess this performance is more or less the same as the one he did weeks ago. Not much difference. I so wanna watch the live performance! Was it cool? Was it too theatrical? However, based on overall feel, i prefer his Mad World weeks ago than this one. Just a feel. Personally did not like the producer's choice for Adam - A Change Is Gonna Come. Probably i am just listening to it and not watching it. I can never imagine Adam singing this song. Well it's really unexpected but then, a song like this being sang by Adam? But then he's quite versatile. And he did good on the song. I think he can sing ballad songs better than Kris, a lot. But like Randy, i prefer him as a rocker than a ballad singer or what not. And i just realised that this is a finale. It's like, there is no feel coming from both of their performances that they really want it very badly to win. Again, just a feel. Adam's No Boundaries is... spectacular. Million times better than Kris's! Totally love it! Nothing much to say. Based on this finale itself, Adam deserves to win, regardless of any religion stuffs and beliefs issues! GO ADAM!

Time to watch Carrie Underwood!

How to save my Economy?!

*ROAR*

I miss talking shit with people!

Anyway, exam is screwing me, hard! Ah, feels so good~ I thought i did fairly okay in BM and BI except the paper Twos, comprehension part. A bit tricky there. But i guess i can get at least A2? Chemistry was great too. Was not unable to answer the questions. At least i did not have any blank, which to me is good enough. Add Maths was beyond hell. Left so many blanks at second paper, losing 13 marks already. With all the mistakes, i am helpless. I hope paper one helps! And today, Sejarah was not smooth! Hate the questions about Thailand and hate the KBKK questions about Malayan Union.

And i have no idea how to survive next week. Monday Physic Tuesday Accounts and Moral Wednesday Bio Thursday Maths and Economy and ending with Economy paper one on Friday. I wanna watch American Idol on Wednesday and Thursday!

Okay okay enjoy a bit more now and study later~ Zzz.

OMG.

Screw Add Maths. Screw Sejarah. No no cannot screw sejarah sejarah you're my friend come sleep with me tonight!

I think Kris can emerge as the real dark horse and wins the show. He's unbelievably talented and his supporters increase each and every week. I think people would not be surprised if Adam wins, they would be more surprised if Kris wins, well because he is the dark horse and he has improved so much since day one! Undeniable, his Heartless was a very smart move. He is very creative and innovative (sounds like KH suddenly :x). He has placed his signatures on so many songs that he sang, it's kinda hard to imagine other people singing the songs now. He is just too good in that sense. And i think his Heartless REALLY REALLY saved him!

Adam on the other hand, has a magnificent voice, fantastic stage presence and strong charisma. However, IN MY OPINION, he has not been making as many surprises as he did during earlier of the show. I don't know if the themes did not allow him to do so or he just lost the shine as he moves on week by week. I hope he does something unexpected next week or else the show would really be dull and Kris will won based on his creativity and his intelligence in following the current trend. I really hope Adam chooses more famous songs and does well because he really is a good performer! Plus, he has a better voice than Kris. Which gives him more opportunity to shine better!

I hope next week's finale will be the best we've ever had. Who will win? I don't know who to side now. Probably after next week's performance.


Once again, OMG!