the other day, i went to onebabyworld shop to find nasal aspirator for my niece. i got in there, i looked at all the bottles, bags, teats etc. and that made me missed having a baby.

adik is approaching 18 months and she’s slowly turning into a toddler.

but as much fun as it is having a baby, i seriously do not missed all the exhaustion that comes with it.

sure, it’s fun having a baby coo when you play with them. haha.

if i missed playing with babies, i have 2 more babies that will be born this year, insha Allah.  i can play with them without having the responsibilities that comes with it. hahaha.

on a more serious note, i still haven’t made up my mind when i’m going for number three, or even if i want to have a number three.

i know DH would love a bigger family but if he has to spend a spell away from home like this time around, i don’t think i’d be able to handle 3 little humans by myself. i’ll be bitter, tired and angry all the time, i know i will.

especially when i get sick yet i cannot be resting much for the kids only have me. at time like these, my mind will always turn to my friends who have lost their husbands. how are they coping, i wonder. i pray that Allah eases their suffering and give them strength to move on.

i work in the commercialisation line. job scope is initially is not about capturing sales. commercialisation management covers Intellectual Properties management and exploitation. how can you exploit an IP that you have to (1) recover the cost your company spent to develop that IP and (2) generate more income for your company. we are the only group in the whole corporation that looks after the corporation’s IP. we are basically a unique team in the whole big corporation.

basically, we look after the licensing/commercialisation arrangement to commercialise or sell the product.

my job involves looking after various commercialisation agreements, propose or recommend strategies for licensing of our IP to our Partner to recover the development cost and/or generate income through royalties or license fees.

i’m responsible in selling the Technologies as well. and my KPI last year was to achieve RM 3.5 million in revenue (of which i did, but it was truly not an easy work and i keep bitching about our bosses to my colleagues).

this deviates so much from my training as chemical engineer! LMAO! and how i’ve been telling myself i will never go into sales 😅

oh but i never truly abandon my chemical engineering trainings. i still do technical support and i kind of the only process engineer at the E1/E2 level 😳 kind of odd because most of our technologies are process-related. haha.

RM 3.5 million is minuscule, i know. it’s like a drop in the ocean hehe if looking at the big ppicture  but the thing i had to go through to get that revenue. Subhanallah.

OK this feels like writing my CV. hahahahha