if i were to leave and never come back who would be the friends i'd want to say good bye to? many but who would i NOT want to say good bye to?
i wouldn't mind jun hao.. he's alright..
but what about kace?
maybe he does suck..
i dunno..
i don't like him even as a friend..
or do i?
but he's such a show off..
such an airhead..
such a snob..
such a flirt..
such a disrespectful moron..

elisaaaaaaaa
humble yourself..
you aren't all that perfect either..
in god's eyes you're still just as unrighteous..
unholy..
unclean..
disrespectful..
and whatnot..

well i mean if i were the last person other that him on earth, what would i do?
would i deprive him of the chance to go to heaven?
or would i still try as hard as i can to change his stubborn mind?
if i were to leave and never come back will i try once again to tell him about god?
will i even look and him in the eye and talk to him as i would a normal person..
if he were in need would i help him?

then again.. who are we to choose who to tell about God?
who are we to look down on any snob?
who are we to give up what God made us to do?
how are we to give good testimonials if we base whether or not to help others on feelings?

sigh.. time and again i come back to this..
here i am again at this..
typing once again about this..
is it really eating me up?
what should i do?

but wait.. why should i even care what to do?
why even bother?
why let him fill your mind with problems you never know answers to?
you're happy as you are now
you've got what you want and what you need..

i guess i should care because you can never really end a friendship..
you can ignore that person but then later, you'd just wonder why you're doing this..
if you were to talk to that person again who would be the one initiating it?
would you?
would that be considered as losing your pride?
i guess in a way.. but we've got to humble ourselves rite?
pride is not a very good thing..

what should i do now?
hmm?
what should i do?

 

elisa zipped by @ 6:07 PM