In the lab...

now in the lab in school.. hahaa... have 1 hr break ma.. so bored lo. just realise i didnt do my MOBC online test... arghzz.... 5% gone thats it lo... haizz..she didnt remind me.. or maybe i took her for granted le.. just feel we aint like we used to le...

No interest in styuding le.. think i kind of will forward this sem... so many projects to do.. so many things i dunno.. now FYP lke dunno or not oing anything.. just cant seem to agree on things with my group.. but their dragging to long in the design le lo.. where got time.. hmm well well.. gtg le .. blog soon i guess...

Feeling beta...

am feeling beta today le... :) well well. .still with my mood swings though but at least beta i think.. haha.. pray for me ya :)

wat shall i write today hahaa..Hmm... nothing much happen today.. hheee.. went sch as usual... Me and my friend ok le... she apologise that she might seem that she dun care.. she stress too.. pray that we will overcome our streeses and holdon with the friendship.. though at times seem tough when we both have our mood swings :P

Does she?

Do you even bother im alive?
Do you even bother that my life aint good?
Do you even bother whether i exist?
Do you ? Do you?

Do you care about this friendship?
Do you care whether im around?
Do you care if today im not with you?
Do you? Do you??

Life...

well.. well.. Life aint as beautiful as i want these 2 days.. so many things happen..arghzz...HATE IT!!! so many things happen till i cant breathe.. life seem meaningless ya.. okie.. HEy... press on.. GOd with me yah :P

Had a bad headache in the morning.. didnt go sch meet fyp frends.. than they like not happy.. than haizz.. well well.. than didnt wanna go for dbms lecture but still went.. tot that will be the end of my bad day but it didnt...

so called had disagreement with someone.. than sianzz.. .than after that went church for ava.. and i did the silliest thing i ever did.. arghz... soSTUPID lo.. so angry with myself..
tot finally reach home le.. and guess wat.. my mum nv record my 9pm show.. or rather she recorded the wrong channel :( very angry.. i cant seem to be myself these day.. arghzz...sorry guys if i have offended u....


yah that all.. think i beta stop....

:)

Went to church for ava duty today.. today sermon was talking about loving our enemies.
Enemy definition: someone who dun like you now u dun like the person... :P
That when our enemy say bad things about us.. dun be upset.. bless the person instead. It is natural reaction to scold back or smthing.. but love with unconditional love :) yeayh... i want to do that.. GOD help me :)

after than went with the ava team to city harvest.. hhaa... but end up got others not from ava la :P Well.. well.. hillsong united was there so we went there to hear and see.... Nothing fantasitc.. so loud lo ear so painful:( nearly walk out in the midst of the worship.. hehe

But thank God i stayed... Ho Yeow Sun was there.. she shared about herself going to sing to the president next week for the president challege. Pastor Kong Hee(her husband) haha.. show us the scan of their baby... oh btw Sun is 12weeks pregnant :P

yah.. than had offering song..really nice song but dunno wat the title.. think compose by city harvest themself ehhee... than they had a very anointed speaker to speak. hehee.. very gd.. :) enjoyed myself.. than at the end of the service had alter call.. He ask anyone who want to receive the baptism of the Holy spirit to speak in tongue.. many receive it. I was near the centre saw everything :) Well.. i enjoyed myself.. hehe... the ministry songs than was great u know.. really.... :) hahaa... yahlo..

Tomolo back to sch.. arghzz.. FYP i haven started... :(

arghzz..

arh... bad news for me and as well as my frends in the FYP... just saw an email from my project supervisor.. haizz stress.. he edited the written proposal we did.. and he even ask like who did it.. as if he dun believe is we do.. haizz...

well well.. than he say he want us to attached screen shots on our proposal.. which means he expects us to do le.. die liao la.. stress.. :(

Well.. well.. now jsut have to work on it lo...

Wednesday..

Didnt do anything exciting today. Went to sch... than went to chinatown than go home lo...whole day like headache not headache..

Hmm..today my ELIT teacher so funny.. he crap one... but well his craps and jobs lighten my day :) like him.. so good :P was notti..didnt go negotiation skills today.. very notti but i really no mood... lost my hp.. arghzz... how careless can i be... :( i really dunno... but i guess i drop it at my house downstair. Cos, i remember the last i use it was msging D to tell her i will be a bit late, than i saw this guy walk past me.... than as i was waiting for my frend, i realise that that guy was looking at my direction...when i left he was still there.. than nv notice anything...tot so paiseh.. so i went off le... reach sch.. i fished for my hp to see whether D replied than i couldnt find my hp le :( haizz...

Dad aint happy.. but luck y he nv scold me.... just nag how careless... haizz yah lo...

Cleaned my hammy cage today.. yeah haha finally my room smell nice ahaha.. yeah ,....

btw.. happy birthday Sister :)

Notti me..

was notti today.. skip tutorial.. haiyozz... so sad.. well but went for three long hour of sql lecture... haiyoz... boring le.. cannot concentrate haha.. but but.. but... i learn something YEAH! hehee...

so forgetful of me.. i told myself that i will call N to wish her happy hatchday.. but i forgot.. HOW COULD I...arghz.. yah lo... must remind myself to do it tomolo hehe.. yeah

had headache today again.. haizz dunno now why keep headache.. kind of migraine...:P

Draggy day...

today was kind of boring... hehee.... daddy drove me to church well well.. hehe gd.. can wake up late :P than went for service.. i felt God presence today.. thank God :) He touch me and spoke to me.. Refresh me and remind me to never give up for he nv gave me up :) thanks God.. Amen!! Yah and i saw this sentence and phrase which caught my attention :) " What good would it do to get everything you want and lose ther real You" really set me to thinking and hit right to my heart...

Than had W&m commitee meeting at Edwin's house.. hahaa.. he was a gd host u know..serve us with drinks, and some snacks... got my use to fav... it is 'nine layer cake' hahaha... translate to chinese la.. :P yah.. than meeting was long long long and draggy... though he benefited by allowing me to know more of the updates for the ministry hehee.. :)

than went outram park to search for bday present.. haha raining so end up didnt buy the gift scared wet hahaa.. yah lo thats was my day :P

Whole day

Haiyo, spent the whole day trying to edit my blog.. haiyozz spent 5 hrs lo.. was suppose to study end up edit blog.. so tiring haha.. and well.. was kind of disapointed le... spent so long doing simple stuff which i have learn in my last yr module and i tot i was confident but.. haizzz...

Do not give uP!!! arghz... yah end up jerry help me set the scroll bar and add layers.. haizz.. must pray for me yah.. really need to buck up..

Than went serangoon garden to eat guo tie and err... its called dough skin soup hahaa..very very nice... something lika ban mian but more chewy yummy :) yeah lo.. than come back home le..that all :P

lalala...

been a long while. That day tried to come in to blog but dunno wat up with the blogspot, they dun recognise that i am loggin in :( Well.. having pmsing and msing this one week... life been down, with all the anger, sadness and disapointment.. but it over finally i hope .. thats it..

Friend had a accident on wed... spent whole day looking for him.. rubbish la.. keep giving wrong info.. well .. well.. he's fine now.. than i had pms.. dunno why just very upset for no reason.. did stuff that i dun usually do.. like go hit wall and wanna cry cannot cry..

arghz.. dislike this feeling... life seem no direction, no purpose anymore... well well..

had disagreement with my FYP mates... think they starting to dislike me oh ya....

BUT yeah.... its finally resolve... yah basically jsut typing what i can think of, that happen for my week la :)

My day..

well well..
didnt go for project meeting today. Didn't meet choo... he called me early in the morning though, and ask if we were still meeting him. Told him we will but i won't be going cos im sick. :P

Tot he was kind caring, comparing to his usual self, he said take care.. buaizz.. who knoes.. it was a NIGHTMARE for the rest :(

D said that both she and I cried after he left them.. haiz... They told me that Choo actually ask them to write a simple program Hello world.. but they didnt know. Choo was sitting directly behind them, it was so pressurizing. Well.. in the end after very long D manage to do it... than Choo was like that the result of copying. Than made them do something else. A more complicated part for hello world. For goodness sake lo.. he made us write the program from notepad!!(which is no shortcuts) during our java lesson we use oracle program :P well.. well.. he wasnt happy cos end up they dunno how to do. throughout he kept shaking head and said.. at this rate i dunno how to access u all.. sure fail...
then he wanted to leave, but when i left he left them with these words.." you are wasting my time here, teaching u all, maybe u all can come back next yr and find a new supervisor"... arghzz...
SO MEAN OF HIM...:(

Well.. well.. D and I couldnt take it le.. went to call Danny(overall in charge of supervisors) to arrange to meet him to ask for change in supervisor... well.. when they spoke to danny, he said he couldn't do anything... and there was also a rule to not change supervisor but can change the project we doing... haiz... he also said that we could speak to Jack Koh(he was actually suppose to be our supervisor but end up become choo) since he was the ICT department in charge and choo is under him... haizzz

Well.. well.. disapointed, D and I went to call Jack Koh.. but he wasnt at his desk...so D left a voicemail...
GUESS WAT???
in the evening, Someone called D's handphone, and cos the no reflecting on her phone was Jack's no.. she so happy.. but to her horror.. the person on the line was CHOO :( .. he said.."d, u call jack, my boss...why??" D was like huh how cum choo will knoe..arghzz..tat it.. that the end...

so D was like saying she wanted to speak to Jack, so choo was like "wait i put u on speaker"... so jack asked why D was looking for him... so
she was like " errr we wanted to arrange a meetign with you..."
jack was like "for???"
d:"tell you something.. can we meetin u tomolo.. which is sat"
jack: " im not in sch tomolo.. why dun u tell me now"
D:"err.. no can we meet and talk"
jack: "ok.. we'll meet on tues"


Now the problem is.. why on earth choo know that we called jack.. and in the first plc.. we feel that jack and choo shouldnt be sitting in the same room as jack was the ICT overall in charge which means he should at least have his own room :(
Now very scared that... by the time on tues... jack will be influence my choo... (choo might have suspect we ging to complain about him.. and already dunno say wat to choo"...
well.. well.. or worst.. on tues wat if he turn up on tues together with him??
haizz.. i dunno.. i wasnt around to hear all those.. but well... i really dunno how... worried...

Just pray for courage and wisdom...

Hair cut..

arghz.. went for a hair cut.. hehee.. so short now :P than my hair starting to curl out.. opss..sob sob.. hahaa..well well.. but i enjoyed myself at the salon... the lady was very friendly.. we chat too hahaa
She married u know.. have a kid, pri 5 boy in woodgrove pri i think.. she live in woodland.. butthe salon is at AMK.. hahaha rubbish..

she very cute.. we chatted.. than she tok about her child told her that got girl like him.. hahaa than she ask me how.. haha :) so funny...

well.. i did a treatment for my hair... but hor.. now i feel my hair like no diff.. haha :( waste money.. so sad.. well well.. but really enjoyed myself at the salon.. very nice person.. hahaa..

than u know wat.. her scissor not sharp.. hahaa she was tellign me.. arghz,. oh oh.. hehhee... :P

Dis life...

dis life, aint easy to live in
In a world that is changing
where the pace is just too fast to follow

dis life, bound to have ups and downs
dis life, bound to have fears and more fears
dis life, bound to have things that seem so hard to face....

I dunno,
my life seem to change so fast
my mood follow just like the world
It just too fast,

My mind seem to me in a whirl,
im confuse..
i dun wan to hate
i wan to love
but i cant seem to love...
haizyo...

lalala...

lalla..its sat.. wat should i write.. nothing to write...

Hmm... Hmm... bored.. hahaha
oh i know....


STRESS!!! now got FYP... so tiring.. have this very very strict supervisor... he very very mean too hahaha :P
arghzz....

lalalalalalaa................................................................................

okie.. fine shall not update le haahha...