It's the month of May...and in a blink of an eye..it's almost half a year.
Any accoplishments? Can't think of any related to my personal life..yet, for the project, it's half completed. Glad to say that data collection has finally finished officially as of today being the last day for all 73 schools. Got to say that I'm proud and at the same time..not proud. An irony isnt it?
Anyway, personal life now..it's filled with choices once again. Two main issues to decide. One has been made..and the other..still trying to decide. A tough one that is. Related to my future and my loved ones.
In a situation I'm in right now..I wish that the world around me would just disappear..leaving me alone in my own world of dreams and fantasy. The reality hurts deep and sometimes..I just dont want to wake up from my dream. I dont want the dream to fade away. I like living in the dream. Is there any way of making a dream come true?
Being a Christian is so tough. I know that one missing ingredient that is making it tough. I just want to be myself and live in a world of my dreams. But that will not happen. It really hurts to even think that you're going to lose some one. DABDA not only applies for grieving..but even the pre-grieving period. It sucks.
As you can read..I'm a little not right with my flow of words. Just typing bits and pieces of my thoughts. That's because I've been thinking too much..more than what is needed. Yet, the one important thing that is needed to be done..which is ACTION...is not being done. Kinda feel that it is giving up..am I? So not giving up..
Just want to be that unique person whom I am and not be some wannabe and miss proper, miss goody-two-shoes, miss innocent...just want to be..ME.
