At the verge of... --> breaking down --> being depressed --> giving up my study career --> quitting my job --> losing control of myself
It's been a TOUGHTERRIBLESUCKY...no words to describe day. It's been a discouraging day. It's been a disappointing day. It's been an upsetting day. It's been down in the valley... Yet, wanting to be at the top... To cry and scream my heart out... Till my heart harden...
I seriously ponder... What am I doing here? Where am I exactly headed with this path that I've chosen? Will I be regretting at the end of this journey?
Or am I going to be... ...proud of myself? ...tough? ...smarter? ...a better person?
I can only ponder... And continue to pray for... ...strength. ...patience. ...endurance. ...and most of all...LOVE.
Oct 2010 Task 1: Complete my research proposal by next week because my committee meeting is on the 25th. So not looking forward but at the same time so can't wait for it.
Oct 2010 Task 2: FEM 5202 assignment on depression scale available. To be presented on the 21st and to submit a written assignment.
Oct 2010 Task 3: To polish up on my poster for a conference in Sabah. In other words, I'm going to sit on an airplane for the first time in my life on the 27th. Will be in Sabah from 27-29th.
Oct 2010 Task 4: Complete Chapter 1 of the project report writing, which is the lit review section. Thank God it's just a brief report.
Oct 2010 Task 5: To start on Chapter 3 of the project report writing, which is the result section. A massive procedure to run the analysis.
Oct 2010 Task 6: To complete an article for my ex-supervisor who is paying me to do it. It's related to delinquent behavior and I'm having a tough time understanding her analysis.
Oct 2010 Task 7: Complete my unfinished article on Rosenberg Self-esteem scale and published it by next month as a fulfillment to graduate with a Master.
Oct 2010 Task 8: To write up an article in preparation for Seminar Hasil Penyelidikan FEM 2010 for the project. Will be working together with my 2 colleagues.
As requested by my dearest and darling Jack.... >.< What I've been up to lately?? LOTS!!Too many to spell out any of it. Besides, it's best to look at the present and hope for the future right? Not to look at the past. So, here's the present and future...
Oct 2010 Task 1: Complete my research proposal by next week because my committee meeting is on the 25th. So not looking forward but at the same time so can't wait for it.
Oct 2010 Task 2: FEM 5202 assignment on depression scale available. To be presented on the 21st and to submit a written assignment.
Oct 2010 Task 3: To polish up on my poster for a conference in Sabah. In other words, I'm going to sit on an airplane for the first time in my life on the 27th. Will be in Sabah from 27-29th.
Oct 2010 Task 4: Complete Chapter 1 of the project report writing, which is the lit review section. Thank God it's just a brief report.
Oct 2010 Task 5: To start on Chapter 3 of the project report writing, which is the result section. A massive procedure to run the analysis.
Oct 2010 Task 6: To complete an article for my ex-supervisor who is paying me to do it. It's related to delinquent behavior and I'm having a tough time understanding her analysis.
Oct 2010 Task 7: Complete my unfinished article on Rosenberg Self-esteem scale and published it by next month as a fulfillment to graduate with a Master.
Oct 2010 Task 8: To write up an article in preparation for Seminar Hasil Penyelidikan FEM 2010 for the project. Will be working together with my 2 colleagues.
Nov 2010 Task 1: Scan documents for my 'beloved' prof for her KM portal.
Nov 2010 Task 2: Sit for my Seminar paper, another requirement to graduate. What I have to do is to present part of my thesis and prof will be evaluating me, whether a 'M' (memuaskan) or 'TM' (tidak memuaskan).
Nov 2010 Task 3: Seminar Hasil Penyelidikan FEM 2010 presentation preparation.
Dec 2010 Task 1: To begin Chapter 4 of project report writing, which is the discussion part since prof is aiming to have the first draft by end of the year. Totally rushing since the project ends in August 2011.
Dec 2010 Task 2: To take a long break from work and focus on thesis writing. I MUST submit my thesis next sem so that I can be in time to have my convo next year.
