A big statement when I was growing up that my parents said to me often was, "Kendra, the world doesn't revolve around you." So in my selfish thinking today, why doesn't the world revolve around me? I mean isn't my life the most important? Doesn't everyone else realize that my kids are the cutest and my day to day tasks the most urgent?
Would it really be perfect if the world did revolve around you?
Like wouldn't it be nice if all the stop lights revolved around you? And there was never a stop sign that required you to stop, they were all magically in the other direction. Wouldn't it be great if everyone conformed to your thinking? If the person you voted for won every time. Your team won all their games in sports. And everything went exactly as you want it to.
I guess thinking on the flip side of things. What if everyone always agreed with you? And because the world revolved around you, everyone started dressing like you and talking like you. If you gained/lost 5 pounds, everyone would want to as well. Perhaps it would feel like everyone was watching your every move to see what you're going to do next. (this sounds scary in it's similarities to how we treat celebrities now days)
Apparently, I have struggled with selfishness since I was very little. In my selfishness lately, I have been so concerned with what is going on in MY life that I forgot there is a whole big world out there with people who have day to day lives as well. And they all have the cutest kids in the world too. It intrigues me to think that everyone I know has their own little world that they live in and I know very little about it. I think this is how writers have a profession.
After all this thinking, I've decided to be a little less selfish. It's a good thing that I have a husband who is so kind because he keeps on track most of the time. Since we're coming to the holidays everyone naturally thinks I am going to take cookies to all my neighbors. But I don't think that is the way for me to accomplish my goal (although it is definitely a good thing). I think perhaps I should really focus on paying attention to others on a day to day basis maybe minute by minute. I will start with my children and my family first. Then branch out to friends/strangers. Nothing big but it's just the little things that count. And my hope is that
I can be a better person (not that I will help others lol).