Saturday, May 30, 2009.

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SITE OF THE DAY :D

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happy happy :D

{ 11:35 AM }

lovely lovely confirmation, everyone looked radiant, i cant remember how i felt when it was my turn.

unglam shots! fun fun night with fun people and guest appearance made me happy HeeHee

Im fat(i cant believe im saying this on public space) i cant quite fit into my bright hot swimming costume! TURTLE how!

Swimming tomorrow, excited!

{ 11:33 AM }

Wednesday, May 27, 2009.

Bert Im blogging!

marvelous memories from cathechist conference, late night laughing sessions and morning blues, helping in kidnapping of llama/sicka, Perfect polaroids (cos i inside!), talktalks and more talks, but MORE food food food! It's a retreat alright :D

today was sarah day (hi fel!) in which i went peacefully home and peacefully slept, i am happy and content now, with a few worries somewhere here and there.

I have more time now, come come ask me out now! while stocks last.

{ 7:02 AM }

Monday, May 25, 2009.

hee, awfully awesome day today :D

Congratzzz soccer boyzzz!

{ 8:51 AM }

Sunday, May 17, 2009.

Yes.

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Friday, May 15, 2009.

I am so very sorry :( :( Sometimes i really feel like the horriblest sakisoafdjdiodsgjiadf

{ 9:57 AM }

Thursday, May 14, 2009.

no, i dont want floorball season to end.

proud is the only word for our guys and us, ahhh :) we made history :)

{ 6:29 AM }

Sunday, May 10, 2009.

my wasting weekends!

mother's day = good dinner

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes,
snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes,
silver white winters that melt into springs,

I want winter in singapore!

Im NOT emo! im just not speshial, and who doesnt want to be special!

i had nice dream last night :) (hugs bolster)

the world is falling apart, or maybe now i just see more of the problems. the people around me are suffering so much, and i cant do anything, or what i can do is cliche and useless. i hate not being able to help, i really do. Pain is part and parcel of life they say, but it doesnt make it any easier to accept and bear.

I am becoming a hater, not a lover. I find myself telling friends what i dislike more than what i love :(

but i do love many things! Mostly f words, like food family and friends, i CANNOT keep writing melanchonic i-am-going-to-die-soon-thank-you-world posts!!!! ahhhh!

I think i ate pork raw because i thought it was beef and for that i feel extremely dumb! And i need to go shopping badly and my house is so dirty we need to spring clean it!

I feel like going to write letters but knowing me I will probably hang around this cyberspace place till maybe about 2am then declare myself too tired to do anything else, and go to bed feeling like i've wasted my life, or night at least. But then again, maybe not! heehee, i'll go do those letters now. :D

Bye!

{ 6:39 AM }

Friday, May 8, 2009.

im so inconsequential.

musicfest was so great but somehow it left me feeling like the piece of shit i should be feeling like. all the performers were so good and talented and i cant help feeling this "what am I good at" feeling. I honestly cannot find a single thing i excel in, and if VJ is a school which appreciates and develops your talents, what happens if i dont have one?

see, this is up for a specific reason. its perhaps an explanation of why i act a certain way sometimes, be it jealous or indifferent. Its because i really feel i dont match up to and deserve the people in my life and also to the circumstances.

I am my own biggest barrier and im tired of trying to be what I am not, or cannot be. I know who will say I cant give up like this but, look at me and look how I've tried. Maybe I'll be back stronger, but I cant say now.

Its like God gave me the best a human can have, and I am the one screwing everything up because Im so lousy.

{ 11:59 PM }