just a quick update before the hols end.
I think I've grown and learnt so much during this hols, I don[t mean the academic sense in this case.
but of course, I do hope my knowledge has expanded in terms of academics.
I've learnt that no promise lasts forever.
I mean, from young I know that I hated it whenever my mum broke her promise to me.
like not buying ice-cream for me after she promised to (yes childish, but I was a child then).
but even I cannot guarantee that what I promise will hold true forever, or as long as it was supposed to last.
I break my promises as well, I know and I am honestly guilty at times, but sometimes something else just gets the better of me and I break it. I'm not blaming it on external factors but yes I know I should not but yet I did. Thus, anyone is capable of it too.
Gonna take every promise with a pinch of salt now.
I've learnt that one should never let their validation lie in the hands on others.
Simply put, your life belongs to you, don't let anyone else determine anything for you.
Sometimes it's really good to be alone for awhile, because ultimately everyone is alone.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that we should not let the feelings of others determine us or anything like that. The key is not too much. It's knowing when to stop.
There is honestly no point in expecting too much from someone and when they fail to deliver, get yourself so upset.
Ultimately, what is life if you don't live it your own way?
I've learnt that people do give false hopes, and let you down when you trust them the most.
Have you ever experienced times when you let your guard down because a loved one seemingly does something in your favour? (note the word seemingly here)
And when you let your guard down and give them a chance, trust them once more, they go straight and destroy their chance, destroy your trust in them?
But yet, because they're so dear, you'll never completely lose faith in them, so you convince yourself to trust them once again.
Pathetic isn't it? Times like these I wish I was the kind who has serious trust issues, maybe then I wouldn't trust so easily and get disappointed so easily.
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jcts in 4 days, the end of it in 8.
really looking forward to dating my favourite girl after jcts, just for a little break. :)
