
My boy. My favorite little man in the whole world. The sweetest boy I know. My heart literally skips a beat every single time I see you. You are my world (and your sister, of course!).
I remember the day you were born. I could not believe how big you were. You were born 2 weeks early and you were 9.3 lbs. and 22 inches long. I remember when the doctor took you out, I heard you cry. I immediately started thanking God for hearing your precious cry. No sooner had you cried, you stopped.


I saw you for a moment and then they whisked you off to the NICU. You (like your sister) had breathing problems when you were born. I remember asking your father if something terrible had happened....he was crying, there was panic in the operating room, and I was tied to the bed and I couldn't reach you. It was the most helpless feeling I've ever felt.
As happy as I was at yours and Ava's birth, they both were the most scariest/saddest/painful/depressing days of my life. To have both of your children taken from you so fast and to only have seen you both for just a second, it was terrifying to say the least. Daddy left both times to be w/ you and Ava.....I had to summon him back to let me know what was going on w/ both of you after your deliveries.

Unfortunately, you had trouble breathing.....you had to stay in the NICU for 6 days. I never got to bring you to my room the whole time. I didn't even get to see you until 12 hours after you were born. Grandmommy and Papa Willie took pictures of you for me and brought the camera up to my hospital room so I could see you. I remember thinking that you were the most precious baby ever. I could not believe how big you were. Seeing all the tubes, IVs, "junk" attached to you literally broke my heart. I wanted to take all the pain you were experiencing away from you. If only I could....




Around midnight I was allowed to go down to the NICU to see you for the 1st time. Oh how I remember that moment like it was yesterday. I could not get my hands off of you....I wanted to hold you so much. I only got to stay for a few minutes because I was in so much pain from the c-section. You were able to start nursing about 24 hours after you were born. I loved nursing you.



I can't believe YOU, my sweetest baby, my lover boy, the most handsome one I know, my best friend, my everything will be turning 3 years old very soon. It seems like yesterday Ava was kissing my belly and telling you how much she loved you. It seems like yesterday I felt you moving and kicking me. It seems like yesterday that I saw your boy parts and I told Ava that she was having a brother even before the technician could confirm. It seems like yesterday I found out I was pregnant and started crying b/c I already loved you.


Dawson Ray--you make me so proud. You are the funniest, sweetest, most caring child I know. You will make someone very happy one day (although I feel sorry for "her" b/c she'll have to deal w/ me......). I pray for you every day. I ask God to bless you, to keep you safe, to make you happy, to give you lots of friends, to help you to always do the right thing no matter what, to keep you under His hand forever....
I love you more than you'll ever know. I am blessed to have such a sweet boy as mine. You are my life. I love you so much little one.
I am so thankful that God gave you to me. My little Mama's boy.....Dawson Ray! :-)
