waiting for the end

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"the hardest part of ending is starting again..."

makatulog lang...

anu ano pa ba ang dapat gawin makatulog lang???

simula ng magsimula ang taon na to, makailang beses na akong hirap makatulog sa gabi...
sa tingin ko lahat na ata ng paraan nagawa ko na makatulog lang...

ang paginom ng gatas ay hindi makakatulong dahil gabi gabi ako kung uminom nito...
ang pagligo bago matulog ay hindi rin dahil gawain ko na din ito nuon pa...
ang paginom ng sleeping pills ay out of the question dahil takot ako maging adik...
ang paglalasing ay epektibo sana kung walang sakit ng ulo pagkagising sa umaga...
minsan naipagdasal na din na sana maiyak baka sakaling totoo ang linyang "i cry myself to sleep"

madaling makatulog kung buong araw pagod ka...
eh kung hindi...
kaya't masasabi kong...

hindi madali ang maging tambay!!!

nuong minsang hirap na naman makatulog, naisipan kong gumawa ng playlist at matulog na nakikinig sa ipod...
at napansin na...
sa halos 300 na kanta sa ipod ko....
mangilan ngilan na lang ang pangpatulog...

mukhang nadelete ko na ang karamihan sa mga slow songs dahil sa pauso ni lady gaga kaya dumami ang mga bagong mid to uptempo songs ngayon...
ngayon naiintindihan ko na ang point ni ryan tedder kung bakit hindi malakas ang album sales ni leona lewis...
may iba pa ngang magsisimula ng mabagal pag dating ng chorus club friendly na... e.g.,(perfect nightmare-shontelle)
hindi pa naman ako old soul... sentimental pero hindi sa mga kanta...

ang mga luma pa naman at mababagal ang pangpatulog dahil may maalala ka na magtutuloy tuloy na sa mundo ng panaginip...

pero bakit ganun?? ang mga mababagal na kanta din ang nagiging klasiks...
nakakanta ng mga young adult ang mga kantang kinahiligan ng mga middle aged...
kung sabagay... pag tumanda na mahirap namang kumanta pa ng bep o akon o david guetta!!!

p.s.
sa panahon ng mga club friendly songs...
kung gusto niyong maiba lang at gusto niyo rin ang just the way you are ni bruno mars...
ang waiting for the end ng linkin park ay siguradong pipilitin niyong imemorize, makasabay lang...

ok... higa na ko...!!
good night!!!

it's out...



finally...
it's out...

been singing this for a long long time now...
this is what a modern love song should sounds like...
just saying...
not an old soul i guess...

seriously funny...

been sick for more than a week...

frightened that it might be dengue...

but it wasn't... Thank God!!!

frightened that it could be hypertension...

but it wasn't... Thank God!!!

frightened that it's probably an impending visual disorder...

but it wasn't... Thank God!!!

this is common to healthcare professionals...
the fear of a possible disease trumps the saying and the advocacy that prevention is better than cure...

i guess... its easier said than done...
in fact, what you don't know won't kill you...

so it took me a week to consult the MD.
and it turns out...

it was nothing...

and after watching mamarazzi...
it felt like nothing...

so maybe it's true that

laughter is the best medicine...

seriously the movie is really funny...

yun nga lang...

bakit kaya ganun???

kahapon...
nang matawag ang Philippines sa top 15... natuwa!
nang makapasok sa top 10... kinabahan!
nung sa top 5 na... umasa na!
na sana makuha ang title.
nang mag 4th runner up... nadismaya!!! (don't get me wrong... natuwa pa din ako... lalo na't bicolano ako at malapit pa sa bayan ni venus..)

yun nga lang...

dahil...
sayang...
ang lapit lapit na...
kunti na lang...

para yung isang kaibigan ko...
na ewan ko ba kung bakit sakin nai-kwekwento ang mga pinagdaraanan niya sa pag hahanap ng trabaho...
kahit... "i know the feeling at been there done that" ang lagi kong nasasagot sa kanya...

anyway...
ang kwento niya...

nang tinawagan siya for phone interview... natuwa!
nang makatanggap ng balitang nakapasa siya dun... kinabahan!
nung sabihang for medical na siya... umasa na!
na sana magtuloy tuloy na...

madaling tanggapin ang kabiguan
kung sa una pa lang alam mo ng wala ka ng laban
ngunit pag pinaramdam saiyong may panama ka at sa huli ay kakaposin ka din pala
malamang masasaktan ka...

maaring bukod sa gawa...
kailangan din natin ng swerte...

sabi nga ni bossing...

"ok lang kung gutom ka! dahil... lilipas din yan..."

neener-neener

in the words of sheldon cooper… the funniest man on tv, my tv that is…“there’s an economic concept known as a positional good in which an object is only valued by the possessor because it’s not possessed by others. the term was coined in 1976 by economist Fred Hirsch to replace the more colloquial, but less precise, neener-neener.’”

turns out it’s not just another funny line on a comedy show…
if you think about it… it is actually true…
or at least i think it is…

2 years ago a franchise of jollibee opened some 15 minute ride away from our house.
a month ago another one opened to a nearer place from us… a 10 minute ride less from the first one.

at that time… i felt less inclination to eat yum or jolly spaghetti or jolly hotdog or chicken joy...
a lot less compared when i was studying when 4 times a week is considered the minimum…

i used to like jollibee so much… and now not anymore…
and it has nothing to do with the food…

maybe i decided to grow up… although it’s hard to believe that jollibee appeals only to the young because my best friend’s grandmother only eats burger if it’s yum with tlc and only that… so maybe not…

or maybe sheldon’s words speak the truth…
when things are so easy to acquire or can be acquired by everyone around you, it losses it’s worth…
because when you can have something only you possess… suddenly you become hitler(if you know what i mean) not that it’s a good thing… not entirely…

or maybe i'm just really really really selfish…

but i also share…

so maybe i'm not really really really selfish…

call me scheming or opportunist:

after my birthday i swore to watch only one movie per month...
as a partial fulfillment of my vow to poverty...

i am a rule player so i haven't missed ever since...
what's weird is that i didn't feel that i also save some money doing so...

feb. percy jackson and the lightning thief
march. alice in wonderland
april. clash of the titans
may. iron man 2/ prince of persia:the sands of time
june. (as a sign of respect to the money i spent for the second movie of the previous month)
july. sorcerer's apprentice/ inception(clearly because i thought i have to make up for the previous month) twisted i know!!!
august. step up 3d (in fact i just saw it yesterday) and i must say it's the best step up yet(if there will be more in the future) i don't know if it's the 3d technology but the story is a little more not simple, predictable but not that simple, and the dancing is amazing and unending to say the least, more than what i expected.

i always check clickthecity.com for the list of movies so i know what movie to see and what not or ignore, whatever the case maybe... (the site also has the schedules that warning: may or may not always be accurate but nevertheless helpful)

is it just me or is it true: that whenever you try so hard to save money that's when a lot of things come that needs spending...

2 weeks ago i max out my card...
so last monday when i found out that step up 3d is being shown, at first i thought there will be no way i can watch the movie until our phone broke.
according to the line man we need to replace the unit, luckily i found the cordless phone my mom bought years ago only that the battery is not charging hence, must be replaced.

call me scheming or opportunist: but that seems to be a perfect way i can watch the movie.
i told my father i will buy the battery and asked for a 500 peso bill...
which he didn't give easily...Image
fortunately batteries do not cost that much... ergo i saw the movie... and thank God i did!

this is just another day in the life of a struggling unemployed who has good intentions but in his own selfish ways...

for those facing similar pathetic problems... don't give up because it's true that you can only say you did everything when you succeed...

just don't lie!!

if avoidable...

more watching, a little writing...


i know...
it wasn't long since i posted a lot of music videos...
but i can't help but post this one...
one of the many songs i'm into these past weeks...
along with, for the first time of the script, please don't go by mike posner, home from the goo goo dolls, and bruno mars' just the way you are...
all of which poses no sign of videos yet hence, the solo vid.


Well it's done know it's ya boy I-Y-A-Z "J.R" Rotem
(until this very day i can't seem to sing this one right, whenever i do it sounds funny)

ambiguity of 7:30

a lot has been said about goodbyes..
some even negates it's idea... saying that there are no goodbye's, there's only... (you know what)

i am not going to list those things...
because, in the end its all the same...
that goodbye is the saddest greeting one can give...
it's probably said to validate the ending of something...

a friend once told me, that it's sad to leave it's sadder to be left.
a simple truth...
i know...
i've been there for multiple times now...

just this evening... at around 7:30.
a close friend of mine waved at us the wave of goodbye...
i'm happy for him yet i'm sad at the same time...

finally, he'll be working abroad like he always dreamed...
maybe, i'm just jealous he get to leave first.
or just maybe i don't have that person i can hang out whenever unemployment stresses me out.

good thing that i still have folks here confirming the saying...
"misery loves company"...
not that i am and/or we are miserable...

as we head home...
we were literally happy...Image
as cliché as it may be... it's not the end of the world...
as he moves on to the other side of the globe...
i should too... i will miss him for sure...
thank God there's facebook?...

except i still don't have one...

less writing more watching...






quarter pounder and jason derülo

i've been using my newly repaired laptop for days now...
thanks to the folks of acer - megamall...
after being accustomed with writing on paper first what i like to post...
which is probably why it took me 5 days to think of something to blog...
finally i have one...
so what exactly happened to me...
was;
monday: ng mawala ako sa taguig... dahil sa dami ng 7-11.
tuesday: ng mareject ang application ko sa makati med.
wednesday: ng malibre ako ng bagong sweldong kaibigan sa isang eat all you can buffet dinner sa timog.
thursday: ng sumama sa 2 kaibigan mag todo shopping ng mga dvd sa quiapo.
kanina: ng first time kumain ng quarter pounder pagkatapos makita si Jason Derülo


the video of my favorite song from his album.

cinco

kapag may biglang pumasok sa isip...
nabablog ko kagad...
noon yun nang hindi pa nasisira ang laptop ko...

ngunit sa kasalakuyan,
kapag may pumapasok sa isip...
madalas nakakalimutan lang kaagad...
at nuong isang gabi...
ang pumasok sa isip ay kung paano maipopost ang mga kung anu anong bagay na gustong mai-blog...

isinulat sa papel ang mga gustong i-blog...
at ito ang mga gumulo sa nananahimik kong buhay... katahimikan dulot ng wala pang tumatawag sa mga inapplyan sa maynila...

piso:
ng mautusan na naman maggrocery nuong isang linggo...
napansin na loyalista pala ang pamilya namin...
lahat ng brand na pinabili sa akin ay mga brand din na nabibili na simula ng nagkamalay ako o baka bago pa man ako ipanganak...
walang nagiisa sa mundo.. lahat may katulad...
sa pamilya namin...
(tide, bear brand, ligo sardines, downy, argentina corned beef, ginisa mix,silver swan soy sauce, ufc banana catsup,milo,etc.) hindi ko matandaan kung nasubukan man lang namin ang ibang uri ng mga bagay na nabanggit...

dos:
speaking of grocery; ang ibang wala sa lista ako na lang ang nagpupuno.. at madalas kung anu ano lang... bibili lang naman sana ako ng gamot ni erpat,
pero kung pawis na pawis ka sa init ng panahon at biglang bumungad sa harapan mo ang nestle ice cream collection at may sukli ka pa, hahayaan mo lang ba o bibili ka?
natikman ko na ang tatlo at di naman lahat bunga ng kupit...
kung gusto niyong tikman at hindi alam kung ano ang uunahin....
ang maipapayo ko lang; unahin niyo kung ano sa chocoloate ang hindi niyo masyadong gusto... ayoko ng baby ruth pero yun ang pinakamasarap na ice cream flavor at sana hindi rin crunch ang pinakagusto ninyo, o kung hindi niyo alam na merong ganung linabas ang nestle para sa summer abroad, alam niyo na... dahil sa pagbabad ko sa TV wala pa akong nakikitang patalastas nito.

tres:
speaking of patalastas:
may napansin lang akong mga commercials na medyo misleading...
1.bakit kaya sabi ng sunsilk what if makipartner sila sa mga hair experts...
hindi na lang we did... placebo effect lang kaya ang bagong mga shampoo...
2.bakit kaya downy antibac, lamok ang linalabanan...
hindi na lang downy mosquito repellant... bacteria na ba ang mga lamok?
eto ay dahil mas gusto kong pinapanuod minsan ang mga patalastas keysa sa mga palabas sa tv sa pilipinas...
3.itong isa baliktad... ang mga tao ang namimislead... sabi nuong isang babae na bumibili sa tindahan: pabili nga po ng century tuna bangus... ha???????? pag sanay ka na talaga nakakabigla kung may bagong mukha.

kwatro:
speaking of mukha:
dahil sa kapuso ako since birth, pag napapadpad ako sa dos, may mga taong nakakapagpaalala sa akin sa mga mukhang nakasanay ko na...
kamukha nga ba ni....
1.lovi poe yung babaeng tubig?
2.vaness del moral yung babaeng kuba?
3.mercedes ng glee yung isang babae sa TMZ?

cinco:
speaking of blank.... wala na akong maisip na maikonek dito kay mercedes...
nauna man ang pilipinas di hamak naman na mas maganda at di kasuka suka ang bersyon ng hollywood kay...
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muntik pang

5 araw na ang nakalipas...
3 araw ng pakikipagsapalaran sa metro...
3 araw na umaalis ng punong puno ng pag asa, may kunting pangamba na baka maholdap at umuuwi na pinanghihinaan ng loob.
sabi nga, walang nangyayari sa mga walang ginagawa...
kaya tiis tiis lang...

mabuti na lang nuong isang gabi...
ayon sa horoscope ko...

"ngayong linggo magkakaron ka na ng lovelife"

sa kasamaang palad, walang kalinawan akong nakita sa 3 araw na nakalipas, lovelife man o sa trabaho...
maaring totoo nga ang sabi na bihira ang maging successful sa career successful din ang lovelife. you can't have everything, ika nga...
kaya posibleng sa paghahanap pa lamang nitong dalawa, swerte na ang makatagpo ng isa...

ang mahirap lang...
ewan ko ba... at napanaginipan sina.. lea salonga(ulit), mikee cojuangco at charlene gonzales...(maiden name talaga dapat)
hindi naman ako ang tipong papasok sa cougar town at lalo na sa polygamy...
pero kung makakakilala ako ng katulad nilang tatlo(mga simpleng babae) kahit di man ako palarin sa career... wala na akong pakialam...
kahit alam kong hindi nakakain ang pagmamahal...
crush ko lang talaga sila... at paasa ang horoscope na ito!

joke lang LORD... kailangan ko pa din ng trabaho...


ang masaklap... kahapon tapos na ang panahon na nakasaad sa horoscope ko...
bakit nga ba ako naniniwala ng horoscope??? sa pagkakataon kasing ito maganda ang sinasabi... malamang kung kabaliktaran, hindi ito pagaaksayahan ng panahon...

ang masama pa... sa kaaasa rito...
late na nga... muntik pang makalimutan...

maligayang kahapon sa mga tatay natin!!!

happy father's yesterday Pa!!!

kahit walang kwenta

sa mga nakaraang araw...
nakakapanuod na naman ako ng tv...
dahil sira pa rin ang laptop ko...
tv na lang ang napagbabalingan ng oras...
sa ayaw o sa gusto ko...

at sa mga araw na nagdaan...
kapansin pansin ang bieber fever at yung mga tao sa first time...
sa madaling salita... namamayagpag sa panahong ito ang mga bata...
tapos, hindi mo din maiiwasang hindi mapansin ang nagpapapansin na mga jejemon...
na maaring isa lamang bunga ng murang pagiisip... in short ng mga bata... ulit...

nakita ko rin na hati ang opinyon ng mga tao sa mga bagay na ito...

para sa akin...

walang ibang dapat sisihin kundi... yung mga nakakatanda...

sino bang nagpauso ng...

i believe the children are our future...

at ng ang kabataan ang pag asa ng bayan...

at ng hanggat may bata may eat bulaga...

sa totoo lang...

hindi naman talaga ito isang issue na dapat pag usapan...
wala lang akong maiblog at hindi pa ako sanay na magsulat sa ibang computer...
basta may maipost lang... kahit walang kwenta...

status qo.

i was about to type my "dugo't pawis cv" when suddenly my laptop decided to crash....
was that a sign or just a perfectly synced coincidence...???
whatever that was...

what thing is clear...
i really have to get a job... asap...

nuong napilit ko ang nanay ko na bilihan ako ng laptop...
bukod sa business talk ko na well deserve naman ako...
pinahabulan ko pa siya ng pangakong bigyan niya lang ako nito ay hinding hindi na ako hihingi ng pang repair oras na masira ito...

ironic lang nga kasi...
nung natapos kong gawin resume ko... tsaka naman siya nasira....

ang buhay nga naman...
punong puno ng pang inis!!!

kasabay ng pagkasira ng laptop ko...
ang hindi ko pagbisita sa www...
kaya siguradong mas minsan pa sa minsan ako makaka update nitong blog na ito...

yun lang...
gusto ko lang naman ipaalam ang status qo...Imageunfortunately... unemployed, nasiraan ng laptop at single pa rin...

one time... part time.

a friend of mine made what i would say an irresistible business proposition to me the other day...
the proposition: i can earn as low as 1000 pesos doing what i do basically on a daily basis...

i already have a full time with no day off job(house helper to my own house) so what i can only accommodate right now is a part time job... the one i can do inside the house...

my friend (the client) asked me to organize his itunes... apparently he got his iphone and he envied my ipod which accordingly does not only contain songs pleasing to the ears but also appeal to the sense of sight...

his my friend and he can just ask me nicely and i would've done it except that his idea of making this a profitable engagement is surely way better than that...
i don't know if because his chinese so maybe that seems to be easy for him...
or i appear to be in need of a boost to earn....

unemployment might have triggered my self diagnosed minor OCD...
(i secretly hates my father whenever he doesn't return stuffs to where i placed them...)
so putting artworks to thousands of music must not be difficult...
after all, this is a one time... part time job....

although i would love if i can do more for more... because organizing is my thing...
i even wanted to organize piles of folders from a regional court i visited last year and a newly renovated library if i was allowed to do so...

anyway...
since i mentioned music...

the other night... i saw a second video of my favorite single off waking up, one republic's sophomore album.... watch here: secrets(if you like apologize then probably you'll like this too)
togImageether with marching on, the good life and the second half of waking up, these 4 tracks were the only tracks holding their album back to become a complete disappointment... its sad because i like them... and i'm a fan of ryan.



speaking of albums.... maybe some are interested to know my views on some albums i have....

a lot Imageof people like fireflies so it's safe to say that a lot of people like ocean eyes... their signiture electric vibe is carried out from the slow vanilla sky and the salt water room(my favorite) to the catchy umbrella beach and sunburn(my second favorite)


after my birthday last year when the chris brown rihanna incident happened i did not expect that they will be coming up with an album... but then both of them had released one....

well, i always like their music... so ofcourse i love both of their work...
ImageImagepersonally i like graffiti more than rated r,,, to wit i like so cold, lucky me, for your love, and boom boom pow boys' anthem, girlfreind...
cold case love, te amo, fire bomb and photograph are what i think stands out in the very dark rated r...


his coming probably validates the fear Imagethat made chris brown begged his fans for some support... i will always be a fan of him but when new artists come up with new hit singles and then prove that his not a one hit wonder then that is another story... all the tracks in his debut album were great... all are my favorites but as of the moment i keep listening to encore and what if...