goodbye, for now. :)

im leaving next friday. goodbye. :)

I have graduated!

Blogger Award!

RULES

1. Say thank you to someone who give you this award

2. Write about someone who give you this award

3. Write about yourself

4. Give this award to your 9 blogger-friends

1. Who else to thank other than Miss Lee Pei Kin. haha thank you! for giving me a reason to update my blog, although its been quite some time. HEHEHEHE!

2. I have known this girl since Form 1. :D not really close to her but i do talk to her. haha a VERY nice person.. although when she doesnt smile, she looks really fierce! a very organised person too! haha sweet and pretty, extremely photogenic i can say. Quite good with her hands, have seen her doing handicrafts :D and have been my person-to-go-to when i need help in accounts. hehehehe!

3. I am Elynn Suah. Now rotting at home. Erm, i love sports. I am born with a big body frame, which i can do nothing about it. I just finished my diploma, going for my degree soon. I have nothing else to say. OH, i love sleeping. and when i get in the mood to read, i will read non stop. I LOVEEE buying books, but i spend like yearsss finishing just one book. LOL

4. 9? so many? MALASNYEEEEE! :D

Needles? No sweat! :D

So for those of you who do not know, i used to be REALLY scared of needles! haha! 

Read this post:
.needles..AGAIN

Well todayyy.. i had to do my medical checkup (again, after 2 years).

And good news yaw! im not afraid of needles anymore!

1.     I looked when the medical officer poked the needle into the  BIG VEIN at my arm to draw blood out.
2.     I looked when the medical officer did the mantoux test.

FYI, the bloody mantoux test is for TB or something. They medical officer will inject some sorta liquid under ths FIRST LAYER OF SKIN. and then after 72 hours, go back and measure how long is the 'bonjol'.

I can finally say, IM NOT SCARED OF NEEDLES ANYMORE. HAH!
One thing tho, i still hate peeing in a cup. ugh.

Been There, Done That

IB Results came out last week. Imma update the process of me getting my results after this. but overall this is my results :

so would like to thank everyone. yeah everyone. haha later la then detailed thank you speech. :D


14/7
Edited. dont wana show people full results. haha those who have seen, good for u. ;)
those who now only tengok, results are for me to see and for u to find out. hehehe! <3

Durians

yes durians.

So elaine suah came back fomr singapore and wanted to makan durians. so we went to buy.. 4 biji! so many okay! and so smelly!!

The story goes like this.. i used to LOVEEEE durians. Until i was in form4.

I was really active in sports then.. swimming, squash, running (as in merentas desa kind)..
And i realised that if i consumed durians, it would pump my heart much much harder, decreasing my stamina. Besides that, i would feel really heaty and i would put on weight.

SO, i stopped eating durians. but i eat durian flavoured food, not the REAL durians. haha.

UNTIL yesterday. i told myself i wont get it anymore for dont know how many donkey years so i telan 3 ulas. just now, i telan 5 ulas. AND NOW IM SUFFERING.

with that, i will NEVER touch durians again. thank you.

p/s: i should really learn how to put on some make up. ehehhe! byebye!

Life Must Go On

My teacher passed away yesterday morning at Putrajaya Hospital.

 although he did not teach me, i will still say im his student. Whenever we bumped into each other, he would stop to make a simple conversation. Very often we talk about health and fruits, cause i always carry apples with me. I still remember him saying that at his age, he cant take durians anymore. He now likes local fruits. :)

Well Mr Guna, i may not have known you very well, but you sure did make my day whenever i was down. A short and simple chat with you seems to lighten my day no matter what. 

i will not be able to attend the funeral, though i really want to. Its in PJ. But Mr Guna, you will always be in my heart and on my mind. Deeply missed. KMB will never  be the same without you.

Another news i heard was about an uncle from temple. I may not have known him but i have seen him around. He is an active member of the temple. I am pretty sure he contributed alot to the temple. It was a sudden death, as i understand. Always in my prayers, uncle Tay. 

Well my point is, losing people in life is not easy. It has never been easy. No matter how many times you go through it, it never seems easier. 

i have learnt from my past experience, and now i live everyday as if its my last. I treat people as if its the last time im seeing them. It permits me to be kind to them and appreciate them and myself more. 

You know why?

cause you dont know whats gonna happen next. 

but you know what?

LIFE HAS TO GO ON. 

yes. mourn for the loss, but be thankful that they are in a better place now. not going to suffer from old age or illness anymore. keep them in mind, but MOVE ON. life HAS to go on.

Its time to realise that life is short. To tell the truth, i see life like a ranting. Anytime, it can break. and thats it. 

If you are reading this and you recently lost someone in your life, mourn. you are allowed to do that. but move on. dont stay stagnant. 

If you are lucky enough to still have those people you love around you, appreciate them. Cause one day, they'll be gone. All we have is time.

The question is, What are you doing with the time left?

Zumba!

So i am on holiday.. and im bored at home.

Today i followed mummy to Malacca Club for Zumba lesson! its free! so yeahhh and i had funnnnnn!

Zumba is basically a fun way to exercise. haha to me it was more like clubbing under supervision. we dance to songs like OMG by usher and er, 'we speak no americano' i think. haha it was wayy fun!

 the best part was, i had friends along with me! (i mean, those around my age). This class is full of people who are my mum's age! :D but hell yeahhh it was funnnnnnn! too bad its only once a week thing. hehehe!






Noww the above is one of those we danced to! exciting weh! its 3.30am and i feel like dancing now! heheheh!


So what have i been doing?
Well besides SLEEPING and watching movies, i have been.. swimming. and basically nothing else.

haha, okay will be more productive from now on :P

:)

SO im back! :)

from btn and ib!

i seriously have nothing to do.. i just sleep, watch movie, eat, exercise. dad got frustrated he asked me to help out in our family business. kidding me ahhh? :S

and its only been 2 daysss! haha! well papa put up with this for another.. 2 months or so! hehehe!

but im going back penang tomorrow :)

and then i'll have a trip to singapore.

other than that, im pretty much free.

im so free and bored of sitting at home that i can just drive out and walk at the malls so that i can do something. haha.

and im running out of movies.

oh god help me. :S

ok rindu those above. :(

This is the part in life I call 'COLLEGE'

Hiiii
I'm done with exams :)

But I'm still in college.. Got btn tomorrow till Friday. At Kuantan pahang. Actually kinda looking forward to it hehehehe.

So I'm done with the part in life k call college. Nostalgic. Gonna miss this place like crazy! All the memories.. :(

:'(
:'(
:'(

Can view my Facebook for pictures on my last few moments in kmb.. And batch dinner :) :)
Blogging from my iPhone so it's kinda troublesome.

Take care people! :')

Gelabah

GELABAH

Exam is tomorrow!

Yes! tomorrow!!

Ok kidding. its two days away. But tomorrow, by this time, i'll be getting ready for my first paper- Maths. 

of course im nervous! this determines my future! :S

but yet, i've done my part, i'll fight till the very last minute. After that, its all up to fate. be it Karma, or God. :)

Now im just praying for the best. :)

2 days!

Exams are 2 days awayy!! :S

bucking up..

heres me in the common room studying, cause the plugs will only be working at noon! :)

Good luck everyone! :)

Dreams and everything in between.

So IB is another.. say, 13 days or so from now..

i dont know, i dont count. haha!

this is going to be creepy, but last few weeks ive been having really weird dreams. like REALLY WEIRD.

i actually dream of molecules.

yeah, like the last picture. literally MOCKING me. grrr

its like.. the incident where this scientist managed to figure out the structure of benzene. 

he dreamt of a snake biting its tail, mocking him.

HEY, mayb i can be the next person to discover something! haha!

but yeah, thats what exams are doing to me..

also dreamt of maths..

but i dreamt of the solution and how to work it out, so i wont complain. hehe!

gota chao now, mock exams this week.

done with business and maths paper 1.

chemistry paper 1 and 2 tomorrow! and maths paper 3. hehe!

nites!! :D

exam fever.

Exams are 14 days away.. or so.

and im scared. so scared.
i feel so unprepared.

yeah. like that.

i keep thinking that what im doing isnt enough. is it enough? i dont know.. :(

I missyou :(

Dear porpor, i miss you so much. :( 


To Where You Are lyrics
Songwriters: Thompson, Linda; Marx, Richard;

Who can say for certain?
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be

That you are my forever love
And you are watching over me from up above?

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile

If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream?
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/j/josh-groban-lyrics/to-where-you-are-lyrics.html ]
And isn't faith believing?
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me
Everyday

'Cause you are my forever love
Watching me from up above
And I believe that angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile

If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

My Best Days Are Ahead Of Me

Currently listening to songs, doing my business work.
Been sleeping the whole weekend. yikes! :S

love this song by danny gokey. (title as mentioned in the title of this post)

Blowing out the candles 

on another birthday cake

Old enough to look back and laugh at my mistakes

Young enough to look at the future and like what I see

My best days are ahead of me

Life hasn't always been a party

but mostly it's been good

There's only one or two things that I'd change if I could

I dont get lost in the past or get stuck in some sad memory yah

My best days are ahead of me

Age ain't nothing but a number

Sometimes I have to wonder

What does it really mean

But heeeey im still putting it together

I keep getting better

if I keep getting better

I can be whatever I want to be

My best days are ahead of me

Age ain't nothing but a number

Sometimes I have to wonder

What does it really mean

But heeeey im still putting it together

I keep getting better

if I keep getting better

I can be whatever I want to be

My best days are ahead of me

I've got sunsets to witness

dreams to dance with

beaches to walk on

and lovers to kiss

there's a whole lot of world out there

that I can't wait to see

My best days are ahead of me

My best days are ahead of me

Yes yes. Exams are so near!! :S

So good luck everyone! :D

Get it Right

Found this.. from GLEE. Pretty much explains my current situation..

Get It Right lyrics

What have I done? I wish I could run
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through thisWhat can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/g/glee-cast-lyrics/get-it-right-lyrics.html]
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight
So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight


got it from here.


i should be ok.. yeah. good luck to me in exams! haaha

determination

I CAN I CAN I CAN I CAN.

Oh my im just doubting myself.. so much. im so scared.

please, please give me the strength to go on.. i need to. 

Birthday, IB.

So im officially twent.. OH i mean 17. :D

i had an awesome birthday.. surrounded by friends. :) and having time for myself.. to laugh, enjoy their company, for my studies. :D

nothing much to say about birthday, its just comes and goes. haha.

So, in exactly 30 days, i'll be sitting for my IB exams!

well, its really.. scary. I dont know whats to become of me.. with all the chaos and things going on, im starting to doubt myself. :( 

I shall be ok i guess.. just pretty worried.. well, i mean worried sick. :/

so, good luck everyone! making the best of the the little time i have left :)

:(

Im really emo. REALLY.

Last week, when i went to the UK Education fair in KLCC, i stopped by soton's booth to ask on accommodation.. the officers there were really excited and happy to hear the good news that they gave me this :

this 'stress ball', is a ship! :D

I was sooooooooo happy and excited.. coz to me, its motivation. They were happy and they are glad that i received their offer.

However, now i dont know where it is. :( i think i dropped it in the middle of the road.. coz i brought it in my pouch. I have a strong feeling its on the road where i parked my car yesterday, at melaka raya. Im sooooooo going to look for it later. :( im so sad i can cry. 

Oh ship, come back to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :'(

Anyway, im back in Melaka for cheng beng. :)

We got this massage chair for kongkong! hehe! to relax after his looooooong day at work ;)

and this is for porpor! :) sewing machine! yay! i miss porpor so much :(

death

Today, i told my dad that i have news about his friend who just passed away. I saw the shock in his eyes, he prolly didnt expect it, unlike the time i got that fateful call from mummy about porpor.

i actually cried like that when i lost my porpor :'(

After i confirmed with him that its the same person, he was walking in and out of the kitchen (where i was), preparing for his daily visit to the gym. Each time he walked in, he would say something good about his friend. "he played hockey with me last time", "he was a joker, a funny man", "he's younger than me".

I guess he took it quite hard. He must have been really close to that friend. :(

And it makes me realise that one day, i will get bad news about the people around me too. Or maybe, my friends and family will get the bad news. What will people say? What will I say?

I am actually someone who takes losses very badly. Like really badly.

This life is.. temporary. Nothing is permanent, except change. Only change is permanent.

well, just a thought. take care everyone :D

whoop-sy-daisies!

and so tomorrow im going up kl.. and then balik kmb on sunday. WOW one week sure did pass in a blink!

although my misi tidak tercapai for this mid sem break, i gotta say its one of the most productive holiday ever! well its prolly coz i went to the public library EVRYDAY. studying maths and chem. cool huh!!

sooooooooooooo heres what i need to do for the following week, before 27/3/2011.

1. finish physics theory
2. lose weight? haha
3. finish physics theory
4. finish physics theory
5. finish physics theory


haha yes yes physics oh physics.

physics is soooooooo awesome! serious! :D

see uu peeps!

where art thou?

Somehow i have not found my motivation to study. whyy? i dont know. :(

HELP ME.

motivation, where art thou?

choices.

ok so im going to enclose my uni offers now. so far i have received offers from :

last but not least, 

Well, im still not sure which will be my choice. Imperial is seriously good, but their requirements are high. so.. we'll see how. for now, i would say every uni has the same probability, which is 0.20 of being chosen. :)

just an update, thats all! :D

maths! :D

And so i had Maths test yesterday afternoon and this morning. Yeahhh on a saturday. how cool is that?? haha

Well anyway, it was ok. could have been better.. but the blame is on my side though.. haha

Its 59 more days to dooms day! crazy right? its like.. 8 more weeks left. minus here and there, i have only 5 or 6 more weeks here! whoa! means another 5 or 6 weeks ranting about not having good food here. 


haha, im sure during my exam i'll get good food. coz i WILL make sure i get it.. bring toaster or smtg. haha


dont expect me to eat the food served here!! i might get diarrhoea or smtg. yeeeeeee i dowan! haha


well maths yesterday was.. sweaty! i actually was sweating while doing maths! coz it was in the afternoon.

today was more like this :

yeah, no sweat but brain was so painful! haha


maths isnt tht bad la.. with enough practice that is.. hehe!


so anyway gota chao, wana sleep/study physics. 


here's a cute strip i found online. 


erm i is actually an imaginary number.. value of square root of negative one. haha very funny actually

take care everyoneeeeeeeee! :D

richard clayderman

This man here, Richard Clayderman, is my all time favourite musician.

can i have him to play at my wedding? :)
yes HIM not just some CD of his songs. :D

or my funeral also can la. hehe!

im listening his music on my headphones while reading some business presentations. i really miss home :(

whats happening?

whats happening to me? with less than 10 weeks to my finals, im supposed to be all hyped up and enthusiastic to study. but im noooooooooooooooooooooooooot! :(

so angry with myself. grr