其实我们值得幸福

其实我们值得幸福   还不到时候认输  别中了情歌的毒 寂寞不只坏处 ... ... 

  《其实我们都值得幸福》

杨丞琳

很琅琅上口的一首歌 仔细听听 歌词提醒了我一些简单的道理

一想到 寂寞 可能就会联想到  一个人、没人陪、难过、可怜 ......

其实寂寞并不是只有坏处

只是有时会被身边 恩爱的情侣 影响 让人把寂寞和可怜划上等号

所以有些人会对 寂寞 感到反感

但 谁说 寂寞 不好啊 ？

一个人静静的 可以整理杂乱的思绪 可以不用为谁吃醋 可以不用为谁寝食难安 ......

“在找到对的人之前 我想找回对的自己” 

在茫茫人海中 找寻对的人的当儿 我似乎迷失了自己

现在 我觉得 当时机成熟了 对的人 自然会出现  不必那么苦苦找寻的

可以说 我累了吧

我只想好好找回我自己 做回自己 好好规划我的未来

什么爱情 什么浪漫 什么山盟海誓 就待 他 来的时候再打算呗

而且只有爱情才能给予幸福吗 ? 拥有亲情和友情 也很幸福啊 

在等待爱情来临的时候 千万别忘了在身边爱你的家人和朋友哦

我想告诉每个还在等待某某出现的人，其实我们都值得幸福。:) 

This year.

2015, a special year for me.

Special can be either good or bad. It depends on your point of view.
For me, this year (actually just five months) was bad at first but I did find the good in it.

I always think that everything has two sides. One can be good in some way but can be bad in other way and vice versa. And, maybe the good side that I found in bad thing is ridiculous but it is the way that I do to seek for relief rather than making myself  to be consumed by grieve or anger.

Yes, I admit that I did addict to some kind of sadness. And, I didn't let myself to run from it and choose to stay in the dark area.

Found a line in "Starlight" by Taylor Swift, it says : "You'll spend your whole life singing the blues if you keep thinking that way."

If you choose a different point of view, you'll get to change your mood and things will be different after all. You do not have any ground to say that you want to be happy if you never try to seek for happiness or get rid of sadness.

To be happy or sad, it's your own choice. People who have the same problem with me, have you made up your mind ?  I have.

Relax

We have to handle many things in our lives and stress creeps in without any permission. If we do not deal with it, it will overcome us and we will be consumed. Relaxing is then an important thing in life.

Singing is my hobby. I can't live without singing. I do sing every single day, especially when I'm taking shower. The bathroom is like my own karaoke room. hahaha And I always sing on the balcony after my dinner. (p/s. I always wonder if my neighbors hear me singing and maybe they would launch a complaint to the management office ? *shrug* haha) Anyway, this is the way I release my stress.

And of course I love listening to songs too ! The rhythm. The lyrics. Wowww Especially when the lyrics is like talking to me. AWESOME. Yeah. That's the word to describe it.  I always try to find out the every single words of the songs and the stories or messages the singers want to tell or deliver without referring to the lyrics from web. English songs are somehow a challenge for me. So, I have to give up sometimes. haha

I'm listening to Lorde's songs now.  I didn't like this kind of music in the past but I find it very attractive now ! People do change, right ? *wink* Speaking of Lorde, she's younger than I thought ! OMG  Her voice is sooooo special and I can't imagine a teenager could sing those songs in such a perfect way. And, she's songwriter too !!! Unlike Taylor Swift who always writes about romance and love story, Lorde writes more about LIFE and ATTITUDES. She wrote the these idea in 'Team', 'Bravado', 'Royals', 'Buzzcut Session' and so on. And all of these songs are collected in her album, Pure Heroine. I really like the album name without any reasons. It says, " We live in city, you'll never see on screen. Not very pretty but we sure know how to run things." in her song, 'Team'. Yes. Our lives are not very pretty somehow and we do not know what are we exactly doing sometimes but we would find a way to deal with the problem in the end. This is the way we run things. This is the way that I run things, in exact.

And yeah, I really enjoy tonight. I'm all alone in house. A silent night with Lorde's songs. I guess this is the most relax moment in my life. Close the eyes. Enjoy the songs. Listen to the words she sings. That's it ! Satisfied.

Ok. It's getting late.  Time to sleep ! Goodnight ! :)

Memories

I just finished reading the novel "Before I Go to Sleep" yesterday. It is a thriller kind. I found that I really like this kind of novel or movies because I will keep guessing how would the story ends when I'm reading. And, I felt very excited when I finally found out what's going on in the story.

This novel is a story of a woman, Christine who lost her memories when she wakes up everyday. Let's imagine if you were her. How awful it would be. It says, 'Memories define us.' at the back of the novel. I'm totally agree with it, especially when I finished reading. What would it be if you trust the people around you when you wake up without memories as it is probably the only thing that you could do or would do and in the end you find out they could not be trusted at all or they have been telling lies ? Wow. Thrilled. That's exactly what Christine experienced. If I were her, I would write journal like she did to note down what happens everyday. But, one problem is when the one who close to you (in Christine'case, her "husband") does not mean to let you memorize anything of the past and he would tear out some part of your journal and make up lies to let you live the way he wants and be the person he wants you to be, but you would not know as you just simply learn your past from the "modified journal". Perhaps you remember something someday or find the pages that were torn, then you only realize things are going wrong.  So, you have to find out the truth on your own.

I think memories make up our lives. We are nothing without memories, it would like you lost your soul.  And, memories have good and bad but they are ours, our life. So, don't try to let go of them. Learn from the past and move on with experiences. That's how life should be.

p/s : I heard that this novel is going to be made into film. I'm quite longing for it. xD

Sensitive

Hey you ! I don't know what kind of this feeling is. Maybe I'm acting a bit over sensitive again.

Thinking too much has been an issue to me. Imma over-sensitive. I know that very well but I just can't help myself. And, I've been trying to convince myself that I was over-thinking again as the incident was going on but I just failed. But no worries. I always find a way to fix it so I wouldn't be consumed by the sinking feeling. But, it was only right after the "thinking too much" moments or after the incident ended. 

Maybe I know what exactly was going on but I just refused to accept it and thus I just let myself drown in the over-thinking to find some excuses and pretend the thing was what I wanted it to be. And, I only faced the fact after the whole incident ended. 

Over-thinking is somehow not a good thing. 

Goodnight people.