Hmmm...What shld i do??? What can i do???

I know im being selfish, unreasonable and demanding sometimes...but i nvr heard any complains...that makes me feel bad...and especially when i wan to do something in return...its always rejected...and when im rejected...i get angry and start to argue...i feel so bad for being like this...but i jus cant help it...coz i dun wan always to be the one who felt fortunate...i wan to share this feeling too...i jus wan to let u understand...but always end up quarreling...

Why am i always quarreling.??? What can i do??

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Hey..this is a special post for someone special...coz i have been really bad nowadays...and i tried to do something....just cant think of what to do...but when im trying....things jus didnt turn out the way i think.....

Well...can say i am really slacking off...damn slack...jus like last year...i cant bring myself to change...i thought i can...but not by myself...i want to change to a better person...along with someone special....

how it went

LOL....sry for the LONG LONG LONG LONG SUPER LONG post~!! lol...

Well...i everytime forgot to post one...so dun blame me lar...its like my diary alrdy...:P so i think of anything i jus post...lol...

if i wan to summerise also can....but dun think ppl will understand lar...lol...

ohya...i went to see one of my CCA friends blog...SUPER EASY TO READ~!!lol...u know y? coz its like this...e.g

Sch start ler..
I NVR GO TO SCH FOR THE FIRST WHOLE WEEK~!
Ended up cant catch up with the others...

When CCA start...
I alws go for lesson...
but this time...i slack...
i didnt go...
at first coz not feeling well...
but after that gt other problems also...
cant go for dance...
cant catch up...
den i emo...
but gt someone lar.. :P
so not so emo... :P

LOL...easy to understand right??
Short and sweet...easy to read...right?

gd idea ar...but then ar...i prefer long long one...hehe...so some ppl wont read so long...lol...all the minor minor details i also write one...so very long...lol...

trying not to post too long liao lar...:)

camp~!

BEFORE U START READING...JUS TO INFORM...ITS VERY LONG~!!! lol...happy reading~!!


IM FINALLY BACK HOME~!! although i only go PULAU UBIN for 2 days...but alot of things happen there that makes me wants to go home ASAP~!!!

*type type type* 30 March 2007

Went to Tenah Merah by train and take bus no2 to Changi Village....its early in the morning so no babok there...hehe...kk...so when we reach Pulau Ubin...we have to pitch out tent...and i realise the tent im staying in is only with marina and ren qi~!! only 4 girls in a 8 men tent~!!

so next start of the games...im the grp leader leh...lol..and mathew is in my grp...and there is Ren Qi...another girl with share tent with me and marina...and there is Chen Teng very dark guy and was having sore throat...Jia Jun very fair guy and stamina as bad as me..hehe...Zaimon..i think his name like tat spell...his the only malay in the camp and our grp...who has gd stamina...very gentleman also~!!hehe....thats all for my grp...GRP 3~!!! oh ya...our grp name is called MuSanThriGa ( Hindu no.3 - mu, Chi no.3 - San, Eng no.3 - Three, Malay no.3 - Tiga

so our first game is the furthest hut from the camp site...we have to walk all the way..but on the way...Chen Teng started to ask everyone to jog~!! hai..my stamina so lousy one...then alws the last one...lol....so our grp at this station is suppose to do a game called "100min NO NG" first is turn 5 rounds witha stick on the ground and head down...den hula 10 times...everyone in the grp duno how to hula except me leh~!!! then next is to blow a balloon until it burst~!! thats the one i hate the most~!! ill nvr ask anyone to do that~!!...kk...so next is eat bitter gaurd den last one is~!!!!!!!..........blow out the pinpong ball from a cut bottle with flour in it into another cut bottle...that one only 3 guys do sia..hehe...then they let us go...and then they give us some clue to a secret game station that is not shown on map...well..actually its jus near the toilet lar..lol...there we have to transfer water from a bucket into a cut bottle but the cup we use to transfer has holes in it...and one person have to lie down on a mat and hold the cut bottle on the forehead and the person pouring the water cannot bend down to pour....so the gentleman who volenteer is ZAIMON..who would be lying down..hehe...den im the one to pour..hai...my aiming is quite ok only...so only half is face is pour with water...BUT...i also help him to clean his face..coz he is one of the 3 who have blow the flour at the first game station...lol....and next game...its the "Hey Bai Pei~! Nan Shen Nu Shen Pei~!" but with body...lol...( if anyone dunowat issit ...its jus like scissors paper stone...jus add a little movement behind..) so if same movement the one tat wins in scissors paper stone will win 1 point..and they want us to win 20 points while versus each other~!! hai...and u know wat..our grp kind of coporate and end up everyone alws win at first round..hehe...then we easily gt one point..but duno which grp gets only..hehe...but in the end still have to forfeit..it is to eat bitter guard again...and this time..with WASABI~!! hai...i dun eat both leh...BUT THEN I EAT LEH~!! lol...

Next hut...we have to blow a balloon and have everyone sit on the balloon...but i suggested we blow one balloon only...lol....then the 3 bigger size guy will jus touch the balloon with their backside but not really sit on it..and then the others jus sit on the legs...and we pass~!! lol...then

Next hut down the hill is the next station...and its one of the worst performance and almost get everyone demotivated game... first...we have to choose the sauces to mix together for the later part of the game...this game..we need to sit in a small circle and have to stand up is a cross leg sitting position and while doing that also lift up a hula with our index finger with our palm facing down...everyone could easily sit and stand in the position but only Chen Teng cannot...lol..but we manage it though...with the game master keep on adding our time duration...lol....but the forfeit is only drinking the sauce that we mix at the beggining of the game...we try alot of times to lift up a hula...but in the end barely manage it..then is the chopstick...its worst then the hula...then the stick from a tree....we actually did it~!! from wat i think its becoz everyone is alrdy quite disappointed and irritated by the number of times we try on jus a hula...then finally at the last time....we lift up the branch...lol....then we head all the way back down to the last station..well...we thought it was the last...but its not...then this station...they said that we r too fast playing this game...coz we only spend around 2 hours travelling and stopping at the 4 stations...den they give us a very stupid question before we can start the game....and its to guess the password of the station...and the password is...PASSWORD...-_-"....oh well...its the game that makes alot of us irritated...coz we have to stand under the sun..blind folded...and have to guess number...and not jus tat...we have to form shapes with holdin on to a loop string....well....first is square...then its diamond...then they say the last one is 2 triangles that form a square...and i really hope its the last one...but they said some other grps have a new shape then we also mus do in order for us to get more points...i can sense some of them is alrdy fedup..and especially mathew...he was in total silence when we were discussing...and then it rain when we were blind folded...then we finally completed it...the other grps also catch up to us...:( and i tot our grp is the first...oh well...finally...last station...

Last station we combining with the other grp...is was to pass the sponge soak in water over or under us to the other person behind...and the first time..alot of ppl cheated..so we start all over again...so finally...we still have to do a cheer...and so we jus do our normal cheer of "sat sat OI" den we went back to camp site....

Ok everything starts to get bad...everyone starts to get irritated...and for me...i felt that im pretty bad luck...depressed...coz...the girls tent almost collapse...and everything in the tent is totally soaked...and i mean everything...even the slping bags...so we clean up the place...and get ourself dirty by cleaning the place up and prepare for another game..which is the water bomb game...and first of all...jus to inform those ppl going to Pulau Ubin camp next time...bring as much water as u can...coz the water there cant be drink...can be use for bathing if u do not mind that the water is dirty brown and smells like rust...then we have to throw at each team's goal..which is jus the hula with a small black garbage bag...and the lossing team..which is the helpers team...and the other winning team is to pour the water onto everyone of them using buckets...well...they all bully the girls but lucky they all have a raincoat...well...a cheap one lar...but they manage to stay clean..so its ok...then the last game...ill never forget...

Its a guessing game between 2 grps...then they use 3 mats as a curtain to block each team from seeing each other...one person from each team have to stand in front of the mats and if both teams have the same person in the same mats position...have tO KISS~!!! AHH~!!! and i kissed marina~!! ahh~!!!! i cant believe..its the first time...(i think...) i kissed another girl in the lips~!! ahhh~!!! then nvm...at least gt the plastic wrap thing...oh well...last activity of the day is a night walk...but before that...we have to eat dinner...hai...AND I STILL CANT BATH~!! and actually..there cannot bath...unless u dun mind using dirty water....hai....


well....we have to come up with a cheer in order to get our dinner...that totally sucks..and everyone is alrdy stoning when we gather at one side to think of cheer...everyone suggested...and then i forget most of them...lol....if not we may all use it...lol...well..we managed it...and gt our dinner...but guess wat..we have to cook our own dinner...which is instant noodle...at this point...im almost totally out of strength...and abit giddy..coz the day before i didnt slp much...oh well...den its totally dark...i tot we would have a camp fire...but then we jus go back to our tent and rest...

then we have to prepare for night walk...this night walk have to walk in pairs...and we mus blind fold ourselves first and walk to the starting point then we can walk without the blind fold..and without torch light also...oh well..we started walking in blind fold...but then from wat i think...we have been walking in circles alot of time...then we finally stop and sit down..but there are dogs close by...5 huge dogs...and barking as one of the grps go for the walk...and IM THE LAST ONE~!! hai...well...last grp lar...coz have to walk all the way back to the camp then this time...im walking with Ibsen~!!....sweet looking guy..and very fair also...hehe....so we walk as we chat...then finally back at camp...then we went back our to take our stuff back to the Finally Dry Tent..then i wanted to go and wash up...but then..thinking of the water...hai...then some of the seniors told us that the toilet near the ferry port has clean water...so most of us went all the way to the toilet to clean up..but then its not a bath...so no soap...jus wet towel...hai...still not very clean..then finally...all went to slp...but i was busy packing my stuff...den finally..went to slp...but there are still other ppl playing outside...its quite noisy...but still gt ppl slping...then in the middle of the night...i wake up...then i hear someone snoring...and tot it was someone in our tent...but then it doesnt sound like...then nvm..i try not to think too much then i jus slp...

the next day...RAIN~!! y mus rain~!!! hai..our tent is flooding with water once again...in the morning at 6 am~!!! and we slp around 1am last night only~!! damn the rain~!!! i am really up to my limit when it rain everytime...and stops awhile...and rain again~!!! and then i call the day a damn day(damp day) hai...but then i think im talking too much during the camp...and very loudly also....

I hope i did not offend anyone during the camp...coz im jus trying to say wat i think...and im kind of duno wat im saying sometimes...coz of the damn day..as well as dirty experience at the camp~!!! oh well...its not my first camp...but its the first time im unable to wash up during a camp...therefore its the dirtest (wonder if there is this word) camp ever~!!!

but i enjoy it in some ways..:) thanks everyone~!! finally home and clean~!! take care~!!