Huang Yixi Vicson

Date : Sunday, July 11, 2010
Time : 6:30 pm

all i want is a decent way to celebrate my 21st.
i haven had a decent birthday celebration in years.
years.
the only one that i can remember is my 17th and that's it.

you calling me a shit child

i dont know what to say anymore.

Date : Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Time : 11:58 pm

this space here is pretty much dead.
i bet no one comes here anymore, not that much pple do come.
oh wells

life.has.been.hectic.for.me
I swear this two weeks of work that i'll be gg through could potentially be more stressful then meeting fms deadlines.
Two months in, and no, I cant say that I'm satisfied with my own performance

It has all come back to this all over again,
I just don't seem to know myself anymore.
I look at what I was back in primary, secondary school and compare it to what I am now
I don't know if its a drastic sudden change in me
or is it a slow and long process.
regardless of which, I don't seem to know myself anymore

I look through the people on my contact list, on facebook
how many do I even talk to on a regular basis
heck. I don't even talk to my best friend on a regular basis
sure, there are the handful of people that I'm glad to have known them
but sometimes, it's just....

honestly, I have no idea why I'm even blogging now.
I should be trying to sleep, after all I've been working for 9 days, no, make that 10 days + tomorrow;
I've been working for 10 days straight
urgh.

I just want my old self back.

at times, I still wished.
I still do

Date : Thursday, April 15, 2010
Time : 11:08 am

not that I do not want to go for work
great.
now I cant say that I edited it.

and wasnt the first cut done already?

Date : Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Time : 2:01 am

sometimes I just can't help but stop and think
about all the what ifs.

Date :
Time : 12:09 am

the amount of effort I put into it
and this is the kind of judgment I get
i thought it was 'this' but perhaps it turned out to be something else

Date : Friday, March 19, 2010
Time : 11:03 pm

something's missing from my life
and I don't know what it is

results not reflecting in the amount of effort I put in.
totally sucks.

Date : Thursday, February 25, 2010
Time : 3:35 am

3rd can of coke for tonight

total can count: 3 cans of pokka green tea, 3 cans of coke

MPOV#2 is nearly done, i think.
I've still got to link to the ending though.
a couple of missing photos here and there.
apart from all those, it's all nicely pieced up toether

it's approaching 4am
and I'm still gg to work on my MPOV#2
been spending the last 4 days/nights with Final Cut and After Effects
editing the trailer for FMSGT, and my MPOV#2
the fine cut for the trailergot approved and now its up online.

final meeting for FMSGT is at 1pm, which means i have to leave home by 11:30am latest.
I wonder if I can wake up.

-

hmmm.
like what I've always said.
I'm still around.

Date : Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Time : 3:00 am

is it me or is it not me that you're referring to
I have absolutely no idea

the amount of emotion that was running through me last night
I thought I didn't have to go through it again.
but how wrong was I
I thought that......I was over it
but it proved otherwise.

I really dk what to do.
yet again.