Whenever you have a baby people always ask, "so how is it with _____ (fill in the blank) kids?" What is the hardest? My answer up to this point has always been 3. 3 was hard for me. I had more children than hands, Keni and I were outnumbered, they were all pretty small, there are a lot of reasons why it was hard. Now I have 5 children and it has been hard. I feel like I am drowning sometimes. There are so many things I need to do and yet I have no time or energy to do them. 5 little people need me and while I am trying my best, I feel like it isn't good enough. I feel bad that I can't be doing more with my older kids, taking them to places and activities. I keep thinking, "maybe next year". Yet, at the same time, I feel bad when we are on the go, and my baby spends the whole day in her car seat. I know it has only been a month, things will get easier and better, but this is how I feel right now.
I have also come to the realization, that it isn't the number of kids that makes things hard. I'm sure this isn't true for everyone, but for me I think what is hardest is having a little girl toddler and a new baby. Notice I said girl toddler and not just toddler. I think 3 and 5 kids have been hardest for me because both times I had a 2 year old girl and a new baby. Somehow, having a little boy toddler and a baby wasn't nearly as hard (I've done this twice as well). My boys have been high-energy, rough and tumble, jumping on the furniture kind of 2 year olds, but my girls are CRAZY at this age. They are into everything, they follow me everywhere, they want to do everything I am doing, all the time.
Look at how beautiful they are.
You can see some of the crazy though too, right? Wish me luck.
