I havnt really found anything PERFECT before, i kinda never believed in that concept but geeeeee... my new bike has got me allll excited like nothing.
OK. i confess.... it was a big decision to make in 2 days. getting this bike is like committing my life to a lifetime of cycling. So i got my white giant prince but im gonna miss my black trek knight. its kinda hard to let ur first bike go and i like things in black. =/ so well, as i try really hard here to do a big sell out to make up for the prince's price tag, i dont think i can stop talking about the specs of it. At least, i'll burst out into a rumble of bike parts to anyone with a knowledge of road bikes. Actually, i just feel really really really happy because i've never been so fast before. THIS is what a bike should feel like rolling along and i never thought that it will lead me to the road bike category.
Its like, i've heard of people building custom bikes before with all the parts made to their specs but this giant has got everything going for me. Wheels tougher than the average road wheels, narrow handle bars, short stem for short me, my dream shimano 105 gearset, ultegra level shifters for small hands!, women specific design, shimano pedals... urm, i cant really keep my hands and eyes off it. My friends probably think that im quite deprived of a guy and im trying really hard to sound normal when im actually bursting to spend hours in the garage learning about it. Well, cosmetically its not some italian or US brand, but u've gotta respect the good parts they placed into it. phe-0-weett.
okay im going home soon to sg. i got to leave my baby behind here for a month =/ but meantime, im gonna be meetin cong up for swim training. whats a roadbike and being australia good for if i didnt attempt a short course of swim,cycle,run! because thats what u do here in brisbane. u tri!
when ur heart is back at the right place.
Things have been going so well here in brisbane. I just spent a very good week doing important nothings. Packed up bits and pieces of my life. Threw away the little things i didnt need anymore. Took down parts of my life as i stripped my room bare to box and bag them. With much needed help from the guys, i moved and garaged all my things. Im living out of a suitcase now with a big apartment that needs to be furnished in future on my mind. But this feels good. The excitement and adrenaline of the past days rushing to view houses all over st lucia has ended. I got my place at 3/36 Brisbane St. =D
I get to go home next sunday. Well it kinda breaks my heart to have to leave again when im really settled here. Bible studies and church are an awesome privilege that i get to go to and they are the things that grounds me. Pastor Ben gave an awesome sermon today (well he does every week) and the church has since installed canopies outside to provide shade since i was away. Mums that were pregnant when i left, now have little bundles in their arms. The toddlers have grown so much. And it just feels so damn good to be back to everyone.
So this is one perfect weekend in the small suburb of st lucia and i've much to give thanks for.
tonight is what i hope to feel for the rest of the year. =)
i've been blessed this year with a heart of contentment and peace, its an ever evolving cycle of friends old and new, and much as i would like to credit myself as a lone ranger, spending time with friends from brisbane here in singapore is a bag of good laughs and chuckles. I think i need bags of it to take me through my holiday in singapore... Im flying back 'home' tmr! =D cant believe i'll be back in brissy this time now. i can finally cook, clean, wash and go grocery shopping for myself. The funny things that keeps you grounded... I'll prolly be cursing and swearing when i start spotting the things that grew around the house whilst i was away but im finally gonna get a kick start on life. Suddenly, real life is over there. Its like i get to head back to the person i left behind..
Anyway, i'll sign off now happy.
Its christmas! and its been a year. Oh how long has this year stretched for me..
I do wanna hurry up and grow older.
Im going back to Brisbane in a few days. My heart's still unsettled here, though things has gotten a whole lot better. I dont think its a case of missing australia, i think its just a case of me losing my security blankets and having to settle down again. This whole cycle is gonna repeat again when im in brisbane but i'll be kept hoppingly busy there so i'll be fine.
Its kinda funny, i go to the gym so much that its the one thing im gonna miss doing. And really, i should start speaking to more people there cause i actually see the regulars there more than i see any of my friends. I've met marcus and elaine now, so gym sessions are something i really look forward to coming back to...
ok, im pretty tired, thus this whole rambling post which i dont really do... but merry christmas blog and i'll fill you in soon. when life decides to come back for me. =/
=) well... i passed my basic theory and im on my way to start driving! yipee. i know i really shouldnt be feeling this happy this soon but the thought of having one of those shiny old jeep cherokees on the carsales website as my very own leaves me grinning with joy.
Its such a huge rite of passage for me cause it will mark the start of those life-changing roadtrips that me and the good old jeep will go on. Queensland is just so so vast and my years there just cant go by without me and my weekends away from school and the city. Not to mention the fishing trips that i'll get to go on cause wallace and gang will need a 4WD to pull the trailer with the boat on it.
I know plans change, but right now, this is all i hope for. Me and my jeep =)'How many roads must a man walk down,
before you call him a man?
How many seas must a white dove fly,
before she sleeps in the sand?
And how many times must a cannon ball fly,
before they're forever banned?
The answer my friend is blowing in the wind,
the answer is blowing in the wind.
How many years can a mountain exist,
before it is washed to the sea?
How many years can some people exist,
before they're allowed to be free?
And how many times can a man turn his head,
and pretend that he just doesn't see?
The answer my friend is blowing in the wind,
the answer is blowing in the wind.
How many times must a man look up,
before he sees the sky?
And how many ears must one man have,
before he can hear people cry ?
And how many deaths will it take till we know,
that too many people have died?
The answer my friend is blowing in the wind,
the answer is blowing in the wind.'
its really annoying how unsettled i feel being back home. ohhh good lord, give me a place where my heart can stay. =/
a place where the fields are green and days spent in the wild. a place where i can sing songs of worship and be a servant of christ. a place where i can serve.
only then will it feel incredibly right. because all my life i've known that i wasnt made for city life and creature comforts.
i think i cant count on my hand the no. of people i've left out in my life the past few months. the older i get, the more people i meet and the more i wished i had a way to include and update them on whats happening in my life. I know what they mean by not catching up quite enough.. Physio has been a good and bad thing for me and for one it takes me away from many people around me due to its workload but the Youth Fellowship in church has also lead me through the difficult questions that i've faced in regards to continuing physio and i pray that through the many years i have ahead that God will send groups and people like that who will constantly be there to encourage and to listen to the worries that i have.
Its good to be standing here at this point with exams done and a year worth of knowledge to process. Im much less occupied and im praying that i'll start having the heart to want to know about God's word. My life isnt complicated, its just to do mainly with the paths that i hope to take in future and for dreams that i hope will be set into place.. Like how i've always came to physio with the fact in mind that i want to serve others who hasnt been as blessed as me and to be used as a motion to show God's love to them... Its one of the many things i hope to do and hope i will not fall away from. On the other hand, im also really caught up in wanting a life spent in the outdoors, something i've always wanted to do but found that it wasnt a practical thing to consider in singapore. now that im here, its been a constant wanting to spend all my time learning the ways of nature.. (i was contemplating switching to ecology) but yeah, i guess this debate will still stand for a huge part of my life so i'll pray for wisdom in wanting to make decisions based on what God wants me to do in his plans.
I've been very much loved here by many. Where i thought i was happy in singapore, its brisbane where i flourished and grew and grew emotionally. There are a whole load of people that probably stayed for a short part of my life but for which i have a lifetime worth of thank yous for them. Im heading home to singapore soon and there have been people i missed and there are old skeletons in the closet i hate to come back to. But going home its part of yet another lesson that i'll have to take in life, another adjustment i have to make in my heart and the expansion of its depths.
Im not really that hard to talk to... it just takes time on my part and an invite on yours! i'll see you guys soon =)
All for love's sake became poor
