Wednesday, June 13, 2012
{ 12:58 PM }
It is better to try and fail then never try and regret. I hope that in whatever case that happen i could be more optimistic to what has happened to my life.
Didn't realize that my first and my last competition i have ever joined in my life has scar me so deeply. I'm convinced that I can't achieve anything in life and this has become worse when i was never seem to be recognize for the efforts i put in. I could never understand why i was not selected when I can remember the choreography and have put in a lot of energy and effort to dance well. This has caused me to lose passion in life and now I don't ever dare to dream dreams. What are my goals in life? Nothing...
IU is a really great singer with super optimistic attitude. I have never seen a young girl such as her. She already knew that she wanted to be singer at such young age and she pursued it. She failed 20 times to audition for her singing career and she failed all of them. And guessed what she said? she said, "It's ok, I will be a singer anyway." And she is a successful singer now.
I should feel disgrace for thinking that my world ends just like that. So many things to learn from a young girl like her... Negativity will really ruin you in life and I hope that I could just stop and look at the bright side of life and find my true self again...
Friday, April 20, 2012
{ 12:10 PM }
Oo, google changed blogger, now everything seems so different. LOL
anyway, yeap love this dance lesson. It was soooo tiring that you practically can't breathe! Wished all lessons was about fun rather than finding the need to be recognise...
Exams are coming soon and stress level just went up higher. Can't sleep well at night, nothing seems to be going in my brain, and i have so many things to do. Work, DG, church commitments, family time... :(
Don't think i could get my distinctions this time, my mid-term results didn turn up so well. Unless i can get 100% right for the final tests otherwise I really cant achieve it. Haiz...so sad, thought i could work harder to show people I could do it. Apparently still not good as always. I'm still filled with anger and can't focus at all. It's just gets worse....
Thursday, April 05, 2012
{ 12:54 PM }
hmm... still don't understand....
Being recognised for my effort, being appreciated for what i've done was all i ever asked for... is it wrong to asked for it?
Monday, March 19, 2012
{ 3:04 PM }
This is probably one of my favourite dance lessons because im dancing to BIG BANG song!!!! haha! I was so so afraid that i will get depressed again after 2 weeks break from dance. Thank God there isn't any selection so i was not affected and get to have fun as well. Been practicing this choreo, hopefully i can just get better. Planning to chiong dance during my hols.
I already started planning on what to do during my holidays. Just work, dance, learn korean language and improve my english language (read more books?) But haiz... have to study first while everyone else can relax -.- Test this saturday...must jiayou no matter what...
Friday, March 02, 2012
{ 1:05 AM }
why does life seems sadder recently?
Thursday, February 23, 2012
{ 10:00 PM }
Oh dear, this makes me sadder then ever. Can't believe i cried yet again for the things i loved. Am i really that bad?
Thursday, February 16, 2012
{ 8:14 PM }
It has been quite sometime since I've last danced. Haiz...but still I'm quite sad about it. No matter how hard i've worked, how hard i've tried, i am stil not good enough. Never seem to be good enough. Felt that all the money, time and effort has ben wasted. All that returns is just saddness and disappointment. It is really so hard? Why I can't seem to get it? I don't understand....
This is the very reason, i want to give up...
